

You are more than what you thought defined you!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
I am more than the child that grew up with fight or flight emotions and feelings
An imposter lived here, a fearful, unready and unwilling part of me
In control of nothing but wanting to control everything
Living in a darkness of the world
Running into it at the same time I was running away from it
Religion captured me and gave me a safe box to live in for years
“Oh,” God is very real to me, but religion is no longer a vice
That box got smaller as experiences got bigger and it didn’t make sense to live there anymore
I couldn’t breathe
I couldn’t talk
I couldn’t move
I couldn’t escape the judgment of what I was told I needed to do and not what my deeper self was calling me to do
I was screaming inside for years
As if I was watching myself from a distance, I observed so much confusion and pain
Filled with insecurities grounded in shame and blame that I could never do enough to erase
What I faced was the habit energy
The energy that was continually lived in fight or flight , over compensations, under compensations and so much more
While smiling and living I was also dyeing
I was raising kids while raising myself
I was married while not even understanding what that required
I lived small because small seemed bigger than what I felt capable of handling at times
I lived on others terms because I had no idea life had terms I had the power to make
I knew deep within there was more
I knew deep within I had more
I chose more of myself many times, to then allow doubt to loosen my grip
I had no idea how to break through to that next place
Disapointing others while listening to my own calling was like climbing Mt. Everest with no training
That’s when I realized it was going to mean I had to disappoint myself
It all required me to re-train myself
I had to change my story and I was going to have to reject the current narrative and disapoint myself by announcing I was more than the skin I had lived in all these years
That would seem like a milestone in gratitude to many, however it meant to me, I had to invite part of myself to move out
I had to leave behind the blame, the shame and the rejections not just of my own but from others
I now could give myself safety
I now could stand strong for me
I could say I mattered
I could say NO
I now could disapoint another to show up for myself, knowing that the disappointment was their journey and I had no business fixing it
I had to thank the space and move away, bless it for the experiences and lessons and leave it behind
It wasn’t supposed to become me, it was suppose to teach me
It did
At the exact time it was suppose to
It happened in loss
It happend in change
It happened in pain
It happened in tears
It didn’t happen with joy or laughter
It happend when I felt no hope
It happend when I was empty
When I was my most challenged
It happened in anger
In rejections
It happened in misunderstandings I had to let go of and allow the teaching of it
It happened in letting go of people I thought would never leave
It happend in the learning of how to have a relationship with my son from the heavens, instead of in the physical presence
It happened in sickness
It happened in the lowest times, the hardest times, the most doubtful times
It is still happening and I understand that these times are never to be wished away , but to be observed with new insight
To look into pain and to ache while you smile is part of life’s best and most insightful journeys to success
Happiness is a foundation that requires remodeling continually
Sunshine
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
In the consumption of experience complete overflow spills over
No comfort zone to this process
A complete and deliberate graceful transcendence must arrive
A wake-up to what is inside
Memories flow and triggers of the past simultaneously let go
The breakdown and astonishment render inspired risk to be free
Anger must be unmasked as its true self to transform into awareness and not control
As the waves create white caps and the wind howls with fury
I am reminded to be still and let go of worry
Control masks itself and hides its insecurity and the wind forces its abrupt revealing
Inner conversations of fear disengage the heart and build among the scars
Consciousness must arise and trauma is a reminder to align again the heart, body, mind and soul
Purge tension and evacuate from familiarity and risk courage on an unknown path
Invite peace and solitude to your present state
Trust in the disassembling inside and arise to the peaceful place you can reside
Sunshine
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Wondering down hidden paths
Where surprise and adventure seek to heal
Sorrow and pain often revealed
Dancing with emotions under the blue sky
Taking courage by the hand , not asking why
Allowing grace to fill the space
Where words have become chatter
Quiet intension always awaits with patience
Sunshine
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Design your space
Upon the earth
Frolicking peace and harmony
Looks for you
Turmoil dissipates
Stress is released
Sky and earth connect
While simultaneously floating
There is no room for the unnecessary
Earth, water and sky encompass all
Imagination becomes reality
Weight becomes weightless
Worry scurries without a word
A slight breeze drops leaves to a rhythm
Sensitivity is welcome not afraid
The breeze speaks
Notice, I’m here
As fast as the breeze goes over you
That too will remind you all else comes and goes
Free yourself from the judgement of time
Be fully present in its place
Your Space by design
Sunshine
Embracing the moments of change teach wisdom in place of resistance and fear.
~Kerri-Eizabeth~
Moments that seem to stop time
Moments where everything aligns
Gentleness and compassion intertwined
Letting go and holding on don’t exist
Presence is perfect
Where streams and rivers run free
Crossing paths with eternity
Then like a tree that falls across the river flow
Forcing a new direction
Beauty of change erupt the soul
Flow is held for a moment
Time is stopped
Panic and anxiety whisper nonsense to fear
Then so clear compassion gently taps
Im here
SUNSHINE
Growth takes a lifetime of strength through every season, don’t miss a drop of rain or a ray of sunshine.
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Whisper to me your journey to the sky
Speak slowly so I can write them all
Share with me every rain drop you’ve felt
Every shiver in the storms
As you stand protecting me
Share with me every ring you earned at your core
As you share, I’m listening
To the winds shuffling your leaves
The crackling among your branches
The dew among the grass sharing precious reflections
May nature always inspire in you growth
Where God so creatively painted all the answers
Sunshine
Complexity will show up as a blueprint defining you and your direction, truth will show up and unravel complexity!
~Kerri Elizabeth~
Truth escapes complexity
Uncovered, unmasked and unhidden
Meaningfulness demands authority
Consolidate emotions and thoughts deliberatly
Undefined by rejection, opinion or judgement
Truth and complexity will rival for mindset
Arrival and appearance are never delayed
Truth escapes complexity
When love has unconditional longevity
SUNSHINE
One of many lessons that have impacted how I see, feel and live my life. Love must have unconditional longevity to escape complexity. Where there are boundaries , conditions live, rejection and judgement reside and live inside.
Having the rules and boundaries defined and written for your family, career or marriage certificate does not exempt your life from complexity. It is the lack of courage to live in our deepest truths and thoughts, afraid we will be rejected, abandoned or fired that create so many rules we leave no room for growth.
I have heard it all, rules are meant to keep you on track, to add order, stability, protection and define a life you can follow like a dot to dot. Don’t go outside the lines or consequences and punishments will be handed out. Sure we learn from this, sure I believe we need it all to learn. However, the consequence resides already inside, the punishment goes hand in hand with the action.
It is in the awareness in the process of making your own mistakes and having an opportunity to grow naturally rather than forcefully and loved unconditionally that gives us inspiration to continue to grow.
It is not in the order or rules, boundaries and confines of ourselves or others ideas engineered in a dot to dot lifestyle that interest me.
It is in the awakening of our own consciousness and deliberate willingness to brave the elements and hear beyond it all that interests me.
The rest is a road map or a blueprint leading us all to the same place. Some of us are leaders and others followers, some manifest and some facilitate, some cry, some laugh, some process then react, some react then process, some support you and some will will transport you…..Some follow rules, some break rules, all have a purpose and all present change and all offer knowledge.
Do you believe in unconditional?
Do you think you live and love unconditional?
What are your thoughts on this?
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