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Heart in Motion
Our heart already knows what our mind has not yet disclosed.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
In the randomness of life emotions are often spontaneous
We feel from a heart in motion
Rapid change can prompt a rapid heartbeat
Our inner compass and weather changes without warning
Breathing is treated as a novelty
Until breathing is done with awareness
Our bodies shivers to alert our temperature
Gratitude alerts hope
Pain alerts fight or flight
All of this alerts action
Straight to the heart of it all
Nurture your heart like you’d nurture the tears of a child
Breathe into your life, with heart
SUNSHINE
When we master the awareness in our alert systems and the timing we take action, we then have less reaction and more action.
Place your hand upon your heart and navigate through a flow of emotionally filled words and thoughts that fill you up, that nurture you’re well being. What would you say to a friend you are nurturing? This may help you return that same encouragement also to your own heart.
Did you know that every change in emotions makes changes in your body that last longer than the emotion. Like building a muscle may leave pain for a couple days, the same is true of emotions, both rejuvenating and depleting. They last and they will either drain or revive us.
We can not control every action around us but we can learn to create a healthier space within ourselves to see the actions around us with a directed gratitude and compassion to our heart for alerting us.
LOVE and HUGS
STILLNESS MOVES
In the stillness you will hear!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
It seems the stillness is where everything is found
Where movement comes alive
Where the waves crashing tell a story
Where the leaves dance and sing with glory
Where the birds soar with intension
Where pain and joy have no tension
Where love remains throughout
It seems in the stillness is where everything is found
Where feeling is in the beat of your heart
Where your mind sinks into a rational peace
It seems that in the stillness is where everything is found
When your lost, be still, you will hear the whisper
Be still it is where everything is found
SUNSHINE
In my stillness I can feel the intensity of all that moves around me. I can feel my heart beating and my chest rising. I can almost see with inner eyes the blood flowing through me. I can see the pain in another eyes and wonder is that the reflection of so much more to be healed within me?
Where you are calm you will hear, where you are still you will know, where you find peace, love will grow.
Your body is already speaking to you, it wants more or less of something, it may be in pain, or sickness or anger has driven a wedge between you and stillness. Sadness may be filled with joyful gestures to cover up the feeling we can’t seem to shake and loss may be settling in your bones with numbness you can’t seem to touch.
What if all of this is ok and what if all of this is the beautiful process we need to become our truest version of ourselves. What if who you are right now is exactly who you need to be ,to become who you want to be. What if every step from this space is a step forward into the acceptance, it is the process. It is the falling apart that requires us to heal.
LOVE, SUNSHINE
Scars
A path of presence is identified by the moments you feel your experience.
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
A path of presence
Resides inside
Waiting to be felt
Alert and aware
Do you dare
Feel the scars you bare
By sight you may see
Scars on every leaf
Scars upon the trees
By sight you may see
Scars upon a cheek
Scars mistaking us as visually weak
Every scar will leave a story
An experience bared
Healing to share
Nature reveals the dance
Along every path
Beyond a glance
Scars reveal another chance
SUNSHINE
We have scars on the physical self that reveal the stories of our life. Then we have the scars inside that reveal the experience of moments in our life often stopping time and the ability to be present in NOW.
A scar a sign of strength that you are capable of healing.
They are there to teach you and to grow you not to trap you and to close you.
Create space where new outlooks are revealed. Getting stuck in the mundane and the ordinary leaves you walking a path unhealed where presence cant be felt or experienced, only wanted and never touched.
Inquire Within
Trust is developed from how you inquire from within!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Dare to live with a curious inquiring from within
Believe in something you’ve never known
Trust in your heart with out questioning the mind
How many petals do you need to land on “love me” to believe it
Renew your spirit and polish your curves
Surround yourself in natures lights
And rest into the darkness of the glowing night
SUNSHINE
Trust is not broken from another action, unless we define it that way. Once someone wrongs us, we stay within that action and own it and live it, losing trust and limiting our love for life and our ability to connect with others.
If we hold that wrong, we then continue to give power to the wrong and the person we feel that did it. In the process of healing I found there also has to be a letting go of distrust and caution to a point you are limiting your own life.
Live with freedom and send back any bad energy to the person dealing it. The minute you decide to give yourself permission to interact within a negative space you take that energy on as your own.
Sender wins and the loss of trust is now building from within.
If it’s being delivered negatively it’s not yours, breathe and physically move your arms in a way that you can mentally, emotionally and physically remove and send it back to sender.
DONE, move out of their energy space, build trust within yourself, this is where defense is dropped. When we respond in defense we have already lost, defense is guilt, a place within we lost trust.
Believe in something you never have……..an example might be believing that 10 deep breathes before you respond will save you a rollercoaster of reactions.
TRUST ME!
HEART SHOT
Shoot from your heart it will always give you the best shot!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Introduced to the skies
Viewed from the lenses of my eyes
Shot with my heart
Melted in the leaves
Embraced by a breeze
Open to a peaceful ease
I was once fully there
Among the blooms
Looking for you
I saw you
In the bloom
SUNSHINE
I’m a human experiencing life, experiencing me.
For the last almost 2 years since my son got his wings I have completely forgotten who I am, how to breathe , smile and get super excited and why I ever worked out and was super healthy and what it did for my soul and my mind and my body.
I wish I could have chosen my feelings somedays, I know it has been said “you chose it all”, DO WE?
Well I sure the heck didn’t choose my son to have cancer and then jet off to heaven before I was ready and if you think I had the power to change grief, THINK AGAIN!
We choose what we can and then we choose how to change the emotion based on an experience. It doesn’t mean it changes, it just means our thoughts are trying to work it out and create a new perspective so we can survive and preferably thrive.
Trauma changes your cellular level, your hearts memories, your responses are not all immediate. You must train your body, muscles, nerves, thoughts and beliefs to do something different.
I used to believe, just believe it. If you believe it, you also must be able to follow up.
When my son left( that D word is just not in my vocabulary) I’m telling you that my life was sucked out of me like a fighter jet going through me at double the capacity of reality.
NOTHING seemed to be left… I was wiped OUT inside and OUT.
Im still wiped out in so many ways and Im not going to pretend I’m NOT.
What I am going to tell you is that being present in NOW , being present in the reality of where I am at is how I’m moving and healing. NOT IN where anyone else thinks , but where I know.
YOU CAN ONLY GROW FROM WHERE YOUR REALITY IS! QUIT trying to grow from someone else’s space or the space in which you think you’re supposed to be.
BE WHERE YOU ARE AND LOVE THE JOURNEY IT’S THE ONLY WAY… don’t waste time in the pretending you’re somewhere you’re not. BE where you are, that is the only route to where you want to go!
Just don’t forget their is a route and make sure you keep moving!
Noise
Down every narrow thought there are holes illuminating truths!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Within is not where noise begins
It is the un-grounded choices we choose to persist in
A river does not stop and wait
A waterfall continues to flow
Without wondering energy will come and go
Mountains reside without a moment to decide
Lakes reflect the boundaries of nature surrounding
Our thoughts will flow when we persist in letting go
Noise begins where we let it in
Getting stuck on a thought and we’re trapped in
Choice is our freedom to make a change
Noise inside is an aftermath we design
Protect your space where calmness is aligned
SUNSHINE
Being calm can be an absolute, a decision to live where your space is aligned with calmness inside. We are NOT created with chaos inside, it is an outside element we decide to invite in. We get stuck in it when we persist and continue on. Even after its gone and done a choice is given to move on and we design a reason to hang on.
Let go and thank your mind, for thinking exactly how it is designed. It is built to think to create ideas, to ask, to find the whys. Thank your mind when you get stuck in a thought (thank you for that thought now lets move on) let it flow through.
Don’t persist on the ungrounded thoughts that keep you stuck, let go and give room to what’s ahead.
Thank you, let go and flow through the thoughts that are driven in from the outside and get stuck within. The chaos of our mind is created when we lose track of the creation where Love is aligned.
UN-Done-NESS
Un-done-ness provides an opportunity and continuation to grow, an inevitable ever changing and re-arranging!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Healing occurs in the un-done-ness
Nothing is done where healing and growth continues
Fire and winds
Inevitable change within
Detours arranged
Subconscious awaits
Un-done-ness
Whispering below the surface
Change me and rearrange me
Scatter emotional ashes like dandelion wishes in the wind
Transform weaknesses into strengths
Un-done-ness
Where epiphanies await
SUNSHINE
Un-done-ness is life, no matter what we figure out, where do we start and do we finish? It is all the foundation of a place you continue to grow. It is all you know, all you experience all that un-done-ness….. the beginning with no end… a continuation to evolve from every situation.
It is inevitable to change, we experience and learn from the changes or miss the opportunities it gave us in the deciding “I’ll never change, I am who I am and I’ll never change for anyone”.
It isn’t for anyone, its for everyone, we share this earthly place!
It is the resistance or control we hold (not to change)….. a resistance to inspiration we may not be able to reach or hold, a lack of worthiness inside us that holds us hostage from bravery and courage to be more than we are today.
Take a look at the world and what moves you. Being uncomfortable allows us to learn things we never would and always choosing where we think we most thrive limits our opportunities to grow.
Thriving doesn’t just happen where we feel bliss, it exists in the unknown or continuation (actually more so), in the un-done-ness, the stage to dance and the opportunity to be more than we are today, to add new steps with familiar steps and create more. Turn the music on and sing, dance and connect to the changes that re arrange us!
“NOT”, changing for anyone means YOU too!
HE IS EVERYWHERE
Emotions are not road blocks, they are the hardware of your internal compass guiding you to success, malfunctioning happens in the chaos before entering presence.
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Your my wind
The sun I see
Waterfalls in front of me
Your the rumble of the earths call
Your in nature centering it all
Your the waves in the ocean
My emotions
Your my heart beating
Your the footprints I see before me
Your there
Your everywhere
I saw you fly by
Leaving me a jet-stream in the sky
Your in the crickets singing lullabies
I hear you whisper, “Momma don’t cry
Look at me, wild and free
Success momma, is a place, you’ll see
Your set free to be
No separation from the land and sea
I’m with you MY MOMMA eternally”
SUNSHINE
As some of you know and others will hear along the way, my son passed on to his new place on July 30, 2017. There is never a day I don’t talk about him and never a day I won’t. Some people don’t know what to say, others don’t know how to hear the joy in the tears when I share. So silence has been my healing space, a place where Zak meets me face to face.
Silence gives room for emotions without the interference of chaos.
The capacity to understand is beyond me, I simply ride the wave and learn as I go. Emotions take over most of the time. I used to think I had to learn to control the emotions. In my meditation and silence I agonized in thought I had to accept(which I haven’t and as of now, it not on my list of somehow) that my son is gone. Because to me what works, is believing in the signs he’s here, it’s different that’s clear. However that’s my reality and the way the movie of emotions play in the silence inspired by every wave.
Accepting another way wasn’t working for me, instead I gave in, surrendering to the silence within, visualizing emotion in space, allowing it to be, as if it was a movie in front of me telling me a story, it showed me something profound.
Its your movie, its your story, let it play, let it make sounds, let it guide your way. Surrender to the silence where the movie can play without interference of the chaos in the day. This is where the chaos stops playing and emotions can be set free to find their way successfully.
It is up to you to allow emotions to have wings, they need room to fly, to experience and thrive, they can’t grow or go if they are trapped in the chaos of our minds.
Silence is stillness within, it doesn’t have to be without movement or a physical paralysis, it is within, a decision to let go of the wings you tie down on each emotion found. Let them fly in the sky, let them be free to be, to find there flight path succefully.