Growing Wings

To know him is to love him, to see him is to honor him, to hear him is to learn from him, to touch him is to be blessed by him, to be his mom is to be infinitely connected to him.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

My heart oh my heart… my mommy heart… oh my mommy heartbeat… what is my lesson in this place… face to face in this space my tears roll down my cheeks in this moment of just me and Zak in this place.

Love overtakes, grace is never erased

Lifting into the highest place

My boy who’s lived an amazing race

A champion

A warrior

A son

A husband

A brother

A friend

He will run with no end

Play music in heaven

I love this child more than the air I breathe

I’m so grateful for the love he has stretched my capacity to believe

My son

My boy

My star in the sky

He will always be my guide.

Note: I wrote this on a day in the hospital not long ago when we were called in for that very call you never want to have.

He made it through that day and after that decided he would not continue to go through this pain and suffering any more and made a choice to not recieve blood and platelets any more prolonging this suffering. He was as ready as he was going to be to let go and allow his spirit to soar and do bigger things.

Zakary recieved his wings on July 30th, 2017 at his home with his wife, his youngest sister and me holding his hands and head as he struggled to his last breath. It was the most excruciating almost 5 year journey of my life and it will NOT go uncelebrated.

This Sunshine page will become a book, I will be doing speaking in time and I will do all I can to help others in Zak’s name.

I have a path set out for me as his mom to follow and I will honor him all the way.

SUNSHINE, on a continual path to infinite LOVE!

8 thoughts on “Growing Wings

  1. I am so sorry…so very sorry ❤ My Dad passed in July…also with family surrounding him and I will never forget what it was like. He was 88 and had a great life…but I can not imagine the same scenario with a child. My heart truly goes directly to yours and I send a loving hug that is full of knowing. You will ALWAYS honor him and you will shine a light to help others…I just know it!!
    Many blessings ❤

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    • Thank you beautiful I appreciate that and im so happy to hear you have wonderful memories of a full life for your dad..Zak had a great attitude a wonderful spirit and that boy was here to Change lives and he will do so from his new view as well as we all will..one slow step at a time..to just get my mind to work regularly right now would be an amazing start..learning to live a new way!

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