I searched for you and me

She dared herself to live with courage and found courage in living!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~

I searched for you and me

I looked high and low, in front and behind every tree

I glanced off the cliffs below

I searched long and hard, did you know

In the clouds and in the lakes

I searched rivers and mountains with no breaks

I called for you and no one replied

I cried for you inside

I drove miles and miles looking for a glimpse to pull aside

I longed for you and knew you longed for me

To find you was beyond my reach

I was looking for you 

Missing every queue

I looked for the depth of what I should be

Who someone else wanted to see

I lost sight of my own dreams

I thought I was lost where I once was found

Then one day courage stood its ground

Vulnerability spoke with a fierce sound

Wherever you go, there you will be

I’m you and me

~Kerri Elizabeth

When we experience life, life is also experiencing us, I believe. When we go farther and faster and search for ourselves instead of the experiences that creates our selves ,we miss the queues that it is ourselves we are escaping.

When we run from ourselves, we run from our faith, our beliefs, our dreams and our core foundation. When we deny our own existence is not enough because of someone else’s opinion or judgement, then we deny our ability to grow, to serve, to lead, to inspire, to be driven, to reach, to grasp courage with all your might and LIVE beyond limitations set by ourselves or others.

We become stuck within another or others lives and deny our own growth waiting for another growth. The best gift you can give yourself and another is the freedom to be loved at the exact place you are so they have room to move forward. This is courageous!

LIVE WITH COURAGE!

SUNSHINE PROJECT

His wings fly safely in the heavens and my heart flies with him!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~


Forever my son
Forever my heart
Forever remembered
Never apart
MOM AND SON
Zakary Ryan
10-13-1992/7-30-2017


Healing requires movement
It requires strength beyond what we currently understand
Healing is an action
It is an energy
It requires flow
Surrender
Tenderness
Acceptance
Solitude
It requires re-creation of self
It needs faith
Foundation
Belief
Healing requires understanding
space
forgiveness
understanding
allowance
Healing is individual
It is a force
An unknowing
Randomness
Change
Chaos
Healing requires you to BE YOU at all times
To authentically stand as you are
To gracefully arrive where you want to be
ONE moment at a time
Healing requires you to live COURAGEOUSLY
~Kerri Elizabeth~

I am ready to take this project to the next level, to make my poetry a Journal book. This has been a dream that has evolved with the experiences and loss of my son Zak.

Please watch this video and subscribe to see its evolution.
SUNSHINE Project is hiring hearts to share along the way as you wish.


SUNSHINE PROJECT

https://www.moonlighting.com/story?i=90 Also here is my link to raise enough money to create my writings into a journal. Thank you for your support in any way possible. Please subscribe to the YOUTUBE station, I know nothing about it all yet as far as getting this all out, I am following my heart and I know when we all help one another thats where change and healing occurs.

I would love to add a page of everyones blogs that I have been connecting with that would also refer others to a place of healing and creative thinking and others that understand. Zak always said, “Its time to start a movement”. He sang and wrote songs about it too.

Treasure

It is in the essence of life treasure is held and in the heart where it is felt.
Kerri-Elizabeth

Brokenness tears down walls
Freed in the midst of unjust ways
Through struggle and through doubt
Chained to pain
Drugged by societies vanity
Judgement is owned by questioned sanity
Strained by grief
Needing relief
Searching the halls for secret walls
Where is the escape route
Then brokenness lead the way
The walls perceived, were only a belief
Brokenness rumbled through every crack
The inner echoes shattered like glass
The kingdom has no walls
No halls that echo our calls
It is the freedom of creation
The divine wireless call above it all
Get back up and stand tall
The kingdom has no doors
No ceiling, no floors
It’s infinite and more
It’s every sunrise and every storm
It has no chains
Other than the ones we create in discouragement and shame
Courage and Joy
REMAIN

SUNSHINE




It has been in my deepest pains I became chained.
I found that within the walls of my own doubt, I denied myself, I built a Kingdom within that was not what Gods plan was when Grace spoke, the kingdom of God is within.
I visualized a palace, a castle per se, with brick walls and long halls, darkness at times, emptiness and isolation closed in .
I had no escape route it seemed, I didn’t even realize I had done that until one day on my morning walk with God and my dogs, I was stopped in my tracks.
With the sun shining in the morning glare everywhere, where the mist laid on my skin and the clouds remained on the horizon again.
I GOT IT!!!!!
I felt God…………. WITHIN is NOT with walls and halls, there are no bricks and mortar and bridges to cross.
Within is open like nature, full of views and the freedom to move, it is not entrapment my child with doors and corridors, it is not the perception you created to protect your fears.
It is in the wilderness of pain your joy is found, release the chains, brokenness is simply an openness to recieve.
The chains fell off and the walls fell down and the castle I built that held my grief, my anger and my doubt had no where to be stored and I ran out of rent to pay the bill for the storage unit I built.
Phillipians 1:12-26 ,Thank you Paul for your words today confirming COURAGE is without SHAME and with God I will remain!

Set It Free

Fear is centered in the very doubt you allow near, set free guilt and shame and create space for light to remain in your perfectly created frame.

Kerri-Elizabeth

It is in the heart of the matter where love resides
It’s where walls are never built to blame
Quilt squares of life are not sewed together with guilt and shame
Pray forth a solution in place of space creating distance
Spaces must be carefully filtered regularly with light, love and persistance
Where trust is left without oxygen, doubt will seep into the cracks
Its without pumping oxygen of love and light we have allowed ourselves to become unpliable
Less penetrates the surface when we are not filtering our systems  carefully to remove debris
Stretch your communications today so that tomorrow does not repeat yesterday
Make tomorrow stronger than today and today be present in everyway

SUNSHINE

Beyond Unconditional



Infinite love gazes beyond unconditional!
~Kerri Elizabeth~

 
 
Gaze into the infinite sky
There you will find your reason why
Where no beginning and no end exists
Where the stars and moon sing to your hearts playlist
Where reflection offers fascination
Where doubt has no surface or depth
Possibility doesn’t wonder, IF
It dances with confidence it is
Nature never questions your way
Your questions arrive from the reflection inside
Sunshine

The Pace Inside

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The pace inside is based on our own courage to surrender the entangled knots inside to the stillness that knows no time or restraints!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Perpetual perseverance
Demands its authority
Appearing through emotions
Tears overflow integrated and entangled
Happiness, sadness and surrender have no separation
Inevitable movement continues
“Stop please”, I ask, “just for a moment”
“Slow down, I dont want to miss a second”
The ocean responds, ” I am ”
SUNSHINE

There are times inside the chaos and the history of trauma and our pasts get so knotted up inside we can not feel the stillness, there is a lack of movement and oxygen.

When I get to this place I always realize I am holding my breathe, not trusting and worrying about things I can not control. Then a dilemma, when I decide and realize what I can change, often it’s not what I want to change.

This brings anxiety and it all starts to overflow and tears come like a dam that just broke. It is inevitable, emotions will move, our lives move, our bodies move, our lungs take in and let out air, movement. Our hearts beat, our blood moves, our world continues and the pace inside must find a way to courageously let go and flow with peace and stillness.

Stillness is not without movement. This is a term set out to teach one to stop and feel what is moving without additional purposeful movement, such as the heart and lungs, and our blood flowing.

Meditation and body position invite courage to surrender giving room for oxygen to change the chemistry of the emotion and anxiety to freedom.

This is a lifestyle not a quick fix…

Paved Direction

Direction is paved by a recipe that continues to create new and inspired editions!
-Kerri Elizabeth-

To be lost in a shadow of expectation

Beyond the raging sounds of grief and pain

To be driven in the people mover of life habits

Crashing into the silence with a broken halo

A melody starts to fuse into scars and cracks

Alive with desires

Inspired and rewired

Tears well from the depths

Eternity defines forever

Fall into love

Allow the might haves

Should haves

If only I could haves

To be rewritten into a grateful affirmative recipe

A philosophical delight

Love will pave and upgrade the recipe of your life

SUNSHINE

The recipe to our life has already been created. We try new things, we have relationships that work or don’t. We fall in love and we fall in pain, we rise in love and we rise out of pain.

One thing I have experienced is the beauty of surrender. Sometimes my feisty and fierce stance on something will get the best of me, it will teach me, throw curbs my way and ultimately it will show me my own reflection I must face.

It’s easy to blame to point a finger to let loose with frustration and to forget as you do that you are solely responsible for your own actions and words. No-one makes you say something but they can provoke a response that pokes a triggered emotional feeling that has been lodged and not set free.

This is our opportunity to surrender, to first show love, to be love and to create more love in the reaction and direction of our experience.

This does not mean we must cater or supply our love to someone without good intention. This is where Gods love is infinity provided, this is where tapping into the infinite source of love is critical, where there is turmoil there is still a flow of love that over rides and heals.

It is our responsibility and choice to be open to this love and allow our lives to be a conduit not a store room with limited capacity, to share the love energy carries.

Taste a rainbow, dance in the rain, jump up to the moon and believe that all pain has a place where love flows over, through and into the cracks and crevices of experiences.

UN-Done-NESS

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Un-done-ness provides an opportunity and continuation to grow, an inevitable ever changing and re-arranging!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Healing occurs in the un-done-ness

Nothing is done where healing and growth continues

Fire and winds

Inevitable change within

Detours arranged

Subconscious awaits

Un-done-ness

Whispering below the surface

Change me and rearrange me

Scatter emotional ashes like dandelion wishes in the wind

Transform weaknesses into strengths

Un-done-ness

Where epiphanies await

SUNSHINE

 

Un-done-ness is life, no matter what we figure out, where do we start and do we finish? It is all the foundation of a place you continue to grow. It is all you know, all you experience all that un-done-ness….. the beginning with no end… a continuation to evolve from every situation.

It is inevitable to change, we experience and learn from the changes or miss the opportunities it gave us in the deciding “I’ll never change, I am who I am and I’ll never change for anyone”.

It isn’t for anyone, its for everyone, we share this earthly place!

It is the resistance or control we hold (not to change)….. a resistance to inspiration we may not be able to reach or hold, a lack of worthiness inside us that holds us hostage from bravery and courage to be more than we are today.

Take a look at the world and what moves you. Being uncomfortable allows us to learn things we never would and always choosing where we think we most thrive limits our opportunities to grow.

Thriving doesn’t just happen where we feel bliss, it exists in the unknown or continuation (actually more so), in the un-done-ness, the stage to dance and the opportunity to be more than we are today, to add new steps with familiar steps and create more. Turn the music on and sing, dance and connect to the changes that re arrange us!

“NOT”, changing for anyone means YOU too!

 

 

 

 

Tropical Awakening

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It is within the wave that inspires both respect and fear, it is within you to inspire which you draw near.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Fascination overflows and escapes fear

Tears flow like a tropical rain

Integrated into the red sands

Salty waves awaken and exhilarate a radiance untouched

Tides crash upon surfaces like emotions escaping with force

The power of nature rumbles the earth with demand

Nothing else exists in this cove of wonder

Rumbling the jungle trees

Splashing in the salty breeze

Magnificent unexpected empowerment breathes

Set free in a tropical breeze

Sunshine

 

An unexpected opening and healing occurred in the tropical winds of Maui, a trip that taught me more than I could ever ask for and everything unexpected. Life changing events in ocean waves and on an island I have never been.

Road to Hana you are my favorite and I will be back soon, your waterfalls and your magnificent way you grow is breathtaking and your ability to transform me and open my heart and set a breeze to fly under my wings was magic. Thank you Mother Maui for holding me tight, you captured me in ways I never expected.

Thank you for humbling me and reminding me not all water is the same and Zak, thank you for arriving and speaking to me just in time, surrendering has way more power than I ever gave it credit for.

Surrender is not giving up power, it is the power in surrender that breathes courage.