BUSY or LIVING
Is life experiencing you or are you experiencing life
The rejection dance…..
I hurt so I’ll take time away
I’m mad so I’d rather not talk
I’m in pain so I want to be alone
I’m busy so hold on
I’m overwhelmed I’ll talk to you later
My phones ringing
The kids are screaming
My spouse needs me
My boss is calling
My animals are waiting to be fed
I have to walk the dogs
The kids have activities
I have to make dinner
I have to do laundry
I need to vacuum
I have to get papers in order
I need to post on social media at least for business
I have to workout
I need to mow the lawn
Pick up dog poop
Weed the gardens
We need groceries
My cars a mess
The garbage has to go out
Oh ya I need a shower
Do I have time to wash my hair this week
I need a coffee
I forgot I had that appointment
Oh no I double booked myself
Oh ya the event
Oh shoot I have three meetings this week
A to do list that goes three pages
I need to call my parents
Oh ya I have to help my parents
My kids want time
My friends need time
My spouse needs time
So rejection follows
It dances in the hearts of our loved ones
Life events own you
There is no control
Your controlling, controlling your schedule
Who needs that, just text
There’s an app for everything
Download another one, it’ll keep you in touch
Watch your favorites by video
Touching or hugs get you arrested
Gestures are all lost in assumption
Give and take has been crammed into a Marco polo app
There is no time for kids to experience nature
Grandparents are no longer a legacy
Unless you live within 10 miles
There is no time for the silence that heals you
Where is everyone at dinner
There are no family dinners
Phones are not on walls
They are permanently attached to the body with fancy phone attachments
Everyone is a life coach and everyone has an answer
In laws and outlaws fight for holidays
Children wait for gifts and have no idea moments are priceless
Holidays are an eruption of anxiety and arguing over schedules
Splitting each human into more pieces
Nature is no longer a way of life
Real food doesn’t grow its scientifically modified
Fast food and fantasy are peoples truth
Farms, barns and real labor are almost extinct
It’s a life children see on an iPad
It’s a google search so not to get dirty
It will just add more work to the daily routine
I need an island vacation
I need another vacation from my vacation
I miss the kids
Wish you were still at the island
Where is prayer
Where is God
Oh ya I forgot my prayers
Hurried through life
Then, there I was in front of my King
Humbled and unable to change a thing
I missed my mother’s face
My father’s hug
My children never experienced summers at their grandparents
My hair is grey
My muscle tone escaped
My brain is slower
I’m unsure what happen
I missed it
I was too busy being busy to realize I could have been living
I have so much to say on this subject, our legacy of life is getting lost in cell phones, iPads, computers and conversation is luck of the draw. Social media connects us but it does NOT CONNECT us! Busy schedules push you through your day so you can get a one week vacation to want another when you get back.
Kids are too busy now days to learn what a farm is, to plant real food, to hike in the mountains and experience where fire wood comes from. Knives are not allowed anymore to carve sticks and create something from nature. REAL guns aren’t allowed so we buy our kids toy guns and tell them at the same time guns are bad.
Food is so modified our children don’t even know what real food is anymore, they think the modification means real. We have no idea who is a boy or a girl anymore and wonder why our society is so confused.
I don’t usually burst out of my sunshine in to a human rant of frustration but life is for LIVING and experiencing and I cant believe the changes in how I grew up to now and the changes that are driving America to DEVASTATION!
It is during the climb where you gain strength, then at the horizon you learn, you have to go down, the peaks will vary and so will you, it is in the infinitely divine strength no wavering will be build in you.
Over and under
Around and around
Abound, rise up, decide
Reflect your light
Time doesnt wait
Wait not for time
You’ll fall and then stand tall
Make an impact
Life is a gift
It comes and then it goes
Unwrap your soul
Free your spirit
HE IS EVERYWHERE
Emotions are not road blocks, they are the hardware of your internal compass guiding you to success, malfunctioning happens in the chaos before entering presence.
Your my wind
The sun I see
Waterfalls in front of me
Your the rumble of the earths call
Your in nature centering it all
Your the waves in the ocean
Your my heart beating
Your the footprints I see before me
I saw you fly by
Leaving me a jet-stream in the sky
Your in the crickets singing lullabies
I hear you whisper, “Momma don’t cry
Look at me, wild and free
Success momma, is a place, you’ll see
Your set free to be
No separation from the land and sea
I’m with you MY MOMMA eternally”
As some of you know and others will hear along the way, my son passed on to his new place on July 30, 2017. There is never a day I don’t talk about him and never a day I won’t. Some people don’t know what to say, others don’t know how to hear the joy in the tears when I share. So silence has been my healing space, a place where Zak meets me face to face.
Silence gives room for emotions without the interference of chaos.
The capacity to understand is beyond me, I simply ride the wave and learn as I go. Emotions take over most of the time. I used to think I had to learn to control the emotions. In my meditation and silence I agonized in thought I had to accept(which I haven’t and as of now, it not on my list of somehow) that my son is gone. Because to me what works, is believing in the signs he’s here, it’s different that’s clear. However that’s my reality and the way the movie of emotions play in the silence inspired by every wave.
Accepting another way wasn’t working for me, instead I gave in, surrendering to the silence within, visualizing emotion in space, allowing it to be, as if it was a movie in front of me telling me a story, it showed me something profound.
Its your movie, its your story, let it play, let it make sounds, let it guide your way. Surrender to the silence where the movie can play without interference of the chaos in the day. This is where the chaos stops playing and emotions can be set free to find their way successfully.
It is up to you to allow emotions to have wings, they need room to fly, to experience and thrive, they can’t grow or go if they are trapped in the chaos of our minds.
Silence is stillness within, it doesn’t have to be without movement or a physical paralysis, it is within, a decision to let go of the wings you tie down on each emotion found. Let them fly in the sky, let them be free to be, to find there flight path succefully.
Refinement Through Exploration
Awareness and conscious exploration travels within, it is a courageous choice to tap in!
Uncharted territory sends invitations
Accept or decline
Conscious exploration is divine
Lessons will be designed and refined
Accepted or declined
Arrival on the other side offers new views and insights
Accept or decline the offer to explore each trip another time
Accepting to move through the exploration with conscious courage
Choice arrives every time
Chart the journey to the view on the other side
Decline exploration without consciousness
Define the experience
Travel safely and courageouly exploring the view
Uncharted territory invites you
Awareness is available
Accept or decline
I realize as I have explored my inner self, my conscious behaviors and unconscious habits that awareness is always ready and available to be tapped into when you first accept and not decline that you truly have the power to be one with the divine.
This is not something you have to search for, it is an acceptance then a walk forward into uncharted territory to allow the new view to create a new perspective. Walk with the awareness you are brave and you are able, you are worthy and you are strong. It is only in our vulnerability and our willingness to allow and accept less from ourselves, that we never see the full frame view.
Let all negative belief be challenged to grow-up and grow into positive perspectives and let the judgements and expectations pour out into transformation. These emotions of negativity that hold you back can rarely be erased, they must be challenged, journeyed and refined, edges must be sanded down and you will find the diamond you are inside.
EXPLORE and FEEL!
Grow forth from your roots and reach for the stars, nothing in-between can tatter or scar the core of who you are!
Bloom into the love you were meant for
Open and color will drizzle a painting upon your heart
Petals one by one come alive in the sun
Grounded and synced with earths love
Grow and reach from the soil to the stars
Extensions of leaves will balance beliefs
Roots will hold you tight
Cheering as you take flight
The sky is within reach
Stretch to the sun 🌞
I learned this last few years , grounded does not mean where you live, who your with or why your there. To me it showed me grounded meant the willingness to connect. Connection to the core and roots of who I am, grounded means to listen to your heart, your soul, your body when it says it hurts or its cold, feels unloved or needs to be held. Connection to what you feel, the emotion that rushes through you and says,” I want attention, I need you, I want to love you and be here for you”, will you listen?
Grounded means the ability to connect to your core truths, hear your intuitions and follow them, leave doubt behind and follow the heart , the pain, the migraine, the body pains, what is it telling you?
It is there FOR YOU, it’s your own private novel of truths about how YOU as an individual work. It is your manual everyone says they wish they had. YOU DO, ITS YOU!
Memories in the Mist
Everything becomes a memory, make your present worthy of it!
As the mist rolls down my face
A memory embraced
Where unfiltered fun was at our finger tips
Where we raced grocery carts at night
Where trees had secrets
And dusk was not our weakness
Where coins held doors
And smiles never stopped
Where roadtrips held memories
That last for centuries
Where soul talks lasted hours
And notes where written on napkins
Where we defined spontaneous
In a constant mist of laughter
Let go of anything that crowds the space where love grows!
Where her soul flows
Her heartbeats slow
Where pace is not a race
Where the entities of space wrap her in golden light
Where turquoise hues offers a sanctuary of internal views
It’s deciding the rubble and dust is simply the introduction
Her souls invitation, trust me
Step into the rubble
Step lightly, breath slow
A few more steps
Then a waterfall
The rubbles cleared
I’ve never left you
I’ve always been near
Enter into the unknown where wonder astounds you and curiosity continues.
Bravely enter the center
Where you’ll tiptoe into imagination and transformation
Entangled into a creative wonder
Astonishment of natures Beauty
Creating a thunder of emotions
Dancing in the streets
Be with it