TRUMP2020 and YOU



TO MAKE CHANGE YOU MUST SPEAK and risk the coming and goings of others. 



It’s time to share more…..


This comes from my heart as well and it’s time for me to speak up.

The journey started over 30 years ago when I decided to vote for the first time. I didn’t know a lot but there was one issue I knew about that I wanted to make sure I had a say in. It was voted NO by an overwhelming amount and the city decided to go against our vote and do it anyways. 

That is when I knew for sure I was done with voting, why bother I thought. 

That’s Seattle ( in case you wanted to know) and you can look up plenty on the downfall of this city. Not to mention you can’t drive through it without wondering where our tax money goes?

A city I raised my children to be proud of, an adventure place we seeked with all it’s natural spaces as well as city fun spaces that always lured us, museums, lakes, the puget sound, parks galore, health food grocery stores galore, my favorite spaces and markets and arts you can’t ever get enough of. 

I am simply here to state MY story, not to fight with anyone or be degraded by opinions or even lifted up by the ones that may agree with me.  I’ve seen people stand up and lose businesses and lives over speaking, our military and President do it daily. There has never been a president so talked about as #Donald Trump, people love him or hate him and the ones that hate him will go to great lengths to sacrifice their integrity and honor and loyalty to our country not to mention themselves and families.

My hope is that maybe I can build ONE tiny bridge here that will help someone else speak out with me and together we can all make a difference.

I am here to speak because I finally realized why I wasn’t.

Why couldn’t I just walk into it and stand tall, shoulders back, have an opinion and stand firm in that? 

My self development questions I asked myself:


Am I really listening enough to make my own opinion?


Why have I decided to not listen to this subject is it fear, rejection, pain, arguing, conflict, not knowing enough?


Can I debate diplomatically on the subjects I don’t agree with and am I willing to learn?


Am I worried about someone not approving or disliking me?


Will I ruffle feathers?


How can I grow in resistance?


Am I reading my own SUNSHINE?


It started to shift this last year when I worked in the summer on a farm with the radio on #RUSHLIMBAUGH and #LARSLARSONRADIO, at first I ignored it and I wanted earphones with country music to rock my steps, not politics. 


Then one day I decided instead of resisting it, I would listen, I started to read my own SUNSHINE blog back to myself and reflect on what my soul was saying. 


Resist less, flow, let go and if you are a follower you know what I’m saying. If you’re not, welcome to my heart and soul.


Not only did I listen to the radio talks, I listened to people around me rejecting people that didn’t believe like them. This brings me to a song my son wrote before he passed away July 30, 2017.

Brace yourself, he never tiptoed around his opinions or what he saw happening here on earth, he was a light beyond lights and had wisdom beyond humans. He could see the dark side as clearly as he saw the light side.

My son was an amazing debater and he taught me that being different was amazing, or maybe I taught him that, maybe I taught all 4 of my children that, because they are all stubborn and strong willed. My point is this, I would never disown them or mistreated them for thinking or believing different than me, that opens an opportunity to connect, to learn, to grow, to be diplomatic and practice what you preach, to learn to walk into fear, to be rejected and still see your standing, to be abandoned because of your belief and see it as an open door to freedom.

I never considered myself a democrat, a republican or conservative or liberal or even an independent, and I’m sure not a flat earther or whatever crazy titles that are made up. 

I consider myself a child of GOD, PERIOD and I still stand by that. 

A wonderful friend the other day said, “I can’t see you ever being on a side, your way to free spirited and love everyone too much to take a side.” 

That has been true, I realized recently that I have to take a side or close my eyes and walk blindly.  There is way too much going on to close my eyes. My mom has been telling me this for years, it only took 9 million seeds planted and zillions of gallons of water for her to finally see the growth.

So with all of that, my story is this, it has been easy to #WALKAWAY ,not from another side, but to the side I am willing to risk my own freedom to speak without fear and the freedom to love others that think differently than me without expectations attached.

I am a #TRUMP2020 supporter and as many times as I have been told, “DON’T say you support Trump or mention you lean on Republican territory, your life will be in danger”, to me this meant, if there is fear, then there is change, change is inevitable, so will you be part of the change or the fear? 

You can walk into fear or let fear walk into you, either way fear walks and will keep walking until you SPEAK.

When I really started to listen and observe and speak, I found that I can still see through the eyes of my heart and speak from it and write about it and if I don’t, what I’m writing about is simply on my own deaf ears.

TO MAKE CHANGE YOU MUST SPEAK and risk the coming and going of others. 


SUNSHINE in a different light!



Feel free to share your views even if they are different , with integrity and honor, anything less will be removed!


Forever and More you Soar

“Nature you call on me with such a diligent perseverance and a sweet persistent whisper that runs through my veins and does not take no for an answer, JUST LIKE ZAK!”


This swim was for you my son……………October 31,2019

Happy 27 th Birthday forever having fun
No waiting
No contemplating
No wetsuit
No worries
No fears
Just courage to live
Just deep sorrow in loss
Just memories of your voice
Just knowing you’d say… “you’re crazy, thats freezing”
Just knowing you’d cheer me on, from the shore, laughing and pushing me to do more
Just knowing you’d talk about it for a lifetime
Just knowing it was a moment that created a memory, made me jump
I heard you
I saw you in the reflection of the waters face
I felt your embrace
I heard your heartbeat inside mine
I know you’re there, everywhere
I’m here too
In heaven and on earth
My only son
We’re still together
It is you, so I embrace this pain and this view


On October 31st every year I am reminded on a greater scale the life as my son here on earth is now a journey of emotions and questions and grief and sorrow and memories and heart strings that will forever be pulled and stretched.

I will never be the same, nor do I want to be. I wanted to send this out on his birthday but it has taken me this many days to do it. I write often shorter versions of my sunshine on Instagram before they hit this page. It’s often my leave a thought page at @Kerrissunshine.

Its been only two years and none of it gets easier for me, this year the pain was even deeper, reality sometimes sets in and digs a hole deeper than I can go at the time, so it waits for me. This is where swimming in any weather shakes me up, stands me straight, alarms my system, especially in the winter and gives me a much needed restart and brings me back to complete presence.

My mind, body and heart decided this year , it would be all about spending time with Zak, I couldn’t do anything if I tried unless it included Zak. So work was out and crying and swimming and getting a new tattoo on Zaks birthday has now become tradition.

Take the moments you need and make them what you need to heal, to reveal, to seal, to unveil, to really get present. TO REALLY FEEL TO HEAL!

High Alert

It is not the measurement of self that matters, it is the spirit in which those measurements are carried that are the matter.

In the stirring of emotions

We must push the button, slow motion

Flow will critically alert an obstruction

Inflammation enters with a firm posture

An unforgiving imposter

With an overflow of what remains

Cut off the shackles of chains

Pain will call out, surrender and feel

Let go of what has not been revealed

Without feeling there is no healing

Stop to say no

Circulate love as a calling to your soul

Take care from within

Breathe from the deepest calling God has given

Breathe in and through the vessel that’s you

Infinite love needs room to flow through


There are moments we go and go, we go until we hurt, we reach until reaching is too far and requires a stool, then we reach more and grab a ladder to pull us farther into the reach.

Then reaching requires a reset and requires rejuvenation, healing, thought, rest, letting go, paying attention to what matters and never forget hydration.

When we alter what our body needs based on the pace of the world and the ties we have created to need and forget what honest and true value to our God given bodies require, we shorten the link to our health and our value on life and its importance.

In the process of living, breathing, nourishment and hydration, there is nourishment to your soul and your spirit that becomes deficient and in lack.

This creates vulnerability and requires immediate nourishment and care.

Let go of the requirements of people and time for a moment and look eye to eye with a ready heart to receive the most powerfully divine love, infinitely and powerfully available and never returned in void.

It is within the pain and vulnerabilities, you are being alerted to the deficiencies that require your immediate attention.