Arrive Within Your SHADOW

It is within our deepest prayers we arrive within our own shadow!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Dear ones, are you aware of the shadow that follows you

Are you prepared for life to crack you open

And shine the brightest light beams past the surface

In our deepest prayers we ask for strength

We ask for connection

Infinite love

We ask for healing

For our dreams to land into the shape of our imaginations

We believe mountains can be moved

That thunder rumbles from the heavens

That love is everlasting and passion pulses within us

Are you prepared to be broken open

To be molded and mended a new

To be aware of the shadow that follows you

You must experience your presence within it

SUNSHINE

When I was in my early 20s I remember praying for God to have me experience whatever I needed to , in order to be helpful to others. I always wanted to be a good listener, that took me years to realize I wasn’t as good as I thought I was. My kids told me that. I listened for countless hours to their stories and moments and spent late nights up with them listening to their days.

Then one day I asked my son what he would change about me, something I had the power to change, not something I already did I couldn’t go back and fix. He answered this,” I wish you would listen first without a response and without a reaction and make me wait to come back and debate the point after you processed it.” He wanted to be able to debate NOW, not later, to be heard fully without my own processing, because to him that meant he wasn’t heard and I was gearing up for a reaction.

That wasn’t my take on it, however I changed that as fast as I could and learned a response or reaction wasn’t even necessary. He just wanted to be heard fully and completely and acknowledged for it without any response from his mom.

Later I learned my daughters felt the same. This left me feeling as if I was never to be heard and I had no say in any matter at all without them feeling as if I was one over them.

Frustration for years surfaced and often still I am reminded, we all want to be heard, a response is not always necessary or needed and a reaction is always best left beyond the shadows.

In the Details

Its in the details we experience wonder!
~Kerri Elizabeth~

In the details an image is created
Reflection is stated
In wonder we are inspired
Listen to the vibration

The living breath of creation

Stay and pray
Answers will wake you
They may shake you
They may disappoint you
They may leave out details
Persevere

Answers are in the details of creations reflection

SUNSHINE

HER HEART LEADS


To love without the attachment of time is the definition of presence.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

In her heart she is still
Moved by love
She lays upon your own heart
Moving your anxieties into peace
She is loyal to her closest connections
She is fierce in her protection
Her honor and unwavering love, if compared to the largest mountain
Supersedes it’s existence beyond multitude
She stands with her side against you and demands your hand upon her
She is more beautiful than a million lillies in a valley
She is a healer
Send directly from the heavens
Her patience is beyond a butterfly bursting from its crysallis
She will wait in your space for her moment
You can not dismiss her importance by her patience
She is not shy to draw you to be present in the moment
She teaches that time is not a definition to love
To love without attachment to time is the definition of presence

Sunshine

Experience Moves Us

Life is your platform to dance!

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

To experience all of you, you will fall face first in the sand and get stuck in the thorns on new paved paths numerous times.
Then you’ll bounce and catapult into a scream hallelujah as you rise above.
You must face ridicule and judgments, failures and frustrations.
You must be able to cry and scream and stomp your ever loving mind out of believing your less than enough.
You must be able to stand firm and face your truth and your worth, even when it seems monetarily emptiness is what holds value.
You must hurt and feel pain, you must dig so deep the inner fire seems impossible to reach, even at times may not be visible or even apparent it existed.
To be all of you, you will be invited to eat at the table with vulnerability, guilt, shame, loss, heart ache disapointment and then dance on the table it was served on with the very strength and courage it brought you.
See it how you want to, shake it up, shake it off, shake it like you mean it
Shake or be shaken

Sunshine

I had an interesting question asked to me the other day. I decided I would just add the video I made and posted on Instagram. It’s interesting  and when asked my first thought was, why am I being asked something for someone else?

Lately I have been experiencing something I’m going to start talking about openly, because it is a subject that I think needs a voice.( stay tuned)

I am a daughter of a KING, chosen to love and chosen for as much good as I can humanly spread around. I fail, I fall, I trip, I get back up, some people like me, some don’t, but what is most important here is that NO ONE KNOWS my heart better than GOD.

An opinion of another is an experience one has had with you along the way, these times of life change as we change, we grow and we create our own thoughts about ourselves sometimes based on what another says, creating emotion and sometimes havoc on our spirits.

This can also cause massive growth, it moves us and often catapults us depending on our will and our strength. It can inspire and it can lift us to the moon, opinions can build or shred as well as damage and help create.

Move within the spaces of love and love will be found.

LOVE SHOWS

In our most authentic place is where we trust enough to fall and rise!

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Happiness shines like the sun

Joyous is in the grass that tickles your toes

Courageous rides on the fluffiness of a cloud

Fearing not the unknown

Grace will slide down rainbows and sing out loud

Tears will create lakes where mermaids are found

Stars shake sprinkles in the sky

Falling in love with the Most High

Rock me and sing lullabies

I will trust in you, there are no goodbyes

Reflection, show me my image from God’s eyes

Let beauty build forth from the inside

I pray puppies chase my giggles and sleep by me at night

Leaping into wiggles as if in full flight

Laughter ruffle feathers on a porcupine

No feathers on a porcupine, you say

Ridiculous play

Must a porcupine say, I have no feathers today

In its actions you’ll know

If a feather falls upon you just so

Sunshine

It is in my daily life I see the masks we all wear to try to find where we belong. We laugh at jokes we don’t understand, we go to jobs that build anothers dream. We get stuck in a place our worth is defined by another.

ANYTHING less than our authentic selves serves no one other than our scars.

Courage is when we trust ourselves to trust GOD to break us free from the wonder if the person beside us has feathers or quills that will bind us.

Warrior wounds tell our story, the quills will fly no matter how fast or how high you dive. You will struggle and you will get hurt, if you didn’t you would never know the difference between a porcupine and a bird or a puppy and a wrong turn.

Thats why Christ died, so you had a chance to rise when you fall!


STRUCTURE

I am moved by the Creator of the winds and the waves and the depth of the sea, it is within the structure strength is determined.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

It is within structure we build strength
It is within courage we face our fears
It is within love we create peace
It is within grace we are forgiven
Silence calls in deliverance
Listening moves through like waves breaking free
Stillness is arranged in readiness
Rivers and lakes can not contain water where our Creators structure was not built
Oceans can not be filled with life without our Creators structure it is held
Mountains will not stand without our Creators structure at hand
Life is passive without faith and love as our structured plan

Sunshine

I have been presented recently with numerous opportunities to walk outside of love and my heart has lead me within, to be still, to wait, to listen, to allow the waves to crash, for the storm to change course and find its resting place.

It is here where I am challenged with societies voice nearby, it is here I am faced with a humble stance to stand within grace, that nothing else comes before and nothing else will matter after.

There are numbers and signs that grace my desk with a constant rush to create a solution.

A voice whispers to me and says, “Do more, you’re not enough, to society you are not to par, you are broken, you are not worthy, shame and guilt try to dance with me, you’re not who you used to be, you’re not who you’re meant to be.”

For a moment I sit and I invite the emotions to express their place, I listen to the speech, to the emotions that swell me in tears.

It is not in the speech of another (fear, guilt, shame, unworthiness, failure, loneliness and loss to name a few at the table waiting to eat), That I swell in tears.

It is in the gratitude I already gave them all my attention over time, I listened and I sat at the table trying to decide, how to live or die.

They are now behind me and the love I finally share and the grace I allow in my space to finally be free of the rushing to be what society expects of me and instead, listen to what the spirit moves through me is the ONLY PACE I FACE.

I am not your normal and if your reading this your not the normal either.

I am not anyones exception or anyones selection, I am not a place to settle and I am not a passive moment. I am GODS creation, I am the daughter of THE KING and I have been placed exactly where I am supposed to be with who I am supposed to be with.

I  move with the ripples in the waters and the blowing of the winds within the trees, I  am human and I have spirit, I have a body and mind that struggles in judgement and I have a free soul that receives unwavering grace.

I am GODS creation made clearly in his image, I am beautifully and wonderfully made and I receive that with my whole heart.

I am the reflection of His love and I am also human in all my flaws, I am a vessel for Spirit flowing freely and I am a soul filled with truth.

YEP ALL OF THAT!

AND SO ARE YOU from my VIEW, with that structure you can’t lose!

New View


It is because of you I had the opportunity to be broken open and made new!
~Kerri Elizabeth~


It is because of you
My cry reaches the sky
That my smile has different shapes and catches me by surprise
That I mourn at times to a depth thats secret inside
It is because of you

I see a view through a kaleidoscope that’s brand-new
It is because of you

Seeing is not limited to a visual cue
Feelings lead to breakthroughs
Experience simply informs us there’s more
It is because of you
I see the sky at such magnitude
And feel the grass blades kiss my toes
It is because of you

My heartbeats with respect to my souls truth
It is because of you
I feel the wind shift each hair on my face
It is because of you
I see fire in a candle with a reflection of truth
I smell every scent traveling through
It is because of you
The stars sing a constant melody I pursue
It is because of you
My pain is not only sadness but something I look forward to
Because of you I am new
Because of you the sunshines with rays filled with an essence I cling to

It is because of you
Beyond all clouds
I live with a deeper view
SUNSHINE




I have had to listen to the presence screaming to be heard inside of me.

Accepting the woman I am as a whole
meant I needed to embrace all of me right where I was standing and search the reflection of brokenness and shame and guilt not meant to weigh me down but an opportunity to be found.
My grief continues to give me a new view.
YES, I cry so hard I can’t breathe and THEN I let go!
So this is what is new!
Resistance is now a voice of surrender, let go to see the view, then decide if it’s a place to stand or move into.
It is waiting for you.
Our heart speaks first and your choice may hurt, but until a letting go happens your souls truth is captive.
Everything has a beginning and an end ,except GOD, so everything I do, I do, knowing GODS promise and view is to see me through.
I’m still here, aren’t you?






Whole in a Shadow

In the shadow she felt her presence and in the shadow she saw she was whole.
~Kerri Elizabeth~


Sometimes you feel a part of you is missing
Lost and forgotten
Could it be
In the shadow you can see
You’re whole
Brokenness felt in the physical presence
Came together in the shadow
Wholeness verified in the light
~SUNSHINE~


Sometimes we feel broken, shattered inside and out and experiences knock our spirits in a tumbling topsie turvy. Take time to be present, without anything else other than God and YOU, to allow the LIGHT of our creator to show you the answers. Gods word never returns void and his light never fails to speak truth.
Broken, lost, without, forgotten, isolated, these words are the PERFECT space to meet our Creator for a good counseling session, no-one else is
interrupting, the floor is yours and the only shadow left is your own, this is sometimes the ONLY place we can hear, its happening for you. You have been brought here not to carry these emotions but to know you are whole still in this space and even more so than any other time.
This is where you are the most vulnerable to holy space. Embrace gratitude for it, this is where we grow most.

RISE

It is in the surprise where you have the chance to rise.

Kerri Elizabeth

This moment etched in gratitude
What you see
Changed suddenly
A turn of events
A wonder woman arrived from inside
God gave me grace and trusted my strength
That lake is frozen
Somewhat…….
Less than enough
Take nothing for granted
Breathe in faith and love daily
Let love be your way
Let strength take shapeArrive and say
Thank you God for everyday

SUNSHINE

It was a beautiful day just a few weeks ago I took our dogs to my favorite lake near by. My best self rises within and near Gods amazing gift of water.

This day there was still an ice covering on the lake, so I parked farther away to let the dogs out to do their thing and their love for water spoke louder than their need to squat. Off they ran straight for the lake, nothing was going to stop them and I was in for a surprise.

Our oldest is an amazing swimmer, she thrives in water like I do. She ran right up on a far away bridge going over a section of the lake. I had not been over that bridge or to that section of the lake, I thought the bridge went all the way over. From where I stood it looked that way, so I took a deep breathe and went behind them to get to the other side.

Well, that bridge went down to the water level in the middle, this is where the surprise gave me a challenge I never imagined.

Our Rudy ( my lil boy) LOVES SNOW and all he saw was HURRAY snow on the lake and took a leap right on to the ice capped lake.

NOT frozen enough for me to get on it too, I tried to call him back to me and he thought it was time to play and get me on the snow topped ice on the lake.

The details of the next few moments are heart pounding as he fell through the ice and I was trying to keep the other two from jumping as well.

Rudy popped up and grabbed the ice and was able to pull himself and push with a back foot back onto the ice as I kept calling and encouraging him. He was farther out then I could reach and all I could think was how I was going to break this ice to get to him, because I knew the other two where going to follow and I needed to make a clear path for everyone.

This went on for what seemed like hours but it was moments….

After numerous breaks to the ice and falls and encouragement and prayers I was able to get in the water( I threw my coat off so fast to not have weight on me) and hold two back and reach for Rudy and pull him to me.

I think God stretched me in a way humans don’t stretch without his favor wrapped around you. He had me and I knew it.

I got the two puppies thrown under each arm and somehow had our oldest one eye to eye listening intently to direction. She knew this was business.

Thank you God for saving us all…. When I got home Tim told me the day before a man and two dogs fell in the lake, the man went to save his dog and didn’t make it and another man went to save him and didn’t make it and only one dog made it. Bless their souls and may they rest in peace and maybe God had them be a part of saving us.

MOMENTS THAT GIVE YOU STRENGTH!