canvas of life

The Pace Inside

Posted on by Kerri Elizabeth

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The pace inside is based on our own courage to surrender the entangled knots inside to the stillness that knows no time or restraints!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Perpetual perseverance
Demands its authority
Appearing through emotions
Tears overflow integrated and entangled
Happiness, sadness and surrender have no separation
Inevitable movement continues
“Stop please”, I ask, “just for a moment”
“Slow down, I dont want to miss a second”
The ocean responds, ” I am ”
SUNSHINE

There are times inside the chaos and the history of trauma and our pasts get so knotted up inside we can not feel the stillness, there is a lack of movement and oxygen.

When I get to this place I always realize I am holding my breathe, not trusting and worrying about things I can not control. Then a dilemma, when I decide and realize what I can change, often it’s not what I want to change.

This brings anxiety and it all starts to overflow and tears come like a dam that just broke. It is inevitable, emotions will move, our lives move, our bodies move, our lungs take in and let out air, movement. Our hearts beat, our blood moves, our world continues and the pace inside must find a way to courageously let go and flow with peace and stillness.

Stillness is not without movement. This is a term set out to teach one to stop and feel what is moving without additional purposeful movement, such as the heart and lungs, and our blood flowing.

Meditation and body position invite courage to surrender giving room for oxygen to change the chemistry of the emotion and anxiety to freedom.

This is a lifestyle not a quick fix…

UN-Done-NESS

Posted on by Kerri Elizabeth

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Un-done-ness provides an opportunity and continuation to grow, an inevitable ever changing and re-arranging!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Healing occurs in the un-done-ness

Nothing is done where healing and growth continues

Fire and winds

Inevitable change within

Detours arranged

Subconscious awaits

Un-done-ness

Whispering below the surface

Change me and rearrange me

Scatter emotional ashes like dandelion wishes in the wind

Transform weaknesses into strengths

Un-done-ness

Where epiphanies await

SUNSHINE

 

Un-done-ness is life, no matter what we figure out, where do we start and do we finish? It is all the foundation of a place you continue to grow. It is all you know, all you experience all that un-done-ness….. the beginning with no end… a continuation to evolve from every situation.

It is inevitable to change, we experience and learn from the changes or miss the opportunities it gave us in the deciding “I’ll never change, I am who I am and I’ll never change for anyone”.

It isn’t for anyone, its for everyone, we share this earthly place!

It is the resistance or control we hold (not to change)….. a resistance to inspiration we may not be able to reach or hold, a lack of worthiness inside us that holds us hostage from bravery and courage to be more than we are today.

Take a look at the world and what moves you. Being uncomfortable allows us to learn things we never would and always choosing where we think we most thrive limits our opportunities to grow.

Thriving doesn’t just happen where we feel bliss, it exists in the unknown or continuation (actually more so), in the un-done-ness, the stage to dance and the opportunity to be more than we are today, to add new steps with familiar steps and create more. Turn the music on and sing, dance and connect to the changes that re arrange us!

“NOT”, changing for anyone means YOU too!

 

 

 

 

Behind the Door

Posted on by Kerri Elizabeth

It is behind the closed door we hold more, where you must go to grow!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Behind every door
Infused within a universe
Daring to overcome
Darkness and light sword fight
Equilibrium emerges,” I exist ”
Whispering quietly , “persevere”
Shed every tear, happiness and fear
Untangle the emotional trance
Dance
Perhaps destiny is in your hands
Possibility says
Its perfectly planned

Sunshine
Feel it to heal it!

 

It is behind our closed doors we must go to grow. In order to heal you must open the doors to the pain and rearrange the perception to change. Letting go and allowing awareness in, behind the closed doors is where healing begins.

It is the masks worn to cover our authentic selves that we must rip off, the doors unhinged and flown off, the core must be strengthened, held up, encouraged, unashamed and untamed , risk must enter in growth.

Some will approve, some will judge, some will leave you , some will love you, some will share and some will dare you, challenge you and arrive for you, and you will do the same to and for them.

Ultimately it is in the courage to reveal and unmask and be YOU that reveals  each other…

When you are in the space of an others growth cycle, you will grow too or you will stay behind the closed doors waiting, instead of arriving together.

Where there is more than one, as training in any sport, you encourage one another to arrive at the finish line even when its at different points. As long as your all training, you all will arrive.

When you close your inner doors, when your stubborn and proud of that trait you will not arrive at the same finish line or gate. It is up to the team you choose to enter into the starting gate, to train and get to the finish line together, to encourage, to share, the enlighten to be aware, to connect, to reflect, to agree, to disagree, to hurt, to laugh, to cry to deny, to learn, to grow, to continue to move and not let go of the reasons why you want your team to win.

Thank you to my Oldest daughter Brandee today for her love and sharing her own lessons in life and for inspiring  the continuation of this lesson inside of me.

SUNSHINE

 

Inspired by Expression

Posted on by Kerri Elizabeth

 

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Be you, release your expressions, this is your chance to live, what you see is temporary, choose creatively instead of reactively.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

She feels fire burning in her belly

Her heart space tattooed with the name of her son

He is physically gone but an energetic powerhouse
Her deepest emotions rippling through her veins
Pounding the inner doors relentlessly
Release me
Her lips quiver with anticipation for adventure

Release me

Her facial lines roadmaps of experiences with continued space to roam

She falls and gets back up

Her heart quietly and slowly peaking through the fence posts of life
Release me

Words line up at the starting line
Embracing the inner whisper first
Release me
It’s expression
Release me
It’s creativity
Release me
Art swirling through her mind
A song singing
Through her harps strings
Release me

SUNSHINE

 

Life is our choice, we can live, or we can hide, we can give and receive, we can awaken or we can close up. Our outside is temporary, it is the adventure and the canvas in which we have the space to create. I believe with adventure and experience we give our souls more light and space to shine. With that newness comes intrigue and curiosity, excitement and inspiration.

The answers we all look for are already inside of us!

Open doors to create and explore more, love with all you are, love is the direct neutralizer. When you live from your heart space and creatively respond instead of react we allow ourselves true ownership of our actions and blame is neutralized and no longer exists.

Ultimately blame is our unwillingness to be present in our own actions, leaving no room to succeed and giving our power away to another. When we take ownership we are now acting from our own truth and loving ourselves and neutralizing any other energy interfering in that act.

Interference comes from a leak in our own confidence and with that we can’t properly discern the energy we allow in until we are faced with an opportunity to be in gratitude we recognized it and grow.

I am inspired to continue to remember I am the change that needs to be made and I am the change that allows others the freedom and space to also be inspired by their own change, inspiring others in this beautiful ripple effect of creatively being.

Thank you to all the beautiful people that inspire me everyday!