Brokenness tears down walls
Freed in the midst of unjust ways
Through struggle and through doubt
Chained to pain
Drugged by societies vanity
Judgement is owned by questioned sanity
Strained by grief
Searching the halls for secret walls
Where is the escape route
Then brokenness lead the way
The walls perceived, were only a belief
Brokenness rumbled through every crack
The inner echoes shattered like glass
The kingdom has no walls
No halls that echo our calls
It is the freedom of creation
The divine wireless call above it all
Get back up and stand tall
The kingdom has no doors
No ceiling, no floors
It’s infinite and more
It’s every sunrise and every storm
It has no chains
Other than the ones we create in discouragement and shame
Courage and Joy
It has been in my deepest pains I became chained.
I found that within the walls of my own doubt, I denied myself, I built a Kingdom within that was not what Gods plan was when Grace spoke, the kingdom of God is within.
I visualized a palace, a castle per se, with brick walls and long halls, darkness at times, emptiness and isolation closed in .
I had no escape route it seemed, I didn’t even realize I had done that until one day on my morning walk with God and my dogs, I was stopped in my tracks.
With the sun shining in the morning glare everywhere, where the mist laid on my skin and the clouds remained on the horizon again.
I GOT IT!!!!!
I felt God…………. WITHIN is NOT with walls and halls, there are no bricks and mortar and bridges to cross.
Within is open like nature, full of views and the freedom to move, it is not entrapment my child with doors and corridors, it is not the perception you created to protect your fears.
It is in the wilderness of pain your joy is found, release the chains, brokenness is simply an openness to recieve.
The chains fell off and the walls fell down and the castle I built that held my grief, my anger and my doubt had no where to be stored and I ran out of rent to pay the bill for the storage unit I built.
Phillipians 1:12-26 ,Thank you Paul for your words today confirming COURAGE is without SHAME and with God I will remain!
Emotions are not road blocks, they are the hardware of your internal compass guiding you to success, malfunctioning happens in the chaos before entering presence.
Your my wind
The sun I see
Waterfalls in front of me
Your the rumble of the earths call
Your in nature centering it all
Your the waves in the ocean
Your my heart beating
Your the footprints I see before me
I saw you fly by
Leaving me a jet-stream in the sky
Your in the crickets singing lullabies
I hear you whisper, “Momma don’t cry
Look at me, wild and free
Success momma, is a place, you’ll see
Your set free to be
No separation from the land and sea
I’m with you MY MOMMA eternally”
As some of you know and others will hear along the way, my son passed on to his new place on July 30, 2017. There is never a day I don’t talk about him and never a day I won’t. Some people don’t know what to say, others don’t know how to hear the joy in the tears when I share. So silence has been my healing space, a place where Zak meets me face to face.
Silence gives room for emotions without the interference of chaos.
The capacity to understand is beyond me, I simply ride the wave and learn as I go. Emotions take over most of the time. I used to think I had to learn to control the emotions. In my meditation and silence I agonized in thought I had to accept(which I haven’t and as of now, it not on my list of somehow) that my son is gone. Because to me what works, is believing in the signs he’s here, it’s different that’s clear. However that’s my reality and the way the movie of emotions play in the silence inspired by every wave.
Accepting another way wasn’t working for me, instead I gave in, surrendering to the silence within, visualizing emotion in space, allowing it to be, as if it was a movie in front of me telling me a story, it showed me something profound.
Its your movie, its your story, let it play, let it make sounds, let it guide your way. Surrender to the silence where the movie can play without interference of the chaos in the day. This is where the chaos stops playing and emotions can be set free to find their way successfully.
It is up to you to allow emotions to have wings, they need room to fly, to experience and thrive, they can’t grow or go if they are trapped in the chaos of our minds.
Silence is stillness within, it doesn’t have to be without movement or a physical paralysis, it is within, a decision to let go of the wings you tie down on each emotion found. Let them fly in the sky, let them be free to be, to find there flight path succefully.
When your children are free to be, to dance and see, to be creative in their energy space, then we too are free and we all resonate on a higher vibration plain.
Love and grace weave into your energy space
Whispering currents of encouragement tantalizing your soul
Creation already knows
Reflections become whole
Blue skies don’t fall
Your part of it all
A masterpeice is not created by day
Perseverance tiptoes all the way
Continual loving persuasion of self
Be you, release your expressions, this is your chance to live, what you see is temporary, choose creatively instead of reactively.
She feels fire burning in her belly
Her heart space tattooed with the name of her son
He is physically gone but an energetic powerhouse
Her deepest emotions rippling through her veins
Pounding the inner doors relentlessly
Her lips quiver with anticipation for adventure
Her facial lines roadmaps of experiences with continued space to roam
She falls and gets back up
Her heart quietly and slowly peaking through the fence posts of life
Words line up at the starting line
Embracing the inner whisper first
Art swirling through her mind
A song singing
Through her harps strings
Life is our choice, we can live, or we can hide, we can give and receive, we can awaken or we can close up. Our outside is temporary, it is the adventure and the canvas in which we have the space to create. I believe with adventure and experience we give our souls more light and space to shine. With that newness comes intrigue and curiosity, excitement and inspiration.
The answers we all look for are already inside of us!
Open doors to create and explore more, love with all you are, love is the direct neutralizer. When you live from your heart space and creatively respond instead of react we allow ourselves true ownership of our actions and blame is neutralized and no longer exists.
Ultimately blame is our unwillingness to be present in our own actions, leaving no room to succeed and giving our power away to another. When we take ownership we are now acting from our own truth and loving ourselves and neutralizing any other energy interfering in that act.
Interference comes from a leak in our own confidence and with that we can’t properly discern the energy we allow in until we are faced with an opportunity to be in gratitude we recognized it and grow.
I am inspired to continue to remember I am the change that needs to be made and I am the change that allows others the freedom and space to also be inspired by their own change, inspiring others in this beautiful ripple effect of creatively being.
Thank you to all the beautiful people that inspire me everyday!