Brokenness tears down walls
Freed in the midst of unjust ways
Through struggle and through doubt
Chained to pain
Drugged by societies vanity
Judgement is owned by questioned sanity
Strained by grief
Searching the halls for secret walls
Where is the escape route
Then brokenness lead the way
The walls perceived, were only a belief
Brokenness rumbled through every crack
The inner echoes shattered like glass
The kingdom has no walls
No halls that echo our calls
It is the freedom of creation
The divine wireless call above it all
Get back up and stand tall
The kingdom has no doors
No ceiling, no floors
It’s infinite and more
It’s every sunrise and every storm
It has no chains
Other than the ones we create in discouragement and shame
Courage and Joy
It has been in my deepest pains I became chained.
I found that within the walls of my own doubt, I denied myself, I built a Kingdom within that was not what Gods plan was when Grace spoke, the kingdom of God is within.
I visualized a palace, a castle per se, with brick walls and long halls, darkness at times, emptiness and isolation closed in .
I had no escape route it seemed, I didn’t even realize I had done that until one day on my morning walk with God and my dogs, I was stopped in my tracks.
With the sun shining in the morning glare everywhere, where the mist laid on my skin and the clouds remained on the horizon again.
I GOT IT!!!!!
I felt God…………. WITHIN is NOT with walls and halls, there are no bricks and mortar and bridges to cross.
Within is open like nature, full of views and the freedom to move, it is not entrapment my child with doors and corridors, it is not the perception you created to protect your fears.
It is in the wilderness of pain your joy is found, release the chains, brokenness is simply an openness to recieve.
The chains fell off and the walls fell down and the castle I built that held my grief, my anger and my doubt had no where to be stored and I ran out of rent to pay the bill for the storage unit I built.
Phillipians 1:12-26 ,Thank you Paul for your words today confirming COURAGE is without SHAME and with God I will remain!
In the core you will find the rhythm of restoration!
Mingle into your core
Where life is restored
Where chaos tries to hide
And love thrives
Where confusion and alignment mingle
Where calmess and anxious tango
Where defeat speaks in the same space our hearts beat
What if you just danced with the rawness of that truth
What if trying to prove one of them didn’t exist
Meant accepting space to breathe
And both were able to converse with ease
And the shouting stopped
Enter into the unknown where wonder astounds you and curiosity continues.
Bravely enter the center
Where you’ll tiptoe into imagination and transformation
Entangled into a creative wonder
Astonishment of natures Beauty
Creating a thunder of emotions
Dancing in the streets
Be with it
Let the child inside make wishes too and let the grown up in you create the way!
Delight in the joys of life
Find the child inside
In wonder you’ll see
Your innocence is still free
Giggle and wiggle
Jump for joy
Make a wish
Dream it to be
Hula-hoop with me
Smiles are guaranteed
We must come undone and feel to heal.
It is in the allowing to feel
The very disintegration of turmoil
To be cremated and set free in the breeze
In the heartbeat a recorded voice speaks
A whisper and rage to escape the cage
Trauma re-arranges the perceptions
A willing adventure through the hearts chambers
Offers a solid embraced tour of compassion and love
Inside of everyone is an invitation to come un-done
To walk in the storm of emotions and scream
The need to be seen by the source of our being
Turn around and you’ll see
Being still only for a moment in the turmoil and defeat
It is only in the thought the light is absent
Turn around, you’ll find
The light was always filling you on the other side
Let the light fill every side
Dance with the the rhythm of your soul and the freedom to let go!
May you dance in the streets and feel the rhythm of your soul
Find lucky coins under your feet
your smile the base in every beat
May you feel freedom in the wind
And love in the rain
May rainbows give you cover in a storm
May the moon be your nightlight gratefully worn
the sun be the rise of a new day!
Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity, and change.
How do you show up for yourself daily?
Healing from anything takes times and kindness to self. I’m about to spill some serious information and things I have done this last 8 months healing from the loss of my 24-year-old son, who left this earth without any lack of suffering from Leukemia.
I never could have imagined in my wildest nightmares what losing a child could do to you. Brene Brown wrote that amazing quote and it’s perfect, it requires a full reorientation of just about every detail of life.
In reorienting, (I’m definitely still in the process), I consider myself to be farther at this stage than expected, for some very important reasons.
I stopped allowing other people to tell me, when, how, or what I was supposed to feel like and I took off on a road trip for 40 days and nights and intended on being inspired and I was that times a million.
It’s not the decision everyone would make. I felt like if I didn’t do something drastic and push myself I wasn’t going to get up at all one day.
The trip had emotional challenges that whooped my ever loving ass and Zak arrived in a fighter jet to confirm I was going to make it as if he planned it all. He knew when, how and the exact moment to show up and it wasn’t with anything less than IMPACT.
Being so vulnerable and so disoriented meant remote quiet areas were a must and just diving into Mother Earth’s beauty was critical, she reflected back to me the beauty I had forgotten in myself and opened creative spaces that had slammed shut.
The disorientation started for me the day I found out Zak had 95% cancer in his body 5 years ago and in a day all our lives were changed. Nothing was the same, NOT one thing. It was like I entered a new world and the rest was left behind.
Fast forward to the last 8 months……I knew specific nutrition to get through the trauma I experienced. Be conscious of what you’re going through and evaluate the changes you need to get the best results.
Food Matters Recipes has some amazing recipes and information that will blow your mind, don’t tiptoe – dive in and explore the beauty of transforming your food into giving your body what it deserves.
Here are some Food Matters interviews on the subjects of healthy bodies and minds, dedicate some time to health education.
Gift yourself continual stretching and functional movement, invest in yourself.
Allow your body the opportunity to do its best for you. I am dedicated to this without fail and it has given me back ten-fold, DocJenFit.thinkific.com, she offers courses like The Mobility Method, The Optimal Body, and Grateful for Mobility Challenge. I do all of these but pick one and just commit to 10 mins a day!
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
I’m sharing this because, through trauma and stressful situations, this is something you can control. I know with all my heart that if I didn’t do these things my health would be suffering greatly.
Thank your body daily for all it does for you!
You won’t escape stress, heartache and a few hard knocks, at least I don’t know anyone that has. I suppose its possible, but what a bummer to not experience pain, how would you ever appreciate joy?
Part of my life passion is to help as many people as I can into movement. Movement your face if you cant move anything else and start from the head down.
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
One of my other favorites you can do anywhere, anytime and since I have been doing this I have grown leaps and bounds, is the Tapping Solution, I watched this documentary on The Tapping Solution, and it changed everything for me.
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
Releasing the less-than-positive self-chatter first is key to your healing forward. This might surprise you. I’m NOT a law of attraction fanatic, I’m an earth loving, soul driven, nature-inspired lover, of life and if anyone can make a rainbow from tears it’s me. However, in order to attract the positive, you must heal the negative, acknowledge it, face the truth and release it to make room for all you want to attract.
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
Are you walking around covering your own self-shitty talk with a mask of denial? Face it as your truth and then love yourself unconditionally forward. It’s acceptance and freedom to be empowered right where you are so you can attract what you want and have room for it to arrive.
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
Don’t let anyone tell you, “just be positive” when you don’t feel that way, we already know that part, its common sense. Having it in your face is simply the same as putting your hand up in front of someone’s face and telling them you’re not interested in their truth or authenticity, but if they put on a mask to please you, they will be fine.
Who is this fine for?
Be you in all your beautiful forms, sad, mad, angry, blissful, joyful, blessed, excited, fearful, tenacious, tender, grateful, generous and so much more. These are emotions, have them, embrace them, nurture their evolution of changing, rearranging and creating new spaces for growth.
Here’s another amazing enlighting experience for free www.jovianarchive.com/Human_Design/Why This gave me a wonderful foundation and confirmation of my strengths and weaknesses I was born with and how to work better with my personality type. I’m a manifester, one of 9% of people, this is just a small part of the genetic and energetic make up you will get to know in your chart, to help you create the best success for yourself and it’s fun and interesting.
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
It must all flow to grow!
Life has been determined by humans to start and end, but infinity doesn’t end, so stand up and begin again.
Do you know anyone up there
Do you ever just daydream
Staring in the sky
Wondering how and why
Do you ever just imagine you can fly
That clouds were magic carpet rides
Have you ever thought about the details in…Infinity
More than anything within pages or walls
How could life possibly end
When infinity says, “I’m here, there is no end”,
“You just fall down and stand up again”
While the spirit soars, infinitely
With no end
Infinity offers the opportunity to stand up and begin again
Through the eye of my lens, my heart sees and dances with my soul!
This week I’ve decided to share some highlights of my photography journey…a passion that never received full wings and is well on its way now. Between finishing my studying, getting out to practice shooting and staying diligent with my healing and gaining new strength daily, I have to say, being behind a lens and viewing the world in even more detail than I ever did before is a heart opening experience I am over the moon excited about.
I have viewed everything mostly at a soul level, hence my writing. I escape my minds clutter, reach into my heart and dance with my soul and it flows into my writing.
Now I have an amazing dance shifting my entire world and its pure magic, my photography and writing have married themselves in internal LOVE!
This is my Angel, she was a prescription from the Dr. after I lost my 24-year-old son, July 30.2017. She loves everything outdoors and is my sidekick, literally an extension of my soul and a gift I’ll be forever grateful for. She teaches me so much about what it is to be free to be.
Healing all happens when you realize you exist to live, not just live to exist. I am so much more in love with life than I ever have been by diving into my photography and going back to school to master it.
Eating well all the time is a beautiful gift, eating well some of the time is your choice, eating well today is an opportunity, not a rule. Try it when you choose, stressing about it won’t help heal. Healing includes creative color, joyful appreciation, and gratitude for the foods you eat and then is when eating well heals.
This is one of 5 horses that have changed my life. When I arrived in this healing space, my heart was pulled to this horse, then to another, then all of them to me and then me to all of them. I was petrified at first, I knew nothing about horses except they’re big and have amazing teeth. The journey through the relationship with these horses is a story in itself. One I continue to learn from daily.
This goat couldn’t get close enough, he’s so adorable. I’m in love with their personalities and the sweetness they behold and the enduring kisses that never stop.
The personality, tenacity, stance of authority and love all radiate at once.
Just a reminder going into the weekend and next week, living consists of whatever you choose it to be, are you living, really living and is your heart and soul dancing?
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Nature projects different views for you to adventure through. Those views were not set in place to be a judgment of person or place but an adventure through your most inner sacred space.
Stretch your limbs
Below the suns rays
Watch your shadow appear
A distortion of reality
But is it you
Magnified in this view
Then the reflection in a mirror
Which one are you
The reflection on the water
The shadow on earth
Or the soul observing
How you view