Randomness

Among the stars there are dreams that are actively living by the light of the moon , the warmth of the sun and held by the whispering breeze of infinite love!

~Kerri Elizabeth ~

Swimming with intention

Weightless and floating

Tears increasing depth

Challenging inner capacity

Peace resides among these many steps

My heart races in sync with loss

Gathering one cellular breath at a time

Slowly reality ravels itself around me

I’m here

He’s not

Where are you my son

Where have you gone

Where is heaven

Will I see you soon among the starts and moon

Do you hear my shattered heart

Do you see my tears

Do you have some too

Do you know you left the earth

Do you remember who I am

Do you ever just sit next to me

Have asked if you can return

Some days I just want to sit with you

So I do

In ways I never thought I’d have to

Walking through another season

With purpose and reason

I love you and miss you!

Mom

SUNSHINE

Arrival

Reward is the understanding we are living and not just existing and time is misunderstood.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

The heat of the sun raises every vibration

Healing decides and resistance no longer exists

Heat melts away worry and contempt is whisked away by the winds

Beauty is among nature and serenity exists where we resist entering

Enter into the freedom of nature and its calling in your soul 

Dip into the grounding of the most majestic hills and deepest forests 

Listen and lean

Feel and hear

Observe and persevere

Believe and achieve

Silence and stillness

That is where all answers are waiting

Where all emotions are dancing

Where all worries disappear and balance appears

If peace can be found on a mountain top then peace is found wherever you are

Your there , aware, repaired, renewed

On the ground in the sunrays

I found my worries so small

My belief risen 

My journey guided

My son present

My love abundant 

My life like a river through the canyon

It’ll wind, turn, roar, find calmness, disappear into corners, submerge into curves but always it’ll appear far and near 

When it’s not seen it’s not gone

When it’s not heard it has not escaped

Instead, you have arrived to appreciate its wild presence

Lean into the inner wildnerness and adventure it’s language

SUNSHINE

Language in the Hills

When stillness awakens, it will be movement that creates your story!

~Kerri Elizabeth~


The wind searches for the grass and dances shamelessly

Awakening all stillness

Ripples upon the river speak volumes
Canyons yearn for the echo of a voice
Flowers are sprouting among the spring
Blades of grass, yellow and green arise from the hills
Sunshine widens every horizon with hope, showing nature’s beauty
Nothing is missing , complete serenity exists
Fulfillment is within the winds, flowers, the grass and the brisk breeze
Language is within natures presence and existance is peaceful
Majestic hills speak volumes while the river kisses every curve
Trees with wisdom share a melody
When at the top of the hill

Perspective shows you it is purely where you stand where love blooms

Quiet Reminiscence

Within calmness is an untouched space waiting to be entered.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Selected random thoughts swirl within the chaos of your mind
The rest waits, often Untouched and Un phased
Others Return from a sprint of perseverance
Challenge is always within
Quiet reminiscent wonder rises above the fog
Splendor will be released after the resistance we experience through change
Joy will enter when the doors to sorrow have been opened completely
It won’t be the sorrow that held you back
It will be the unwillingness to open the door and walk through

Sunshine

Clarity from the Blur

It is in your reflection you’ll find your scars, it is in your heart you’ll let go of sight and feel the light!

~SUNSHINE~

Reflect on your peace

Fine tune the blurred lines

Focus on what moves you

Reveal your reflection from the core

Clarity is submissive to focus and their rythym perfection

Dance in the light and sing in the rain

Develop strength based on love

Allow resistance to be set free

Abundance and love release clarity

Reflect again on your peace

Release what persists as pain

Triumph in the peace you will gain

SUNSHINE

As I get older less rattles my core. Hold close the ones you love and trust, spend the moments of your life leaving a legacy of love and kindness, share in your knowledge and receive wisdom as a gift in the expedition of a great life.

There will be bullies and sandpaper people that without knowing sand down your edges and force you to look deeper and wider into life, love, freedom and the beautiful journey in choice. We all have a choice to make everyday great. Loss can shake you but it can not break you or steal your spirit. Thank them for the push to educate yourself further, to broaden your knowledge, become stronger and to search your most authentic self deeper, thank them for teaching you what is not love so that real love clears up all the blurred lines.

It is those sandpaper people that push you off the cliff of paralysis into the bliss of possibilities and blessings beyond limits. Do not get caught up in another’s revenge and need for control and remember peace is abundant with clarity and it is the journey there not the arrival that make us who we are.

Significance

Significance is built from the blocks of experience and the wisdom you choose to gain.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Travel your heart through every part
Colors will emerge
There will be memories that
have been submerged
Adrenaline seeps through the cracks of time
Where a rushing of reality grows like an ivy vine
Presence is precarious
Settle in the sunrise
One heartbeat at a time
Like a jet stream
Significance arrives

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Significance is built over time, it is your experience, kindness, ability to let go and the significant ability we each have to gain wisdom rather than be hardened by pain.

Pain will erupt and so will love, it is only in love that pain is easier to let go. It is within love that we can understand pain, it is only in love we can understand the moments of true letting go.

When I lost my son I never thought letting go could hurt so bad. It has changed my life forever and letting go as never truly happened, it is just a path way to where letting go will always be inevitable.

We often will attach ourselves to situations, animals and people along the way that we will be separated from, my son did not want to leave his family and he did not want to leave this earth, but it wasn’t his choice. He was a chosen one and his time here on earth was not chosen based on my time line as his mother.

Zakary needed me to let go so he could go peacefully. For a moment I let go for him. In that I am left with a lifetime of pain, but it is within love I am finding that the deepest pains bring you the biggest blessings.

The significance of deep pain gives you significant gratitude to love deeper and live with more purpose. With that there will be the hardest moments of your life, it is the choice to live deeper, to not be shallow, to not allow others to harden you and know that there will always be another that will attempt to attach their pain to you and in that it will be your responsibility to find significance in the wisdom and not the pain.

Sometimes people have money and power and sometimes they have heart and wisdom that is priceless. Is it the one that has money and a willingness to hurt others at any cost that wins or is it the one with heart and wisdom that has to let go that has the greatest blessings?

 

 

SILENCE

It is within grace we are defined and secure, it is within love healing replaces our scars.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Situations will challenge your pace

People will stretch your capacity and space

Your faith will balance you in this place

Defense will rear its playful head

These are the times silence is where you tread

Everyones actions and voice tell a story in time

You can choose to tell it with love

You can choose to tell it with any emotion but love

However when the story is told

It will reflect the heart space we hold

SUNSHINE

There are times in life I am challenged to the place I want to explode. Where my hearts traumas react, where the past is the reaction and the present is where I need to be.

When we choose the wrong friends, the wrong relationships, the wrong space, we then choose the lesson of where we are in our own heart space.

Are we protective, are we loving, are we generous, are we doing our best, are we looking for approval, is there insecurity, shame or is there grace and love within every space.

Are we defending ourselves because another has hurt us, are we wasting energy where energy can strengthen us not deplete us ? Or is the lesson really to know who you are enough to finally be silent in this space, to be unshakeable in this place. Is the lesson really to rely on the truth you and your loved ones have built and to stand firm in this place when the earthquakes of life tries to knock you down and you just kept growing even with the storms and clouds.

DON’T let the bad breathe of the world knock you out, instead stand quieter and stronger gaining your strength and ground. That is where truth is found.

LOVE, SUNSHINE

Madrone View

 

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It is within the layers all things exist and it is within the layers we learn to live among the experiences that created the strength to grow.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Under a shade tree where leaves are dancing with the peaceful melody of nature

Crackling through the small breeze I can hear them wrestling with one another in harmony

Madrone tree, you have won my heart in this moment

Feeling your presence offers protection

Standing with all that surrounds you in such beauty

Breathing life with your unaltered energy

Free to believe, to stand, to bend, to flow, to grow

Gratitude is running deep for the confidence you radiate so freely

Thank you for sharing 

For shading

Thank you for the cracks you so proudly show as warrior wounds of your life

Thank you for sharing space with the earth’s delicate growth around you

Thank you for the soul food

Thank you for speaking such volume

Thank you for the confidence to stand beyond any doubts

Thank you for the invitation into this sacred space, to be loved, to sit with the uncomfortable and linger in your zesty energy 

SUNSHINE

When I lost my son 3 years ago , I had no idea the roller coaster of emotions that would take over my body, mind and soul. I had no idea that even with so much love imbedded inside me that grief has its own path and respecting it, is vital. Healing occurs daily, but what I found out most in this 3rd year , that isn’t different than the prior years, I just didn’t figure it out until this year. That all pain lingers within grief, so when anything else hurts it opens the loss of my son again and again.

Maybe next year it’ll be different now that I figured that part out, but mostly what I want to share is that pain needs a place to feel freedom to fly, to soar and change and to grow and heal. All love remains even when pain shows up, however for someone looking in without the experience, it often is uncomfortable to see, to watch, to be patient in the process.

It is not something that is meant to be hurried or told to let go of or change. It is a personal process and every person is so different. Let it be, so it can see, so it can feel, let it be, so it move and not get stuck.

Pain is also a protector, something we hang on to in fear of letting go and being undone, or without, fear and pain dance a beautiful dance, awareness is a beautiful addition. You can dance with it or you can hold it so tight along with fear that you become unaware you’re not moving.

Move, create or find a space you feel free to feel, to think, to be all of who you are with all your emotions and feelings and then a new way will begin.

Possibility is For You

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Experience is the catch and release of the past into the present and a perception that can cleanse what we thought we knew and create possibility for you.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

 

The challenger will awake you

The inevitable will take you

The truth to our experience ravishes forgiveness, then

Overcomes our pasts and fills our presence with possibility

Memories hold us and release us with a parachute 

Constantly risking an unknown arrival

Infused into creation cleansing our perceptions

While the winds tickle the surface of your senses

Storms moves you to a sweet spot 

Showing you, reflection appears as you feel

Immerse yourself into the deepest play

Arriving without understanding

To summit upon a new experience

Unchaining the past and releasing the future

SUNSHINE

Heart Adventure

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In the most unexpected places you will feel the most unexpected language of the heart, listen, it’s telling you what it needs.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Adventure isn’t always where you are

It’s where you’ve been

It’s where you’re going

It’s deep inside every moment

Adventure arrives in color

In memories

In feelings and emotions

Adventure will call you and resisting will have no relevance

Where you are is always the start to every adventure

Listen to your heart right now

What does it tell you

No one knows your heart like you do

It is the lifeline to every adventure

It beats according to your needs

When it hurts, adventure the pain

When it’s joyful, adventure the joy

When it needs nurturing, nurture it

When it needs love, love it

When it calls for adventure

Adventure into it

Listen

It knows

SUNSHINE

Your heart has more memory than your brain, it knows every adventure  and experience and it will show up for you when you need to be reminded or heal something or adventure an emotion or feeling. You won’t always be energetic and you won’t always be relaxed, hardships will come and go and success will also. Nothing is permanent and everything is temporary, change is inevitable and if you can’t bend with change then change will bend you. Adventure into the heart and allow it to beat solid for you, to protect you, to nurture you, to love you and return that adventure by listening to what it needs, it’s your lifeline.

Heartmath.com is one of my favorite places with heart lessons and science of your heart, that has helped me to learn how better to nurture my heart and myself!