Tropical Awakening

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It is within the wave that inspires both respect and fear, it is within you to inspire which you draw near.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Fascination overflows and escapes fear

Tears flow like a tropical rain

Integrated into the red sands

Salty waves awaken and exhilarate a radiance untouched

Tides crash upon surfaces like emotions escaping with force

The power of nature rumbles the earth with demand

Nothing else exists in this cove of wonder

Rumbling the jungle trees

Splashing in the salty breeze

Magnificent unexpected empowerment breathes

Set free in a tropical breeze

Sunshine

 

An unexpected opening and healing occurred in the tropical winds of Maui, a trip that taught me more than I could ever ask for and everything unexpected. Life changing events in ocean waves and on an island I have never been.

Road to Hana you are my favorite and I will be back soon, your waterfalls and your magnificent way you grow is breathtaking and your ability to transform me and open my heart and set a breeze to fly under my wings was magic. Thank you Mother Maui for holding me tight, you captured me in ways I never expected.

Thank you for humbling me and reminding me not all water is the same and Zak, thank you for arriving and speaking to me just in time, surrendering has way more power than I ever gave it credit for.

Surrender is not giving up power, it is the power in surrender that breathes courage.

 

 

Indents in the sand

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To fully experience life as a journey you must first embrace change.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Adventure through the memories of your heart
Reflections of paths crossing
Pushing and pulling
Have you arrived
Or has the journey just begun
Indents in the sand
Ruffled feathers before you land
It’s in the flight your soul soars
It’s in the landing
You look up for more

Sunshine

Create a Way

 

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Let the child inside make wishes too and let the grown up in you create the way!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Delight in the joys of life

Find the child inside

In wonder you’ll see

Your innocence is still free

To be

Giggle and wiggle

Jump for joy

Make a wish

Dream it to be

Hula-hoop with me

Smiles are guaranteed

Sunshine

 

 

Everything Changes

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What you see is the foundation of the thoughts that will follow, now close your eyes after you’ve seen and feel your heart change everything.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

The depth of our thoughts often start from a scene

Until you close your eyes and feel the scene

This changes everything

Open to create changes in the scene

Allow the fleeing of thoughts to unwind

Your heart to run the motion picture inside

You are the observer and the critic of the production on your own screen

You can change anything

SUNSHINE

 

 

Part 3 “Changed Forever”

The Universe belongs to us all in abundance, the resource of all healing, understanding, unconditional love and freedom to explore more, when we are open to more, more opens to us!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Down a dirt road…..

In a space where my wounds were opened and Mother Natures land held me and the skies enveloped me and Zak(my forever 24 year old son in heaven) confirmed his presence to show me the way.

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It was an early cold morning, a long night talking with Zak, trusting he had my back. Things were different inside me this morning and I felt like Zak had my hand.

I didn’t know what I was doing or what was about to happen, but I knew it was going to change me forever.

Just as Zak told me it would.

No words were said, an uncomfortable silence lead the morning. A story that would change my life that day arose. I roared from an inner flight or fight, everything inside, that had been bottled up, unshared, unheard and undone was ready to fight for me, finally.

I erupted from a silence inside, every emotion spilled out like a waterfall. It was spilling out of every cell of me, frustration and silence were completely uncapped, there was a break down that soon gave me ground for a break through and the universe said, “Lets DO this!”

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This is where it gets sticky, where someone else is involved and blame can be placed. However when you blame, you give away your power to shift your lesson into wisdom. I surrendered into it and let it eject from my core with the force it was demanding. It was time to shift and that meant inviting source energy to swirl me in gratitude for the moment presented.

It was about gratitude not blame, it was about standing in my truth and my power and allowing the universe to fill me with the natural emotions I was honored to experience and I was trusted to assimilate it all, so I could eventually share it.

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THEN…..My entire life felt as if it stopped, for a second, panic, I embraced it, for a second anger, I embraced it, for a second, blame, I embraced it, for a second I wandered too far into someone else’s story and needed to get back to mine.

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Ultimately it’s what is inside you that creates your view. What I saw next, was a new view, and I felt Zak say, “mom I got you”.

I looked around and the silence and serenity was one with me and all that nature offered was a part of me.

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I drove my car down the long bumpy dirt road, missing the potholes that were gracefully placed. One wrong turn of my steering wheel meant I could bottom out and rip the under carriage among other things in my car.

I had no phone service where I was and although that wasn’t a big deal to me, I knew I needed someone to be on the other line as I experienced the shock waves barreling though me.

I looked up and the dust of his truck disappeared, the engine I could no longer hear, I called and he answered, what was said next, shot me into a slow motion reality and then the phone was silent.

I was frozen in time, and I will tell you this part of the lesson is so

deep for me.

Telling one side and leaving the other side only in my journal has been something I have truly had to dig deep into before deciding. How do I tell just one part without the other, it all creates the total story, of love, loss and devastation, learning, living, creating and reinventing, or does it?

We all have a journey we must travel and for me, my journey is to stay present in my own healing because that is ultimately where I have freedom to be me, all of me! Thats where I am empowered and transformed, thats where change is made.

At the end of the day, did I live my truth, fully and without hesitation? 

Did I love with all of me?

At the end of the day, do I feel good about who I am?

Life is our experiences and what we learn from them is up to us.

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I live to the fullest and I love to the fullest. I also am hurt easily, super sensitive and I never want to hurt anyone. I’m an old soul empath and a Libra to the core, hurting anyone is the most painful thing to me and I use to own it in my own worth.

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NOT ANYMORE!

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This is one of my biggest challenges I have been doing the work on for years now. Not owning others pain, walking with them, not for them. It took me years to see this and I practice it daily, living in the present moment and asking myself, am I willing to feel it fully to heal it fully? Is it mine to heal or shall I return to sender?

I made it to the end of the dirt road carefully and took a left making it about 1/4 mile, I felt my body give way, I had no air to breathe, my chest caved in and panic and shock set in. I pulled over and went down another dirt road to cry and scream and to just let go.

I finally had service on my phone here. I called my mentor who is an energetic healer.

My panic said it all, I needed immediate energy help, I spilled out the finer details and then needed to get off the phone. I felt immediately sick and needed to scream to the heavens. I hung up and fell to the ground surrendering all of me.

I wept harder than ever on my hands and knees in the dirt and screamed to the heavens, I surrender, I don’t want anymore pain please, take me, make me, do whatever, just please no more, no more. Whatever I have to do, help me create a new path, a look outlook.

I called my mentor back and just set the phone down unable to talk. THENNNNNNNNNNN.…….. in the mountains in Utah in the hills, set nestled into the trees of a path less traveled a fighter jet flew so low and right above me I could see the details,( Utah trees where I was, were short) then another, the ground rocked, my car shook, my angel kitty took cover and I burst into tears. It was Zak, and not just one but 4 or 5 I’m still not totally sure the number but my friend said to me on the phone, its Zak. Thats Zak and if I wasn’t on the other line I’m not sure even I would believe what just happen.

In Zak’s honest engine voice, he said, ” mom what I couldn’t change on earth I can intercept from heaven, because your my mom.” I chose you to be my mom and my place as your son is never done. He continued to share with me so much more. I pulled up my boot straps and explored and wrote. This journey had just begun for me, it wasn’t just a Zak healing anymore, Zak was with me, he laid out a plan and it just kept rolling. I followed and along the way a fighter jet would confirm to me I was going the right way.

You see when Zak took his last breathe, a fight jet rocked my world as I crawled outside and laid lifeless and frozen for hours before I could move again. After he crossed over I took a long drive to my favorite place on earth. He continued to show up in fighter jets among other signs that came left and right. This one has shown up at the oddest times and places but the perfect times and places for me.

I can go on and on about Zak’s presence with me, my journey and all the signs he was so close, but this moment in perfect timing, in a fully traumatized state on my knees in the mountains of Utah in the exact second I surrendered fully, right above me, close enough to see details, he showed up to confirm to me, he intercepted my path and changed my view, exactly what I asked for at exactly the same timing.

Confirmation, we have only the power we allow!

Zak lives on and there is never a day he does not show up…………………..

Zak took me back to every space on that 40 day journey that needed restoration and a new view and we healed it all.

I am free to be ME!

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Lucky Coins

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Dance with the the rhythm of your soul and the freedom to let go!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

May you dance in the streets and feel the rhythm of your soul

Find lucky coins under your feet

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your smile the base in every beat

May you feel freedom in the wind

And love in the rain

May rainbows give you cover in a storm

May the moon be your nightlight gratefully worn

and

the sun be the rise of a new day!

SUNSHINE

Happy Mother’s Day

My life, my purpose, my heart, my reflections, my lessons, my joys, my trials, my truths and the love that never ends!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Being a mom is why I was given this life, the amazing trust put into my hands to raise my 4 children was the ultimate gift.  Nothing else can ever compare to the heart space, love and feeling of giving life to 4 children.

How its possible, the miracle of birth, the heart and soul you put into it and the growth of who you and they become because of the experience. It is the most beautiful experience in the world to me!

Happy Mother’s Day to all the Moms out there and all the dads that also are moms to children without moms present. You all get extra love today as well!

Being a mom means you’ll forget who you once where

To experience the fastest paced life, that one day is but a blurr

To love so hard and give your all 

And wake up one day and wonder, was that all?

The wildest ride of your life

The ups and downs no ride can suffice

Adrenaline rushes that last through life

Stretch marks from head to toe

Wrinkles and grey hair that continue to grow

One day all the laughter and tippie toes 

Are simply what you remember as they go

Yes its a blessing they grow and go

But no-one told me how a mom would ever prepare to know

The strength and endurance it would take to let them go

Then time erased because grandkids exist

and all the letting go is now in the healing kiss of 

grandchildren BLISS

SUNSHINE