The Stirring

It will be in the stirring you find yourself in the gap!

Kerri-Elizabeth

In the aroma of the wind and the brisk breeze that grasps your hand will lead your heart to purpose

In the flooding of rivers and sudden changes in the lands brings surrender to our creator

The shaking and shivering of trees and leaves circulate a rippling of awareness

The awakening of the birds and the sounds of nature’s presence is the only place you will hear purpose in a voice

Anything less is a counterfeit excursion upon the ship of distractions

You will feel an ongoing stirring and a pulling into surrender that will lead you to where you can hear

In the midst of any storm there is a center of sight, an eye of truth that you can not escape

It is always within this view you will find a gap nothing exists except me

Interference has no place to dance within this gap

This is where you must travel and adventure

This is where the wrestling of wildlife and rattling of leaves lead you

This is where you have been lead after asking, why the lightning storm

Few will stop to hear and see with a desire for knowing, it is within the center and the aftermath peace is formed

Few will feel and only see a sight without ever knowing purpose

Sunshine

After and intense lightening storm and the power of its might and the storms across our nation my soul has been overflowing with emotion and empathy.

I pray for healing across the lands that have been flooded and changed at such rapid rates, where people have lost lives and families that once felt safe are now reaching for their most inner strengths and faith.

It is within that stirring we find, when all else is lost there is always a Gap where you and God exist and there is a voice where purpose has a place.

Love to so many!

Authenticity in Clarity

Clarity is where authenticity shows!

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

In the random coverings of our deepest truths
Under layers of emotions, doubts and unstill fears
The covering floats, moves and allows us the process to adjust
Temporary rest requires a respectful gathering of truths
A clearing of what no longer serves you and thickens the plot of emotional chaos
Adjust your movements to free space in the gallery of of your anatomy
Movement, adjusting, creating, reaching and trusting
This is not the covering but the infinite source of possibilities
Adjust your cover and move into the light

SUNSHINE

I have noticed so many times that when clarity is ruffled and blurred, authenticity is in the shade. There is no point of reference, it is all chaos. First there must be a restful stillness to see and feel your truths clearly. Then there is a letting go of all that is not truth, this requires movement to clear space and allow the light to shine in.

When the light is not shining in, there is an urgency, be still and allow the gathering of truths to shift and move all else out.

Dance , move, stretch, write, sing, paint and get out into nature, breath and find gratitude in your own heart beating.

SUNSHINE PROJECT

His wings fly safely in the heavens and my heart flies with him!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~


Forever my son
Forever my heart
Forever remembered
Never apart
MOM AND SON
Zakary Ryan
10-13-1992/7-30-2017


Healing requires movement
It requires strength beyond what we currently understand
Healing is an action
It is an energy
It requires flow
Surrender
Tenderness
Acceptance
Solitude
It requires re-creation of self
It needs faith
Foundation
Belief
Healing requires understanding
space
forgiveness
understanding
allowance
Healing is individual
It is a force
An unknowing
Randomness
Change
Chaos
Healing requires you to BE YOU at all times
To authentically stand as you are
To gracefully arrive where you want to be
ONE moment at a time
Healing requires you to live COURAGEOUSLY
~Kerri Elizabeth~

I am ready to take this project to the next level, to make my poetry a Journal book. This has been a dream that has evolved with the experiences and loss of my son Zak.

Please watch this video and subscribe to see its evolution.
SUNSHINE Project is hiring hearts to share along the way as you wish.


SUNSHINE PROJECT

https://www.moonlighting.com/story?i=90 Also here is my link to raise enough money to create my writings into a journal. Thank you for your support in any way possible. Please subscribe to the YOUTUBE station, I know nothing about it all yet as far as getting this all out, I am following my heart and I know when we all help one another thats where change and healing occurs.

I would love to add a page of everyones blogs that I have been connecting with that would also refer others to a place of healing and creative thinking and others that understand. Zak always said, “Its time to start a movement”. He sang and wrote songs about it too.

Arrive Within Your SHADOW

It is within our deepest prayers we arrive within our own shadow!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Dear ones, are you aware of the shadow that follows you

Are you prepared for life to crack you open

And shine the brightest light beams past the surface

In our deepest prayers we ask for strength

We ask for connection

Infinite love

We ask for healing

For our dreams to land into the shape of our imaginations

We believe mountains can be moved

That thunder rumbles from the heavens

That love is everlasting and passion pulses within us

Are you prepared to be broken open

To be molded and mended a new

To be aware of the shadow that follows you

You must experience your presence within it

SUNSHINE

When I was in my early 20s I remember praying for God to have me experience whatever I needed to , in order to be helpful to others. I always wanted to be a good listener, that took me years to realize I wasn’t as good as I thought I was. My kids told me that. I listened for countless hours to their stories and moments and spent late nights up with them listening to their days.

Then one day I asked my son what he would change about me, something I had the power to change, not something I already did I couldn’t go back and fix. He answered this,” I wish you would listen first without a response and without a reaction and make me wait to come back and debate the point after you processed it.” He wanted to be able to debate NOW, not later, to be heard fully without my own processing, because to him that meant he wasn’t heard and I was gearing up for a reaction.

That wasn’t my take on it, however I changed that as fast as I could and learned a response or reaction wasn’t even necessary. He just wanted to be heard fully and completely and acknowledged for it without any response from his mom.

Later I learned my daughters felt the same. This left me feeling as if I was never to be heard and I had no say in any matter at all without them feeling as if I was one over them.

Frustration for years surfaced and often still I am reminded, we all want to be heard, a response is not always necessary or needed and a reaction is always best left beyond the shadows.

RISE

It is in the surprise where you have the chance to rise.

Kerri Elizabeth

This moment etched in gratitude
What you see
Changed suddenly
A turn of events
A wonder woman arrived from inside
God gave me grace and trusted my strength
That lake is frozen
Somewhat…….
Less than enough
Take nothing for granted
Breathe in faith and love daily
Let love be your way
Let strength take shapeArrive and say
Thank you God for everyday

SUNSHINE

It was a beautiful day just a few weeks ago I took our dogs to my favorite lake near by. My best self rises within and near Gods amazing gift of water.

This day there was still an ice covering on the lake, so I parked farther away to let the dogs out to do their thing and their love for water spoke louder than their need to squat. Off they ran straight for the lake, nothing was going to stop them and I was in for a surprise.

Our oldest is an amazing swimmer, she thrives in water like I do. She ran right up on a far away bridge going over a section of the lake. I had not been over that bridge or to that section of the lake, I thought the bridge went all the way over. From where I stood it looked that way, so I took a deep breathe and went behind them to get to the other side.

Well, that bridge went down to the water level in the middle, this is where the surprise gave me a challenge I never imagined.

Our Rudy ( my lil boy) LOVES SNOW and all he saw was HURRAY snow on the lake and took a leap right on to the ice capped lake.

NOT frozen enough for me to get on it too, I tried to call him back to me and he thought it was time to play and get me on the snow topped ice on the lake.

The details of the next few moments are heart pounding as he fell through the ice and I was trying to keep the other two from jumping as well.

Rudy popped up and grabbed the ice and was able to pull himself and push with a back foot back onto the ice as I kept calling and encouraging him. He was farther out then I could reach and all I could think was how I was going to break this ice to get to him, because I knew the other two where going to follow and I needed to make a clear path for everyone.

This went on for what seemed like hours but it was moments….

After numerous breaks to the ice and falls and encouragement and prayers I was able to get in the water( I threw my coat off so fast to not have weight on me) and hold two back and reach for Rudy and pull him to me.

I think God stretched me in a way humans don’t stretch without his favor wrapped around you. He had me and I knew it.

I got the two puppies thrown under each arm and somehow had our oldest one eye to eye listening intently to direction. She knew this was business.

Thank you God for saving us all…. When I got home Tim told me the day before a man and two dogs fell in the lake, the man went to save his dog and didn’t make it and another man went to save him and didn’t make it and only one dog made it. Bless their souls and may they rest in peace and maybe God had them be a part of saving us.

MOMENTS THAT GIVE YOU STRENGTH!

Heart Felt

The lens of a heart feels the vision.

Kerri-Elizabeth

The sky never falls
The sea never spills
The mountains never move
The sun never stops rising
The moon never drops to the ground
The clouds never go away
Somewhere they exist today
Dancing over an antique barn
Expressing vintage under the hidden moon
Stars still shine without being seen
Amazement is in everything
Emotions dance
Wondering…..

What is the story you hold
Inside these planks
Some solid
Some old
Some yellow
Or maybe gold
Your beauty is real
Revealed
Through the lens of my heart

Sunshine

A NEW DAY

At the wake of a new day the divine light leads the way to the most spectacular confirmations, your going the right way!
~ Kerri Elizabeth~

Shame and blame reside only in the thoughts chosen to proclaim
Withdrawl from the worth of our existance shackles our inner doors
Surrendering is a willingness to breathe divinely
Surrendering to helplessness and unwillingness breeds shame
Surrender to a timeline based upon self not spirit is chance
Surrender to the spirit guidance is truth written into a graceful dance
Love is with our scars and wounds
Rejection and fear offer shaky platforms, reflecting an invitation to change
Stand with me, with all my scars and flaws
Stand with my bullet holes from pain Ceated for light and rainfall to cleanse what remains
Stand with me

SUNSHINE

Love to you all, this day is a new day and you are worth it, live it, breathe it, feel it, see it, care about it, create newness in it, love the moment, be present, sink into the love of natures voice, decide, stand in your truth, be kind and humble.

Love all the way!

I have learned that, to love another fully you must first love yourself fully, yourself as the reflection of our source ( to me that’s God)then in that process you will receive love fully.

To love fully you must trust yourself fully, then you will receive trust in full. To love fully you must be willing to risk challenging circumstances, you must be willing to grow and evolve. To love you must be willing to have faith to move a mountain and stand in your full truth.

If someone asks you a question, you must answer with honesty and full truth. This is yours and the others step to freedom, it is your strength to stand in truth  that removes enabling another to hear the truth.

We must not hide behind our fear to answer and expect growth and love to fill every cracks and heal our wounds. This is our time to speak and be loved for all we are.

The questions are asked as in invitation for both parties to face their deepest truths ( whether they like it or not) and not shrink back.

Be BOLD and BE FIERCE in the truth no matter what it is.

Lay down shame, guilt, tyranny and fear and unlock the shackles that bind and the emotions that tangle and intertwine into confusion and overwhelm.

Do not hide in fear you will be judged or mocked, abandoned or rejected. It is in these things we have an opportunity to build our deepest strengths. There will be mud to trudge, there will be quicksand set in your path and there will be dark days and words that will paralyze you and send you whirling for peace.

YOU become stronger every time you stand in YOUR TRUTH and then, the gift, you will always know whether you are loved fully and complete and doubts will fall away.

You give choice to others and in your truth you will see the truth!

The Pace Inside

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The pace inside is based on our own courage to surrender the entangled knots inside to the stillness that knows no time or restraints!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Perpetual perseverance
Demands its authority
Appearing through emotions
Tears overflow integrated and entangled
Happiness, sadness and surrender have no separation
Inevitable movement continues
“Stop please”, I ask, “just for a moment”
“Slow down, I dont want to miss a second”
The ocean responds, ” I am ”
SUNSHINE

There are times inside the chaos and the history of trauma and our pasts get so knotted up inside we can not feel the stillness, there is a lack of movement and oxygen.

When I get to this place I always realize I am holding my breathe, not trusting and worrying about things I can not control. Then a dilemma, when I decide and realize what I can change, often it’s not what I want to change.

This brings anxiety and it all starts to overflow and tears come like a dam that just broke. It is inevitable, emotions will move, our lives move, our bodies move, our lungs take in and let out air, movement. Our hearts beat, our blood moves, our world continues and the pace inside must find a way to courageously let go and flow with peace and stillness.

Stillness is not without movement. This is a term set out to teach one to stop and feel what is moving without additional purposeful movement, such as the heart and lungs, and our blood flowing.

Meditation and body position invite courage to surrender giving room for oxygen to change the chemistry of the emotion and anxiety to freedom.

This is a lifestyle not a quick fix…

Tropical Awakening

Photo by Kerri Elizabeth/Red Sands beach Maui, Hawaii_DSC1857

It is within the wave that inspires both respect and fear, it is within you to inspire which you draw near.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Fascination overflows and escapes fear

Tears flow like a tropical rain

Integrated into the red sands

Salty waves awaken and exhilarate a radiance untouched

Tides crash upon surfaces like emotions escaping with force

The power of nature rumbles the earth with demand

Nothing else exists in this cove of wonder

Rumbling the jungle trees

Splashing in the salty breeze

Magnificent unexpected empowerment breathes

Set free in a tropical breeze

Sunshine

 

An unexpected opening and healing occurred in the tropical winds of Maui, a trip that taught me more than I could ever ask for and everything unexpected. Life changing events in ocean waves and on an island I have never been.

Road to Hana you are my favorite and I will be back soon, your waterfalls and your magnificent way you grow is breathtaking and your ability to transform me and open my heart and set a breeze to fly under my wings was magic. Thank you Mother Maui for holding me tight, you captured me in ways I never expected.

Thank you for humbling me and reminding me not all water is the same and Zak, thank you for arriving and speaking to me just in time, surrendering has way more power than I ever gave it credit for.

Surrender is not giving up power, it is the power in surrender that breathes courage.