infinite possibilities
Possibility is For You
Experience is the catch and release of the past into the present and a perception that can cleanse what we thought we knew and create possibility for you.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
The challenger will awake you
The inevitable will take you
The truth to our experience ravishes forgiveness, then
Overcomes our pasts and fills our presence with possibility
Memories hold us and release us with a parachute
Constantly risking an unknown arrival
Infused into creation cleansing our perceptions
While the winds tickle the surface of your senses
Storms moves you to a sweet spot
Showing you, reflection appears as you feel
Immerse yourself into the deepest play
Arriving without understanding
To summit upon a new experience
Unchaining the past and releasing the future
SUNSHINE
Noise
Down every narrow thought there are holes illuminating truths!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Within is not where noise begins
It is the un-grounded choices we choose to persist in
A river does not stop and wait
A waterfall continues to flow
Without wondering energy will come and go
Mountains reside without a moment to decide
Lakes reflect the boundaries of nature surrounding
Our thoughts will flow when we persist in letting go
Noise begins where we let it in
Getting stuck on a thought and we’re trapped in
Choice is our freedom to make a change
Noise inside is an aftermath we design
Protect your space where calmness is aligned
SUNSHINE
Being calm can be an absolute, a decision to live where your space is aligned with calmness inside. We are NOT created with chaos inside, it is an outside element we decide to invite in. We get stuck in it when we persist and continue on. Even after its gone and done a choice is given to move on and we design a reason to hang on.
Let go and thank your mind, for thinking exactly how it is designed. It is built to think to create ideas, to ask, to find the whys. Thank your mind when you get stuck in a thought (thank you for that thought now lets move on) let it flow through.
Don’t persist on the ungrounded thoughts that keep you stuck, let go and give room to what’s ahead.
Thank you, let go and flow through the thoughts that are driven in from the outside and get stuck within. The chaos of our mind is created when we lose track of the creation where Love is aligned.
THE VIEW
It is during the climb where you gain strength, then at the horizon you learn, you have to go down, the peaks will vary and so will you, it is in the infinitely divine strength no wavering will be build in you.
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Over and under
Around and around
Abound, rise up, decide
Reflect your light
Time doesnt wait
Wait not for time
Change occurs
You’ll endure
You’ll fall and then stand tall
Shoulders back
Make an impact
Life is a gift
It comes and then it goes
Unwrap your soul
Free your spirit
Receive…..
Grace!
SUNSHINE
Paved Direction
Direction is paved by a recipe that continues to create new and inspired editions!
-Kerri Elizabeth-
To be lost in a shadow of expectation
Beyond the raging sounds of grief and pain
To be driven in the people mover of life habits
Crashing into the silence with a broken halo
A melody starts to fuse into scars and cracks
Alive with desires
Inspired and rewired
Tears well from the depths
Eternity defines forever
Fall into love
Allow the might haves
Should haves
If only I could haves
To be rewritten into a grateful affirmative recipe
A philosophical delight
Love will pave and upgrade the recipe of your life
SUNSHINE
The recipe to our life has already been created. We try new things, we have relationships that work or don’t. We fall in love and we fall in pain, we rise in love and we rise out of pain.
One thing I have experienced is the beauty of surrender. Sometimes my feisty and fierce stance on something will get the best of me, it will teach me, throw curbs my way and ultimately it will show me my own reflection I must face.
It’s easy to blame to point a finger to let loose with frustration and to forget as you do that you are solely responsible for your own actions and words. No-one makes you say something but they can provoke a response that pokes a triggered emotional feeling that has been lodged and not set free.
This is our opportunity to surrender, to first show love, to be love and to create more love in the reaction and direction of our experience.
This does not mean we must cater or supply our love to someone without good intention. This is where Gods love is infinity provided, this is where tapping into the infinite source of love is critical, where there is turmoil there is still a flow of love that over rides and heals.
It is our responsibility and choice to be open to this love and allow our lives to be a conduit not a store room with limited capacity, to share the love energy carries.
Taste a rainbow, dance in the rain, jump up to the moon and believe that all pain has a place where love flows over, through and into the cracks and crevices of experiences.
Behind the Door
It is behind the closed door we hold more, where you must go to grow!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Behind every door
Infused within a universe
Daring to overcome
Darkness and light sword fight
Equilibrium emerges,” I exist ”
Whispering quietly , “persevere”
Shed every tear, happiness and fear
Untangle the emotional trance
Dance
Perhaps destiny is in your hands
Possibility says
Its perfectly planned
Sunshine
Feel it to heal it!
It is behind our closed doors we must go to grow. In order to heal you must open the doors to the pain and rearrange the perception to change. Letting go and allowing awareness in, behind the closed doors is where healing begins.
It is the masks worn to cover our authentic selves that we must rip off, the doors unhinged and flown off, the core must be strengthened, held up, encouraged, unashamed and untamed , risk must enter in growth.
Some will approve, some will judge, some will leave you , some will love you, some will share and some will dare you, challenge you and arrive for you, and you will do the same to and for them.
Ultimately it is in the courage to reveal and unmask and be YOU that reveals  each other…
When you are in the space of an others growth cycle, you will grow too or you will stay behind the closed doors waiting, instead of arriving together.
Where there is more than one, as training in any sport, you encourage one another to arrive at the finish line even when its at different points. As long as your all training, you all will arrive.
When you close your inner doors, when your stubborn and proud of that trait you will not arrive at the same finish line or gate. It is up to the team you choose to enter into the starting gate, to train and get to the finish line together, to encourage, to share, the enlighten to be aware, to connect, to reflect, to agree, to disagree, to hurt, to laugh, to cry to deny, to learn, to grow, to continue to move and not let go of the reasons why you want your team to win.
Thank you to my Oldest daughter Brandee today for her love and sharing her own lessons in life and for inspiring  the continuation of this lesson inside of me.
SUNSHINE
Drizzled Color
Grow forth from your roots and reach for the stars, nothing in-between can  tatter or scar the core of who you are!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Bloom into the love you were meant for
Open and color will drizzle a painting upon your heart
Petals one by one come alive in the sun
Grounded and synced with earths love
Grow and reach from the soil to the stars
Extensions of leaves will balance beliefs
Roots will hold you tight
Cheering as you take flight
The sky is within reach
Stretch to the sun 🌞
SUNSHINE
I learned this last few years , grounded does not mean where you live, who your with or why your there. To me it showed me grounded meant the willingness to connect. Connection to the core and roots of who I am, grounded means to listen to your heart, your soul, your body when it says it hurts or its cold, feels unloved or needs to be held. Connection to what you feel, the emotion that rushes through you and says,” I want attention, I need you, I want to love you and be here for you”, will you listen?
Grounded means the ability to connect to your core truths, hear your intuitions and follow them, leave doubt behind and follow the heart , the pain, the migraine, the body pains, what is it telling you?
It is there FOR YOU, it’s your own private novel of truths about how YOU as an individual work. It is your manual everyone says they wish they had. YOU DO, ITS YOU!
Tease Movement
Align with the breeze, fill your lungs and release, repeat and sway with the trees, tease movement and flow with ease.
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Sunshine through the trees
Pine needles aroma catching a ride in the breeze
Birds sing a melody syncing with the sway of the trees
Nature’s movements erupt in excitement creating sound
Water trickling with rhythm all around
Branches crackling with hints of Fall found
The grass is rigid from the suns rays
Coolness of the air filtering cells and clearing all that dwells
Blue skies above gift you wonder of the stories it tells
No limits in the sky
The universe knows every why
A release into a peaceful purity
A sigh
Nothing interfering
Sunshine
My purpose never left, I did!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
OMGOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I have written this weekly addition 10 times over the last few weeks and within a day it changes again. I don’t send it because as soon as I start writing it becomes a journal of words thrown up like confetti trying to find its place from space.
I woke up this morning and thought, OMGOSH I can’t think straight, I’m all over the board and have so much on my mind it’s like listening to 10 different languages competing for the lead roll.
So, the main eruption of craze, is my son’s one year passing coming July 30th.
I know what I’m doing in honor of him and its going to be epic. I’ll share with you after in photos and emotions that are crashing and rising like tides on a stormy sea.
The growth I have had in the last 6 months is due to the most unconditional love I have had around me. Two people (my Aunt Jeri and Uncle David aka AJ and UD) that believed I was worthy to be loved fully and complete with a space to heal and breathe. When I felt none of that, they some how held the knowing I would find my way, even when I wasn’t sure.
Trusting me to leap into my life again and find what moves me.
I could write a book on the impact these two have made on my life and the love I have learned and experienced through them. It holds a category all on its own.
I’ve taken a couple trips back to see my kids and gather my things and make arrangements to move to a new area, to start new, to leave behind my memories that haunt me and find my purpose again.
THEN THIS HAPPENED!!!!
What an interesting journey it has been, I have never learned so much in such a short time as I have in this last year. THE ONE most pivotal change for me, is one I cry my eyes out with, as I am working on finding words to express it, and hoping it will touch and change something for you too.
Losing my son is obviously the worst thing I have ever experienced but in that it is also the best thing I have ever experienced and as I say that, it holds so many emotions.
Hell no, losing him can never hold the “best thing”, do not mistake my words but listen to my heart.
He changed me!
My son did NOTHING in a small way, not one thing. When he left this earth he gave me something else equally important to this tragic experience. He guided me back to my purpose.
I thought I lost it and I have been digging deep for it. Writing, traveling, researching, talking, sharing, loving, letting go, you name it. What I found in searching my new purpose was that I was searching for something that was NEVER LOST.
I left my purpose and then cried about not having a purpose,WTF?
How did I miss this one?
When I arrived where I am now in Feb. (the short story is in a previous weekly addition) I was so incomplete, sick, tired, unbelievably lost in every way shape and form. I barely remember the details of how I got here, but it consisted of small things like, being left in the mountains of Utah followed by ultimatums that would later change my path drastically, snow storms alone hundreds of miles from home and courage beyond what I ever imagined I had.
It consisted of friends that love me and believe in me, friends that reminded me who I am, friends that leant me a hand and gave me unbelievable inspiring energy that lifted and showed me there is more.
It consisted of family and unconditional love, even when somedays they probably want to shake me out of it, but still give me a calmness of understanding to heal more than a moment in my life, but a lifetime.
I flew back to my children a couple weeks ago to stay a day and then get on the road for another adventure, to take photos and jump in lakes and do all the things I love so much.
But my life consists of rapid change and growth ALWAYS, I’ve surrendered to it, its what makes me, ME!
I ended up staying for a week and in that week I devoured time with my children, my grandchildren and friends and as I was there, life started to transform my purpose.
When my kids grew up I thought I lost my purpose, now what? Empty nest hit me like a ton of bricks, then Zak got sick, he needed me, that was purpose of course. Then he passed, all the kids are grown and everything I ever did I did because I was driven by my love for them.
After one year of Zak passing, crying, feeling ungrounded, (I’m still ungrounded somewhat, being completely honest) I’m finally feeling like I’m getting somewhere.
Something shifted this trip for me. My grandkids are growing so fast, our conversations where different, they wanted to ask questions that lead to more and more and more. I couldn’t get enough of it.
I wanted to answer every question and shared their facts with detail, they were authentically interested in the details of life, like how does a bee make honey?
Why do you live so far away?
Uncle Zak died Nina(thats me)…. ughhhh that one hit me like a ton of bricks.
I was experiencing memories left and right, where I raised my children, friends for life, stores I remember Zak parking his bike at the front door. I could hear his voice and see his face, hear his laughter, I passed our old houses where memories still run around the yard as if time stopped.
Then another jolt, a voice I know well, a history lesson of things I left behind, forgot somewhere and they were all surfacing as fast as I can say, WOW! I was back on my bike after a year, I was rowing 3000 meters daily and beat my time by almost 6 minutes within a weeks time. My kids were working out daily and asking me questions and asking me to watch their form and show them specifics.
My fire was being lit, I was needed, I was with my purpose.
IT NEVER LEFT, I DID!
Then a visit to Zak’s memorial space. A shift, another shift, I was shifting faster than a race car on a race track.
I was about to get on a plane and go home and I felt like I was leaving home at the same time I wanted to go home. Chaos took me over and when I got on the plane I wrote Zak. OH MY GOSHH I miss you more than words, or stars in the sky among the infinite missing that I know will never end, Zak I need you NOW.
WHAT NOW??????
Then it hit me!
My purpose never left, I DID!
Everything in me was fighting, I don’t want to go back, I don’t want to go back, the list of pros and cons where sparring for the championship.
Start over AGAIN?
Dear GOD I’m so tired of starting over, plant my feet and let me grow my roots again with purpose!
THATS IT, MY PURPOSE!
I was flying away from it and it hit me like a ton of bricks.
“I don’t want to live where my purpose is, WHAT the HELL Kerri Elizabeth????”
I can travel, I can go back and forth to my purpose, sure I can. I can build another purpose I told myself, their grown, shouldn’t I have another purpose by now? I mean, who’s to say they won’t move away? I don’t like the dark winters? Why do I need to live there all winter? Why am I limiting myself? Why am I stressing?
Its written in stone, my purpose is my children and grandchildren and loving others, being in love again and never giving any of that up. I love, sharing my inspired heart that has been seasoned with sugar and spice to give more to others, that is my purpose.
I was searching myself for a new purpose and my purpose was still the same, it’s what I created from being me, its the extensions of me, the lives I birthed and the love I know how to share.
Zak brought in a voice that shocked me into position and blew me wide open.
I remember in surgery when I had my intestine removed in 2005( I think), I was under for 12 hours, not what they wanted or planned for but everything went wrong and they couldn’t get me out of anesthesia. The hospital had to call in a voice of my past to shock me back to life.
It worked!
Thats what happened again!
Stop searching, what your searching for has already found you and never left you.
Look to see where you went!
SUNSHINE