Waterfalls

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Let go of anything that crowds the space where love grows!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Indescribable alignment

Where her soul flows

Her heartbeats slow

Where pace is not a race

Where the entities of space wrap her in golden light

Where turquoise hues offers a sanctuary of internal views

It’s deciding the rubble and dust is simply the introduction

Her souls invitation, trust me

Step into the rubble

Step lightly, breath slow

A few more steps

Then a waterfall

The rubbles cleared

I’m here

Believe me

I’ve never left you

I’ve always been near

Sunshine

Create a Way

 

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Let the child inside make wishes too and let the grown up in you create the way!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Delight in the joys of life

Find the child inside

In wonder you’ll see

Your innocence is still free

To be

Giggle and wiggle

Jump for joy

Make a wish

Dream it to be

Hula-hoop with me

Smiles are guaranteed

Sunshine

 

 

Quivering Refinement

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It’ll be in the calmness of the breeze, a peaceful ease, the ripples will reflect the quivering of life aligning and refining you.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

In the calmness a clear reflection occurs

A peaceful ease

Then a breeze

Ripples quivering the reflection of life

Aligning and refining

To the vibration of mothers earths choice

Scattered thoughts fall into place

Nature reminds me, stillness has a voice

To align you

To refine you

~SUNSHINE~

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Truth and Courage

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Every emotion felt has grown from an experience past, waiting to be set free at last!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

The urge to sustain in an experience past

To flutter in the moment pleading it to last

Wandering into the crevasses of anywhere

Filling the cracks one at time with life

Otherness becomes clear

Visualizations take shape and appear

Truth and courage trump fears

Like a wish in the breeze

Setting every emotion free

You’ll see

How super fantastic your world can be

SUNSHINE

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Infinite Light

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A covering of truths is a silence of scarred fears and an unwillingness to adjust and move!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

In the random coverings of our deepest truths

Under layers of emotions, doubts and un-still fears

The covering floats, moves, and allows us the process to adjust

Temporary rest requires a respectful gathering of truths

A clearing of what no longer serves you and thickens the plot of emotional chaos

Adjust your movements to free space in the gallery of your anatomy

Movement and adjustment opens truth

It is not under the cover you take off in flight

It is in the respectful process under cover

You move into the infinite possibilities of light

SUNSHINE

Tears in a Smile

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Your smile can hold thousands of tears and your heart can release you from fears!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

It’s in your petals I watch you bloom

The memories I will never lose

It’s the way you grow, facing me in every space

It’s the way your strength holds me high

It’s how you brighten my skies

It’s the whisper that raises the hairs on my skin

It’s the way you remind me to rise again

Your with me , there’s no doubt

Closing my eyes to let the tears out

Each one rolling down my cheek

Finding peace in the cracks of my smile

SUNSHINE

 

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It is closing in on a year you got your wings and it’s coming too fast, I wasn’t ready and I never would of been.

Thank you Zak ( my son) for helping turn my frown into a smile again. Thank you for showing me how to allow my smile to catch my tears and free my fears. I know you are flying fearlessly and free because you show me.

 

 

Aligned

 

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It is in the water where I am completely aligned, where the heavens are close and love is all I know!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Adventures to everywhere

Seeing somewhere

Basking in a breeze

Carrying with it the pine trees

Hearing the heartbeat of the earth

Vibrations rumble at every birth

Newness enters at every moment

New to the earth

New to the heavens

Together and never separated

Every body of water joins me to you

Sunshine

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Feel your Maximum

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Capacity can be stretched, giggles can be set on repeat, maximums are wasted when undone and love has no regrets!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Free to run like the wind
Let your heart race at top speed
Feel your maximums
Majestic strength lives
Invest in your capacity, leave nothing undone
Touch the earths surface, giggle and have fun
Explore, express, live without regret
Then rest for more and nothing less

~Sunshine~

Change or Grow…. part 2

In every space the purpose is the present, be fully in it!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Hello to you all and thank you ahead of time for reading my soul writing and I hope in someway it will inspire you.

If you are struggling with something from the present or past, a relationship, work, family, finances, loss or loneliness, anger or frustration among other emotions that fester before healed, may this shine light on at least one of these and it be healed and forgiven because it can.

Part 2 of a long journey……………

Deep in the woods of Utah, above the hot sun line where snow still laid on the ground and ice blanketed the windows in my car at night. It was early Feb. toward the end of a 40 day journey on the road through 5 states, that shifted me in ways I wasn’t prepared for but completely open for.

I knew my life was going to change the minute I decided to hit the road and leave all I knew to Mother nature’s grand healing, hugs and invitation to be open to the elements of surprise.

Zak (my son)told me to leave two months before and I resisted for reasons that were less important than healing the loss of my child. The grief was setting in deep, loss, loneliness and a depression I have never experienced (I had zero tendencies to depression and always had a smile, UNTIL….my child died).

This was an eye opener as to what a trauma of 5 constant years of watching your child suffer and not being able to find an answer and then watching him pass while holding one hand, his wife another and my youngest daughter holding his head as comfortable as she could. He literally was suffocating and struggling to breathe on his way out. Horrifying to experience.

He didn’t want to miss a moment and be so medicated and on hospice he didn’t feel life.

He felt life to the last breathe in the most painful ways, but he felt it, he didn’t resist it, he wanted life more than death and used all he was given.

This isn’t going to sound like SUNSHINE right off the bat, but please stick with me, it’s all an adventure through darkness with a light that never dies.

This is the partial story that sent me packing. Move, do something big, drastic and different or stay in the story of trauma and agony. I chose MORE! Zak was not my only struggle to get through. I was also years into a relationship that offered more lessons to me than any relationship has ever gifted me in my entire life. I won’t talk about this part for now and never in depth because it’s one side and I know, I truly and fully loved, thats all that matters here.

I can tell you this, it was one of those relationships that challenge who you are to your very core, that hold your highest highs and deepest lows.

I chose my life and who I spent it with, we don’t get to choose our consequences most often though, but we do have the opportunity to choose our actions and how we show up for our consequences.

Consequences usually include an action that is tied to or involves others lives and ideas, hence not having control over the entire picture.

We can’t change others, only ourselves, however, so often we enable others by trying to heal wounds that aren’t ours, or compare and demand fairness, whatever that is for you, and we end up enabling ourselves and missing our own lessons completely.

This part of the journey is about my own lessons and what I have been so fortunate to learn, I have no control over anything else.

I woke this particular morning knowing this day would be a different day, I had spent the entire trip writing about what I wanted in my life, how I wanted to show up for myself and what that would take for me. I honestly couldn’t make sense of much else, other than making sure I ate right and monitored my well being on the day I left, Dec. 30th.

I just knew my life was different and was about to change even more.

It had to be different and putting it into words as I write even still is difficult. I feel it all so deep, no words seem to explain it at the depth I feel it.

It was a freezing cold morning in my Buick Encore, a thought out organized cozy space inside with all I needed to travel, sleep and be comfortable wherever I was and feel safe and secure inside when I chose any off the beaten path areas. This particular space was definitely off the beaten path, in a secret off the grid magical space filled with wonder, like a fairytale. It felt surreal to me, and honestly at this point everything was surreal and not just in beautiful ways.

My kitten Angel was always with me, she went everywhere with me since she was 6 weeks old, so she loved traveling and exploring anywhere and everywhere.

The night before, Zak clearly told me as I was locked in my car, to just be calm and get my computer out. Mind you I had been off the grid and off electricity for some time now and the chances of my computer working was zero, it was cold, draining every battery I had and I hadn’t charged it in weeks. I didn’t even have a charged phone or service where I was. Zak persisted with me to open it, so I did. Sure enough when I opened it, music started playing, music I didn’t even know was on my computer and it was music I wasn’t familiar with, but it all had a purpose and a reason for me at that moment.

I listened for two solid hours and Zak told me to start writing what I was feeling.

I couldn’t write fast enough, it was flowing like lava through my fingers onto the keyboard. It was dark outside and it was cold and I was snuggled in tight with Angel in gratitude for the anxious knowing my life was about to change drastically.

I fell asleep finally, hours after the music and the writing and the constant appreciation that was pouring out of me for whatever was next.

I hit my wall of tolerance to stand in darkness any longer, I wasn’t going down depressed and I wasn’t going down as a victim to anyone, including myself.

I had control of what I wanted in my life going forward and the lighthouse was beaming non stop with light beams that ONLY pointed in the direction I was to trust without question. That included using my voice again with power and strength and trust whatever came out was exactly what was meant to.

I woke up with a new outlook, Zak had my back, he played music for 2 hours teaching me, empowering me, filling me with zest for life again, telling me it was all going to be ok, he had my back.

No matter what happened at this point I had a powerful extension of me working from another dimension. I trusted 100% Zak had it all planned and the consequences were going to be rough but they were going to be worth every second of the pain, agony, defeat, darkness, crawling and shattered torn feeling I was about to experience.

I had no idea that the consequences to my voice would be to experience the rest of the adventure alone in the mountains of Utah off the grid with no phone service suddenly, and that I would literally be in the hands of Mother Nature and God and trusting all I had manifested and opened my heart to was going to tear every wound I ever had wide open.

ZAK APPEARS IN A PHYSICAL FORM …. NEXT…. stay tuned….. this has been hard to put in writing, I originally wanted to have it to you every week, but more patience is required of myself and I am honoring it. I have to write it in parts and make sure I am grounded, in my healing, meditating and being diligent with my life going forward…..

I can tell you this much more before the next part… I am divinely placed to radically share my light to the world and I will NEVER STOP!

SUNSHINE

Undone in the Adventure

 

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We must come undone and feel to heal.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

It is in the allowing to feel

The very disintegration of turmoil

To be cremated and set free in the breeze

In the heartbeat a recorded voice speaks

A whisper and rage to escape the cage

Trauma re-arranges the perceptions

A willing adventure through the hearts chambers

Offers a solid embraced tour of compassion and love

Inside of everyone is an invitation to come un-done

To walk in the storm of emotions and scream

The need to be seen by the source of our being

Turn around and you’ll see

Being still only for a moment in the turmoil and defeat

It is only in the thought the light is absent

Turn around, you’ll find

The light was always filling you on the other side

Dance now

Let the light fill every side

Sunshine