Human Design

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In the letting go, you’ll find, holding on was just a design leading you back to letting go!

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

In the heat of the day
The sun pours its radiance upon you
Reminding us we don’t need anything to shine
The rays carry the breeze effortlessly
Filling your lungs to capacity
Offering sustained healing
Creating space to shine
Nature is where harmony lives
Peace is what nature gives

Sunshine

 

Being lead into nature is always the calling on my soul, where I find my center, where I ground myself and find peace and letting go is always the process. I realize that life is just that, a continuation of letting go. It’s designed that way, a continual trial and error and learning and growing. 

Reaching your best is part of reaching your worst and allowing yourself to know the difference. To choose your destination and your attitude, to find solutions under the sun and give yourself the grace you need to get there.

 

Beautiful and Wonderfully Made

 

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When we are able to sit in the pain and in the muck of life, there is where we see what were made of!

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

To give honor and respect to another

Honor and respect must first flow through you

To build a secure foundation for oneself inside

Requires tenacity and determination

To love oneself through the highest and lowest of times

Requires oneself to experience love

Love is continually gained and lost before we understand its significance

Even then there is an unknowing

An unknowing opens up vulnerability

To stand in the muck of life and be vulnerable 

Is where we gain our best self

It is where we find what we’re made of

Where we get to see where we paid attention

Where we have gone and what we took with us

Shows up

SUNSHINE

 

I realized after I lost my 24 year old son two years ago now, that pain really is inevitable, it happens to everyone and can happen without warning. We can be in our most vulnerable place inside and something happens and splits you wide open. You weren’t ready, you weren’t prepared and the honest truth is NOTHING could prepare you.

So then what? It is there where everything in our lives that we either let go of or held on to, shows up. Every lesson and every heartache is remembered and the wounds are fresh again. However in that moment where the heart remembers the pain it also remembers the healing and how you gave that attention or not.

If you didn’t put the work in and ignored it and allowed it to heal shut without acknowledging and entering into it, it will continue to walk you through it until you do, and then it will challenge you to make sure you learned. Its inevitable!

The lesson from something profound and often something so small can trigger all the same emotions. It is simply when you can feel the chaos of the moment and stand in it with freedom you are not in the chaos of this experience anymore. Reflect on the familiarity of being here before and what was learned and how honor and love are applied

Butterflies

See the Butterfly in the light?

It is in the transformation we find our design.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

A butterfly will make many changes before it flies
Struggles will be part of their life
A necessary morphoses designed for each
The delicate awaiting of transformation will teach
The struggle is not always clear
A need to know is often driven by fear
Transformation comes within the struggles of time
A willingness to arrive in your own design

SUNSHINE

 

There will be pain and blessings, smiles and tears, both will be ok, both are needed to be who we are meant to be. Without struggle we would never know freedom. Without transformation, we would never see growth. Without love there would never be pain but with no pain we would never know the depth our love can reach.

To arrive in our own design, to me, means that we arrive with all our emotions, our lessons, our grief, our sorrows. To bring our joys , our trials and triumph and that we arrive in our fullest capacity to delicately transform with clarity that some things are never clear just a necessary part of our design.

Love and Hugs, Sunshine

 

I searched for you and me

She dared herself to live with courage and found courage in living!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~

I searched for you and me

I looked high and low, in front and behind every tree

I glanced off the cliffs below

I searched long and hard, did you know

In the clouds and in the lakes

I searched rivers and mountains with no breaks

I called for you and no one replied

I cried for you inside

I drove miles and miles looking for a glimpse to pull aside

I longed for you and knew you longed for me

To find you was beyond my reach

I was looking for you 

Missing every queue

I looked for the depth of what I should be

Who someone else wanted to see

I lost sight of my own dreams

I thought I was lost where I once was found

Then one day courage stood its ground

Vulnerability spoke with a fierce sound

Wherever you go, there you will be

I’m you and me

~Kerri Elizabeth

When we experience life, life is also experiencing us, I believe. When we go farther and faster and search for ourselves instead of the experiences that creates our selves ,we miss the queues that it is ourselves we are escaping.

When we run from ourselves, we run from our faith, our beliefs, our dreams and our core foundation. When we deny our own existence is not enough because of someone else’s opinion or judgement, then we deny our ability to grow, to serve, to lead, to inspire, to be driven, to reach, to grasp courage with all your might and LIVE beyond limitations set by ourselves or others.

We become stuck within another or others lives and deny our own growth waiting for another growth. The best gift you can give yourself and another is the freedom to be loved at the exact place you are so they have room to move forward. This is courageous!

LIVE WITH COURAGE!

Inquire Within

Trust is developed from how you inquire from within!

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Dare to live with a curious inquiring from within
Believe in something you’ve never known
Trust in your heart with out questioning the mind
How many petals do you need to land on “love me” to believe it
Renew your spirit and polish your curves
Surround yourself in natures lights
And rest into the darkness of the glowing night

SUNSHINE

Trust is not broken from another action, unless we define it that way.  Once someone wrongs us, we stay within that action and own it and live it, losing trust and limiting our love for life and our ability to connect with others.

If we hold that wrong, we then continue to give power to the wrong and the person we feel that did it. In the process of healing I found there also has to be a letting go of distrust and caution to a point you are limiting your own life.

Live with freedom and send back any bad energy to the person dealing it. The minute you decide to give yourself permission to interact within a negative space you take that energy on as your own.

Sender wins and the loss of trust is now building from within.

If it’s being delivered negatively it’s not yours, breathe and physically move your arms in a way that you can mentally, emotionally and physically remove and send it back to sender.

DONE, move out of their energy space, build trust within yourself, this is where defense is dropped. When we respond in defense we have already lost, defense is guilt, a place within we lost trust.

Believe in something you never have……..an example might be believing that 10 deep breathes before you respond will save you a rollercoaster of reactions.

TRUST ME!

STRUCTURE

I am moved by the Creator of the winds and the waves and the depth of the sea, it is within the structure strength is determined.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

It is within structure we build strength
It is within courage we face our fears
It is within love we create peace
It is within grace we are forgiven
Silence calls in deliverance
Listening moves through like waves breaking free
Stillness is arranged in readiness
Rivers and lakes can not contain water where our Creators structure was not built
Oceans can not be filled with life without our Creators structure it is held
Mountains will not stand without our Creators structure at hand
Life is passive without faith and love as our structured plan

Sunshine

I have been presented recently with numerous opportunities to walk outside of love and my heart has lead me within, to be still, to wait, to listen, to allow the waves to crash, for the storm to change course and find its resting place.

It is here where I am challenged with societies voice nearby, it is here I am faced with a humble stance to stand within grace, that nothing else comes before and nothing else will matter after.

There are numbers and signs that grace my desk with a constant rush to create a solution.

A voice whispers to me and says, “Do more, you’re not enough, to society you are not to par, you are broken, you are not worthy, shame and guilt try to dance with me, you’re not who you used to be, you’re not who you’re meant to be.”

For a moment I sit and I invite the emotions to express their place, I listen to the speech, to the emotions that swell me in tears.

It is not in the speech of another (fear, guilt, shame, unworthiness, failure, loneliness and loss to name a few at the table waiting to eat), That I swell in tears.

It is in the gratitude I already gave them all my attention over time, I listened and I sat at the table trying to decide, how to live or die.

They are now behind me and the love I finally share and the grace I allow in my space to finally be free of the rushing to be what society expects of me and instead, listen to what the spirit moves through me is the ONLY PACE I FACE.

I am not your normal and if your reading this your not the normal either.

I am not anyones exception or anyones selection, I am not a place to settle and I am not a passive moment. I am GODS creation, I am the daughter of THE KING and I have been placed exactly where I am supposed to be with who I am supposed to be with.

I  move with the ripples in the waters and the blowing of the winds within the trees, I  am human and I have spirit, I have a body and mind that struggles in judgement and I have a free soul that receives unwavering grace.

I am GODS creation made clearly in his image, I am beautifully and wonderfully made and I receive that with my whole heart.

I am the reflection of His love and I am also human in all my flaws, I am a vessel for Spirit flowing freely and I am a soul filled with truth.

YEP ALL OF THAT!

AND SO ARE YOU from my VIEW, with that structure you can’t lose!