Kerri-Elizabeth
Scars
A path of presence is identified by the moments you feel your experience.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
A path of presence
Resides inside
Waiting to be felt
Alert and aware
Do you dare
Feel the scars you bare
By sight you may see
Scars on every leaf
Scars upon the trees
By sight you may see
Scars upon a cheek
Scars mistaking us as visually weak
Every scar will leave a story
An experience bared
Healing to share
Nature reveals the dance
Along every path
Beyond a glance
Scars reveal another chance
SUNSHINE
We have scars on the physical self that reveal the stories of our life. Then we have the scars inside that reveal the experience of moments in our life often stopping time and the ability to be present in NOW.
A scar a sign of strength that you are capable of healing.
They are there to teach you and to grow you not to trap you and to close you.
Create space where new outlooks are revealed. Getting stuck in the mundane and the ordinary leaves you walking a path unhealed where presence cant be felt or experienced, only wanted and never touched.
I searched for you and me
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
I searched for you and me
I looked high and low, in front and behind every tree
I glanced off the cliffs below
I searched long and hard, did you know
In the clouds and in the lakes
I searched rivers and mountains with no breaks
I called for you and no one replied
I cried for you inside
I drove miles and miles looking for a glimpse to pull aside
I longed for you and knew you longed for me
To find you was beyond my reach
I was looking for you
Missing every queue
I looked for the depth of what I should be
Who someone else wanted to see
I lost sight of my own dreams
I thought I was lost where I once was found
Then one day courage stood its ground
Vulnerability spoke with a fierce sound
Wherever you go, there you will be
I’m you and me
~Kerri Elizabeth
When we experience life, life is also experiencing us, I believe. When we go farther and faster and search for ourselves instead of the experiences that creates our selves ,we miss the queues that it is ourselves we are escaping.
When we run from ourselves, we run from our faith, our beliefs, our dreams and our core foundation. When we deny our own existence is not enough because of someone else’s opinion or judgement, then we deny our ability to grow, to serve, to lead, to inspire, to be driven, to reach, to grasp courage with all your might and LIVE beyond limitations set by ourselves or others.
We become stuck within another or others lives and deny our own growth waiting for another growth. The best gift you can give yourself and another is the freedom to be loved at the exact place you are so they have room to move forward. This is courageous!
LIVE WITH COURAGE!
HEART SHOT
Shoot from your heart it will always give you the best shot!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Introduced to the skies
Viewed from the lenses of my eyes
Shot with my heart
Melted in the leaves
Embraced by a breeze
Open to a peaceful ease
I was once fully there
Among the blooms
Looking for you
I saw you
In the bloom
SUNSHINE
I’m a human experiencing life, experiencing me.
For the last almost 2 years since my son got his wings I have completely forgotten who I am, how to breathe , smile and get super excited and why I ever worked out and was super healthy and what it did for my soul and my mind and my body.
I wish I could have chosen my feelings somedays, I know it has been said “you chose it all”, DO WE?
Well I sure the heck didn’t choose my son to have cancer and then jet off to heaven before I was ready and if you think I had the power to change grief, THINK AGAIN!
We choose what we can and then we choose how to change the emotion based on an experience. It doesn’t mean it changes, it just means our thoughts are trying to work it out and create a new perspective so we can survive and preferably thrive.
Trauma changes your cellular level, your hearts memories, your responses are not all immediate. You must train your body, muscles, nerves, thoughts and beliefs to do something different.
I used to believe, just believe it. If you believe it, you also must be able to follow up.
When my son left( that D word is just not in my vocabulary) I’m telling you that my life was sucked out of me like a fighter jet going through me at double the capacity of reality.
NOTHING seemed to be left… I was wiped OUT inside and OUT.
Im still wiped out in so many ways and Im not going to pretend I’m NOT.
What I am going to tell you is that being present in NOW , being present in the reality of where I am at is how I’m moving and healing. NOT IN where anyone else thinks , but where I know.
YOU CAN ONLY GROW FROM WHERE YOUR REALITY IS! QUIT trying to grow from someone else’s space or the space in which you think you’re supposed to be.
BE WHERE YOU ARE AND LOVE THE JOURNEY IT’S THE ONLY WAY… don’t waste time in the pretending you’re somewhere you’re not. BE where you are, that is the only route to where you want to go!
Just don’t forget their is a route and make sure you keep moving!
Set It Free
Fear is centered in the very doubt you allow near, set free guilt and shame and create space for light to remain in your perfectly created frame.
Kerri-Elizabeth
It is in the heart of the matter where love resides
It’s where walls are never built to blame
Quilt squares of life are not sewed together with guilt and shame
Pray forth a solution in place of space creating distance
Spaces must be carefully filtered regularly with light, love and persistance
Where trust is left without oxygen, doubt will seep into the cracks
Its without pumping oxygen of love and light we have allowed ourselves to become unpliable
Less penetrates the surface when we are not filtering our systems carefully to remove debris
Stretch your communications today so that tomorrow does not repeat yesterday
Make tomorrow stronger than today and today be present in everyway
SUNSHINE
Creation of Reflection
In the creation of reflection is where the deepest love exhists!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Photography of the heart prompts reaction
Moments can change the vision of your natural inner lens
Lines are blurred and details create unfamiliar shadows
Simplicity becomes a necessary partner
Priority naturally carries even weight without attached motive
It is the motive we assign that becomes our priority design
Motive to remain is an insanity game
Motive to change builds strength in our frame
Motive to love is where priority leans into the creation of reflection
~Sunshine~
I have been in constant change for most of my life, some of it my choice, some of it creations prompt for me to make choice.
Learning what priority means and that it can carry weight without motive and take you up or down depending on what you attach as motive has been nothing less than enlightening.
There are times it can feel like the easiest things to reach to are the hardest things that have created the most insanity. Growth is attached to the motive we put on priority. Priority has no rules without our input, it weighs which ever direction we step and leans in to create a design.
When love is the motive, it is attached to priority and creation of reflection is where our strength is refined.
Complexity and Truth Rival
Complexity will show up as a blueprint defining you and your direction, truth will show up and unravel complexity!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Truth escapes complexity
Uncovered, unmasked and unhidden
Meaningfulness demands authority
Consolidate emotions and thoughts deliberatly
Undefined by rejection, opinion or judgement
Truth and complexity will rival for mindset
Arrival and appearance are never delayed
Truth escapes complexity
When love has unconditional longevity
SUNSHINE
One of many lessons that have impacted how I see, feel and live my life. Love must have unconditional longevity to escape complexity. Where there are boundaries , conditions live, rejection and judgement reside and live inside.
Having the rules and boundaries defined and written for your family, career or marriage certificate does not exempt your life from complexity. It is the lack of courage to live in our deepest truths and thoughts, afraid we will be rejected, abandoned or fired that create so many rules we leave no room for growth.
I have heard it all, rules are meant to keep you on track, to add order, stability, protection and define a life you can follow like a dot to dot. Don’t go outside the lines or consequences and punishments will be handed out. Sure we learn from this, sure I believe we need it all to learn. However, the consequence resides already inside, the punishment goes hand in hand with the action.
It is in the awareness in the process of making your own mistakes and having an opportunity to grow naturally rather than forcefully and loved unconditionally that gives us inspiration to continue to grow.
It is not in the order or rules, boundaries and confines of ourselves or others ideas engineered in a dot to dot lifestyle that interest me.
It is in the awakening of our own consciousness and deliberate willingness to brave the elements and hear beyond it all that interests me.
The rest is a road map or a blueprint leading us all to the same place. Some of us are leaders and others followers, some manifest and some facilitate, some cry, some laugh, some process then react, some react then process, some support you and some will will transport you…..Some follow rules, some break rules, all have a purpose and all present change and all offer knowledge.
Do you believe in unconditional?
Do you think you live and love unconditional?
What are your thoughts on this?
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UN-Done-NESS
Un-done-ness provides an opportunity and continuation to grow, an inevitable ever changing and re-arranging!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Healing occurs in the un-done-ness
Nothing is done where healing and growth continues
Fire and winds
Inevitable change within
Detours arranged
Subconscious awaits
Un-done-ness
Whispering below the surface
Change me and rearrange me
Scatter emotional ashes like dandelion wishes in the wind
Transform weaknesses into strengths
Un-done-ness
Where epiphanies await
SUNSHINE
Un-done-ness is life, no matter what we figure out, where do we start and do we finish? It is all the foundation of a place you continue to grow. It is all you know, all you experience all that un-done-ness….. the beginning with no end… a continuation to evolve from every situation.
It is inevitable to change, we experience and learn from the changes or miss the opportunities it gave us in the deciding “I’ll never change, I am who I am and I’ll never change for anyone”.
It isn’t for anyone, its for everyone, we share this earthly place!
It is the resistance or control we hold (not to change)….. a resistance to inspiration we may not be able to reach or hold, a lack of worthiness inside us that holds us hostage from bravery and courage to be more than we are today.
Take a look at the world and what moves you. Being uncomfortable allows us to learn things we never would and always choosing where we think we most thrive limits our opportunities to grow.
Thriving doesn’t just happen where we feel bliss, it exists in the unknown or continuation (actually more so), in the un-done-ness, the stage to dance and the opportunity to be more than we are today, to add new steps with familiar steps and create more. Turn the music on and sing, dance and connect to the changes that re arrange us!
“NOT”, changing for anyone means YOU too!
Behind the Door
It is behind the closed door we hold more, where you must go to grow!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Behind every door
Infused within a universe
Daring to overcome
Darkness and light sword fight
Equilibrium emerges,” I exist ”
Whispering quietly , “persevere”
Shed every tear, happiness and fear
Untangle the emotional trance
Dance
Perhaps destiny is in your hands
Possibility says
Its perfectly planned
Sunshine
Feel it to heal it!
It is behind our closed doors we must go to grow. In order to heal you must open the doors to the pain and rearrange the perception to change. Letting go and allowing awareness in, behind the closed doors is where healing begins.
It is the masks worn to cover our authentic selves that we must rip off, the doors unhinged and flown off, the core must be strengthened, held up, encouraged, unashamed and untamed , risk must enter in growth.
Some will approve, some will judge, some will leave you , some will love you, some will share and some will dare you, challenge you and arrive for you, and you will do the same to and for them.
Ultimately it is in the courage to reveal and unmask and be YOU that reveals each other…
When you are in the space of an others growth cycle, you will grow too or you will stay behind the closed doors waiting, instead of arriving together.
Where there is more than one, as training in any sport, you encourage one another to arrive at the finish line even when its at different points. As long as your all training, you all will arrive.
When you close your inner doors, when your stubborn and proud of that trait you will not arrive at the same finish line or gate. It is up to the team you choose to enter into the starting gate, to train and get to the finish line together, to encourage, to share, the enlighten to be aware, to connect, to reflect, to agree, to disagree, to hurt, to laugh, to cry to deny, to learn, to grow, to continue to move and not let go of the reasons why you want your team to win.
Thank you to my Oldest daughter Brandee today for her love and sharing her own lessons in life and for inspiring the continuation of this lesson inside of me.
SUNSHINE