When you think it’s too late , when you believe you can’t or you choose “I won’t” for the moment, inspiration will lift you and pull you to your feet.
Will you listen , will you rise, will you pull up courage and determination, will you work hard, will you strengthen where you feel weakest, will you believe in yourself and encourage your own destiny to be all you want to be and find out you can be even more along the way, will you raise the bar for yourself , or not?
Here is a story of my 39 year old daughter, she is an inspiration, a light in the world that carries deep pockets of courage and determination and she believes she can and there for she does.
Many years ago she wanted to be in law enforcement but life had other plans for her to learn from first. She became a very successful business woman at an early age. No surprise there she was determined from day she arrived in the world , actually before that. (that’s another story).
Then she went on to create herself even more success in another career and had two beautiful children. So many changes and so much growth along the way but an unsettled desire to be in law enforcement.
I’d asked her everytime I called” what are you doing”, she’d answer with reservation “I’m at work” , there was something missing, was it desire, a passion, so one day I asked “if you could be anything what would it be?” She answered , a cop or an English teacher.
I don’t know how many times in the day she wondered and thought about all this, but I know it all became a decision and off she went. I have no idea if my questions opened a door that she needed a little crack to see through or if something I said mattered.
What I do know is that it’s important to challenge a thought and ask questions, that’s where exploring ideas, sparking dreams and possibilities come from. It isn’t our place to push, it’s our place to listen, ask and open doors where possibly over time we become so settled in what is we forget what’s possible or believe it’s too late.
Her answers prompted me to ask more questions. I could hear her working through it with more than wonder and one day she said “I’m going to take my law enforcement test.” Then she got her book to study and reinforced her love for working out and she made a goal, her dates kept getting moved closer and closer than planned and soon she was done testing , wow the depth of tests and paperwork were amazing.
I want to tell you this story because her inspiring strength and determination to DECIDE and take the leap is a testament of what inner strength and courage can do, how it’s never too late even if you have already built success, which she did. She could have stayed doing what she was doing forever.
What is success to you?
Here is my painted expression highlighting her new courageous journey. May she always be safe protecting our communities with many brave people like her and may her success in all things bring her and her family happiness and a legacy of courage that continues in for generations.
Their hearts beat for you to come near A love so sweet Kisses don’t wait Love never hesitates With a Ruff voice A paw in hand An anxious stance Thank you for your loyal love Everyday, you teach me to stop and play The importance of setting aside moments to connect everyday
Sunshine
In all I have experienced on love, or what I think love is, this is where I have found the truest most genuine love of all, right next to GODs love.
I believe He brought dogs here to teach us about love and appreciation, attentiveness and quality time is right up there with love and demand for naps. They never ask or feel guilty they just do it and feel better for it.
They are always up for kissing and never ask if you want one, they just give it and are happy when they get one back and even when they don’t.
If you’re not paying attention, they don’t complain, they just bump you and look at you with love and you melt into them.
Why don’t people melt this way?
They always meet you at the door and show excitement to see you, even if all you did was throw the garbage out. They are there to make you feel appreciated for every single move you make.
No wonder people are hard to please, we spend more time waiting and less time loving. They spend all their time loving!
You can’t even get the attention of a person now days unless you’re texting or messaging them, they will see that before they see you right next to them.
You’re just one of many to a person, but to them you are everything.
They never loose track or keep track of time, people freak out honk and run each other off the road, scream yell speed and flip you off if you’re holding them up for a second.
They just look at you and smile as if you’re honking at them with love. Nothing is taken personally and love is always assertive and courageously given , you will never be in lack.
It seems the stillness is where everything is found
Where movement comes alive
Where the waves crashing tell a story
Where the leaves dance and sing with glory
Where the birds soar with intension
Where pain and joy have no tension
Where love remains throughout
It seems in the stillness is where everything is found
Where feeling is in the beat of your heart
Where your mind sinks into a rational peace
It seems that in the stillness is where everything is found
When your lost, be still, you will hear the whisper
Be still it is where everything is found
SUNSHINE
In my stillness I can feel the intensity of all that moves around me. I can feel my heart beating and my chest rising. I can almost see with inner eyes the blood flowing through me. I can see the pain in another eyes and wonder is that the reflection of so much more to be healed within me?
Where you are calm you will hear, where you are still you will know, where you find peace, love will grow.
Your body is already speaking to you, it wants more or less of something, it may be in pain, or sickness or anger has driven a wedge between you and stillness. Sadness may be filled with joyful gestures to cover up the feeling we can’t seem to shake and loss may be settling in your bones with numbness you can’t seem to touch.
What if all of this is ok and what if all of this is the beautiful process we need to become our truest version of ourselves. What if who you are right now is exactly who you need to be ,to become who you want to be. What if every step from this space is a step forward into the acceptance, it is the process. It is the falling apart that requires us to heal.
She dared herself to live with courage and found courage in living! ~Kerri-Elizabeth~
I searched for you and me
I looked high and low, in front and behind every tree
I glanced off the cliffs below
I searched long and hard, did you know
In the clouds and in the lakes
I searched rivers and mountains with no breaks
I called for you and no one replied
I cried for you inside
I drove miles and miles looking for a glimpse to pull aside
I longed for you and knew you longed for me
To find you was beyond my reach
I was looking for you
Missing every queue
I looked for the depth of what I should be
Who someone else wanted to see
I lost sight of my own dreams
I thought I was lost where I once was found
Then one day courage stood its ground
Vulnerability spoke with a fierce sound
Wherever you go, there you will be
I’m you and me
~Kerri Elizabeth
When we experience life, life is also experiencing us, I believe. When we go farther and faster and search for ourselves instead of the experiences that creates our selves ,we miss the queues that it is ourselves we are escaping.
When we run from ourselves, we run from our faith, our beliefs, our dreams and our core foundation. When we deny our own existence is not enough because of someone else’s opinion or judgement, then we deny our ability to grow, to serve, to lead, to inspire, to be driven, to reach, to grasp courage with all your might and LIVE beyond limitations set by ourselves or others.
We become stuck within another or others lives and deny our own growth waiting for another growth. The best gift you can give yourself and another is the freedom to be loved at the exact place you are so they have room to move forward. This is courageous!
Shoot from your heart it will always give you the best shot!
~Kerri-Elizabeth~
Introduced to the skies
Viewed from the lenses of my eyes
Shot with my heart
Melted in the leaves
Embraced by a breeze
Open to a peaceful ease
I was once fully there
Among the blooms
Looking for you
I saw you
In the bloom
SUNSHINE
I’m a human experiencing life, experiencing me.
For the last almost 2 years since my son got his wings I have completely forgotten who I am, how to breathe , smile and get super excited and why I ever worked out and was super healthy and what it did for my soul and my mind and my body.
I wish I could have chosen my feelings somedays, I know it has been said “you chose it all”, DO WE?
Well I sure the heck didn’t choose my son to have cancer and then jet off to heaven before I was ready and if you think I had the power to change grief, THINK AGAIN!
We choose what we can and then we choose how to change the emotion based on an experience. It doesn’t mean it changes, it just means our thoughts are trying to work it out and create a new perspective so we can survive and preferably thrive.
Trauma changes your cellular level, your hearts memories, your responses are not all immediate. You must train your body, muscles, nerves, thoughts and beliefs to do something different.
I used to believe, just believe it. If you believe it, you also must be able to follow up.
When my son left( that D word is just not in my vocabulary) I’m telling you that my life was sucked out of me like a fighter jet going through me at double the capacity of reality.
NOTHING seemed to be left… I was wiped OUT inside and OUT.
Im still wiped out in so many ways and Im not going to pretend I’m NOT.
What I am going to tell you is that being present in NOW , being present in the reality of where I am at is how I’m moving and healing. NOT IN where anyone else thinks , but where I know.
YOU CAN ONLY GROW FROM WHERE YOUR REALITY IS! QUIT trying to grow from someone else’s space or the space in which you think you’re supposed to be.
BE WHERE YOU ARE AND LOVE THE JOURNEY IT’S THE ONLY WAY… don’t waste time in the pretending you’re somewhere you’re not. BE where you are, that is the only route to where you want to go!
Just don’t forget their is a route and make sure you keep moving!
It is in the essence of life treasure is held and in the heart where it is felt. Kerri-Elizabeth
Brokenness tears down walls Freed in the midst of unjust ways Through struggle and through doubt Chained to pain Drugged by societies vanity Judgement is owned by questioned sanity Strained by grief Needing relief Searching the halls for secret walls Where is the escape route Then brokenness lead the way The walls perceived, were only a belief Brokenness rumbled through every crack The inner echoes shattered like glass The kingdom has no walls No halls that echo our calls It is the freedom of creation The divine wireless call above it all Get back up and stand tall The kingdom has no doors No ceiling, no floors It’s infinite and more It’s every sunrise and every storm It has no chains Other than the ones we create in discouragement and shame Courage and Joy REMAIN
SUNSHINE
It has been in my deepest pains I became chained. I found that within the walls of my own doubt, I denied myself, I built a Kingdom within that was not what Gods plan was when Grace spoke, the kingdom of God is within. I visualized a palace, a castle per se, with brick walls and long halls, darkness at times, emptiness and isolation closed in . I had no escape route it seemed, I didn’t even realize I had done that until one day on my morning walk with God and my dogs, I was stopped in my tracks. With the sun shining in the morning glare everywhere, where the mist laid on my skin and the clouds remained on the horizon again. I GOT IT!!!!! I felt God…………. WITHIN is NOT with walls and halls, there are no bricks and mortar and bridges to cross. Within is open like nature, full of views and the freedom to move, it is not entrapment my child with doors and corridors, it is not the perception you created to protect your fears. It is in the wilderness of pain your joy is found, release the chains, brokenness is simply an openness to recieve. The chains fell off and the walls fell down and the castle I built that held my grief, my anger and my doubt had no where to be stored and I ran out of rent to pay the bill for the storage unit I built. Phillipians 1:12-26 ,Thank you Paul for your words today confirming COURAGE is without SHAME and with God I will remain!
Fear is centered in the very doubt you allow near, set free guilt and shame and create space for light to remain in your perfectly created frame.
Kerri-Elizabeth
It is in the heart of the matter where love resides
It’s where walls are never built to blame
Quilt squares of life are not sewed together with guilt and shame
Pray forth a solution in place of space creating distance
Spaces must be carefully filtered regularly with light, love and persistance
Where trust is left without oxygen, doubt will seep into the cracks
Its without pumping oxygen of love and light we have allowed ourselves to become unpliable
Less penetrates the surface when we are not filtering our systems carefully to remove debris
Stretch your communications today so that tomorrow does not repeat yesterday
Make tomorrow stronger than today and today be present in everyway
Infinite love gazes beyond unconditional! ~Kerri Elizabeth~
Gaze into the infinite sky There you will find your reason why Where no beginning and no end exists Where the stars and moon sing to your hearts playlist Where reflection offers fascination Where doubt has no surface or depth Possibility doesn’t wonder, IF It dances with confidence it is Nature never questions your way Your questions arrive from the reflection inside Sunshine
SONSHINE FOR YOU 