

You are more than what you thought defined you!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
I am more than the child that grew up with fight or flight emotions and feelings
An imposter lived here, a fearful, unready and unwilling part of me
In control of nothing but wanting to control everything
Living in a darkness of the world
Running into it at the same time I was running away from it
Religion captured me and gave me a safe box to live in for years
“Oh,” God is very real to me, but religion is no longer a viceĀ
That box got smaller as experiences got bigger and it didn’t make sense to live there anymore
I couldn’t breathe
I couldn’t talk
I couldn’t move
I couldn’t escape the judgment of what I was told I needed to do and not what my deeper self was calling me to do
I was screaming inside for years
As if I was watching myself from a distance, I observed so much confusion and pain
Filled with insecurities grounded in shame and blame that I could never do enough to erase
What I faced was the habit energy
The energy that was continually lived in fight or flight , over compensations, under compensations and so much more
While smiling and living I was also dyeing
I was raising kids while raising myself
I was married while not even understanding what that required
I lived small because small seemed bigger than what I felt capable of handling at times
I lived on others terms because I had no idea life had terms I had the power to make
I knew deep within there was more
I knew deep within I had more
I chose more of myself many times, to then allow doubt to loosen my grip
I had no idea how to break through to that next place
Disapointing others while listening to my own calling was like climbing Mt. Everest with no training
That’s when I realized it was going to mean I had to disappoint myself
It all required me to re-train myself
I had to change my story and I was going to have to reject the current narrative and disapoint myself by announcing I was more than the skin I had lived in all these years
That would seem like a milestone in gratitude to many, however it meant to me, I had to invite part of myself to move out
I had to leave behind the blame, the shame and the rejections not just of my own but from others
I now could give myself safety
I now could stand strong for me
I could say I mattered
I could say NO
I now could disapoint another to show up for myself, knowing that the disappointment was their journey and I had no business fixing it
I had to thank the space and move away, bless it for the experiences and lessons and leave it behind
It wasn’t supposed to become me, it was suppose to teach me
It did
At the exact time it was suppose to
It happened in loss
It happend in change
It happened in pain
It happened in tears
It didn’t happen with joy or laughter
It happend when I felt no hope
It happend when I was empty
When I was my most challenged
It happened in anger
In rejections
It happened in misunderstandings I had to let go of and allow the teaching of it
It happened in letting go of people I thought would never leave
It happend in the learning of how to have a relationship with my son from the heavens, instead of in the physical presence
It happened in sickness
It happened in the lowest times, the hardest times, the most doubtful times
It is still happening and I understand that these times are never to be wished away , but to be observed with new insight
To look into pain and to ache while you smile is part of life’s best and most insightful journeys to success
Happiness is a foundation that requires remodeling continually
Ā
Sunshine
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Wondering down hidden paths
Where surprise and adventure seek to heal
Sorrow and pain often revealed
Dancing with emotions under the blue sky
Taking courage by the hand , not asking why
Allowing grace to fill the space
Where words have become chatter
Quiet intension always awaits with patience
Sunshine
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
A new beginning … the choice is available daily
However ,often it is saved for the beginning of a new year
The past has fallen away as you have slept and dreamed yourself into the present
May your dreams waiting to be fulfilled have a clear path to so many grand tomorrows
Allow forgiveness to thrive within your heart with valuable insights
An invitation from the core of a happy peaceful existence meets you face to face
Honor your deepest growth and spend moments under the stars and chasing waterfalls
Let go of the āwhat and who was ā to see your brightest days
Often the pain of letting go comes with what we think others will feel by our changes
Growth is a choice for all and you will never please everyone and often not even the ones you intent to please most
Keep growing anyways⦠thatās where your strongest self is
Sunshine
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Present in the connection
River roaring to its chosen audience
Birds performing a soul moving orchestra
Trees adding their own rhythm practiced daily with precision
While the breeze so eloquently smooths every tune into an inner song
All echoing from the majestic mountains offering a priceless concert
An invitation is not needed
A willingness to enter is
Intense scents of pine inspire your deepest senses
Sweetly journeying through every fiber of pain transforming it into gratitude
Resting freely a top one of nature’s boulder strengths
Love and connection are found
Separate and clearly joined
Birds sing to one another as if love is all that really exists
Is itā¦..
The sound of the river takes no space, instead joyfully takes ownership of its existence to nurture presence
It carries wounds down that never return
It erases hardship without asking
The aroma of the river and pine create a tea for you and nature to thrive upon
Each needle left upon the ground leaving a legacy of its time here
Burn marks upon the trees carry a wisdom into healing and regeneration
Sunshine
In the heat of the day
The sun pours out its radiance
Reminding me we don’t need anything to shine
Sun rays carry the breeze effortlessly
Filling my lungs to capacity
Healing me from the inside out
Creating space to shine
Nature is where harmony lives
Peace is what nature gives
Sunshine
Within calmness is an untouched space waiting to be entered.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Selected random thoughts swirl within the chaos of your mind
The rest waits, often Untouched and Un phased
Others Return from a sprint of perseverance
Challenge is always within
Quiet reminiscent wonder rises above the fog
Splendor will be released after the resistance we experience through change
Joy will enter when the doors to sorrow have been opened completely
It wonāt be the sorrow that held you back
It will be the unwillingness to open the door and walk through
Sunshine