Growth takes a lifetime of strength through every season, don’t miss a drop of rain or a ray of sunshine.
Whisper to me your journey to the sky
Speak slowly so I can write them all
Share with me every rain drop you’ve felt
Every shiver in the storms
As you stand protecting me
Share with me every ring you earned at your core
As you share, I’m listening
To the winds shuffling your leaves
The crackling among your branches
The dew among the grass sharing precious reflections
May nature always inspire in you growth
Where God so creatively painted all the answers
Embracing the moment in a very present matter is where time is never erased.What passes by in a glimpse and is not presently captured you will find, that time erases. Someone how it is not hardwired and the absence of the presence missed erases and can never be captured again.
This can be defined as regret or grief, we get stuck in a ,”what if”, or “should have” and “never did” and time is critically erased without memory of the details of the present moment that could have been captured and never erased. Be present and diligent to your spirits calling to notice Gods gifts around you and the gift of life and love that has been put into your presence.
Time can disappear or it can be captured by our hearts and lives in ways time is never erased.
Capture the moment!
“Nature you call on me with such a diligent perseverance and a sweet persistent whisper that runs through my veins and does not take no for an answer, JUST LIKE ZAK!”
This swim was for you my son……………October 31,2019
Happy 27 th Birthday forever having fun
Just courage to live
Just deep sorrow in loss
Just memories of your voice
Just knowing you’d say… “you’re crazy, thats freezing”
Just knowing you’d cheer me on, from the shore, laughing and pushing me to do more
Just knowing you’d talk about it for a lifetime
Just knowing it was a moment that created a memory, made me jump
I heard you
I saw you in the reflection of the waters face
I felt your embrace
I heard your heartbeat inside mine
I know you’re there, everywhere
I’m here too
In heaven and on earth
My only son
We’re still together
It is you, so I embrace this pain and this view
On October 31st every year I am reminded on a greater scale the life as my son here on earth is now a journey of emotions and questions and grief and sorrow and memories and heart strings that will forever be pulled and stretched.
I will never be the same, nor do I want to be. I wanted to send this out on his birthday but it has taken me this many days to do it. I write often shorter versions of my sunshine on Instagram before they hit this page. It’s often my leave a thought page at @Kerrissunshine.
Its been only two years and none of it gets easier for me, this year the pain was even deeper, reality sometimes sets in and digs a hole deeper than I can go at the time, so it waits for me. This is where swimming in any weather shakes me up, stands me straight, alarms my system, especially in the winter and gives me a much needed restart and brings me back to complete presence.
My mind, body and heart decided this year , it would be all about spending time with Zak, I couldn’t do anything if I tried unless it included Zak. So work was out and crying and swimming and getting a new tattoo on Zaks birthday has now become tradition.
Take the moments you need and make them what you need to heal, to reveal, to seal, to unveil, to really get present. TO REALLY FEEL TO HEAL!
All is created in love and in love is the only place where love will grow and thrive!
~ Kerri -Elizabeth~
Where love lives
Love has been received
Where love is seen
Love has a birds-eye view
Where love is received
Love has been given
Love harmonizes and maximizes joy
Love is honoring
Love is given untangled and without expectation
Love is kept rejuvinated by awareness and presence
An awareness of presence is where I am most filled with love, where I can give love and receive love. It is the fully present moments of connection where I am truly aligned with the purest love.
Presence and connection with God, nature or a relationship and forgiveness for self is critical, where love flows, forgiveness allows letting go.
Where I take the time to not be in a rush, when I allow myself to just be silent, still, aware, breathe fresh air, be in complete gratitude no matter what the moment offers me. To remind myself calmness, consideration, forgiveness and allowance to retreat to a space of healing and rejuvenation and to respect that in others.
SUNSHINE ON YOUR SHOULDERS
At the wake of a new day the divine light leads the way to the most spectacular confirmations, your going the right way!
~ Kerri Elizabeth~
Shame and blame reside only in the thoughts chosen to proclaim
Withdrawl from the worth of our existance shackles our inner doors
Surrendering is a willingness to breathe divinely
Surrendering to helplessness and unwillingness breeds shame
Surrender to a timeline based upon self not spirit is chance
Surrender to the spirit guidance is truth written into a graceful dance
Love is with our scars and wounds
Rejection and fear offer shaky platforms, reflecting an invitation to change
Stand with me, with all my scars and flaws
Stand with my bullet holes from pain Ceated for light and rainfall to cleanse what remains
Stand with me
Love to you all, this day is a new day and you are worth it, live it, breathe it, feel it, see it, care about it, create newness in it, love the moment, be present, sink into the love of natures voice, decide, stand in your truth, be kind and humble.
Love all the way!
I have learned that, to love another fully you must first love yourself fully, yourself as the reflection of our source ( to me that’s God)then in that process you will receive love fully.
To love fully you must trust yourself fully, then you will receive trust in full. To love fully you must be willing to risk challenging circumstances, you must be willing to grow and evolve. To love you must be willing to have faith to move a mountain and stand in your full truth.
If someone asks you a question, you must answer with honesty and full truth. This is yours and the others step to freedom, it is your strength to stand in truth that removes enabling another to hear the truth.
We must not hide behind our fear to answer and expect growth and love to fill every cracks and heal our wounds. This is our time to speak and be loved for all we are.
The questions are asked as in invitation for both parties to face their deepest truths ( whether they like it or not) and not shrink back.
Be BOLD and BE FIERCE in the truth no matter what it is.
Lay down shame, guilt, tyranny and fear and unlock the shackles that bind and the emotions that tangle and intertwine into confusion and overwhelm.
Do not hide in fear you will be judged or mocked, abandoned or rejected. It is in these things we have an opportunity to build our deepest strengths. There will be mud to trudge, there will be quicksand set in your path and there will be dark days and words that will paralyze you and send you whirling for peace.
YOU become stronger every time you stand in YOUR TRUTH and then, the gift, you will always know whether you are loved fully and complete and doubts will fall away.
You give choice to others and in your truth you will see the truth!
Reflection is in the eye of every beholder, linked perfectly to expression and emotion, where the heart goes is where your truth shows.
Embrace the reflection
Limb by limb again
Significant details are profound
Imagine that was you
In the reflection and truth
What would you see
With no mistaking
Limb by limb
Wrinkle by wrinkle
Do you love what you see
Like the reflection of this tree
Freedom to be is the embrace of trusting the inner pace!
In the brevity of escape
Serenity surrounds with shape
Your truth is where you will be set free
Silence speaks delicately in the gift of a heartbeat
Resounding confirmation of the beat repeats
Calmness sheds its anxious covering
A meadow of brilliance is in continual recovery
Daisies dance while waving to the rhythm of the comforting breeze
Tangoing with the blades of green
Grounded and intertwined in a rooted place
Misunderstood only by the human race
Nakedness will reveal the truth of the heart
Shaped through grace, innocence is replaced
Playfulness is revealed and not concealed
It’s in the climbing of the trees
The freedom to dance in the fallen leaves
It’s in the umbrella of a maple tree
Slowing the pace of the raindrops from space
Shed a tear without fear
It is in the release of the tears your reflection will appear
Evolution of your path is in place
Stay sturdy in the embrace
Don’t miss the light of day living someone else’s way!
When the light of the day slowly fades
Sounds quiet down all around
Shade takes the stage gently perspective is changed
Where a moment ago light and shade both took center stage
They bow with the honor of true love in a universal exchange
Miraculously the tides never hide
Crashing and surging to a universal rhythm
Pebbles in infinite amounts toss and turn
Offering an insurmountable melody of beauty to align
Give way to a thought, what is life about
Some days interpret as heavy
Some say, ready
Others seem even and steady
As the light will slowly fade
Another day is gifted into the nightshade
No matter how far away you are no matter how many stars you’ve travelled so far, I love you!
The voice to my soul
My purpose to grow
My guide ahead
And that star so bright
The voice in the breeze
The crackle in the trees
Your infinite strength
Your more than any word can define
Youre my blessing of truth divine
Your forever my son
The only one
Your presence is a promise I always feel
I love you,
Your momma FOREVER
I MISS YOU HERE ON EARTH!