Feel your Maximum

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Capacity can be stretched, giggles can be set on repeat, maximums are wasted when undone and love has no regrets!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Free to run like the wind
Let your heart race at top speed
Feel your maximums
Majestic strength lives
Invest in your capacity, leave nothing undone
Touch the earths surface, giggle and have fun
Explore, express, live without regret
Then rest for more and nothing less

~Sunshine~

Change or Grow…. part 2

In every space the purpose is the present, be fully in it!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Hello to you all and thank you ahead of time for reading my soul writing and I hope in someway it will inspire you.

If you are struggling with something from the present or past, a relationship, work, family, finances, loss or loneliness, anger or frustration among other emotions that fester before healed, may this shine light on at least one of these and it be healed and forgiven because it can.

Part 2 of a long journey……………

Deep in the woods of Utah, above the hot sun line where snow still laid on the ground and ice blanketed the windows in my car at night. It was early Feb. toward the end of a 40 day journey on the road through 5 states, that shifted me in ways I wasn’t prepared for but completely open for.

I knew my life was going to change the minute I decided to hit the road and leave all I knew to Mother nature’s grand healing, hugs and invitation to be open to the elements of surprise.

Zak (my son)told me to leave two months before and I resisted for reasons that were less important than healing the loss of my child. The grief was setting in deep, loss, loneliness and a depression I have never experienced (I had zero tendencies to depression and always had a smile, UNTIL….my child died).

This was an eye opener as to what a trauma of 5 constant years of watching your child suffer and not being able to find an answer and then watching him pass while holding one hand, his wife another and my youngest daughter holding his head as comfortable as she could. He literally was suffocating and struggling to breathe on his way out. Horrifying to experience.

He didn’t want to miss a moment and be so medicated and on hospice he didn’t feel life.

He felt life to the last breathe in the most painful ways, but he felt it, he didn’t resist it, he wanted life more than death and used all he was given.

This isn’t going to sound like SUNSHINE right off the bat, but please stick with me, it’s all an adventure through darkness with a light that never dies.

This is the partial story that sent me packing. Move, do something big, drastic and different or stay in the story of trauma and agony. I chose MORE! Zak was not my only struggle to get through. I was also years into a relationship that offered more lessons to me than any relationship has ever gifted me in my entire life. I won’t talk about this part for now and never in depth because it’s one side and I know, I truly and fully loved, thats all that matters here.

I can tell you this, it was one of those relationships that challenge who you are to your very core, that hold your highest highs and deepest lows.

I chose my life and who I spent it with, we don’t get to choose our consequences most often though, but we do have the opportunity to choose our actions and how we show up for our consequences.

Consequences usually include an action that is tied to or involves others lives and ideas, hence not having control over the entire picture.

We can’t change others, only ourselves, however, so often we enable others by trying to heal wounds that aren’t ours, or compare and demand fairness, whatever that is for you, and we end up enabling ourselves and missing our own lessons completely.

This part of the journey is about my own lessons and what I have been so fortunate to learn, I have no control over anything else.

I woke this particular morning knowing this day would be a different day, I had spent the entire trip writing about what I wanted in my life, how I wanted to show up for myself and what that would take for me. I honestly couldn’t make sense of much else, other than making sure I ate right and monitored my well being on the day I left, Dec. 30th.

I just knew my life was different and was about to change even more.

It had to be different and putting it into words as I write even still is difficult. I feel it all so deep, no words seem to explain it at the depth I feel it.

It was a freezing cold morning in my Buick Encore, a thought out organized cozy space inside with all I needed to travel, sleep and be comfortable wherever I was and feel safe and secure inside when I chose any off the beaten path areas. This particular space was definitely off the beaten path, in a secret off the grid magical space filled with wonder, like a fairytale. It felt surreal to me, and honestly at this point everything was surreal and not just in beautiful ways.

My kitten Angel was always with me, she went everywhere with me since she was 6 weeks old, so she loved traveling and exploring anywhere and everywhere.

The night before, Zak clearly told me as I was locked in my car, to just be calm and get my computer out. Mind you I had been off the grid and off electricity for some time now and the chances of my computer working was zero, it was cold, draining every battery I had and I hadn’t charged it in weeks. I didn’t even have a charged phone or service where I was. Zak persisted with me to open it, so I did. Sure enough when I opened it, music started playing, music I didn’t even know was on my computer and it was music I wasn’t familiar with, but it all had a purpose and a reason for me at that moment.

I listened for two solid hours and Zak told me to start writing what I was feeling.

I couldn’t write fast enough, it was flowing like lava through my fingers onto the keyboard. It was dark outside and it was cold and I was snuggled in tight with Angel in gratitude for the anxious knowing my life was about to change drastically.

I fell asleep finally, hours after the music and the writing and the constant appreciation that was pouring out of me for whatever was next.

I hit my wall of tolerance to stand in darkness any longer, I wasn’t going down depressed and I wasn’t going down as a victim to anyone, including myself.

I had control of what I wanted in my life going forward and the lighthouse was beaming non stop with light beams that ONLY pointed in the direction I was to trust without question. That included using my voice again with power and strength and trust whatever came out was exactly what was meant to.

I woke up with a new outlook, Zak had my back, he played music for 2 hours teaching me, empowering me, filling me with zest for life again, telling me it was all going to be ok, he had my back.

No matter what happened at this point I had a powerful extension of me working from another dimension. I trusted 100% Zak had it all planned and the consequences were going to be rough but they were going to be worth every second of the pain, agony, defeat, darkness, crawling and shattered torn feeling I was about to experience.

I had no idea that the consequences to my voice would be to experience the rest of the adventure alone in the mountains of Utah off the grid with no phone service suddenly, and that I would literally be in the hands of Mother Nature and God and trusting all I had manifested and opened my heart to was going to tear every wound I ever had wide open.

ZAK APPEARS IN A PHYSICAL FORM …. NEXT…. stay tuned….. this has been hard to put in writing, I originally wanted to have it to you every week, but more patience is required of myself and I am honoring it. I have to write it in parts and make sure I am grounded, in my healing, meditating and being diligent with my life going forward…..

I can tell you this much more before the next part… I am divinely placed to radically share my light to the world and I will NEVER STOP!

SUNSHINE

Weekly Addition #6

Health yourself to heal yourself!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

We don’t need a reason to heal our bodies, your body is always working for you to restore and rejuvenate itself. Just like anything else you can resist or persist in the process, you can throw caution to the wind or offer in gratitude to your body what it deserves to do its absolute best.

It’s up to you.
I have many friends voice to me, “What a bummer, you can’t drink or eat normal food.”
Normal food?

I’m going to get real raw here with my thoughts on this.
Well, I can, if I want to set myself back and hurt the very system that allows me to enjoy your company. Are you going to take care of me after I eat that and I’m sick, will you bring me something healthy and sit with me while I recover? Will you enjoy watching me suffer?
How does this make sense?
What if I said,” its a bummer I can’t see you in pain and suffering and I wish I could choose food for you that will sabotage your health and peace of mind and hold you back from all your desires.

Does that make sense?
You see after eating and drinking out, everyone goes separate ways, complains for a week how they need to recover and says, “why do we do that to ourselves, was it worth it?”
What if you experienced going out and feeling amazing before, during and after and your body was rejuvenated instead of disabled.
How about we go to a place I can eat and you see how blissful it is to eat healthy, feel healthy, wake up just as blissful as today, if not more after you eat? How about you drink what I drink and feel relaxed and mindful and it’s nutritiously healing rather than depletes you?

I can say to you the same things,” what a bummer you can’t drink and eat normal food” and be significantly accurate since normal food doesn’t make you feel sick and give you hangovers. Normal, real, authentic food, cleans, cleanses, heals, rejuvenates and empowers you in every good way.
I choose this way of life, because the damage to my system, all of it, doesn’t even slightly balance with the few minutes of (others opinions of bliss) to my tongue, or the short-term buzz from alcohol that distracts me from what is really important in my life.

I can get a life buzz and a gratitude buzz with what nature intended my body to run on.

I am not exempt from escaping into less than optimal options like tequila a few times in my life, trust me when my child died that’s all I wanted to do and I did it for two weeks almost. It never turned out better the next time.

What I found out was that I just prolonged the healing and accepting the process of what I ultimately had to face. I caused great pains and a gigantic backslide to my health in mind, body, and spirit. I suffered more from that than if I would have just allowed myself to feel and flow.

I knew it at the time too, I chose differently and I paid mighty for it. Escaping my emotions and feelings was not at all what I was doing, what I was doing was adding more emotions, shame, guilt, hurt, pain, recovery, and trauma to my plate. I ate perfectly still, so that helped and I had a firm spiritual foundation I could rely on. I also had my son near me in a more powerful way than ever before and he had my back. (story to come next week.)
I have also experienced plenty of foods that set me back and I allowed myself to feel obligated to make others happy by eating for their entertainment and to please others that prepared their favorites in their kitchens with love.
At this place in my life, I realize we give the love we know and the love we have the capacity to receive in return.

However, it is in the saying no, it is in the standing in your own truth and deciding what is best for you, where you both grow.
Your body is the vessel, that takes you where you want to go. Why put gasoline in the human tank when you know the proper nutrition is what makes it run?
I have never been one of those trainers and nutritionists that offered a cost to you and then taught you what I know and watched you sabotage yourself. I know this game, I did it enough times to myself. I was familiar with how I got there and what it took to get out. So when I charge people money to get in shape and change their lives and help guide them in finding a solution to the self-sabotage, it is a partnership of love to bridge the gaps.

My goal has always been to help you in the stuck points and they usually have nothing to do with nutrition, nutrition is the easy part, it’s the facing your fears and doubts that feeds you. There is always more to why you want sugar, alcohol or make statements like, “you only live once, so why not?”

This statement brings tears flowing down my face and soaking the shirt I’m wearing as I write this. My heart has been wrapped in nutrition my entire life, for so many reasons, I was born and chosen to help others find their healthiest self and I was one of them. I know first hand the inner struggle to get here.

I know what its like to be in a less than healthy relationship with people and food, I know what its like to lose a loved one and I know what its like to feel lonely, less than enough, exhausted and frustrated to the core of your being. I know what its like to love someone that’s suffering and you can’t do a damn thing about it. I know what its like to be divorced and I know what its like to lose everything you ever worked for in a day because just giving it all up is better for your health than the fight to keep it. It’s stuff that can be replaced. I know what its like to have a child die and another be so addicted to drugs she loses herself and her own child in the process. I know what it’s like to feel guilt and endure abuse and blame. I know what its like to die and see the other side and come back for another round. I know what its like to love someone so hard you have to let go. I know what its like to lose yourself in the process of it all.

After a lifetime of opportunities to show up as my best, I can tell you that the higher vibration the food the higher the vibration of life.

This means when you live your core values no matter what the circumstances are, that you are determined to be a light to yourself and the world through your own significant love and gratitude for you, shit shifts like crazy.

The very peace you were born with surfaces, you smile even when it hurts because you know it will be ok. You cry without worrying anyone will tell you to wipe those tears and move on. You flow through the pains and discomforts and not back for another round when you choose, you. You breathe when you used to freeze. You rest when you used to push so hard you would exhaust yourself to please everyone else. You hear your body speak to you about what it desires, instead of grabbing in reactive selfish need. Your one again with your mind, body, and soul.

You arrive at the place you once abandoned yourself and a reunion of forgiveness and love is made.

Without you, you can’t make a difference to anyone.

The love you give yourself radiates equal love to the entire world. It shifts energy, gratitude, love, healing and in the grand scheme of life, it literally shifts the world.

Do you think that what you do doesn’t make a difference to the world? Think again, every thought and every shift you make shifts everything.
I have experienced more than my share of trauma in my life and how we all deal with that is different of course.

The one thing that is not different, is that our bodies need the best we can give it to have the best success is recovering.
You can have all you have ever wanted to eat in a modified delicious version, it takes time and tweaking sometimes ( just like the rest of life’s decisions) but with all the information out their today, there is no excuse for not loving your mind, body, and spirit the way it was meant to be loved.
Some starters:

  1. Change one meal a day to a modified whole foods meal.
  2. Treat yourself to a new healthier version of your favorite food.
  3. Create a new and chemical free version of something for your skin or hair.
  4. Fit in 10 mins. of exercise every day even if its 1 min. 10 times a day.
  5. Move off your chair every 20 minutes and stretch and walk.
  6. Drink water all day at least twice a week and do away with sugary drinks as a reward (a reward is not sugar, it is forgoing sugar).
  7. Stop and breathe deep in place of a stressful thought.
  8. Meditate in place of mindless snacking.
  9. Try going out with friends and drinking water instead of alcohol and watch the difference in how you communicate, and the actual changes that occur in behaviors you never noticed, even by having just one drink.
  10. Say no when it means your own health and happiness is at risk to please another.

Here are some of my favorites:

Wonderful recipes for your skin:

Healthier versions of blissful enjoyment to look and feel radiant.

Movement matters!

Your diagnosis of pain or injury might sound the same as another, but unless they have the exact same job, enjoy the exact same activities/hobbies, have the same life stressors, and have walked through life just like you… your true CAUSE of pain will be different.”

Check out her website at DocJenFit.thinkific.com, she offers courses like The Mobility Method, The Optimal Body, and Grateful for Mobility Challenge.

Every person who chooses a plan from DocJenfit and has a desire to change their health also receives a free 30 min. health session with me, just contact me with proof of your commitment and let’s get moving.

For every referral, you send to me that signs up for 5 health sessions, you will receive one for free.

SUNSHINE