Weekly Addition #5

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 Vulnerability is the birthplace of innovation, creativity, and change.

~Brene Brown~

  How do you show up for yourself daily?

Healing from anything takes times and kindness to self. I’m about to spill some serious information and things I have done this last 8 months healing from the loss of my 24-year-old son, who left this earth without any lack of suffering from Leukemia.

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I never could have imagined in my wildest nightmares what losing a child could do to you. Brene Brown wrote that amazing quote and it’s perfect, it requires a full reorientation of just about every detail of life.

In reorienting, (I’m definitely still in the process), I consider myself to be farther at this stage than expected, for some very important reasons.

I stopped allowing other people to tell me, when, how, or what I was supposed to feel like and I took off on a road trip for 40 days and nights and intended on being inspired and I was that times a million.

It’s not the decision everyone would make. I felt like if I didn’t do something drastic and push myself I wasn’t going to get up at all one day.

The trip had emotional challenges that whooped my ever loving ass and Zak arrived in a fighter jet to confirm I was going to make it as if he planned it all. He knew when, how and the exact moment to show up and it wasn’t with anything less than IMPACT.

Being so vulnerable and so disoriented meant remote quiet areas were a must and just diving into Mother Earth’s beauty was critical, she reflected back to me the beauty I had forgotten in myself and opened creative spaces that had slammed shut.

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The disorientation started for me the day I found out Zak had 95% cancer in his body 5 years ago and in a day all our lives were changed. Nothing was the same, NOT one thing. It was like I entered a new world and the rest was left behind.

Fast forward to the last 8 months……I  knew specific nutrition to get through the trauma I experienced. Be conscious of what you’re going through and evaluate the changes you need to get the best results.

Food Matters Recipes has some amazing recipes and information that will blow your mind, don’t tiptoe – dive in and explore the beauty of transforming your food into giving your body what it deserves.

Here are some Food Matters interviews on the subjects of healthy bodies and minds, dedicate some time to health education.

Gift yourself continual stretching and functional movement,  invest in yourself.

 

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 Allow your body the opportunity to do its best for you.  I am dedicated to this without fail and it has given me back ten-fold, DocJenFit.thinkific.com, she offers courses like The Mobility Method, The Optimal Body, and Grateful for Mobility Challenge. I do all of these but pick one and just commit to 10 mins a day! 

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

I’m sharing this because, through trauma and stressful situations, this is something you can control. I know with all my heart that if I didn’t do these things my health would be suffering greatly.

Thank your body daily for all it does for you!

You won’t escape stress, heartache and a few hard knocks, at least I don’t know anyone that has. I suppose its possible, but what a  bummer to not experience pain, how would you ever appreciate joy?

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Part of my life passion is to help as many people as I can into movement. Movement your face if you cant move anything else and start from the head down.

 

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

One of my other favorites you can do anywhere, anytime and since I have been doing this I have grown leaps and bounds, is the Tapping Solution,  I watched this documentary on The Tapping Solution, and it changed everything for me.

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

Releasing the less-than-positive self-chatter first is key to your healing forward. This might surprise you. I’m NOT a law of attraction fanatic, I’m an earth loving, soul driven, nature-inspired lover, of life and if anyone can make a rainbow from tears it’s me. However, in order to attract the positive, you must heal the negative, acknowledge it, face the truth and release it to make room for all you want to attract.

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

Are you walking around covering your own self-shitty talk with a mask of denial? Face it as your truth and then love yourself unconditionally forward. It’s acceptance and freedom to be empowered right where you are so you can attract what you want and have room for it to arrive.

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

Don’t let anyone tell you, “just be positive” when you don’t feel that way, we already know that part, its common sense. Having it in your face is simply the same as putting your hand up in front of someone’s face and telling them you’re not interested in their truth or authenticity, but if they put on a mask to please you, they will be fine.

Who is this fine for?

Be you in all your beautiful forms, sad, mad, angry, blissful, joyful, blessed, excited, fearful, tenacious, tender, grateful, generous and so much more. These are emotions, have them, embrace them, nurture their evolution of changing, rearranging and creating new spaces for growth.

Here’s another amazing enlighting experience for free www.jovianarchive.com/Human_Design/Why This gave me a wonderful foundation and confirmation of my strengths and weaknesses I was born with and how to work better with my personality type. I’m a manifester, one of 9% of people, this is just a small part of the genetic and energetic make up you will get to know in your chart, to help you create the best success for yourself and it’s fun and interesting.

YOU’RE WORTH IT!

It must all flow to grow!

SUNSHINE

 

Freedom

Freedom to be is the embrace of trusting the inner pace!

~ SUNSHINE~

In the brevity of escape

Serenity surrounds with shape

Your truth is where you will be set free

Silence speaks delicately in the gift of a heartbeat

Resounding confirmation of the beat repeats

Calmness sheds its anxious covering

A meadow of brilliance is in continual recovery

Daisies dance while waving to the rhythm of the comforting breeze

Tangoing with the blades of green

Grounded and intertwined in a rooted place

Misunderstood only by the human race

Nakedness will reveal the truth of the heart

Shaped through grace, innocence is replaced

Playfulness is revealed and not concealed

It's in the climbing of the trees

The freedom to dance in the fallen leaves

It's in the umbrella of a maple tree

Slowing the pace of the raindrops from space

Shed a tear without fear

It is in the release of the tears your reflection will appear

Evolution of your path is in place

Stay sturdy in the embrace

Sunshine

Persistent Persuasion

Processing is persistent persuasion of thought!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Processing and feeling

Grieving and perceiving

Changing and recreating

Listening and learning

Crying and expressing

Shuttering and fighting

Empty and enlightened

Reality and denial

Life and living

Breathing and pain

Heart and soul

Darkness and light

Acceptance!

Love in light of the Sunshine

 

Teardrop Rain

 

Calm your space and embrace with love the breaths you take!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Brisk yet calming
Centered on the dawning
Flowing yet separated
Joining exhilaration and surprise
Teardrops rain
Splashing untamed
Capturing essence
Feeling the sting
Reliance is everything
In surrendering what remains

Sunshine from within

Happy Birthday to the Greatest Man Ever, MY SON!

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Zakary Ryan taught not to believe in the opinions of others, but to deeply believe the depth of your own true worth! 

~MY SON ZAKMAN~

His laughter infectious

His joy, uplifting

His outlook radiated champion

His love unconditional

His emotions deeper than the sea

His spirit beyond the human body’s capacity

His gifts moved the planet

He moved with creativity and challenged your thoughts

His soul shared unchartered truths

He pushed the limits and courageously lived

His name forever in my heart

His birth forever my gift of life

His presence and guidance always with me

His voice clearly speaks to me

His journey forever a part of my destiny

My protector, my teacher, my guide

His smile is my sunshine

My baby, my boy, my son, my child, my heartbeat

Thank you for making your appearance 25 years ago on this day

My life has been forever blessed and deeply changed because you chose me as your Momma!

You have shown me a depth I could never have reached or a strength I could never achieve without you!

YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE!

LISTEN WITH OPENNESS INTO THE HEART AND THOUGHTS OF A MAN (my son) WHO FOUGHT  HARD TO LEAVE A MESSAGE THROUGH HIS JOURNEY!

The first two songs are close to our hearts, we played them at Zaks memorial and he sang them with his great power all growing up with hands in the air! This boy has a journey and it won’t stop here, trust me as his momma, he has no stop button so watch out he’s making changes!

I Believe I can fly!

Worlds Greatest!

Zaks story/ Raw truths/Unfiltered

I am not a human/ By Zak

Running/ by Zak/ unfiltered

Intro./ Unfiltered and Raw

Blankets for a mermaid

 

Wandering into the wonder of grace, surrendering into the light divinely placed!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Lures of love for a mermaid soul

Ripples of wonder rejuvenating the quiet thump of the heart

Mystical and intrinsic sights

Step beyond the eye and into the silent guidance from inside

Earth in miraculous wonder gently embraces a space for mermaids to feel the depth of grace

Gently a blanket of blue offers significant comfort too

Imagination adventures with the soul feeling hues of blues

Flow into the waters arms mermaid soul

Swim into the embraced space earth has given a mermaids heart grace

Sunshine in this place

Naked Truth

Revealing your vulnerabilities is a courageous offering of surrendering space to be replaced with strengths.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Be naked in your truth

Surrender through the gates of courage

Allow emotions to move through

Drop all masks other than the authentic, revealing of you

Let nothing interfere in the nakedness that appears

Freedom is in the naked truths courageously facing fears

 

Sunshine

The Dance with Fear

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Surrender into the grasp and allow courage to transform you when you let go of resistance and allow yourself to glance into the flow of the dance. 

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Dear Fear, what is your purpose here

What is that grasp you hold so dear

Your purpose dear Fear, is it to enlighten my tears

This dance clasping hands and creating grace

An invitation to courageously face

Dear Fear, thank you for sharing your perception of what is near

Your purpose I see now was not to hurt me

It has been here to show me, not to scold me

To guide me, not to live inside me

Dear Fear, the steps of this dance beautifully flowing

I’m learning and growing

Your strength so determined and clear

Captivating me into a stillness I’d never hear without you near

Surrender to the pace of Fear’s conscious embrace

It is that safe place wisdom and strength teach conscious grace

When Gratitude and Fear courageously dance, the lesson transforms the grasp

Dear Fear, thank you for the stillness to hear.

​Love, Sunshine​

The Heart’s Pace

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Fall in place and embrace your heart’s pace!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

In the brevity of escape

Serenity surrounds with shape

Your truth is where you will be set free

Silence speaks delicately in the gift of a heartbeat

Resounding confirmation of the beat repeats

Calmness sheds its anxious covering

A meadow of brilliance is in continual recovery

Daisies dance while waving to the rhythm of the comforting breeze

Tangoing with the blades of green

Grounded and intertwined in a rooted place

Misunderstood only by the human race.

Nakedness will reveal the truth of the heart

Shaped through grace, innocence is replaced

Playfulness is revealed and not concealed

It’s in the climbing of the trees and the freedom to dance in the fallen leaves

It’s in the umbrella of a maple tree slowing the pace of the raindrops from space

Shed a tear without fear, it is in the release of the tear your reflection will appear

Evolution of your path is in place, stay sturdy in the embrace

Sunshine

Immersed in Tranformation

 

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Listen to the inner light it will guide you, listen to the inner peace it will feed you, listen to the inner love it will transform you.

-Siri Chinmoy

 

 

When love and life are one and there is no space between what’s undone.

The birds will fly and the wings will soar with no fear of more.

Waves crash and trees topple in the storm’s core.

To be immersed within nature transforms me.

Where the snow falls and rain drops meet, a crackle of comfort navigates my feet.

Submergence of my soul in what my eyes can hold.

Beauty unfolds.

Devouring the depth of where my heart pulls.

The transcendence of colors arrives in all bold.

Reflections of life swell in the content of this wave.

Interaction and decompression of thoughts are saved.

What is now has already been determined to be.

Revel in wanderlust and continue to see.

Where your mind takes you, let it go.

Capture it and ask the questions, do you wonder or know?

Aspire to bravely live each moment as it unfolds.

The sun continues to rise, I am told.