aligning
YOU ARE MORE
You are more than what you thought defined you!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
I am more than the child that grew up with fight or flight emotions and feelings
An imposter lived here, a fearful, unready and unwilling part of me
In control of nothing but wanting to control everything
Living in a darkness of the world
Running into it at the same time I was running away from it
Religion captured me and gave me a safe box to live in for years
“Oh,” God is very real to me, but religion is no longer a vice
That box got smaller as experiences got bigger and it didn’t make sense to live there anymore
I couldn’t breathe
I couldn’t talk
I couldn’t move
I couldn’t escape the judgment of what I was told I needed to do and not what my deeper self was calling me to do
I was screaming inside for years
As if I was watching myself from a distance, I observed so much confusion and pain
Filled with insecurities grounded in shame and blame that I could never do enough to erase
What I faced was the habit energy
The energy that was continually lived in fight or flight , over compensations, under compensations and so much more
While smiling and living I was also dyeing
I was raising kids while raising myself
I was married while not even understanding what that required
I lived small because small seemed bigger than what I felt capable of handling at times
I lived on others terms because I had no idea life had terms I had the power to make
I knew deep within there was more
I knew deep within I had more
I chose more of myself many times, to then allow doubt to loosen my grip
I had no idea how to break through to that next place
Disapointing others while listening to my own calling was like climbing Mt. Everest with no training
That’s when I realized it was going to mean I had to disappoint myself
It all required me to re-train myself
I had to change my story and I was going to have to reject the current narrative and disapoint myself by announcing I was more than the skin I had lived in all these years
That would seem like a milestone in gratitude to many, however it meant to me, I had to invite part of myself to move out
I had to leave behind the blame, the shame and the rejections not just of my own but from others
I now could give myself safety
I now could stand strong for me
I could say I mattered
I could say NO
I now could disapoint another to show up for myself, knowing that the disappointment was their journey and I had no business fixing it
I had to thank the space and move away, bless it for the experiences and lessons and leave it behind
It wasn’t supposed to become me, it was suppose to teach me
It did
At the exact time it was suppose to
It happened in loss
It happend in change
It happened in pain
It happened in tears
It didn’t happen with joy or laughter
It happend when I felt no hope
It happend when I was empty
When I was my most challenged
It happened in anger
In rejections
It happened in misunderstandings I had to let go of and allow the teaching of it
It happened in letting go of people I thought would never leave
It happend in the learning of how to have a relationship with my son from the heavens, instead of in the physical presence
It happened in sickness
It happened in the lowest times, the hardest times, the most doubtful times
It is still happening and I understand that these times are never to be wished away , but to be observed with new insight
To look into pain and to ache while you smile is part of life’s best and most insightful journeys to success
Happiness is a foundation that requires remodeling continually
Sunshine
Align Again
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
In the consumption of experience complete overflow spills over
No comfort zone to this process
A complete and deliberate graceful transcendence must arrive
A wake-up to what is inside
Memories flow and triggers of the past simultaneously let go
The breakdown and astonishment render inspired risk to be free
Anger must be unmasked as its true self to transform into awareness and not control
As the waves create white caps and the wind howls with fury
I am reminded to be still and let go of worry
Control masks itself and hides its insecurity and the wind forces its abrupt revealing
Inner conversations of fear disengage the heart and build among the scars
Consciousness must arise and trauma is a reminder to align again the heart, body, mind and soul
Purge tension and evacuate from familiarity and risk courage on an unknown path
Invite peace and solitude to your present state
Trust in the disassembling inside and arise to the peaceful place you can reside
Sunshine
Separately Found While Always Connected
and emotion.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Present in the connection
River roaring to its chosen audience
Birds performing a soul moving orchestra
Trees adding their own rhythm practiced daily with precision
While the breeze so eloquently smooths every tune into an inner song
All echoing from the majestic mountains offering a priceless concert
An invitation is not needed
A willingness to enter is
Intense scents of pine inspire your deepest senses
Sweetly journeying through every fiber of pain transforming it into gratitude
Resting freely a top one of nature’s boulder strengths
Love and connection are found
Separate and clearly joined
Birds sing to one another as if love is all that really exists
Is it…..
The sound of the river takes no space, instead joyfully takes ownership of its existence to nurture presence
It carries wounds down that never return
It erases hardship without asking
The aroma of the river and pine create a tea for you and nature to thrive upon
Each needle left upon the ground leaving a legacy of its time here
Burn marks upon the trees carry a wisdom into healing and regeneration
Sunshine
Shine
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
In the heat of the day
The sun pours out its radiance
Reminding me we don’t need anything to shine
Sun rays carry the breeze effortlessly
Filling my lungs to capacity
Healing me from the inside out
Creating space to shine
Nature is where harmony lives
Peace is what nature gives
Sunshine
A different View
Perspective is an ever-changing event, a willingness to bend and turnaround, it is created through movement inside and out and inspired by experiences all around.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Where you stand is the perspective at hand
Turn around, stand upside down
Perspective is different all around
From ones eyes, organization may apply
From another’s eyes a mess is addressed
Alignment depends on where you stand
Not an understanding of what is planned
With two views communication can be misused
There is no one that can see exactly like you
The core of who we are is the focal point of near and far
Past and present play a part
Memory is stored in our heart
Experiences inspire our perspective
Perspective is built from our experiences
Planting seeds is how the forest grows
Tearing it down gives you different results
Build your perspective with grace
Understanding it is different in another’s space
SUNSHINE
These photos are the exact same log with the same rock stacks, nothing was changed or moved except my view. Sometimes when we take the time to look at things from a different view we start to see something new. Something new to learn and a different experience so we can start to see other’s views too.
Connection
An experience requires presence, presence requires connection, both dance together on a foundation of trust and truth, without one of these a gap is left to chance.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
When paths cross
Memories are etched in time
History is created
Lessons are learned
While the heart logs every turn
Nothing remains but an experience
In the experience we have created
Through the experience purpose is build
Among the experience shifts take place
Growth takes on new meanings
Purpose becomes more important
Loss trickles in and reminds you nothing remains
Where the heart remembers the experience you gained
Calling you to be more
To let go of fear and failures
To believe in your truth
To live more
To love more
To connect more
To look into life with eyes from heaven
Sunshine
In this unsettled time in life and a global distress, an awakening of emotions and connection has become clear. We want more connection, more authenticity, more of each other and less separation. We only have this moment, what is next is unknown and if this moment is left without true and trusting connection, we have chosen to be alone. For some this may be exactly what you want. For most I see an awakening for deeper connections with family and friends and ourselves.
Connect with the joys of life, pets, family, adventure, faith, believing in oneself more, growth, learning, education and so much more….. When you lay your head down at night, are you proud of yourself for all you have shared, were you kind, loving, compassionate, truthful and did you learn something new?
Did you treat the ones you love with an inspired attitude and love, to create the love you want in return?
Raindrops
It is when you realize all attachments to emotions are like rain.
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Within every rain drop a mystery
Power in a rain-drop creates history
Anticipation of more appears
Raindrops enter like heaven’s tears
Cleansing all thats near
How many are there
Where did they hide
Is there matter attached inside
How does condensation appear
With weather, with temperature, with the clouds near
Why don’t the clouds fall down
Does a raindrop feel the ground
Raindrops inspiring curiosity and wonder
Often joined by sunshine and thunder
Watering the earth
Filling the lakes
Provoking inspiration through Gods grace
SUNSHINE
Somedays will be so hard you wonder, how and where, what and why? What is hard now , won’t seem hard later, your strength is always challenged by the coming together and falling apart of life. The rain will come, it will wash away some things and it will dam up others.
It will depend where you are standing when it rains, you must decide when the rain is talking to you and when its cleansing you. Is it moving you or is it cleansing you and how will you know?
Nature always explains everything, it is the grace of God speaking.
You may not see grace in it, you may only see fear or grief and so many other feelings of despair you just don’t want to bare.
When you stand in the grace the emotions will not be attachments but simply rain drops reminding you, you’re alive!
Butterflies
See the Butterfly in the light?
It is in the transformation we find our design.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
A butterfly will make many changes before it flies
Struggles will be part of their life
A necessary morphoses designed for each
The delicate awaiting of transformation will teach
The struggle is not always clear
A need to know is often driven by fear
Transformation comes within the struggles of time
A willingness to arrive in your own design
SUNSHINE
There will be pain and blessings, smiles and tears, both will be ok, both are needed to be who we are meant to be. Without struggle we would never know freedom. Without transformation, we would never see growth. Without love there would never be pain but with no pain we would never know the depth our love can reach.
To arrive in our own design, to me, means that we arrive with all our emotions, our lessons, our grief, our sorrows. To bring our joys , our trials and triumph and that we arrive in our fullest capacity to delicately transform with clarity that some things are never clear just a necessary part of our design.
Love and Hugs, Sunshine
Rays Speak
Stand in the rays of glory and surrender to rejuvenation and renewal.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Within your rays
Prayers are arranged
Glory speaks to the heart
Reflection meets presence
Resemblance delivers peace
Surrender rejuvenates intuition
Renewal arrives with ease
It is in your image
Under your rays
Renewal stays
Sunshine
When you just stand under the rays of Gods grace, the energy of this miracle will embrace you in your place. It will renew you, rejuvenate you and it will speak to you in the presence of surrendering to a voice that is most loving.
We tend to be hardest on ourselves and can question our thoughts and our emotions to a point confusion tires and clutters our intuitions and turns our knowing into a guessing game of maybes.
I have found that just even a moment under the rays renews my spirit and fills me with gratitude and my breathing becomes calmer and somehow I am delivered into peace with ease.
It is the rays of sunshine and the lakes and river waters I am called often, to hear the most steady voice and in this I am fully revived.
Find what that is for you and be called to it and listen.