From Blogging to New Beginnings: My Story

A serene seascape with a wooden deck in the foreground, featuring an inspiring quote about determination by Kerri Elizabeth. The sky is light blue with soft clouds, and the calm water reflects the colors of the sky.

Change requires a presence, presence requires a change and both need acknowledgment to serve purpose.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Change is inevitable

To all that have followed my Blog for years and been so supportive of me. I appreciate you and love reading your blogs. I enjoy hearing your beautiful stories about life, love, art, and so many other things. Closing my blog to embrace change has been a difficult decision but a necessary one.

I will soon close my blog down. The process of saving and backing up all my work is no small task. Please enjoy reading and writing to me for the next couple of weeks, and then I will send my final good-bye.

I have a new project, I have been working on for years off and on. I am going into the final stages of finishing it. Closing my blog to embrace change will help me focus on this new venture.

This has been a beautiful place to heal and write and so many of you have been such great supporters.

My son’s cancer journey

I started writing for one reason. That soon changed. I began writing my heart and soul out during a long battle. My son, Zakary Ryan, battled Acute lymphoblastic leukemia. He was 19 when diagnosed. At 24, he left behind his physical body to explore new territory. Nothing has been more heart wrenching and life changing for me. Closing my blog to embrace change hasn’t come without many emotions.

Zakary’s journey changed me and continues to. I am now headed into my 8th year of developing a new and most profound relationship with him. What was taken, lost and emptied out is being filled with new knowledge. He is gently guiding me and as I listen more, he moves me more, sometimes not so gently actually. He is a force to be reckoned with.

It is time to close out this part of my journey. It has been changed and transformed a few times over. I have clarity this part of the journey has served its purpose and place. It’s time to say good-bye and embrace closing my blog for the change it will bring.

Sunshine

Sunshine is my soul voice. It is the deepest, most aligned, and authentic version of me. This happens when I am tuned in, of course. My life as everyone’s does, goes in and out of noisy times. Mine is noisy around me and taking extra effort to stay grounded and focused. As I have taken time from Social Media platforms I have noticed a significant change in my concentration and focus. What was an experiment is moving me to shut it down completely. The next couple weeks I will be shutting down all avenues except email and phone of course to contact me.

It has taken some time to evaluate this decision while entering into a new phase of learning and experiences.

I value this experience with WP and everyone here. Nevertheless, it is time to leave now. I have a very big project ahead. Can I do it all? YES, but will I be fully aware while staying connected to my most authentic self? Closing my blog to embrace change will allow me to focus and be fully attentive.

Good-byes

Isn’t there a phrase that teaches us, when one door closes another opens? It’s time to close this door but keep the experience with so many beautiful lessons.

I have tried different avenues to keep this door open while still pursuing the finish of my current project. Every door slam I hear moves me farther into a period of concentration and full presence. This decision wasn’t made quickly but carefully. Closing my blog to embrace change feels like the right step ahead.

Thank you

Thank you for being here when I really needed other voices and friendships to share with. Meaningful voices here have been such a comfort for me during some really tough times. This blog carries many emotional journeys. It is my story from a depth you don’t see on the surface. Thank you to you all.

What do you see?

Are you someone that sees more of what’s ahead than what’s in front of you?

Balancing seeing ahead and being present are all part of loving every moment too…..right?

This path is one with many twist and turns, healing and failing, falling and bouncing, looking up and down and side to side wondering in moments , are you really present or dreaming ahead.

All are necessary and all require you to be there, just because your dreaming ahead doesn’t mean your not present, it means your presently dreaming ahead.

The most important part is, are you aware that’s what you’re doing? There is where presence requires more of you.

So dream ahead with intention.

Feel at a depth that grows you.

Receive at a depth that knows you.

Learn at a depth that shows you.

Believe at a depth that restores you.

And love every moment that calls you, just be aware of how long you visit.

Do you think you spend more of your day aware or going through the motions of life more unaware?

Can you share your thoughts on this?

Align Again

Change is embraceable only when you spend more time standing in the change then paralyzed in the emotion.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

In the consumption of experience complete overflow spills over

No comfort zone to this process

A complete and deliberate graceful transcendence must arrive

A wake-up to what is inside

Memories flow and triggers of the past simultaneously let go

The breakdown and astonishment render inspired risk to be free

Anger must be unmasked as its true self to transform into awareness and not control

As the waves create white caps and the wind howls with fury

I am reminded to be still and let go of worry

Control masks itself and hides its insecurity and the wind forces its abrupt revealing

Inner conversations of fear disengage the heart and build among the scars

Consciousness must arise and trauma is a reminder to align again the heart, body, mind and soul

Purge tension and evacuate from familiarity and risk courage on an unknown path

Invite peace and solitude to your present state

Trust in the disassembling inside and arise to the peaceful place you can reside

Sunshine

Connection

 

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An experience requires presence, presence requires connection, both dance together on a foundation of trust and truth, without one of these a gap is left to chance.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

When paths cross 

Memories are etched in time

History is created

Lessons are learned

While the heart logs every turn

Nothing remains but an experience

In the experience we have created

Through the experience purpose is build

Among the experience shifts take place

Growth takes on new meanings

Purpose becomes more important

Loss trickles in and reminds you nothing remains

Where the heart remembers the experience you gained

Calling you to be more 

To let go of fear and failures 

To believe in your truth

To live more

To love more

To connect more

To look into life with eyes from heaven

Sunshine

In this unsettled time in life and a global distress, an awakening of emotions and connection has become clear. We want more connection, more authenticity, more of each other and less separation. We only have this moment, what is next is unknown and if this moment is left without true and trusting connection, we have chosen to be alone. For some this may be exactly what you want. For most I see an awakening for deeper connections with family and friends and ourselves. 

Connect with the joys of life, pets, family, adventure, faith, believing in oneself more, growth, learning, education and so much more….. When you lay your head down at night, are you proud of yourself for all you have shared, were you kind, loving, compassionate, truthful and did you learn something new? 

Did you treat the ones you love with an inspired attitude and love, to create the love you want in return? 

Stubborn Embrace


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The tides roll in and they roll out, but they never come back exactly the same!

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

 

Tides change inevitably
The sun rises into a sunset

Love and pain

Do they rise and set as well

Life and death, are they lovers

Are we dyeing to live or living to die 
Resistance thrives in our stubborn embrace

Is it resistance that creates our pain

What used to be community has taken on separation
Our younger generation standing for their truth
The older generation standing for theirs
In between a generation split
WAIT!!!

Compassion has no judgements
It doesn’t split from itself
It is love, it leads and follows in harmony with our heart
It changes without judgements attached
But instead evolves with understanding

Sunshine