Unconditional

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May your heart and soul be fierce with unconditional love for life, allow forgiveness to bridge the gaps of fear and love be drawn near!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Love in the eyes of unconditional
Be kissed and loved without hesitation
Experience the restoration of immediate peace
Leaning on one another for comfort
Reliance un-masked but so organically selected
No worries in the eyes of unconditional
Just, purely received unwavering love

SUNSHINE

Happy Mother’s Day

My life, my purpose, my heart, my reflections, my lessons, my joys, my trials, my truths and the love that never ends!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Being a mom is why I was given this life, the amazing trust put into my hands to raise my 4 children was the ultimate gift.  Nothing else can ever compare to the heart space, love and feeling of giving life to 4 children.

How its possible, the miracle of birth, the heart and soul you put into it and the growth of who you and they become because of the experience. It is the most beautiful experience in the world to me!

Happy Mother’s Day to all the Moms out there and all the dads that also are moms to children without moms present. You all get extra love today as well!

Being a mom means you’ll forget who you once where

To experience the fastest paced life, that one day is but a blurr

To love so hard and give your all 

And wake up one day and wonder, was that all?

The wildest ride of your life

The ups and downs no ride can suffice

Adrenaline rushes that last through life

Stretch marks from head to toe

Wrinkles and grey hair that continue to grow

One day all the laughter and tippie toes 

Are simply what you remember as they go

Yes its a blessing they grow and go

But no-one told me how a mom would ever prepare to know

The strength and endurance it would take to let them go

Then time erased because grandkids exist

and all the letting go is now in the healing kiss of 

grandchildren BLISS

SUNSHINE

 

 

 

 

Change or Grow

You are the extension of energy that remains and never dies, it is never lost and never achieved, you are the gift everyday I receive!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

This will be a journey to follow the next couple weekly additions…………… Sit back, grab a cup of tea and be present with me……………………..

How is everyone doing? Summer is officially here where I live and I love it. Sunshine is where I thrive most. It charges me up in every way, it’s when I am the most inspired and the most energized.

I love to adventure not just the world but my heart, what is it telling me, what does it need to grow more?

How am I serving it in the best way possible?

To adventure your heart is to adventure life, all you know is what’s there. Take another step past there and bare your curiosity and tenacity to share.

Have you ever thought about where there is for you and if you’re interested in more?

I have been stretching myself in many areas I was resistant about before, listening to what my heart says, when I am in a busy place, what does it tell me when I feel panicked, unsafe, unclear, determined, joyful and all emotions and feelings that run through me?

How is my heart interpreting that emotion or feeling? I ask my mind to support my hearts calling. To help guide me in the most efficient and healthy way possible.

I used to completely resist things that life eventually forced me into. In a grateful way I know my heart over ruled my head and gifted me the opportunity to grow beyond what I know.

Watching and experiencing someone you love suffer, either grows you or overcomes you.

This was not the life I had explored and was optimally prepared for, why would I ever prepare for tragedy to traumatize my life? Life can instantly change, and what I learned is this, it’s you ultimately that decides if you will breathe, stress, give up, give in or let go or allow the emotional holds.

An emotional hold comes from a memory, a scar, a moment in time we feel we can’t change, we dwell and deepen the caverns that pain entered by living there in memory, as if we are shackled to the walls of the trauma. Our systems are changed, our wiring re-arranged, our hearts struggle and our minds shut down, a sort of short curcuiting burns what we used to know and rebuilding is often slow. For some the shackles rust and close and darkness becomes a place where you live and windows don’t exist.

I don’t know why? Each person has the ability to fly, we all have something inside that is divine, however when the darkness is where you hide, light can not enter to find that place so divine. This is a believing your more, something other than the darkness or the light to explore, an energy field that was placed to move anything and everything you choose.

Before Zakary’s body died, I already believed he would still survive, this never waivers. Whether his body is here or not I know he is still alive. I was blessed with a lighthouse inside, I don’t know why, I just know I have it. I can see the light when darkness closes in, my lighthouse shows me the way, its always working, its always leading, its always believing, it’s set, it’s on auto, it’s me, it’s the divine light I choose to be.

Zakary had it too and so do all of my children. It’s not different than everyone else, it is your truth.

Without owning judgements or opinions, traumas and others decisions, without a stereotype, a list of what I may or might, should or shouldn’t, could or couldn’t, without a question or waiver, the light is divinely given and yours to receive. You don’t stand in line waiting to buy it, or need to wait your turn, it is yours to discern, to own, to accept, to rely, to believe, to embrace, to know, to rejoice, to grow.

The lighthouse is not your ticket out of messes or challenges, it is not the ticket to glory or the easy way. It is simply your base, your place to rest, to embrace and know when you stand in your TRUTH, that is the lighthouse that radiates light beyond the darkness you hide your truth.

I want to tell you about a moment in my life where beyond trauma and beyond pain, the lighthouse still remained.

After losing Zakary in the physical form and spending years before working so hard on knowing myself enough to let go of myself, which still takes constant work, this isn’t natural my any means yet. It’s still a foundation I build on daily.

What does it mean to know yourself and let go of yourself?

Stop trying to be more than you are right now, be who you are NOW, being present in this place is where you can let go, so energy flows and change occurs and now is never missed. When I learned this, I was able to receive a divine connection with Zak and energy started to flow so differently.

Until I accepted who I was now and quit living in when, where, how, should, shouldn’t and somehow, that blessed resistance that keeps us out of now and into later, when and if. You know, the place we question and persist into because the moment is uncomfortable and we want more NOW. The place you try to live in another’s expectation of space, time and success.

Listen to that!

I listened to the aching and crying , the deepest pain and agony of my life, my son suffering. I never wanted to accept he could die, I could not grasp that at all. I just wanted so bad to let go of the pain and be present in knowing every feeling and connecting with Zak so that I would never miss a moment in the now because I was so scared of never finding somehow.

The part of me believing he would live and the determination of a mother to fight for her child’s life with all her might was mighty and present. However, there was also another part I fought with (the darkness), what if I couldn’t find the cure, what if he left resenting me for being his mom, because I couldn’t fix it?

OMG, I can tell you there was not an emotion I didn’t feel. Somehow the depth of me was dug out with a bulldozer and filled with fear, desperation, shame, guilt, how the hell would I make it through losing a child, what did I do or not do, would I die too, would I stop breathing and my other children experience the loss of a brother and a mom?

How could I stop this downhill slide and more importantly how could I hide it from anyone, let alone my kids, that didn’t benefit from their mom losing her ground, her mind and her peace and support for them?

The lighthouse never turned off, despite the dark caverns and storms, lightening, earthquakes and tsunamis of the inner self.

Finally ,we knew, we surrendered to what our fears had to show us. It was a rocky road, face plants, arguments, space invasion, fear we drew near, loss of ourselves, a separation from now into an adrenaline rushing pain you don’t escape. You have to face it or die without ever embracing what it has to show you.

Through this we gained a silent connection that spoke louder than any words could ever come close to.

I could cry my eyes out miles away and Zak would text me and say, “mom are you ok?” I could ask a question in my mind and Zak would text me and say,”mom I can hear you.” This is just a couple of the many times we had this type of thing happen. We had many talks about the connection and our ability to hear one another even when we weren’t right by each other.

I wanted so bad to know that I would never lose this connection, whether he stayed or if he left. It became our gift to one another, a knowing and allowing to give and receive love beyond what the human body could comprehend.

He is my connection, he is my child, my extension of love, how could we not have it. Instead of surrendering into my own truth, I realized I had surrendered into the fear of religion that all of this happening wasn’t possible. That somehow there was a separation between God and all that has been created and words defined and expressed what my heart never could accept.

MY HEART KNEW MORE!

This changed everything, our worlds opened, there was no longer 4 walls dictating our destiny, our purpose, our truth. This is where years of religion and dogma disappeared, where the shackles of judgments and opinion and fear instilled into our bones was shifted.

Divine love, infinite possibilities became the path less traveled. God did not limit us to a book or a word, a feeling or a demand. God does not make us suffer or ridicule and judge us. God does not instill fear into us. God is LOVE. God is not looking down at you pointing in direct discipline and directing disease and traumas at you because you deserve it. God created us all and gave us choice, a collective participating ability to work together or not.

For every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.

Example: You can raise your kids as perfect as you believe and they can still go a completely different direction. This is not God making it happen, this is Gods creation of energy flow and motion, action and reaction.

Its given as your gift to accept or resist, either choice is movement, grow or change, be present or die resisting.

You were not created with so much more than you know on accident, life is a collective responsibility and an energetic connection between us all that is not separated and is experienced through every single persons reaction and action collectively. Like it or not we are connected and what we each do affects our collective space.

When you decide to arrive in the NOW you will feel the divine connection to flow more freely into each now more and more presently, this is where you grow.

To be Continued………………………… Zak arrived AGAIN in the mountains of Utah in the biggest, no mistaking present way, where I was off the grid, no service and vulnerable to the elements of emotion and mother nature’s decisions, 16 degrees at night and ice on the inside of my car among a few other elements that make this ride one forcing me into the presence of my deepest truths.

A traumatic moment in time occurred and Zak showed up and shifted a trauma into my greatest opportunity for growth…………………………….

Part 2 …. Zak is very much alive!

SUNSHINE

Identity

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Close your eyes, let go and feel the identity that’s revealed, this source of energy is real, you’re the beauty in the source field, not the opinions and dogmas of the world.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Identity is in your energy

The essence of you

The beauty you bestow

The love you hold

The soul of you

 Your spirit

The core of more, the DNA 

The truth, the nitty gritty

Your authentic emotions and feelings

Not anothers

You’re not another’s judgements or opinions

You’re not recognition or a profile

Identity is your gift you were chosen to be and do something more than this

What is this…what is more

More is when you hear your own breathing and it’s not shallow, labored and ignored

It’s not taken for granted but explored

More is when your physical frame is relaxed and you are the door to more

More is when your heart speaks and there is no misinterpreting the message

More is when your vibration is unshakeable

More is when love flows and you are present in all that’s true for you

More is when life opens doors because you cleared space to be embraced

More is what you allow

More is a presence 

An energy flow when you decide

Your identity is nothing to hide

To know yourself, is to forget yourself

Without a thought

Identity

Is energy thats free

To be

SUNSHINE

 

Quote #3 Embrace

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Fall in place and embrace your hearts pace!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

3-day quote challenge

First, let me explain the rules:

Thank the person who nominated you.

Post a quote for 3 days and explain why it appeals to you.

Nominate 3 new bloggers each day

Thank you so much https://pascaleshealingjourney.wordpress.com/  

I’m finally getting the third one out, no one said it had to be 3 consecutive days, right?

WOW, last week went so fast, sorry for missing my weekly addition as well, I’ll do my best to get it out this week, so many amazing days and changes and so much joy and sunshine. I hope everyone is doing super fantastic. Busy summer days have arrived!

This week I pick this quote,”Fall in place and embrace your hearts pace”, for this simple reason, you have to fall into place, embrace your space, your pace and flow. When you go out of flow nothing happens except a backup of pressure and stress and nothing good is expressed.

Lean into the embracing space of your pace

Listen to your own heartbeat

Like a breeze of gentleness

Create a healthy pace of appreciation 

It takes Love to love

It takes frustration to share burdens

It takes anger to share complaints

It takes shame to share the blame

It takes guilt to remain insane

It takes LOVE TO LOVE

Love flows, it gives, it lifts, it builds

It flows, it receives, it knows

Love embraces you in a beautiful space of respected pace

Sunshine

 

Breathe into the pace your heart is asking for. Pushing yourself in some things is wonderful, however, if you are missing the beauty, the love, the healing, the breathing, the body movement that keeps you in a flow of health and happiness then your missing YOU.

I remember all too well the many years I didn’t respect my own pace. You can’t heal in this space, you don’t grow, you just change, you start to resent everything and nothing all at the same time because you cant see or feel your own emotions, while you’re trying to keep up with everything and everyone except you. YOU are the most important part of the Y O U, embrace your pace!

3 new nominees:

http://www.jrobinwhitley.net/

https://happinessbetweentails.com/

https://forcefitness.us/

 

Weekly Addition #3

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Nutrition for this weeks Addition:

This is such a deep subject and one of my favorites. I have been creating healthier versions of everything you can imagine for years now. If you want something, there is never a need to be deprived of it in a healthier version.

Oh, I can hear the vibes already, nothing is as good as the original?

I have loved challenging that idea.

The part I always wonder is, what about how you feel after?

Is that as good as the original too?

I’m one of those over the top, you might say, health nuts, I eat mostly raw with some exceptions now and then and they are usually a version of health you wouldn’t call an exception on normal terms.

I have eaten in doses the opposite way, such as donuts, cookies with massive sugar, cotton candy, you name it. I have tried it all and for many years I was a closet eater. After a fully organic, homemade cooking day for family, I would eat a pan of brownies, ding dongs I hid in the freezer and other things, you get the hint.

I have been overweight, I know the struggle well, this is me and my youngest daughter whos 22 now and I thought she would appreciate an updated version as well.

While I ate my feelings away when no one else was looking, I’d run on the treadmill at the same time, while my 4 kids were sleeping. It helped to keep up with my fit, healthy reputation ( I thought), and hopefully, no one would ever know.

As you can see, that was impossible to hide. I can write for days on this mess I created for myself, that was before I understood the treadmill does, go backward, in many areas.

My first take on nutrition was our family health food restaurant when I was in 3-6th grade, or so, my mom might correct that, but that’s my memory. As a kid it was a blessing and a curse, everyone wanted my food and I wanted theirs. Trades went on and I was able to have my share of other foods through friends and family. I wasn’t deprived in any way, healthy options or not. I had the best of all worlds with a diversity of people in my life.

This was one of my best gifts I had growing up, was to have such diversity and choice, it taught me by experience what direction I wanted to choose for me and my family. I have always been active that was never an issue, it was committing to my own nutrition, a no-brainer most of the time. The struggle was very real between 8 pm-midnight I confess, for years. I thankfully let all that go and changed a lot of lives along the way and would love to help you.

Over my years of training the number one problem and questions, always lean on nutrition.

My favorite and most looked at and followed site is Food Matters, https://bit.ly/2qbpQUO . When I took a life coaching course in 2010 this was the first thing we were introduced to and I have been hooked and grown with them since. It’s my most shared space and I am happy to say I have joined forces with them to share more.

This nutrition story goes deep for me and it includes my son’s 5-year Leukemia journey, as well as my digestive struggle and removal of all of my large intestine (except 4 inches). How I healed with no medications and in the healthiest way possible. I was diagnosed with Crohn’s, Celiacs and Ulcerative Colitis and all signs of this are not currently found. I will share both of our stories in their own weekly addition soon.

Every penny earned when you go to join Food Matters through me will be turned back into teaching about the awareness of nutrition in cooking classes and other educational avenues, in my son Zak’s honor.

Before he left and grew a full set of wings and roared into the heavens in a fighter jet,( I am now convinced of), he made me promise to continue to live my life to the fullest and to keep sharing health and I will.

Another subject to be covered, my journey in grief and nutrition. If there is ever a time to do your best, this is it. There is no answer to grieving and it’s definitely a fingerprint to each person, but to be diligent in your nutrition is imperative in a crisis.

I appreciate you all and whether you join or not, thank you in advance for looking into it as a step toward better health.

https://www.fmtv.com/join-today-transformation?ref=kerrielizabethcawyer

My favorite morning drink is chocolate tea with steamed and foaming almond milk and then a shot of detox juice.

I have two favorites:

Fresh ginger and turmeric, 1/2 of a lemon and a green apple.

Or, two stocks celery, 1 green apple, 1 lime and 3 leaves of kale. I had this one today, mmm.. goes right to your cells and gives you a good morning boost.

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Add these to your morning routine and changes will start to happen.

A favorite Raw foods quick recipe my clients love and never get enough of are my Rah-Raw bars.

Almond or Seed bars:FB_IMG_1407360797505

Equal parts of all things except double the nut or seed butter

Almond butter or seed butter, any kind you like.

Cacao Nibs

Cacao powder( 1 tbs. for each cup size portions of other ingredients)

Dates ( blend into a paste)

chia seeds

Sesame seeds

Shredded organic coconut(optional to roll in or add to the whole recipe)

Raw honey (optional for sweet tooths)

(coffee drinkers, this is amazing with coffee finely ground in it or rolled in it, also optional and delicious if you want spice, is a little Cayenne pepper)

If you don’t want the crunch, blend ingredients one at a time in a Vita-mix or high powered mixer, then mix together in a bowl and Roll into balls or create flat squares by rolling along a cookie sheet on wax paper and freeze to cut … Keep them in the freezer, they stay fresh and easy to eat after a couple minutes of being out.

These ingredients can take you a long way and are the core of a lot of wonderful recipes for healthy bars and cookies I’ll be sharing along the way until I have a page dedicated to it all. This is where my computer learning curb comes in, choosing a new theme and moving all of this around.( patience is definitely not natural for me, hence my meditation and simplicity desires.)

These bars are awesome quick snacks to satisfy hunger and stay healthy and keep blood sugars level on track in between meals.

Warning: don’t eat the coffee ones late if you’re sensitive to caffeine keeping you awake.

I am currently on day 5 of a 7 day cleanse… I am a regular cleanser, this is literally the key I have found to my own energy changes and restarting my system, I do a lot of different ones, this is the one I am currently doing. https://bit.ly/2IBIE7w 

Have fun and explore new nutritional ideas you can add to your household. Don’t stress about it just add or subtract one thing, it makes a difference.

And keep moving…… with Dr. Jen touching on the most important facets of functional movement and flexibility and you can do it in 10 mins. Check out her website at DocJenFit.thinkific.com, she offers courses like The Mobility Method, The Optimal Body, and Grateful for Mobility Challenge.

SUNSHINE ON YOU

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Limb by Limb

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~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Embrace the reflection
Limb by limb again
Rightside up
Upside down
Significant details are profound
Imagine that was you
In the reflection and truth
What would you see
With no mistaking
Limb by limb
Wrinkle by wrinkle
Do you love what you see
Like the reflection of this tree

Sunshine

SUNSHINE

sunshine blogger award

This is a beautiful surprise and a wonderful award of Sunshine to my Sunshine. Thank you to my blogging friends https://awakeningwildflower.com/, I am always inspired by your stories and your journey to healing is amazing, your an angel yourself.

Thank you Sally also for nominating me and giving me the opportunity to share with your followers as well , I love the smorgasbord you have and resonate with your passions for so many things https://smorgasbordinvitation.wordpress.com/:

The Sunshine Blogger award is given by bloggers to bloggers who inspire positivity and creativity in the blogging community. I am very honored to have been nominated.

The rules for accepting the award are as follows:
Thank the Blogger who nominated you.
Nominate 11 new blogs to receive the award and write them 11 new questions.
Display the rules and the Sunshine Blogger Award logo in your post.
Here are the questions given to me to answer from Sally G. Cronin’s, https://awakeningwildflower.com/, https://smorgasbordinvitation.wordpress.com/:

1.Can you tell us about yourself in 100 words or less?

I am a nature wanderer and lover of life, a waterfall luster that includes swimming for miles(literally) feeling my most freedom and peace there, this qualifies me as a lake lusting mermaid as well, I thought I was a mom first but they all grew up and left home and my son recently grew his wings way faster than I can process and flying the heavens in fighter jets. What I found out recently is that in all my studies and all the wonderful knowledge I have built over these years, it really comes down to I’m me and that envelopes a ton of passions that all lead to nature.

My blog was created to be all about encouragement and a creative invitation to allow your own thought provoking inspiration to bubble up, in all kinds of ways and perspectives. .

3.What is the strongest memory from your childhood?

Living in the mountains, precisely why I am so drawn to it now, it was my refuge and still is.

4.Can you tell us more about where you live and why you call it home?

I left my home, my personal training gym and spa when my son got cancer almost 5 years ago. I never looked back, it was a new journey to invest all I am and have into my child.

( A lot here in the middle)

I live in the sunshine right now and am blessed to have more than what I need and a support system around me that is rock solid unconditional love to go through the exploration of a new self after the loss of my child.

6.Is there a country that you have not visited but is on your wish list?

I would love to go to Indonesia, really, I would love to experience as many as I can in my life.

7.Who is your favorite author and why?

I love reading and have so many and my favorite changes, its completely in the moment for me. I’m usually reading new things I can grow from.

8.What is your favorite meal?

I love raw foods and am super creative with food so this one too is dependent on the moment. Id say probably fresh juice in my juicer tops it all for me.

9.What is your favorite musician and can you let us have a YouTube link so that we can listen to them? I would say anything Tim McGraw and Faith Hill …………….

10.What is your favorite film and why?

Lion King, it was always a movie my son and I watched and had mom and son dinner dates together up until his last days and then he wanted to watch Tarzan with his entire family around. I’d say those two because they remind me of him and our time. I don’t own a TV and never have so I’m not a TV or movie buff.
11.If you could live in another time.. decade or century.. what would that be?

In the 50s and 60s for sure when you could dance in the streets and there was no traffic or social media and nature was everywhere, you didn’t have to drive miles to it, and you spoke to people on the phone and not computers.

Thank you also to my beautiful friend and blogger for you questions. I loved your questions and answered them all to myself out of curiosity. https://awakeningwildflower.com/

My 11 nominees are:

https://southernactsenterprises.wordpress.com/
http://writingtofreedom.com
https://gcdiaries.wordpress.com/
https://cindyknoke.com/
https://wordpress.com/read/blogs/47208236/posts/2129
https://drandreadinardo.com/
https://rayoflight144.wordpress.com
https://sonofabeach96.com/
https://beautybeyondbones.com/
https://thetovaryshconnection.wordpress.com/
https://patticlark.org/

My 11 questions for my nominees:
1.What is your favorite food or recipe and will you please share it?
2. Do you have a pet and or more and what are their names?
3. What are 10 words that best describe you?
4.What is your favorite activity?
5.Where would you live if its not where you are now, if you could live anywhere in the world? and where is now if that is exactly where you always dreamed to live?
6. What was the inspiration to start a blog?
7. Where are you drawn more to, water or earth or sky?
8. What is your favorite color and why?
9. To get away , where do you go most?
11. What would you like most for people to receive from your blog?

Have fun and I look forward to getting to know you more and sharing!

Natures perfect exchange

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Nature is our example of the perfect exchange of gifting!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Trusting in the abundant love of the wind

The fire from the sun circulating within

Bending of the trees, inspiring resilience with ease

Let only love flow through the veins under your skin

Bare your heart to the moon

Let the roar within center you again

Spilling forth the poisons of the day

Reveal each vulnerable place to be painted with the sun and highlighted in the hues of grace

Shout and let it out

Scream so loud the vibration of the ground responds to your sound

Authentically release,”I am NOT broken”, ” I am open”

Shed into rejuvenation

No judgements, no whys, no needs, no surprise

Genuinely open

Authentically  spoken

I am whole and always have been

SUNSHINE