It was written in a note

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There will be breakdowns that lead to breakthroughs that build your character, embrace them all.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

There will be days when you pray
Dear Lord guide my way
When you surrender and say
I trust the challenges of lifes relay
When play is a series of events
Where break downs you cant prevent
Where solutions are what you invent
Where connection never ended
Where the road pointed other directions
Then one day you see the prayer you wrote
The way you kneeled and surrender spoke
Paved a way back to the note

SUNSHINE

Waterfalls

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Let go of anything that crowds the space where love grows!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Indescribable alignment

Where her soul flows

Her heartbeats slow

Where pace is not a race

Where the entities of space wrap her in golden light

Where turquoise hues offers a sanctuary of internal views

It’s deciding the rubble and dust is simply the introduction

Her souls invitation, trust me

Step into the rubble

Step lightly, breath slow

A few more steps

Then a waterfall

The rubbles cleared

I’m here

Believe me

I’ve never left you

I’ve always been near

Sunshine

Astonishment

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Enter into the unknown where wonder astounds you and curiosity continues.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Bravely enter the center

Where you’ll tiptoe into imagination and transformation

Entangled into a creative wonder

Astonishment of natures Beauty

Creating a thunder of emotions

Dancing in the streets

Be with it

SUNSHINE

Quivering Refinement

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It’ll be in the calmness of the breeze, a peaceful ease, the ripples will reflect the quivering of life aligning and refining you.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

In the calmness a clear reflection occurs

A peaceful ease

Then a breeze

Ripples quivering the reflection of life

Aligning and refining

To the vibration of mothers earths choice

Scattered thoughts fall into place

Nature reminds me, stillness has a voice

To align you

To refine you

~SUNSHINE~

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Truth and Courage

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Every emotion felt has grown from an experience past, waiting to be set free at last!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

The urge to sustain in an experience past

To flutter in the moment pleading it to last

Wandering into the crevasses of anywhere

Filling the cracks one at time with life

Otherness becomes clear

Visualizations take shape and appear

Truth and courage trump fears

Like a wish in the breeze

Setting every emotion free

You’ll see

How super fantastic your world can be

SUNSHINE

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Infinite Light

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A covering of truths is a silence of scarred fears and an unwillingness to adjust and move!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

In the random coverings of our deepest truths

Under layers of emotions, doubts and un-still fears

The covering floats, moves, and allows us the process to adjust

Temporary rest requires a respectful gathering of truths

A clearing of what no longer serves you and thickens the plot of emotional chaos

Adjust your movements to free space in the gallery of your anatomy

Movement and adjustment opens truth

It is not under the cover you take off in flight

It is in the respectful process under cover

You move into the infinite possibilities of light

SUNSHINE

Aligned

 

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It is in the water where I am completely aligned, where the heavens are close and love is all I know!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Adventures to everywhere

Seeing somewhere

Basking in a breeze

Carrying with it the pine trees

Hearing the heartbeat of the earth

Vibrations rumble at every birth

Newness enters at every moment

New to the earth

New to the heavens

Together and never separated

Every body of water joins me to you

Sunshine

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Feel your Maximum

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Capacity can be stretched, giggles can be set on repeat, maximums are wasted when undone and love has no regrets!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Free to run like the wind
Let your heart race at top speed
Feel your maximums
Majestic strength lives
Invest in your capacity, leave nothing undone
Touch the earths surface, giggle and have fun
Explore, express, live without regret
Then rest for more and nothing less

~Sunshine~

Part 3 “Changed Forever”

The Universe belongs to us all in abundance, the resource of all healing, understanding, unconditional love and freedom to explore more, when we are open to more, more opens to us!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Down a dirt road…..

In a space where my wounds were opened and Mother Natures land held me and the skies enveloped me and Zak(my forever 24 year old son in heaven) confirmed his presence to show me the way.

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It was an early cold morning, a long night talking with Zak, trusting he had my back. Things were different inside me this morning and I felt like Zak had my hand.

I didn’t know what I was doing or what was about to happen, but I knew it was going to change me forever.

Just as Zak told me it would.

No words were said, an uncomfortable silence lead the morning. A story that would change my life that day arose. I roared from an inner flight or fight, everything inside, that had been bottled up, unshared, unheard and undone was ready to fight for me, finally.

I erupted from a silence inside, every emotion spilled out like a waterfall. It was spilling out of every cell of me, frustration and silence were completely uncapped, there was a break down that soon gave me ground for a break through and the universe said, “Lets DO this!”

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This is where it gets sticky, where someone else is involved and blame can be placed. However when you blame, you give away your power to shift your lesson into wisdom. I surrendered into it and let it eject from my core with the force it was demanding. It was time to shift and that meant inviting source energy to swirl me in gratitude for the moment presented.

It was about gratitude not blame, it was about standing in my truth and my power and allowing the universe to fill me with the natural emotions I was honored to experience and I was trusted to assimilate it all, so I could eventually share it.

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THEN…..My entire life felt as if it stopped, for a second, panic, I embraced it, for a second anger, I embraced it, for a second, blame, I embraced it, for a second I wandered too far into someone else’s story and needed to get back to mine.

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Ultimately it’s what is inside you that creates your view. What I saw next, was a new view, and I felt Zak say, “mom I got you”.

I looked around and the silence and serenity was one with me and all that nature offered was a part of me.

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I drove my car down the long bumpy dirt road, missing the potholes that were gracefully placed. One wrong turn of my steering wheel meant I could bottom out and rip the under carriage among other things in my car.

I had no phone service where I was and although that wasn’t a big deal to me, I knew I needed someone to be on the other line as I experienced the shock waves barreling though me.

I looked up and the dust of his truck disappeared, the engine I could no longer hear, I called and he answered, what was said next, shot me into a slow motion reality and then the phone was silent.

I was frozen in time, and I will tell you this part of the lesson is so

deep for me.

Telling one side and leaving the other side only in my journal has been something I have truly had to dig deep into before deciding. How do I tell just one part without the other, it all creates the total story, of love, loss and devastation, learning, living, creating and reinventing, or does it?

We all have a journey we must travel and for me, my journey is to stay present in my own healing because that is ultimately where I have freedom to be me, all of me! Thats where I am empowered and transformed, thats where change is made.

At the end of the day, did I live my truth, fully and without hesitation? 

Did I love with all of me?

At the end of the day, do I feel good about who I am?

Life is our experiences and what we learn from them is up to us.

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I live to the fullest and I love to the fullest. I also am hurt easily, super sensitive and I never want to hurt anyone. I’m an old soul empath and a Libra to the core, hurting anyone is the most painful thing to me and I use to own it in my own worth.

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NOT ANYMORE!

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This is one of my biggest challenges I have been doing the work on for years now. Not owning others pain, walking with them, not for them. It took me years to see this and I practice it daily, living in the present moment and asking myself, am I willing to feel it fully to heal it fully? Is it mine to heal or shall I return to sender?

I made it to the end of the dirt road carefully and took a left making it about 1/4 mile, I felt my body give way, I had no air to breathe, my chest caved in and panic and shock set in. I pulled over and went down another dirt road to cry and scream and to just let go.

I finally had service on my phone here. I called my mentor who is an energetic healer.

My panic said it all, I needed immediate energy help, I spilled out the finer details and then needed to get off the phone. I felt immediately sick and needed to scream to the heavens. I hung up and fell to the ground surrendering all of me.

I wept harder than ever on my hands and knees in the dirt and screamed to the heavens, I surrender, I don’t want anymore pain please, take me, make me, do whatever, just please no more, no more. Whatever I have to do, help me create a new path, a look outlook.

I called my mentor back and just set the phone down unable to talk. THENNNNNNNNNNN.…….. in the mountains in Utah in the hills, set nestled into the trees of a path less traveled a fighter jet flew so low and right above me I could see the details,( Utah trees where I was, were short) then another, the ground rocked, my car shook, my angel kitty took cover and I burst into tears. It was Zak, and not just one but 4 or 5 I’m still not totally sure the number but my friend said to me on the phone, its Zak. Thats Zak and if I wasn’t on the other line I’m not sure even I would believe what just happen.

In Zak’s honest engine voice, he said, ” mom what I couldn’t change on earth I can intercept from heaven, because your my mom.” I chose you to be my mom and my place as your son is never done. He continued to share with me so much more. I pulled up my boot straps and explored and wrote. This journey had just begun for me, it wasn’t just a Zak healing anymore, Zak was with me, he laid out a plan and it just kept rolling. I followed and along the way a fighter jet would confirm to me I was going the right way.

You see when Zak took his last breathe, a fight jet rocked my world as I crawled outside and laid lifeless and frozen for hours before I could move again. After he crossed over I took a long drive to my favorite place on earth. He continued to show up in fighter jets among other signs that came left and right. This one has shown up at the oddest times and places but the perfect times and places for me.

I can go on and on about Zak’s presence with me, my journey and all the signs he was so close, but this moment in perfect timing, in a fully traumatized state on my knees in the mountains of Utah in the exact second I surrendered fully, right above me, close enough to see details, he showed up to confirm to me, he intercepted my path and changed my view, exactly what I asked for at exactly the same timing.

Confirmation, we have only the power we allow!

Zak lives on and there is never a day he does not show up…………………..

Zak took me back to every space on that 40 day journey that needed restoration and a new view and we healed it all.

I am free to be ME!

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