Weekly Addition #5

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 Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity, and change.

~Brene Brown~

  How do you show up for yourself daily?

Healing from anything takes times and kindness to self. I’m about to spill some serious information and things I have done this last 8 months healing from the loss of my 24-year-old son, who left this earth without any lack of suffering from Leukemia.

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I never could have imagined in my wildest nightmares what losing a child could do to you. Brene Brown wrote that amazing quote and it’s perfect, it requires a full reorientation of just about every detail of life.

In reorienting, (I’m definitely still in the process), I consider myself to be farther at this stage than expected, for some very important reasons.

I stopped allowing other people to tell me, when, how, or what I was supposed to feel like and I took off on a road trip for 40 days and nights and intended on being inspired and I was that times a million.

It’s not the decision everyone would make. I felt like if I didn’t do something drastic and push myself I wasn’t going to get up at all one day.

The trip had emotional challenges that whooped my ever loving ass and Zak arrived in a fighter jet to confirm I was going to make it as if he planned it all. He knew when, how and the exact moment to show up and it wasn’t with anything less than IMPACT.

Being so vulnerable and so disoriented meant remote quiet areas were a must and just diving into Mother Earth’s beauty was critical, she reflected back to me the beauty I had forgotten in myself and opened creative spaces that had slammed shut.

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The disorientation started for me the day I found out Zak had 95% cancer in his body 5 years ago and in a day all our lives were changed. Nothing was the same, NOT one thing. It was like I entered a new world and the rest was left behind.

Fast forward to the last 8 months……I  knew specific nutrition to get through the trauma I experienced. Be conscious of what you’re going through and evaluate the changes you need to get the best results.

Food Matters Recipes has some amazing recipes and information that will blow your mind, don’t tiptoe – dive in and explore the beauty of transforming your food into giving your body what it deserves.

Here are some Food Matters interviews on the subjects of healthy bodies and minds, dedicate some time to health education.

Gift yourself continual stretching and functional movement,  invest in yourself.

 

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 Allow your body the opportunity to do its best for you.  I am dedicated to this without fail and it has given me back ten-fold, DocJenFit.thinkific.com, she offers courses like The Mobility Method, The Optimal Body, and Grateful for Mobility Challenge. I do all of these but pick one and just commit to 10 mins a day! 

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

I’m sharing this because, through trauma and stressful situations, this is something you can control. I know with all my heart that if I didn’t do these things my health would be suffering greatly.

Thank your body daily for all it does for you!

You won’t escape stress, heartache and a few hard knocks, at least I don’t know anyone that has. I suppose its possible, but what a  bummer to not experience pain, how would you ever appreciate joy?

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Part of my life passion is to help as many people as I can into movement. Movement your face if you cant move anything else and start from the head down.

 

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

One of my other favorites you can do anywhere, anytime and since I have been doing this I have grown leaps and bounds, is the Tapping Solution,  I watched this documentary on The Tapping Solution, and it changed everything for me.

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

Releasing the less-than-positive self-chatter first is key to your healing forward. This might surprise you. I’m NOT a law of attraction fanatic, I’m an earth loving, soul driven, nature-inspired lover, of life and if anyone can make a rainbow from tears it’s me. However, in order to attract the positive, you must heal the negative, acknowledge it, face the truth and release it to make room for all you want to attract.

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

Are you walking around covering your own self-shitty talk with a mask of denial? Face it as your truth and then love yourself unconditionally forward. It’s acceptance and freedom to be empowered right where you are so you can attract what you want and have room for it to arrive.

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

Don’t let anyone tell you, “just be positive” when you don’t feel that way, we already know that part, its common sense. Having it in your face is simply the same as putting your hand up in front of someone’s face and telling them you’re not interested in their truth or authenticity, but if they put on a mask to please you, they will be fine.

Who is this fine for?

Be you in all your beautiful forms, sad, mad, angry, blissful, joyful, blessed, excited, fearful, tenacious, tender, grateful, generous and so much more. These are emotions, have them, embrace them, nurture their evolution of changing, rearranging and creating new spaces for growth.

Here’s another amazing enlighting experience for free www.jovianarchive.com/Human_Design/Why This gave me a wonderful foundation and confirmation of my strengths and weaknesses I was born with and how to work better with my personality type. I’m a manifester, one of 9% of people, this is just a small part of the genetic and energetic make up you will get to know in your chart, to help you create the best success for yourself and it’s fun and interesting.

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

It must all flow to grow!

SUNSHINE

 

Courtship of Strength

Strength is not what you see it the energy moved through your belief!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Strength is not a color or a gender
It’s energy moved
Strength is truth
Strength is not visible or even physical
Strength is believing
The courtship of your being
It’s energy spilling from the tongue and lips
It’s energy in the sway of your hips
It’s energy in your step and even regret
Strength can shatter
It can fill you with all that matters
Strength can sweep you off your feet
It’s the energy in which it moves
that gives it strength.
Do not mistake softness for the absence of strength
Strength is not what you see it’s what you feel coming from the energy moved in your belief

SUNSHINE

Color your world

Reveal the colors of your soul in the life you lead and hold.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

What colors do you see here?

Do you hear the crackle in the leaves?

Or the sound of the breeze?

What path will you follow?

Or do you lead into each tomorrow?

Is it a color that brightens your day?

What color is your emotion today?

Your mind starts to create what you’ll say

Your heart feels the way

Your soul is guiding it all in place

Listen ………

Feel…….

SUNSHINE

A Field of Forever

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Fall into a field of eternal optimism and saturate your soul with courage.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Capturing the essence of beauty

Strength in the bend and sway created by a slight breeze

Colors of pure sunlight with a drop of earthly wonder create a center

Curiosity to grow manifests existence and courage, reaching for the sky unwavering

A seedling miraculously flourishing as a flower

A flower encompassing the essence of possibilities

Fueling possibility, inspiring optimism

Access infinite evolution

Offer only the presence of your light

Allow the tears to interpret without judgement

And your heart to hear your purpose

Get lost in a field of forever

Plow out the judgments of whys and hows

And water the freedom to love and change

Love is without time and space with a flowing of nothing

Erased and everything at the universe’s pace.

Sunshine

A New Day

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MAY EVERYDAY BE A NEW DAY TO LOVE!

May today be a day his smile lights the way.

May today be a day he sees his puppy to play.

May today be a day he can get up and walk.

May today be a day we have another chance to talk.

May today be a day his hope continues to grow.

May today be a day of healing to know.

May today be filled with love and joy.

May today be a day he sees his wife’s face.

May today be a day he can rest in her embrace.

May today he receive my very best.

May today have no stress.

May today be still and his presence be at peace.

May today be a day his cancer will release.

May each day remind us that this very moment matters.

I am grateful I have been gifted a son that has truly been a light , love and life changer for me. He has taught me to be more compassionate, to love without a word because its action that counts. He has taught me strength is our individual perception and that presence is purposeful. He has taught me loving is often quiet and it hears more. He has shown me that being a mom does not mean your boss, it means you have a chance to grow if you choose to. He has shown me pain beyond what I thought I could comprehend and bare and for that hes paved the way for massive change.

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Existence

 

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Be the reflection you want to see!

Kerri Elizabeth

Every move rippling into slow graceful motions.

Energy is like calligraphy written into emotions.

Time is non existent bouncing off anxious existence.

Each heartbeat seems to travel with a delayed remembrance of purpose.

Followed by the rushing of oxygen to the surface.

Breathing continues to give life and each moment is still new.

Eyes open up to the sky radiantly blue.

Life and laughter are lovers undone.

Inner freedom shines like the rays showering down from the sun.

Capturing life in snapshots with every blink of the eye.

Stillness reaches in and grants the depth inside.

Soul conversation releases peace in this place.

Gently guiding your hand to dance with the life you’re given to embrace.

Three Parts of Me

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When the mind talks and the heart walks and the soul hangs on and neither seem to belong. Stay present and at peace, breathe and continue to release.

Kerri Elizabeth

My soul and heart are far apart.

The whisper is here but my mind isn’t clear.

I can change my mindset.

I can create a smile.

I can ride my bike until I drop.

I can jump in the lake and swim to the bottom or stay on top.

I can fall down and get back up.

I can stand tall and take deep breaths.

I can keep writing and let it flow through.

I can choose to let go and keep my love tank full too.

Today I want to scream out loud.

Until my heart and soul jump back off the ground.

I want to run until my feet are numb.

I want to surrender to the silence with the sun.

I want a solution to my sons cancer NOW.

I want to know why and fix it somehow.

He is my light.

My Insight.

Sent to me from above.

He is unconditional love.

Grant me the strength of a LIONESS right now.

Join my heart to my body again somehow.

Soul ,I’m here draw me near.

Mind let go of fear.

Somehow there is an answer here.

Please I’m asking with every cell of me.

Heal his body from the inside out.

Creatively kick that F@@@ed up Cancer OUT.

With Rays of Light.

Prayers on my knees and a fight.

Let this nightmare go tonight.

A Broken Wing Shows You More of Everything!

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A broken wing is not everything, it shows you more than anything!

Kerri Elizabeth

A broken wing is not everything.

Taking flight in front of me a miracle in life so majestic and free.

Wings  spread open across to the sky as they leap without fear sending sounds that will pierce the deepest place you hear.

Without a plan or a thought, instinct takes over and in flight they take off.

The misty air, the clouds out there, it’s colder and colder every day and the dance of life is where they stay.

A miracle in her wings, gliding through the water with one wing, the other broken wing never stopped her from anything.

She carried her wing gracefully wrapped up on her back; she never missed a beat in her dance she would complete.

In the dance of life we can decide even with a broken wing, that dreams are made for everyone and miracles happen, even when we feel broken and undone.

Taking flight is not just in the wings that might, it is in the choice to choose life.

There will be inevitable ups and downs and there will be upside down smiles and right side up frowns, be the miracle that takes flight, leaving behind the fear that might.

Freedom is in the soaring of your soul, even with a broken wing that is not everything.

Sunshine on your flight!

To Be Calm and Still

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To be calm inside is to feel the stillness even when the winds blow or the sun glows.

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In the calmness of my heart the river of love flows.

In the calmness of my mind the sunshine glows.

In the stillness of my body, I feel the whisper of the wind.

In the gap between now and then I feel the moment I’m in again.

In the flow of the day I can say, no one will ruin what I feel today.

In the worry of yesterday, I lose my today.

In the plans of tomorrow I can say, those things may change on the way.

I used to spend my day figuring out everyone else’s way.

Then someone said to me, “how many hours do spend a day, helping others find their way?”

I love to help others along the way, especially my children; they have been my reason for each day.

Now I can teach them, that we can only give what we have, making sure I gain what I want to give is first my responsibility while I live.

Complaining about what you don’t have is only time spent away from decisions you must have.

Waiting for someone else to lead your way is letting go of yourself and the only way that ultimately gives you freedom in your day.

Make a stance for your own life and expect there will others that will stomp there feet to the beat of their own defeat.

Your energy goes where your thoughts go, what you think of most grows the most.

Are your thoughts where you want growth or are they where you want change the most?

Sunshine on your day!

Awareness Is Awareness and explains Awareness

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Awareness and “I” are one chord in the orchestra that never misses a beat and holds strong through defeat, It will meet you where you are and never go far, it is there to see and will always “Be”, turn up your sound and you will hear, the song inside is “I am” not “you and me”.

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As my soul awakens and my body and mind join in song with my soul, I hear every note of my own orchestras beat.

When there are no others I am aware of my space, when there is no sound I can hear my heart race.

Awareness is when others are there and you still are just as aware.

When the windows shutter from the winter wind and the raindrops fall over and over again, I am aware to spare a moment is to leave awareness unfolded.

When I am aware of my inner flow, beauty has an outer glow.

To release “me” to “I” gives insight inside for “me” to go away and “I” to reside.

When awareness is, “I” and not, “you” and “me”, then the darkness of the day and restless nights , pass through your light, without a shadow left insight.

Think about this moment now, are you aware of “I” or aware of the darkness that “me” is addicted to inside?

What are you aware of now?

When awareness is there to bare, there is no place for darkness there.

When darkness is your “I” as awareness when your world is the stipulations of the storms in life, then your life becomes a storm of stipulations and strife, not an awareness of “I” but ownership of something that should be free to pass by.

Controlling a storm, holding the trees still, catching every leaf, barreling every rain drop, damming every river and lake so not to flood or make a mistake, is an addiction to tuning out the notes of your own voice and owning someone else’s choice.

When the storms can pass and leaves can fall, when the rivers flow and lakes become full, when the ocean roars and the sea births more, when “I” and awareness are one chord, the orchestra inside is born.

When witnessing “I” and not “me”, when awareness is awareness with a capital “I”.

When every feeling can pass through you as it is not, “I”, it is life’s song and is not meant to be owned but appreciated as a lesson passing by.

 Like the storms of creation, love them and learn from them and you can ask why, the answer will still never be, “I”, it is meant to be an addition to life, learn and listen to the song of life without drowning out your  “I”.

 I am an orchestra of my own awareness.

Sunshining my awareness!