I am moved by the Creator of the winds and the waves and the depth of the sea, it is within the structure strength is determined.
It is within structure we build strength
It is within courage we face our fears
It is within love we create peace
It is within grace we are forgiven
Silence calls in deliverance
Listening moves through like waves breaking free
Stillness is arranged in readiness
Rivers and lakes can not contain water where our Creators structure was not built
Oceans can not be filled with life without our Creators structure it is held
Mountains will not stand without our Creators structure at hand
Life is passive without faith and love as our structured plan
I have been presented recently with numerous opportunities to walk outside of love and my heart has lead me within, to be still, to wait, to listen, to allow the waves to crash, for the storm to change course and find its resting place.
It is here where I am challenged with societies voice nearby, it is here I am faced with a humble stance to stand within grace, that nothing else comes before and nothing else will matter after.
There are numbers and signs that grace my desk with a constant rush to create a solution.
A voice whispers to me and says, “Do more, you’re not enough, to society you are not to par, you are broken, you are not worthy, shame and guilt try to dance with me, you’re not who you used to be, you’re not who you’re meant to be.”
For a moment I sit and I invite the emotions to express their place, I listen to the speech, to the emotions that swell me in tears.
It is not in the speech of another (fear, guilt, shame, unworthiness, failure, loneliness and loss to name a few at the table waiting to eat), That I swell in tears.
It is in the gratitude I already gave them all my attention over time, I listened and I sat at the table trying to decide, how to live or die.
They are now behind me and the love I finally share and the grace I allow in my space to finally be free of the rushing to be what society expects of me and instead, listen to what the spirit moves through me is the ONLY PACE I FACE.
I am not your normal and if your reading this your not the normal either.
I am not anyones exception or anyones selection, I am not a place to settle and I am not a passive moment. I am GODS creation, I am the daughter of THE KING and I have been placed exactly where I am supposed to be with who I am supposed to be with.
I move with the ripples in the waters and the blowing of the winds within the trees, I am human and I have spirit, I have a body and mind that struggles in judgement and I have a free soul that receives unwavering grace.
I am GODS creation made clearly in his image, I am beautifully and wonderfully made and I receive that with my whole heart.
I am the reflection of His love and I am also human in all my flaws, I am a vessel for Spirit flowing freely and I am a soul filled with truth.
YEP ALL OF THAT!
AND SO ARE YOU from my VIEW, with that structure you can’t lose!