Daisy Love, sharing her knowledge,
I’m Daisy Love, I’m small and I’m the most loyal to my Mom. Although I love few and never many I like to watch many from afar and and I’m slowly learning to go where many have been and walk in crowds with confidence.
Sometimes my mom carry’s me because let’s face it, I need a little height now and then.
Some people tease me and think I’m acting like a tough one when I bark at them coming near. Let me tell you what’s really happening.
People move fast, going slow and meeting me where I’m at isn’t usually an instant reaction. I can see in people eyes they expect me to meet them where their at or their QUICK reaction is to call me unkind names and decide they don’t like me.
You know, “ankle biter”, etc.
Well recently my mom had an epiphany , she has an inner chihuahua, you see I have been teaching her like I try to teach others more about themselves and for some reason , slowing down enough to understand hasn’t been an easy one to teach. Humans expect and assume quickly usually and understand later.
That’s why they always say”if I knew now what I knew then” ,well slowing down would have taught you sooner. Just an observation from a little teacher.
So this lesson, let me get to the point…. My mom and her newly understood “inner chihuahua”… when something or someone moves too quick she immediately goes into fight or flight, guess which one kicks in first?
Which one is it for you?
When I showed her that she has the power to change her reaction, she would see more, feel more and understand more. Its not the chihuahua that’s scaring you, it’s your own reaction that scares you, fear is there to protect you, and teach you. (If your in control of your own state) however this is the catch.
Is your reaction a protection alert , or is it unresolved past reactions or programmed reactions holding you back from growth?
You see fear is usually planted and humans water there fear more then their plants.
Its just an observation, from your, “ inner chihuahua “ , you see, I chose my owner and she chose to see her reflection in me.
Slow down and meet me where I am, that’s where you will see me and possible YOU too!
Love, Daisy 💕 Love
You are more than what you thought defined you!
I am more than the child that grew up with fight or flight emotions and feelings
An imposter lived here, a fearful, unready and unwilling part of me
In control of nothing but wanting to control everything
Living in a darkness of the world
Running into it at the same time I was running away from it
Religion captured me and gave me a safe box to live in for years
“Oh,” God is very real to me, but religion is no longer a vice
That box got smaller as experiences got bigger and it didn’t make sense to live there anymore
I couldn’t breathe
I couldn’t talk
I couldn’t move
I couldn’t escape the judgment of what I was told I needed to do and not what my deeper self was calling me to do
I was screaming inside for years
As if I was watching myself from a distance, I observed so much confusion and pain
Filled with insecurities grounded in shame and blame that I could never do enough to erase
What I faced was the habit energy
The energy that was continually lived in fight or flight , over compensations, under compensations and so much more
While smiling and living I was also dyeing
I was raising kids while raising myself
I was married while not even understanding what that required
I lived small because small seemed bigger than what I felt capable of handling at times
I lived on others terms because I had no idea life had terms I had the power to make
I knew deep within there was more
I knew deep within I had more
I chose more of myself many times, to then allow doubt to loosen my grip
I had no idea how to break through to that next place
Disapointing others while listening to my own calling was like climbing Mt. Everest with no training
That’s when I realized it was going to mean I had to disappoint myself
It all required me to re-train myself
I had to change my story and I was going to have to reject the current narrative and disapoint myself by announcing I was more than the skin I had lived in all these years
That would seem like a milestone in gratitude to many, however it meant to me, I had to invite part of myself to move out
I had to leave behind the blame, the shame and the rejections not just of my own but from others
I now could give myself safety
I now could stand strong for me
I could say I mattered
I could say NO
I now could disapoint another to show up for myself, knowing that the disappointment was their journey and I had no business fixing it
I had to thank the space and move away, bless it for the experiences and lessons and leave it behind
It wasn’t supposed to become me, it was suppose to teach me
At the exact time it was suppose to
It happened in loss
It happend in change
It happened in pain
It happened in tears
It didn’t happen with joy or laughter
It happend when I felt no hope
It happend when I was empty
When I was my most challenged
It happened in anger
It happened in misunderstandings I had to let go of and allow the teaching of it
It happened in letting go of people I thought would never leave
It happend in the learning of how to have a relationship with my son from the heavens, instead of in the physical presence
It happened in sickness
It happened in the lowest times, the hardest times, the most doubtful times
It is still happening and I understand that these times are never to be wished away , but to be observed with new insight
To look into pain and to ache while you smile is part of life’s best and most insightful journeys to success
Happiness is a foundation that requires remodeling continually