Growth takes a lifetime of strength through every season, don’t miss a drop of rain or a ray of sunshine.
Whisper to me your journey to the sky
Speak slowly so I can write them all
Share with me every rain drop you’ve felt
Every shiver in the storms
As you stand protecting me
Share with me every ring you earned at your core
As you share, I’m listening
To the winds shuffling your leaves
The crackling among your branches
The dew among the grass sharing precious reflections
May nature always inspire in you growth
Where God so creatively painted all the answers
Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity, and change.
How do you show up for yourself daily?
Healing from anything takes times and kindness to self. I’m about to spill some serious information and things I have done this last 8 months healing from the loss of my 24-year-old son, who left this earth without any lack of suffering from Leukemia.
I never could have imagined in my wildest nightmares what losing a child could do to you. Brene Brown wrote that amazing quote and it’s perfect, it requires a full reorientation of just about every detail of life.
In reorienting, (I’m definitely still in the process), I consider myself to be farther at this stage than expected, for some very important reasons.
I stopped allowing other people to tell me, when, how, or what I was supposed to feel like and I took off on a road trip for 40 days and nights and intended on being inspired and I was that times a million.
It’s not the decision everyone would make. I felt like if I didn’t do something drastic and push myself I wasn’t going to get up at all one day.
The trip had emotional challenges that whooped my ever loving ass and Zak arrived in a fighter jet to confirm I was going to make it as if he planned it all. He knew when, how and the exact moment to show up and it wasn’t with anything less than IMPACT.
Being so vulnerable and so disoriented meant remote quiet areas were a must and just diving into Mother Earth’s beauty was critical, she reflected back to me the beauty I had forgotten in myself and opened creative spaces that had slammed shut.
The disorientation started for me the day I found out Zak had 95% cancer in his body 5 years ago and in a day all our lives were changed. Nothing was the same, NOT one thing. It was like I entered a new world and the rest was left behind.
Fast forward to the last 8 months……I knew specific nutrition to get through the trauma I experienced. Be conscious of what you’re going through and evaluate the changes you need to get the best results.
Food Matters Recipes has some amazing recipes and information that will blow your mind, don’t tiptoe – dive in and explore the beauty of transforming your food into giving your body what it deserves.
Here are some Food Matters interviews on the subjects of healthy bodies and minds, dedicate some time to health education.
Gift yourself continual stretching and functional movement, invest in yourself.
Allow your body the opportunity to do its best for you. I am dedicated to this without fail and it has given me back ten-fold, DocJenFit.thinkific.com, she offers courses like The Mobility Method, The Optimal Body, and Grateful for Mobility Challenge. I do all of these but pick one and just commit to 10 mins a day!
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
I’m sharing this because, through trauma and stressful situations, this is something you can control. I know with all my heart that if I didn’t do these things my health would be suffering greatly.
Thank your body daily for all it does for you!
You won’t escape stress, heartache and a few hard knocks, at least I don’t know anyone that has. I suppose its possible, but what a bummer to not experience pain, how would you ever appreciate joy?
Part of my life passion is to help as many people as I can into movement. Movement your face if you cant move anything else and start from the head down.
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
One of my other favorites you can do anywhere, anytime and since I have been doing this I have grown leaps and bounds, is the Tapping Solution, I watched this documentary on The Tapping Solution, and it changed everything for me.
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
Releasing the less-than-positive self-chatter first is key to your healing forward. This might surprise you. I’m NOT a law of attraction fanatic, I’m an earth loving, soul driven, nature-inspired lover, of life and if anyone can make a rainbow from tears it’s me. However, in order to attract the positive, you must heal the negative, acknowledge it, face the truth and release it to make room for all you want to attract.
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
Are you walking around covering your own self-shitty talk with a mask of denial? Face it as your truth and then love yourself unconditionally forward. It’s acceptance and freedom to be empowered right where you are so you can attract what you want and have room for it to arrive.
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
Don’t let anyone tell you, “just be positive” when you don’t feel that way, we already know that part, its common sense. Having it in your face is simply the same as putting your hand up in front of someone’s face and telling them you’re not interested in their truth or authenticity, but if they put on a mask to please you, they will be fine.
Who is this fine for?
Be you in all your beautiful forms, sad, mad, angry, blissful, joyful, blessed, excited, fearful, tenacious, tender, grateful, generous and so much more. These are emotions, have them, embrace them, nurture their evolution of changing, rearranging and creating new spaces for growth.
Here’s another amazing enlighting experience for free www.jovianarchive.com/Human_Design/Why This gave me a wonderful foundation and confirmation of my strengths and weaknesses I was born with and how to work better with my personality type. I’m a manifester, one of 9% of people, this is just a small part of the genetic and energetic make up you will get to know in your chart, to help you create the best success for yourself and it’s fun and interesting.
YOU’RE WORTH IT!
It must all flow to grow!
Freedom to be is the embrace of trusting the inner pace!
In the brevity of escape
Serenity surrounds with shape
Your truth is where you will be set free
Silence speaks delicately in the gift of a heartbeat
Resounding confirmation of the beat repeats
Calmness sheds its anxious covering
A meadow of brilliance is in continual recovery
Daisies dance while waving to the rhythm of the comforting breeze
Tangoing with the blades of green
Grounded and intertwined in a rooted place
Misunderstood only by the human race
Nakedness will reveal the truth of the heart
Shaped through grace, innocence is replaced
Playfulness is revealed and not concealed
It’s in the climbing of the trees
The freedom to dance in the fallen leaves
It’s in the umbrella of a maple tree
Slowing the pace of the raindrops from space
Shed a tear without fear
It is in the release of the tears your reflection will appear
Evolution of your path is in place
Stay sturdy in the embrace
Processing is persistent persuasion of thought!
Processing and feeling
Grieving and perceiving
Changing and recreating
Listening and learning
Crying and expressing
Shuttering and fighting
Empty and enlightened
Reality and denial
Life and living
Breathing and pain
Heart and soul
Darkness and light
Love in light of the Sunshine
Calm your space and embrace with love the breaths you take!
Brisk yet calming
Centered on the dawning
Flowing yet separated
Joining exhilaration and surprise
Feeling the sting
Reliance is everything
In surrendering what remains
Sunshine from within
Zakary Ryan taught not to believe in the opinions of others, but to deeply believe the depth of your own true worth!
~MY SON ZAKMAN~
His laughter infectious
His joy, uplifting
His outlook radiated champion
His love unconditional
His emotions deeper than the sea
His spirit beyond the human body’s capacity
His gifts moved the planet
He moved with creativity and challenged your thoughts
His soul shared unchartered truths
He pushed the limits and courageously lived
His name forever in my heart
His birth forever my gift of life
His presence and guidance always with me
His voice clearly speaks to me
His journey forever a part of my destiny
My protector, my teacher, my guide
His smile is my sunshine
My baby, my boy, my son, my child, my heartbeat
Thank you for making your appearance 25 years ago on this day
My life has been forever blessed and deeply changed because you chose me as your Momma!
You have shown me a depth I could never have reached or a strength I could never achieve without you!
YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE!
LISTEN WITH OPENNESS INTO THE HEART AND THOUGHTS OF A MAN (my son) WHO FOUGHT HARD TO LEAVE A MESSAGE THROUGH HIS JOURNEY!
The first two songs are close to our hearts, we played them at Zaks memorial and he sang them with his great power all growing up with hands in the air! This boy has a journey and it won’t stop here, trust me as his momma, he has no stop button so watch out he’s making changes!
Wandering into the wonder of grace, surrendering into the light divinely placed!
Lures of love for a mermaid soul
Ripples of wonder rejuvenating the quiet thump of the heart
Mystical and intrinsic sights
Step beyond the eye and into the silent guidance from inside
Earth in miraculous wonder gently embraces a space for mermaids to feel the depth of grace
Gently a blanket of blue offers significant comfort too
Imagination adventures with the soul feeling hues of blues
Flow into the waters arms mermaid soul
Swim into the embraced space earth has given a mermaids heart grace
Sunshine in this place
Revealing your vulnerabilities is a courageous offering of surrendering space to be replaced with strengths.
Be naked in your truth
Surrender through the gates of courage
Allow emotions to move through
Drop all masks other than the authentic, revealing of you
Let nothing interfere in the nakedness that appears
Freedom is in the naked truths courageously facing fears
Surrender into the grasp and allow courage to transform you when you let go of resistance and allow yourself to glance into the flow of the dance.
Dear Fear, what is your purpose here
What is that grasp you hold so dear
Your purpose dear Fear, is it to enlighten my tears
This dance clasping hands and creating grace
An invitation to courageously face
Dear Fear, thank you for sharing your perception of what is near
Your purpose I see now was not to hurt me
It has been here to show me, not to scold me
To guide me, not to live inside me
Dear Fear, the steps of this dance beautifully flowing
I’m learning and growing
Your strength so determined and clear
Captivating me into a stillness I’d never hear without you near
Surrender to the pace of Fear’s conscious embrace
It is that safe place wisdom and strength teach conscious grace
When Gratitude and Fear courageously dance, the lesson transforms the grasp
Dear Fear, thank you for the stillness to hear.