alignment
YOU ARE MORE
You are more than what you thought defined you!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
I am more than the child that grew up with fight or flight emotions and feelings
An imposter lived here, a fearful, unready and unwilling part of me
In control of nothing but wanting to control everything
Living in a darkness of the world
Running into it at the same time I was running away from it
Religion captured me and gave me a safe box to live in for years
“Oh,” God is very real to me, but religion is no longer a vice
That box got smaller as experiences got bigger and it didn’t make sense to live there anymore
I couldn’t breathe
I couldn’t talk
I couldn’t move
I couldn’t escape the judgment of what I was told I needed to do and not what my deeper self was calling me to do
I was screaming inside for years
As if I was watching myself from a distance, I observed so much confusion and pain
Filled with insecurities grounded in shame and blame that I could never do enough to erase
What I faced was the habit energy
The energy that was continually lived in fight or flight , over compensations, under compensations and so much more
While smiling and living I was also dyeing
I was raising kids while raising myself
I was married while not even understanding what that required
I lived small because small seemed bigger than what I felt capable of handling at times
I lived on others terms because I had no idea life had terms I had the power to make
I knew deep within there was more
I knew deep within I had more
I chose more of myself many times, to then allow doubt to loosen my grip
I had no idea how to break through to that next place
Disapointing others while listening to my own calling was like climbing Mt. Everest with no training
That’s when I realized it was going to mean I had to disappoint myself
It all required me to re-train myself
I had to change my story and I was going to have to reject the current narrative and disapoint myself by announcing I was more than the skin I had lived in all these years
That would seem like a milestone in gratitude to many, however it meant to me, I had to invite part of myself to move out
I had to leave behind the blame, the shame and the rejections not just of my own but from others
I now could give myself safety
I now could stand strong for me
I could say I mattered
I could say NO
I now could disapoint another to show up for myself, knowing that the disappointment was their journey and I had no business fixing it
I had to thank the space and move away, bless it for the experiences and lessons and leave it behind
It wasn’t supposed to become me, it was suppose to teach me
It did
At the exact time it was suppose to
It happened in loss
It happend in change
It happened in pain
It happened in tears
It didn’t happen with joy or laughter
It happend when I felt no hope
It happend when I was empty
When I was my most challenged
It happened in anger
In rejections
It happened in misunderstandings I had to let go of and allow the teaching of it
It happened in letting go of people I thought would never leave
It happend in the learning of how to have a relationship with my son from the heavens, instead of in the physical presence
It happened in sickness
It happened in the lowest times, the hardest times, the most doubtful times
It is still happening and I understand that these times are never to be wished away , but to be observed with new insight
To look into pain and to ache while you smile is part of life’s best and most insightful journeys to success
Happiness is a foundation that requires remodeling continually
Sunshine
Align Again
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
In the consumption of experience complete overflow spills over
No comfort zone to this process
A complete and deliberate graceful transcendence must arrive
A wake-up to what is inside
Memories flow and triggers of the past simultaneously let go
The breakdown and astonishment render inspired risk to be free
Anger must be unmasked as its true self to transform into awareness and not control
As the waves create white caps and the wind howls with fury
I am reminded to be still and let go of worry
Control masks itself and hides its insecurity and the wind forces its abrupt revealing
Inner conversations of fear disengage the heart and build among the scars
Consciousness must arise and trauma is a reminder to align again the heart, body, mind and soul
Purge tension and evacuate from familiarity and risk courage on an unknown path
Invite peace and solitude to your present state
Trust in the disassembling inside and arise to the peaceful place you can reside
Sunshine
A different View
Perspective is an ever-changing event, a willingness to bend and turnaround, it is created through movement inside and out and inspired by experiences all around.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Where you stand is the perspective at hand
Turn around, stand upside down
Perspective is different all around
From ones eyes, organization may apply
From another’s eyes a mess is addressed
Alignment depends on where you stand
Not an understanding of what is planned
With two views communication can be misused
There is no one that can see exactly like you
The core of who we are is the focal point of near and far
Past and present play a part
Memory is stored in our heart
Experiences inspire our perspective
Perspective is built from our experiences
Planting seeds is how the forest grows
Tearing it down gives you different results
Build your perspective with grace
Understanding it is different in another’s space
SUNSHINE
These photos are the exact same log with the same rock stacks, nothing was changed or moved except my view. Sometimes when we take the time to look at things from a different view we start to see something new. Something new to learn and a different experience so we can start to see other’s views too.
Forest of Life
In the forest of life, silence and stillness meet the curiosity of the night and calmness kisses your cheek goodnight.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
In the faint hours of the night
Silence is at its peak
Abundance appears
Deep in the core there is so much more
There is stirring within the stillness
Overflowing tears and blessings given
Like a kiss from heaven
Calmness settles in
Everything stirring quiets again
Night falls upon the forest floors
Trees disappearing within heavens doors
Again a stirring occurs
Daylight sleepers have risen from the winds
Curiosity stirs again
Calmness settle in
Observe the changes within
SUNSHINE
STILLNESS MOVES
In the stillness you will hear!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
It seems the stillness is where everything is found
Where movement comes alive
Where the waves crashing tell a story
Where the leaves dance and sing with glory
Where the birds soar with intension
Where pain and joy have no tension
Where love remains throughout
It seems in the stillness is where everything is found
Where feeling is in the beat of your heart
Where your mind sinks into a rational peace
It seems that in the stillness is where everything is found
When your lost, be still, you will hear the whisper
Be still it is where everything is found
SUNSHINE
In my stillness I can feel the intensity of all that moves around me. I can feel my heart beating and my chest rising. I can almost see with inner eyes the blood flowing through me. I can see the pain in another eyes and wonder is that the reflection of so much more to be healed within me?
Where you are calm you will hear, where you are still you will know, where you find peace, love will grow.
Your body is already speaking to you, it wants more or less of something, it may be in pain, or sickness or anger has driven a wedge between you and stillness. Sadness may be filled with joyful gestures to cover up the feeling we can’t seem to shake and loss may be settling in your bones with numbness you can’t seem to touch.
What if all of this is ok and what if all of this is the beautiful process we need to become our truest version of ourselves. What if who you are right now is exactly who you need to be ,to become who you want to be. What if every step from this space is a step forward into the acceptance, it is the process. It is the falling apart that requires us to heal.
LOVE, SUNSHINE
Raindrops
It is when you realize all attachments to emotions are like rain.
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Within every rain drop a mystery
Power in a rain-drop creates history
Anticipation of more appears
Raindrops enter like heaven’s tears
Cleansing all thats near
How many are there
Where did they hide
Is there matter attached inside
How does condensation appear
With weather, with temperature, with the clouds near
Why don’t the clouds fall down
Does a raindrop feel the ground
Raindrops inspiring curiosity and wonder
Often joined by sunshine and thunder
Watering the earth
Filling the lakes
Provoking inspiration through Gods grace
SUNSHINE
Somedays will be so hard you wonder, how and where, what and why? What is hard now , won’t seem hard later, your strength is always challenged by the coming together and falling apart of life. The rain will come, it will wash away some things and it will dam up others.
It will depend where you are standing when it rains, you must decide when the rain is talking to you and when its cleansing you. Is it moving you or is it cleansing you and how will you know?
Nature always explains everything, it is the grace of God speaking.
You may not see grace in it, you may only see fear or grief and so many other feelings of despair you just don’t want to bare.
When you stand in the grace the emotions will not be attachments but simply rain drops reminding you, you’re alive!
I searched for you and me
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
I searched for you and me
I looked high and low, in front and behind every tree
I glanced off the cliffs below
I searched long and hard, did you know
In the clouds and in the lakes
I searched rivers and mountains with no breaks
I called for you and no one replied
I cried for you inside
I drove miles and miles looking for a glimpse to pull aside
I longed for you and knew you longed for me
To find you was beyond my reach
I was looking for you
Missing every queue
I looked for the depth of what I should be
Who someone else wanted to see
I lost sight of my own dreams
I thought I was lost where I once was found
Then one day courage stood its ground
Vulnerability spoke with a fierce sound
Wherever you go, there you will be
I’m you and me
~Kerri Elizabeth
When we experience life, life is also experiencing us, I believe. When we go farther and faster and search for ourselves instead of the experiences that creates our selves ,we miss the queues that it is ourselves we are escaping.
When we run from ourselves, we run from our faith, our beliefs, our dreams and our core foundation. When we deny our own existence is not enough because of someone else’s opinion or judgement, then we deny our ability to grow, to serve, to lead, to inspire, to be driven, to reach, to grasp courage with all your might and LIVE beyond limitations set by ourselves or others.
We become stuck within another or others lives and deny our own growth waiting for another growth. The best gift you can give yourself and another is the freedom to be loved at the exact place you are so they have room to move forward. This is courageous!
LIVE WITH COURAGE!
Whole in a Shadow
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Sometimes you feel a part of you is missing
Lost and forgotten
Could it be
In the shadow you can see
You’re whole
Brokenness felt in the physical presence
Came together in the shadow
Wholeness verified in the light
~SUNSHINE~
Sometimes we feel broken, shattered inside and out and experiences knock our spirits in a tumbling topsie turvy. Take time to be present, without anything else other than God and YOU, to allow the LIGHT of our creator to show you the answers. Gods word never returns void and his light never fails to speak truth.
Broken, lost, without, forgotten, isolated, these words are the PERFECT space to meet our Creator for a good counseling session, no-one else is
interrupting, the floor is yours and the only shadow left is your own, this is sometimes the ONLY place we can hear, its happening for you. You have been brought here not to carry these emotions but to know you are whole still in this space and even more so than any other time.
This is where you are the most vulnerable to holy space. Embrace gratitude for it, this is where we grow most.
Revise your Reflection
Reflection is revised with precision and alignment to the most Divine!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Unearth and evoke your spirit
Forge into a glorious exploration of reflection
Clarifying your hearts rhythm
Cup your ears to hear your heartbeat inside
Explore and observe a spiritual and anatomical connection
Access precision and revise the reflection of your most current state
Clarify empathy, passion and personal intent
Informance quietly awakes your soul
Performance is unpressured
Taking a lengthy look into reflection
Strength is not built by a thought
It is built on the foundation of grace
Honoring a divine space
Reflection is our perception
Breathe deeply into LOVE
Allowing steady and constant revision
Aligning with Divine precision
SUNSHINE
Honoring your own journey and another’s is where alignment starts to shift, where precision and the greatest gift shows up.
Be patient and wait as the farmer waits for his crops to grow, you too will wait as the seeds you have sewn be rooted into the deepest love!
Believe and know it is in our reflection we are offered perception and the revision of precision to choose LOVE in every decision.
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