Tears in a Smile

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Your smile can hold thousands of tears and your heart can release you from fears!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

It’s in your petals I watch you bloom

The memories I will never lose

It’s the way you grow, facing me in every space

It’s the way your strength holds me high

It’s how you brighten my skies

It’s the whisper that raises the hairs on my skin

It’s the way you remind me to rise again

Your with me , there’s no doubt

Closing my eyes to let the tears out

Each one rolling down my cheek

Finding peace in the cracks of my smile

SUNSHINE

 

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It is closing in on a year you got your wings and it’s coming too fast, I wasn’t ready and I never would of been.

Thank you Zak ( my son) for helping turn my frown into a smile again. Thank you for showing me how to allow my smile to catch my tears and free my fears. I know you are flying fearlessly and free because you show me.

 

 

Aligned

 

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It is in the water where I am completely aligned, where the heavens are close and love is all I know!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Adventures to everywhere

Seeing somewhere

Basking in a breeze

Carrying with it the pine trees

Hearing the heartbeat of the earth

Vibrations rumble at every birth

Newness enters at every moment

New to the earth

New to the heavens

Together and never separated

Every body of water joins me to you

Sunshine

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Everything Changes

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What you see is the foundation of the thoughts that will follow, now close your eyes after you’ve seen and feel your heart change everything.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

The depth of our thoughts often start from a scene

Until you close your eyes and feel the scene

This changes everything

Open to create changes in the scene

Allow the fleeing of thoughts to unwind

Your heart to run the motion picture inside

You are the observer and the critic of the production on your own screen

You can change anything

SUNSHINE

 

 

Feel your Maximum

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Capacity can be stretched, giggles can be set on repeat, maximums are wasted when undone and love has no regrets!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Free to run like the wind
Let your heart race at top speed
Feel your maximums
Majestic strength lives
Invest in your capacity, leave nothing undone
Touch the earths surface, giggle and have fun
Explore, express, live without regret
Then rest for more and nothing less

~Sunshine~

Part 3 “Changed Forever”

The Universe belongs to us all in abundance, the resource of all healing, understanding, unconditional love and freedom to explore more, when we are open to more, more opens to us!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Down a dirt road…..

In a space where my wounds were opened and Mother Natures land held me and the skies enveloped me and Zak(my forever 24 year old son in heaven) confirmed his presence to show me the way.

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It was an early cold morning, a long night talking with Zak, trusting he had my back. Things were different inside me this morning and I felt like Zak had my hand.

I didn’t know what I was doing or what was about to happen, but I knew it was going to change me forever.

Just as Zak told me it would.

No words were said, an uncomfortable silence lead the morning. A story that would change my life that day arose. I roared from an inner flight or fight, everything inside, that had been bottled up, unshared, unheard and undone was ready to fight for me, finally.

I erupted from a silence inside, every emotion spilled out like a waterfall. It was spilling out of every cell of me, frustration and silence were completely uncapped, there was a break down that soon gave me ground for a break through and the universe said, “Lets DO this!”

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This is where it gets sticky, where someone else is involved and blame can be placed. However when you blame, you give away your power to shift your lesson into wisdom. I surrendered into it and let it eject from my core with the force it was demanding. It was time to shift and that meant inviting source energy to swirl me in gratitude for the moment presented.

It was about gratitude not blame, it was about standing in my truth and my power and allowing the universe to fill me with the natural emotions I was honored to experience and I was trusted to assimilate it all, so I could eventually share it.

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THEN…..My entire life felt as if it stopped, for a second, panic, I embraced it, for a second anger, I embraced it, for a second, blame, I embraced it, for a second I wandered too far into someone else’s story and needed to get back to mine.

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Ultimately it’s what is inside you that creates your view. What I saw next, was a new view, and I felt Zak say, “mom I got you”.

I looked around and the silence and serenity was one with me and all that nature offered was a part of me.

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I drove my car down the long bumpy dirt road, missing the potholes that were gracefully placed. One wrong turn of my steering wheel meant I could bottom out and rip the under carriage among other things in my car.

I had no phone service where I was and although that wasn’t a big deal to me, I knew I needed someone to be on the other line as I experienced the shock waves barreling though me.

I looked up and the dust of his truck disappeared, the engine I could no longer hear, I called and he answered, what was said next, shot me into a slow motion reality and then the phone was silent.

I was frozen in time, and I will tell you this part of the lesson is so

deep for me.

Telling one side and leaving the other side only in my journal has been something I have truly had to dig deep into before deciding. How do I tell just one part without the other, it all creates the total story, of love, loss and devastation, learning, living, creating and reinventing, or does it?

We all have a journey we must travel and for me, my journey is to stay present in my own healing because that is ultimately where I have freedom to be me, all of me! Thats where I am empowered and transformed, thats where change is made.

At the end of the day, did I live my truth, fully and without hesitation? 

Did I love with all of me?

At the end of the day, do I feel good about who I am?

Life is our experiences and what we learn from them is up to us.

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I live to the fullest and I love to the fullest. I also am hurt easily, super sensitive and I never want to hurt anyone. I’m an old soul empath and a Libra to the core, hurting anyone is the most painful thing to me and I use to own it in my own worth.

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NOT ANYMORE!

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This is one of my biggest challenges I have been doing the work on for years now. Not owning others pain, walking with them, not for them. It took me years to see this and I practice it daily, living in the present moment and asking myself, am I willing to feel it fully to heal it fully? Is it mine to heal or shall I return to sender?

I made it to the end of the dirt road carefully and took a left making it about 1/4 mile, I felt my body give way, I had no air to breathe, my chest caved in and panic and shock set in. I pulled over and went down another dirt road to cry and scream and to just let go.

I finally had service on my phone here. I called my mentor who is an energetic healer.

My panic said it all, I needed immediate energy help, I spilled out the finer details and then needed to get off the phone. I felt immediately sick and needed to scream to the heavens. I hung up and fell to the ground surrendering all of me.

I wept harder than ever on my hands and knees in the dirt and screamed to the heavens, I surrender, I don’t want anymore pain please, take me, make me, do whatever, just please no more, no more. Whatever I have to do, help me create a new path, a look outlook.

I called my mentor back and just set the phone down unable to talk. THENNNNNNNNNNN.…….. in the mountains in Utah in the hills, set nestled into the trees of a path less traveled a fighter jet flew so low and right above me I could see the details,( Utah trees where I was, were short) then another, the ground rocked, my car shook, my angel kitty took cover and I burst into tears. It was Zak, and not just one but 4 or 5 I’m still not totally sure the number but my friend said to me on the phone, its Zak. Thats Zak and if I wasn’t on the other line I’m not sure even I would believe what just happen.

In Zak’s honest engine voice, he said, ” mom what I couldn’t change on earth I can intercept from heaven, because your my mom.” I chose you to be my mom and my place as your son is never done. He continued to share with me so much more. I pulled up my boot straps and explored and wrote. This journey had just begun for me, it wasn’t just a Zak healing anymore, Zak was with me, he laid out a plan and it just kept rolling. I followed and along the way a fighter jet would confirm to me I was going the right way.

You see when Zak took his last breathe, a fight jet rocked my world as I crawled outside and laid lifeless and frozen for hours before I could move again. After he crossed over I took a long drive to my favorite place on earth. He continued to show up in fighter jets among other signs that came left and right. This one has shown up at the oddest times and places but the perfect times and places for me.

I can go on and on about Zak’s presence with me, my journey and all the signs he was so close, but this moment in perfect timing, in a fully traumatized state on my knees in the mountains of Utah in the exact second I surrendered fully, right above me, close enough to see details, he showed up to confirm to me, he intercepted my path and changed my view, exactly what I asked for at exactly the same timing.

Confirmation, we have only the power we allow!

Zak lives on and there is never a day he does not show up…………………..

Zak took me back to every space on that 40 day journey that needed restoration and a new view and we healed it all.

I am free to be ME!

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Identity

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Close your eyes, let go and feel the identity that’s revealed, this source of energy is real, you’re the beauty in the source field, not the opinions and dogmas of the world.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Identity is in your energy

The essence of you

The beauty you bestow

The love you hold

The soul of you

 Your spirit

The core of more, the DNA 

The truth, the nitty gritty

Your authentic emotions and feelings

Not anothers

You’re not another’s judgements or opinions

You’re not recognition or a profile

Identity is your gift you were chosen to be and do something more than this

What is this…what is more

More is when you hear your own breathing and it’s not shallow, labored and ignored

It’s not taken for granted but explored

More is when your physical frame is relaxed and you are the door to more

More is when your heart speaks and there is no misinterpreting the message

More is when your vibration is unshakeable

More is when love flows and you are present in all that’s true for you

More is when life opens doors because you cleared space to be embraced

More is what you allow

More is a presence 

An energy flow when you decide

Your identity is nothing to hide

To know yourself, is to forget yourself

Without a thought

Identity

Is energy thats free

To be

SUNSHINE

 

Quote #3 Embrace

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Fall in place and embrace your hearts pace!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

3-day quote challenge

First, let me explain the rules:

Thank the person who nominated you.

Post a quote for 3 days and explain why it appeals to you.

Nominate 3 new bloggers each day

Thank you so much https://pascaleshealingjourney.wordpress.com/  

I’m finally getting the third one out, no one said it had to be 3 consecutive days, right?

WOW, last week went so fast, sorry for missing my weekly addition as well, I’ll do my best to get it out this week, so many amazing days and changes and so much joy and sunshine. I hope everyone is doing super fantastic. Busy summer days have arrived!

This week I pick this quote,”Fall in place and embrace your hearts pace”, for this simple reason, you have to fall into place, embrace your space, your pace and flow. When you go out of flow nothing happens except a backup of pressure and stress and nothing good is expressed.

Lean into the embracing space of your pace

Listen to your own heartbeat

Like a breeze of gentleness

Create a healthy pace of appreciation 

It takes Love to love

It takes frustration to share burdens

It takes anger to share complaints

It takes shame to share the blame

It takes guilt to remain insane

It takes LOVE TO LOVE

Love flows, it gives, it lifts, it builds

It flows, it receives, it knows

Love embraces you in a beautiful space of respected pace

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Breathe into the pace your heart is asking for. Pushing yourself in some things is wonderful, however, if you are missing the beauty, the love, the healing, the breathing, the body movement that keeps you in a flow of health and happiness then your missing YOU.

I remember all too well the many years I didn’t respect my own pace. You can’t heal in this space, you don’t grow, you just change, you start to resent everything and nothing all at the same time because you cant see or feel your own emotions, while you’re trying to keep up with everything and everyone except you. YOU are the most important part of the Y O U, embrace your pace!

3 new nominees:

http://www.jrobinwhitley.net/

https://happinessbetweentails.com/

https://forcefitness.us/

 

Step Inside Weakness

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Weakness, when tapped into, can give you your greatest strengths.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Energy in the aftermath

Layed upon the earth

Resting for another burst

Stand strong where weakness hurts

Step into it and receive the vulnerability

The direction and possibility

The surge that’s shaking you

Weakness is alive when you step inside

To face the fears one at a time

SUNSHINE

Infinity says, “I never end”

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Life has been determined by humans to start and end, but infinity doesn’t end, so stand up and begin again.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Do you know anyone up there

Do you ever just daydream

Staring in the sky

Wondering how and why

Do you ever just imagine you can fly

That clouds were magic carpet rides

Have you ever thought about the details in…Infinity

Infinite, never-ending

More than anything within pages or walls

How could life possibly end

When infinity says, “I’m here, there is no end”,

“You just fall down and stand up again”

While the spirit soars, infinitely

With no end

Infinity offers the opportunity to stand up and begin again

SUNSHINE