It is within the layers all things exist and it is within the layers we learn to live among the experiences that created the strength to grow.
Under a shade tree where leaves are dancing with the peaceful melody of nature
Crackling through the small breeze I can hear them wrestling with one another in harmony
Madrone tree, you have won my heart in this moment
Feeling your presence offers protection
Standing with all that surrounds you in such beauty
Breathing life with your unaltered energy
Free to believe, to stand, to bend, to flow, to grow
Gratitude is running deep for the confidence you radiate so freely
Thank you for sharing
Thank you for the cracks you so proudly show as warrior wounds of your life
Thank you for sharing space with the earth’s delicate growth around you
Thank you for the soul food
Thank you for speaking such volume
Thank you for the confidence to stand beyond any doubts
Thank you for the invitation into this sacred space, to be loved, to sit with the uncomfortable and linger in your zesty energy
When I lost my son 3 years ago , I had no idea the roller coaster of emotions that would take over my body, mind and soul. I had no idea that even with so much love imbedded inside me that grief has its own path and respecting it, is vital. Healing occurs daily, but what I found out most in this 3rd year , that isn’t different than the prior years, I just didn’t figure it out until this year. That all pain lingers within grief, so when anything else hurts it opens the loss of my son again and again.
Maybe next year it’ll be different now that I figured that part out, but mostly what I want to share is that pain needs a place to feel freedom to fly, to soar and change and to grow and heal. All love remains even when pain shows up, however for someone looking in without the experience, it often is uncomfortable to see, to watch, to be patient in the process.
It is not something that is meant to be hurried or told to let go of or change. It is a personal process and every person is so different. Let it be, so it can see, so it can feel, let it be, so it move and not get stuck.
Pain is also a protector, something we hang on to in fear of letting go and being undone, or without, fear and pain dance a beautiful dance, awareness is a beautiful addition. You can dance with it or you can hold it so tight along with fear that you become unaware you’re not moving.
Move, create or find a space you feel free to feel, to think, to be all of who you are with all your emotions and feelings and then a new way will begin.
Trust is developed from how you inquire from within!
Dare to live with a curious inquiring from within
Believe in something you’ve never known
Trust in your heart with out questioning the mind
How many petals do you need to land on “love me” to believe it
Renew your spirit and polish your curves
Surround yourself in natures lights
And rest into the darkness of the glowing night
Trust is not broken from another action, unless we define it that way. Once someone wrongs us, we stay within that action and own it and live it, losing trust and limiting our love for life and our ability to connect with others.
If we hold that wrong, we then continue to give power to the wrong and the person we feel that did it. In the process of healing I found there also has to be a letting go of distrust and caution to a point you are limiting your own life.
Live with freedom and send back any bad energy to the person dealing it. The minute you decide to give yourself permission to interact within a negative space you take that energy on as your own.
Sender wins and the loss of trust is now building from within.
If it’s being delivered negatively it’s not yours, breathe and physically move your arms in a way that you can mentally, emotionally and physically remove and send it back to sender.
DONE, move out of their energy space, build trust within yourself, this is where defense is dropped. When we respond in defense we have already lost, defense is guilt, a place within we lost trust.
Believe in something you never have……..an example might be believing that 10 deep breathes before you respond will save you a rollercoaster of reactions.
Letting go of an expected outcome will give you freedom to embrace a path of less resistance.
There will be a roar internally unveiling
A submergence of love never failing
A curiosity untangled gracefully into an adventure
Tiptoe through the tulips of existence
Dance as if you are one with a breeze
Unravel thyself out of assumption
Focus where depth meets infinite grace
Where eternal connection locks in your glance
Where doubt evaporates and belief is a never ending trance
There is always a war of two roars
A decision behind every door
A roar of immortal existence graces an unpaved path
Hunger is intrigued by a growing soul
Awareness awaits stillness
It is there arrival is met
I am hungry to grow, my soul is receiving at rapid speeds sometimes. I hear more and can’t write fast enough to get it all down.
Recently I have been practicing often the shaking off the garbage that the world leaves in my path and opening myself more to be a vessel of energy and Gods healing to move through me to others.
I learned a couple years ago when I pray not to use my own energy. As humans , our flesh wants to be in charge, to be the healer, the fixer, the one that will make the difference, so we invest all our energy and deplete our stores not knowing that grace is infinite, love is never ending, energy is abundant , it has no gauge telling you it is empty or full, that gauge we perceive is our flesh speaking.
When we offer ourselves as vessels to hold less shit (yes I swear sometimes) in and allow more space for grace and love to flow through, we then tire less.
Letting go of an outcome is where grace steps in, it is where we allow our will to arrive in awareness, that we are not the decision makers, we are not invincible.
We are radically transformed and given more than we want and everything we need when resistance and control are let go.
Faith is built within the gap (the space only you and God exist) where knowledge precedes with grace and purpose is embraced and love gives grace and rejuvenation gives energy space.