Scars

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A path of presence is identified by the moments you feel your experience.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

 

A  path of presence

Resides inside

Waiting to be felt

Alert and aware 

Do you dare

Feel the scars you bare

By sight you may see 

 Scars on every leaf

Scars upon the trees

By sight you may see 

Scars upon a cheek

Scars mistaking us as visually weak

Every scar will leave a story

An experience bared

Healing to share

Nature reveals the dance

Along every path

Beyond a glance

Scars reveal another chance

SUNSHINE

 

We have scars on the physical self that reveal the stories of our life. Then we have the scars inside that reveal the experience of moments in our life often stopping time and the ability to be present in NOW.

A scar a sign of strength that you are capable of healing.

They are there to teach you and to grow you not to trap you and to close you.

Create  space where new outlooks are revealed. Getting stuck in the mundane and the ordinary leaves you walking a path unhealed where presence cant be felt or experienced, only wanted and never touched.

 

 

 

 

 

Dare to BE and then Dance

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When your children are free to be, to dance and see, to be creative in their energy space, then we too are free and we all resonate on a higher vibration plain. 

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Love and grace weave into your energy space

Whispering currents of encouragement tantalizing your soul

Creation already knows

Reflections become whole

Blue skies don’t fall

Your part of it all

A masterpeice is not created by day

Perseverance tiptoes all the way

Continual loving persuasion of self

SUNSHINE

 

 

Inspired by Expression

 

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Be you, release your expressions, this is your chance to live, what you see is temporary, choose creatively instead of reactively.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

She feels fire burning in her belly

Her heart space tattooed with the name of her son

He is physically gone but an energetic powerhouse
Her deepest emotions rippling through her veins
Pounding the inner doors relentlessly
Release me
Her lips quiver with anticipation for adventure

Release me

Her facial lines roadmaps of experiences with continued space to roam

She falls and gets back up

Her heart quietly and slowly peaking through the fence posts of life
Release me

Words line up at the starting line
Embracing the inner whisper first
Release me
It’s expression
Release me
It’s creativity
Release me
Art swirling through her mind
A song singing
Through her harps strings
Release me

SUNSHINE

 

Life is our choice, we can live, or we can hide, we can give and receive, we can awaken or we can close up. Our outside is temporary, it is the adventure and the canvas in which we have the space to create. I believe with adventure and experience we give our souls more light and space to shine. With that newness comes intrigue and curiosity, excitement and inspiration.

The answers we all look for are already inside of us!

Open doors to create and explore more, love with all you are, love is the direct neutralizer. When you live from your heart space and creatively respond instead of react we allow ourselves true ownership of our actions and blame is neutralized and no longer exists.

Ultimately blame is our unwillingness to be present in our own actions, leaving no room to succeed and giving our power away to another. When we take ownership we are now acting from our own truth and loving ourselves and neutralizing any other energy interfering in that act.

Interference comes from a leak in our own confidence and with that we can’t properly discern the energy we allow in until we are faced with an opportunity to be in gratitude we recognized it and grow.

I am inspired to continue to remember I am the change that needs to be made and I am the change that allows others the freedom and space to also be inspired by their own change, inspiring others in this beautiful ripple effect of creatively being.

Thank you to all the beautiful people that inspire me everyday!

 

 

 

Indents in the sand

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To fully experience life as a journey you must first embrace change.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Adventure through the memories of your heart
Reflections of paths crossing
Pushing and pulling
Have you arrived
Or has the journey just begun
Indents in the sand
Ruffled feathers before you land
It’s in the flight your soul soars
It’s in the landing
You look up for more

Sunshine

Waterfalls

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Let go of anything that crowds the space where love grows!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Indescribable alignment

Where her soul flows

Her heartbeats slow

Where pace is not a race

Where the entities of space wrap her in golden light

Where turquoise hues offers a sanctuary of internal views

It’s deciding the rubble and dust is simply the introduction

Her souls invitation, trust me

Step into the rubble

Step lightly, breath slow

A few more steps

Then a waterfall

The rubbles cleared

I’m here

Believe me

I’ve never left you

I’ve always been near

Sunshine

Truth and Courage

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Every emotion felt has grown from an experience past, waiting to be set free at last!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

The urge to sustain in an experience past

To flutter in the moment pleading it to last

Wandering into the crevasses of anywhere

Filling the cracks one at time with life

Otherness becomes clear

Visualizations take shape and appear

Truth and courage trump fears

Like a wish in the breeze

Setting every emotion free

You’ll see

How super fantastic your world can be

SUNSHINE

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Aligned

 

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It is in the water where I am completely aligned, where the heavens are close and love is all I know!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Adventures to everywhere

Seeing somewhere

Basking in a breeze

Carrying with it the pine trees

Hearing the heartbeat of the earth

Vibrations rumble at every birth

Newness enters at every moment

New to the earth

New to the heavens

Together and never separated

Every body of water joins me to you

Sunshine

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Change or Grow…. part 2

In every space the purpose is the present, be fully in it!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Hello to you all and thank you ahead of time for reading my soul writing and I hope in someway it will inspire you.

If you are struggling with something from the present or past, a relationship, work, family, finances, loss or loneliness, anger or frustration among other emotions that fester before healed, may this shine light on at least one of these and it be healed and forgiven because it can.

Part 2 of a long journey……………

Deep in the woods of Utah, above the hot sun line where snow still laid on the ground and ice blanketed the windows in my car at night. It was early Feb. toward the end of a 40 day journey on the road through 5 states, that shifted me in ways I wasn’t prepared for but completely open for.

I knew my life was going to change the minute I decided to hit the road and leave all I knew to Mother nature’s grand healing, hugs and invitation to be open to the elements of surprise.

Zak (my son)told me to leave two months before and I resisted for reasons that were less important than healing the loss of my child. The grief was setting in deep, loss, loneliness and a depression I have never experienced (I had zero tendencies to depression and always had a smile, UNTIL….my child died).

This was an eye opener as to what a trauma of 5 constant years of watching your child suffer and not being able to find an answer and then watching him pass while holding one hand, his wife another and my youngest daughter holding his head as comfortable as she could. He literally was suffocating and struggling to breathe on his way out. Horrifying to experience.

He didn’t want to miss a moment and be so medicated and on hospice he didn’t feel life.

He felt life to the last breathe in the most painful ways, but he felt it, he didn’t resist it, he wanted life more than death and used all he was given.

This isn’t going to sound like SUNSHINE right off the bat, but please stick with me, it’s all an adventure through darkness with a light that never dies.

This is the partial story that sent me packing. Move, do something big, drastic and different or stay in the story of trauma and agony. I chose MORE! Zak was not my only struggle to get through. I was also years into a relationship that offered more lessons to me than any relationship has ever gifted me in my entire life. I won’t talk about this part for now and never in depth because it’s one side and I know, I truly and fully loved, thats all that matters here.

I can tell you this, it was one of those relationships that challenge who you are to your very core, that hold your highest highs and deepest lows.

I chose my life and who I spent it with, we don’t get to choose our consequences most often though, but we do have the opportunity to choose our actions and how we show up for our consequences.

Consequences usually include an action that is tied to or involves others lives and ideas, hence not having control over the entire picture.

We can’t change others, only ourselves, however, so often we enable others by trying to heal wounds that aren’t ours, or compare and demand fairness, whatever that is for you, and we end up enabling ourselves and missing our own lessons completely.

This part of the journey is about my own lessons and what I have been so fortunate to learn, I have no control over anything else.

I woke this particular morning knowing this day would be a different day, I had spent the entire trip writing about what I wanted in my life, how I wanted to show up for myself and what that would take for me. I honestly couldn’t make sense of much else, other than making sure I ate right and monitored my well being on the day I left, Dec. 30th.

I just knew my life was different and was about to change even more.

It had to be different and putting it into words as I write even still is difficult. I feel it all so deep, no words seem to explain it at the depth I feel it.

It was a freezing cold morning in my Buick Encore, a thought out organized cozy space inside with all I needed to travel, sleep and be comfortable wherever I was and feel safe and secure inside when I chose any off the beaten path areas. This particular space was definitely off the beaten path, in a secret off the grid magical space filled with wonder, like a fairytale. It felt surreal to me, and honestly at this point everything was surreal and not just in beautiful ways.

My kitten Angel was always with me, she went everywhere with me since she was 6 weeks old, so she loved traveling and exploring anywhere and everywhere.

The night before, Zak clearly told me as I was locked in my car, to just be calm and get my computer out. Mind you I had been off the grid and off electricity for some time now and the chances of my computer working was zero, it was cold, draining every battery I had and I hadn’t charged it in weeks. I didn’t even have a charged phone or service where I was. Zak persisted with me to open it, so I did. Sure enough when I opened it, music started playing, music I didn’t even know was on my computer and it was music I wasn’t familiar with, but it all had a purpose and a reason for me at that moment.

I listened for two solid hours and Zak told me to start writing what I was feeling.

I couldn’t write fast enough, it was flowing like lava through my fingers onto the keyboard. It was dark outside and it was cold and I was snuggled in tight with Angel in gratitude for the anxious knowing my life was about to change drastically.

I fell asleep finally, hours after the music and the writing and the constant appreciation that was pouring out of me for whatever was next.

I hit my wall of tolerance to stand in darkness any longer, I wasn’t going down depressed and I wasn’t going down as a victim to anyone, including myself.

I had control of what I wanted in my life going forward and the lighthouse was beaming non stop with light beams that ONLY pointed in the direction I was to trust without question. That included using my voice again with power and strength and trust whatever came out was exactly what was meant to.

I woke up with a new outlook, Zak had my back, he played music for 2 hours teaching me, empowering me, filling me with zest for life again, telling me it was all going to be ok, he had my back.

No matter what happened at this point I had a powerful extension of me working from another dimension. I trusted 100% Zak had it all planned and the consequences were going to be rough but they were going to be worth every second of the pain, agony, defeat, darkness, crawling and shattered torn feeling I was about to experience.

I had no idea that the consequences to my voice would be to experience the rest of the adventure alone in the mountains of Utah off the grid with no phone service suddenly, and that I would literally be in the hands of Mother Nature and God and trusting all I had manifested and opened my heart to was going to tear every wound I ever had wide open.

ZAK APPEARS IN A PHYSICAL FORM …. NEXT…. stay tuned….. this has been hard to put in writing, I originally wanted to have it to you every week, but more patience is required of myself and I am honoring it. I have to write it in parts and make sure I am grounded, in my healing, meditating and being diligent with my life going forward…..

I can tell you this much more before the next part… I am divinely placed to radically share my light to the world and I will NEVER STOP!

SUNSHINE