Transformation through experience: A Journey of Emotions

Two sunflowers standing tall against a softly blurred background of blue and orange hues.

It took observation to see

Inside

What has been held in

It took the jolt to see

Inside

The wave

The emotion

The feeling

It took time to create the path

A transformation through experience began.

Inside

The least resisted

The path set before me, wasn’t meant to get lost in

It was there to travel through

To experience a transformation

To observe

It was only temporary

Tears changed shape

Steps changed direction

Pain created space

To feel the present

To honor the future

The pain transformed through experience

The urge to leap disappeared

The desire to step with grace appeared

It didn’t happen without seeing all the colors

Feeling all the emotions

It didn’t pass through with a lack of pessimism and optimism intertwined

Transformation through experience started to pass by allowing each to have space

To move

Inside

Freedom has been seen through, transformation

Felt and experienced, as a transformation through my journey

It awaits continually at our meeting place

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Here is some extra inspiration:

Pivot for Love

Failing, falling, rising , crying, laughter and pain all leave room to pivot for perspective.

When you hear my voice wrestle to speak

Will you so patiently wait without interruption 

When you hear me cry

Can you sit close by 

When you watch me fall

Will you cheer while I learn to rise 

When I am hurt 

Will you have confidence I will heal

When I feel loss

Can you wait with me while it turns to strength

When I experience laughter 

Will you laugh with me

Not even knowing why

When you see me struggle

Can you see it as growth and allow it space to evolve

If it goes on and on

Can you challenge me to pivot

To remind me there is more

Just pivot 

Perspective has an open door

Just pivot 

When done together it’s called a dance

Love pivots for perspective

Dance with me

~Kerri-Elizabeth ~

She is my “Lovely” daughter

My heart with a paintbrush of expression.

When you think it’s too late , when you believe you can’t or you choose “I won’t” for the moment, inspiration will lift you and pull you to your feet. 

Will you listen , will you rise, will you pull up courage and determination, will you work hard, will you strengthen where you feel weakest, will you believe in yourself and encourage your own destiny to be all you want to be and find out you can be even more along the way, will you raise the bar for yourself , or not? 

Here is a story of my 39 year old daughter, she is an inspiration, a light in the world that carries deep pockets of courage and determination and she believes she can and there for she does. 

Many years ago she wanted to be in law enforcement but life had other plans for her to learn from first. She became a very successful business woman at an early age. No surprise there she was determined from day she arrived in the world , actually before that. (that’s another story).

Then she went on to create herself even more success in another career and had two beautiful children. So many changes and so much growth along the way but an unsettled desire to be in law enforcement. 

I’d asked her everytime I called” what are you doing”, she’d answer with reservation “I’m at work” , there was something missing, was it desire, a passion, so one day I asked “if you could be anything what would it be?” She answered , a cop or an English teacher. 

I don’t know how many times in the day she wondered and thought about all this, but I know it all became a decision and off she went. I have no idea if my questions opened a door that she needed a little crack to see through or if something I said mattered.

What I do know is that it’s important to challenge a thought and ask questions, that’s where exploring ideas, sparking dreams and possibilities come from. It isn’t our place to push, it’s our place to listen, ask and open doors where possibly over time we become so settled in what is we forget what’s possible or believe it’s too late.

Her answers prompted me to ask more questions. I could hear her working through it with more than wonder and one day she said “I’m going to take my law enforcement test.” Then she got her book to study and reinforced her love for working out and she made a goal, her dates kept getting moved closer and closer than planned and soon she was done testing , wow the depth of tests and paperwork were amazing. 

I want to tell you this story because her inspiring strength and determination to DECIDE and take the leap is a testament of what inner strength and courage can do, how it’s never too late even if you have already built success, which she did. She could have stayed doing what she was doing forever. 

What is success to you? 

Here is my painted expression highlighting her new courageous journey. May she always be safe protecting our communities with many brave people like her and may her success in all things bring her and her family happiness and a legacy of courage that continues in for generations. 

Gosh I love her so much!!!

Kerri-Elizabeth (Brandee’s proud Mom)

Change Requires YOU

Change is life, no matter what we figure out, where do we start and do we finish? It is all the foundation of a place you continue to grow. It is all you know, all you experience all that un-done-ness….. the beginning with no end… a continuation to evolve from every situation.

It is inevitable to change, we experience and learn from the changes or miss the opportunities it gave us in the deciding “I’ll never change, I am who I am and I’ll never change for anyone”.

It isn’t for anyone, its for everyone, we share this earthly place!

It is the resistance or control we hold (not to change)….. a resistance to inspiration we may not be able to reach or hold, a lack of worthiness inside us that holds us hostage from bravery and courage to be more than we are today.

Take a look at the world and what moves you. Being uncomfortable allows us to learn things we never would and always choosing where we think we most thrive limits our opportunities to grow.

Thriving doesn’t just happen where we feel bliss, it exists in the unknown or continuation (actually more so), in the un-done-ness, the stage to dance and the opportunity to be more than we are today, to add new steps with familiar steps and create more. Turn the music on and sing, dance and connect to the changes that re arrange us!

“NOT”, changing for anyone means YOU too!

Focal Point

Have you ever had a disagreement with someone while you’re looking at the exact same thing and both of you see it completely different or you both hear something and hear it completely different?

How can that can even be possible, you’re looking right at it, or hear it clearly and so do they.

Have you ever continued to disagree, trying to convince the other person your point of view or look at them like they lost their noodles, feeling your adrenaline rushing as you’re trying to make them see and hear and feel what you are, needing it as if you need air for that moment?

Frustration , misunderstanding, different interpretations and now a full blown meltdown you can’t get them to understand or see what you see. Rejection sets in, abandonment, turmoil inside is triggered and love is left behind by emotions you had no idea where there.

Over time and through growth and experience the solution is found, seen, worked on, you’ve now come to a place these things just don’t bother you, until one day it shows up again……

How do you react or respond ,not to the other person, but to YOU?

Our reactions and responses are purely from our own point of view, we have to make room for change, recreating , healing and intentionally wanting to be a better version of ourselves , while leaving room for others to do the same, “Write It” and you’ll see.

Has this ever happened to you?

Raindrops

It is when you realize all attachments to emotions are like rain.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Within every rain drop a mystery 

Power in a rain-drop creates history

Anticipation of more appears

Raindrops enter like heaven’s tears

Cleansing all thats near

How many are there

Where did they hide

Is there matter attached inside

How does condensation appear

With weather, with temperature, with the clouds near

Why don’t the clouds fall down

Does a raindrop feel the ground

Raindrops inspiring curiosity and wonder

Often joined by sunshine and thunder

Watering the earth 

Filling the lakes

Provoking inspiration through Gods grace

 

SUNSHINE

Somedays will be so hard you wonder, how and where, what and why? What is hard now , won’t seem hard later, your strength is always challenged by the coming together and falling apart of life. The rain will come, it will wash away some things and it will dam up others.

It will depend where you are standing when it rains, you must decide when the rain is talking to you and when its cleansing you. Is it moving you or is it cleansing you and how will you know?

Nature always explains everything, it is the grace of God speaking.

You may not see grace in it, you may only see fear or grief and so many other feelings of despair you just don’t want to bare.

When you stand in the grace the emotions will not be attachments but simply rain drops reminding you, you’re alive!