I searched for you and me

She dared herself to live with courage and found courage in living!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~

I searched for you and me

I looked high and low, in front and behind every tree

I glanced off the cliffs below

I searched long and hard, did you know

In the clouds and in the lakes

I searched rivers and mountains with no breaks

I called for you and no one replied

I cried for you inside

I drove miles and miles looking for a glimpse to pull aside

I longed for you and knew you longed for me

To find you was beyond my reach

I was looking for you 

Missing every queue

I looked for the depth of what I should be

Who someone else wanted to see

I lost sight of my own dreams

I thought I was lost where I once was found

Then one day courage stood its ground

Vulnerability spoke with a fierce sound

Wherever you go, there you will be

I’m you and me

~Kerri Elizabeth

When we experience life, life is also experiencing us, I believe. When we go farther and faster and search for ourselves instead of the experiences that creates our selves ,we miss the queues that it is ourselves we are escaping.

When we run from ourselves, we run from our faith, our beliefs, our dreams and our core foundation. When we deny our own existence is not enough because of someone else’s opinion or judgement, then we deny our ability to grow, to serve, to lead, to inspire, to be driven, to reach, to grasp courage with all your might and LIVE beyond limitations set by ourselves or others.

We become stuck within another or others lives and deny our own growth waiting for another growth. The best gift you can give yourself and another is the freedom to be loved at the exact place you are so they have room to move forward. This is courageous!

LIVE WITH COURAGE!

Inquire Within

Trust is developed from how you inquire from within!

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Dare to live with a curious inquiring from within
Believe in something you’ve never known
Trust in your heart with out questioning the mind
How many petals do you need to land on “love me” to believe it
Renew your spirit and polish your curves
Surround yourself in natures lights
And rest into the darkness of the glowing night

SUNSHINE

Trust is not broken from another action, unless we define it that way.  Once someone wrongs us, we stay within that action and own it and live it, losing trust and limiting our love for life and our ability to connect with others.

If we hold that wrong, we then continue to give power to the wrong and the person we feel that did it. In the process of healing I found there also has to be a letting go of distrust and caution to a point you are limiting your own life.

Live with freedom and send back any bad energy to the person dealing it. The minute you decide to give yourself permission to interact within a negative space you take that energy on as your own.

Sender wins and the loss of trust is now building from within.

If it’s being delivered negatively it’s not yours, breathe and physically move your arms in a way that you can mentally, emotionally and physically remove and send it back to sender.

DONE, move out of their energy space, build trust within yourself, this is where defense is dropped. When we respond in defense we have already lost, defense is guilt, a place within we lost trust.

Believe in something you never have……..an example might be believing that 10 deep breathes before you respond will save you a rollercoaster of reactions.

TRUST ME!

SUNSHINE PROJECT

His wings fly safely in the heavens and my heart flies with him!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~


Forever my son
Forever my heart
Forever remembered
Never apart
MOM AND SON
Zakary Ryan
10-13-1992/7-30-2017


Healing requires movement
It requires strength beyond what we currently understand
Healing is an action
It is an energy
It requires flow
Surrender
Tenderness
Acceptance
Solitude
It requires re-creation of self
It needs faith
Foundation
Belief
Healing requires understanding
space
forgiveness
understanding
allowance
Healing is individual
It is a force
An unknowing
Randomness
Change
Chaos
Healing requires you to BE YOU at all times
To authentically stand as you are
To gracefully arrive where you want to be
ONE moment at a time
Healing requires you to live COURAGEOUSLY
~Kerri Elizabeth~

I am ready to take this project to the next level, to make my poetry a Journal book. This has been a dream that has evolved with the experiences and loss of my son Zak.

Please watch this video and subscribe to see its evolution.
SUNSHINE Project is hiring hearts to share along the way as you wish.


SUNSHINE PROJECT

https://www.moonlighting.com/story?i=90 Also here is my link to raise enough money to create my writings into a journal. Thank you for your support in any way possible. Please subscribe to the YOUTUBE station, I know nothing about it all yet as far as getting this all out, I am following my heart and I know when we all help one another thats where change and healing occurs.

I would love to add a page of everyones blogs that I have been connecting with that would also refer others to a place of healing and creative thinking and others that understand. Zak always said, “Its time to start a movement”. He sang and wrote songs about it too.

STRUCTURE

I am moved by the Creator of the winds and the waves and the depth of the sea, it is within the structure strength is determined.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

It is within structure we build strength
It is within courage we face our fears
It is within love we create peace
It is within grace we are forgiven
Silence calls in deliverance
Listening moves through like waves breaking free
Stillness is arranged in readiness
Rivers and lakes can not contain water where our Creators structure was not built
Oceans can not be filled with life without our Creators structure it is held
Mountains will not stand without our Creators structure at hand
Life is passive without faith and love as our structured plan

Sunshine

I have been presented recently with numerous opportunities to walk outside of love and my heart has lead me within, to be still, to wait, to listen, to allow the waves to crash, for the storm to change course and find its resting place.

It is here where I am challenged with societies voice nearby, it is here I am faced with a humble stance to stand within grace, that nothing else comes before and nothing else will matter after.

There are numbers and signs that grace my desk with a constant rush to create a solution.

A voice whispers to me and says, “Do more, you’re not enough, to society you are not to par, you are broken, you are not worthy, shame and guilt try to dance with me, you’re not who you used to be, you’re not who you’re meant to be.”

For a moment I sit and I invite the emotions to express their place, I listen to the speech, to the emotions that swell me in tears.

It is not in the speech of another (fear, guilt, shame, unworthiness, failure, loneliness and loss to name a few at the table waiting to eat), That I swell in tears.

It is in the gratitude I already gave them all my attention over time, I listened and I sat at the table trying to decide, how to live or die.

They are now behind me and the love I finally share and the grace I allow in my space to finally be free of the rushing to be what society expects of me and instead, listen to what the spirit moves through me is the ONLY PACE I FACE.

I am not your normal and if your reading this your not the normal either.

I am not anyones exception or anyones selection, I am not a place to settle and I am not a passive moment. I am GODS creation, I am the daughter of THE KING and I have been placed exactly where I am supposed to be with who I am supposed to be with.

I  move with the ripples in the waters and the blowing of the winds within the trees, I  am human and I have spirit, I have a body and mind that struggles in judgement and I have a free soul that receives unwavering grace.

I am GODS creation made clearly in his image, I am beautifully and wonderfully made and I receive that with my whole heart.

I am the reflection of His love and I am also human in all my flaws, I am a vessel for Spirit flowing freely and I am a soul filled with truth.

YEP ALL OF THAT!

AND SO ARE YOU from my VIEW, with that structure you can’t lose!