“When You’re Not Invited”

 “Absence is not always rejection, sometimes it’s redirection.”

There are holidays when the chair you used to occupy is empty.
Not because you vanished, but because someone else closed the circle.
The old self might ache, question, replay scenes, wonder what you did wrong.
But the wiser self knows: not all doors are meant to open right now.

Your worth is not determined by who includes you.
Your peace is not dependent on being chosen.
Sometimes the greatest gift is being released from a room that no longer fits your growth.

If the door stays shut,
let it stay shut.
You are not meant
to shrink yourself thin.

Gentle Practice:
Say quietly: “My value does not depend on belonging where I am not welcomed.”

-Kerri-Elizabeth-
Tomorrow, we explore the other side, when you don’t want to invite someone, and how to do that without guilt.

The Weight of Waiting


 

“Silence does not mean nothing is happening, quite the opposite.”

October opened with a heaviness, not loud, not rushed, but dense as fog pressed against the cove. The silence was misleading. It seemed still, but beneath it, movement gathered, papers shuffled behind closed doors, decisions were being made in rooms unseen.

Life on the surface looked the same, driveways quiet, doors closed, familiar cars passing by with eyes fixed forward. Not confrontation, not kindness, just avoidance. In some ways, it was easier that way, silence was less piercing. But silence has its own edge, and it reminds you to listen deeper.

Waiting can feel endless. But October has its way of reminding all senses, nothing is truly still. Branches bend, shadows lengthen, and tides always shift. The question is not if movement comes, movement is part of stillness, it is in the beat of every heart while stillness is working. It is the pulse of life all around while stillness is practiced, stillness does not work alone, it works with the gratitude that both can be felt at the same time.

-Kerri-Elizabeth-
Tomorrow, the silence will feel different, the air is changing and the stillness is surrounded by movement. Do you notice the movement around you when you are still or in stillness do you tune out movement around you?

The Silent Divide

While distance and division may widen the space between you , take care to the division within, thats what separates you.

There are moments

when silence speaks louder than words,

not a gentle silence,

but the kind that carves distance,

a canyon slowly widening

between what was once close.

Trust does not always shatter

with a single strike.

Sometimes it erodes quietly,

grain by grain,

until one day you realize

the ground beneath your feet

is not where you thought you stood.

And so the divide grows,

not with noise,

but with the whisper of absence.

You feel it before you see it,

like the faint tremor of earth

before the cliff edge crumbles.

What falls away was never yours to hold.

What remains is the quiet knowing

that the soul sees more clearly

when the noise is gone.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

But silence never stays still. It gathers, it thickens, and it waits. Tomorrow, we step closer to the shadows that rise where trust once stood.

When the Holding Softens

“Love without needing to be heard. Witness without needing to be seen. This is the way the heart learns to let go without breaking.”

There is a quiet shift that arrives when the nest no longer holds the noise, the rhythm, the needs of others,but the heart still holds everything.

Not the same everything. Not the packed lunches or the sleepless nights or the doorways filled with shoes.

But the echoes.

The scent of memories.

The weightless presence of all that was, still moving through all that is.

It comes quietly, without applause.

Like fog over still water, blurring the lines of who you were and who you’re becoming.

The role of “mother” does not disappear.

But it loosens.

The edges fray.

And what remains is not a void, but a sacred space.

A space you were never taught to hold.

This is not the story of being forgotten.

This is the story of becoming.

Of learning to love in a new way.

Without grasping.

Without needing to be needed.

You learn to love like the tide loves the shore—arriving gently, without demand.

You stop fixing, and start witnessing.

You no longer chase understanding.

You offer presence instead of proof.

Some days it feels like grieving.

Like a door closed too softly to notice it shut.

Other days it feels like freedom.

Like your name returning to your own mouth.

You learn to notice when your presence holds too much weight,

when your words carry more pressure than peace.

You practice softening.

You practice stepping back without stepping away.

Sometimes they don’t call.

Sometimes they rewrite the story without asking you to hold a pen.

Sometimes love looks like letting go of the version of closeness you once knew.

But here’s what remains:

The roots are still in the earth.

The sky still knows your prayers.

And you, the one who gave and gave and gave,

now turn inward

to the woman inside the mother,

to the soul behind the role.

You are not waiting for them to return.

You are returning to yourself.

The Weightless Way

Let it be light,

the way you love them now.

Not a weight,

not a wound,

not a wish pressed too tightly

into their becoming.

Let it be the way the sun loves the morning—

with presence, not pressure.

Let it be the way the tide meets the shore—

without clinging, without asking for anything back.

Let your hands rest.

They’ve built enough altars.

They’ve held what they could not keep.

Now they open.

Not in surrender

but in blessing.

You are not what you were to them.

You are what remains when all roles dissolve—

and that,

that is everything.

The Stories We Carry

We all have stories—
some passed down,
some passed around,
some born from glances never explained.

I’ve learned that the same story can be told a hundred different ways depending on who holds the pen. One person remembers the way the light hit the kitchen table. Another remembers the silence after a slammed door. Some recall laughter. Some can’t forget the ache. And none of it makes any of it less real.

What’s hardest is when the stories begin to live lives of their own—shaped by whispers, fueled by wounds, rewritten by those who need a version that comforts their pain.

Sometimes love is rewritten into betrayal,
connection into threat,
guidance into control.
And suddenly, you find yourself a villain in a story you never wrote.

There is a kind of grief—no, not grief, but a reckoning—
when a child is no longer allowed to speak to you.
Not because of something you did,
but because someone else needed them to stop listening.

Needed them to carry their pain,
to make sense of their own wounds by silencing yours.
And so, a legacy is broken, not by truth,
but by the stories others told loud enough, long enough,
that it began to sound like history.

And yet…

There are other children,
other souls
who are spared the chaos,
who find family in love,
who are given the gift of choosing their path—not out of fear or pressure,
but through the soft unfolding of experience.
They come to know love not as a tool or a transaction,
but as a presence.

That is the hope.
That is the beauty in this brokenness.

Because we cannot fix the feelings others are determined to carry.
We cannot rewrite their chapters.
But we can stop reading the story aloud to ourselves.

We can sit with it—not to suffer it, but to let it soften.
To breathe it in only long enough to find the lesson,
and then breathe it out
as something lighter.

This is how we stop the inheritance of pain.
This is how we leave space for joy,
even if some never return.

We do not need to resent them.
We do not need to chase them.
We simply need to be here—fully here—
with all the love that remains.

The past is not ours to fix.
But the present…
the present is ours to live.

Let the story pass.
Let the breath deepen.
Let the legacy of love be louder than the lie.

-Kerri-Elizabeth-

Stay True

Stay soft
even when the world feels hard.
Stay true
even when no one sees you.

Let them forget—
you remember.
Let them gather—
you root.

You were never made to vanish.
You were made to rise
from the quiet.
To love from the ache.
To see clearly
without needing to be seen.

Let presence be your protest.
Let peace be your answer.
And let love, real love,
begin with how you hold yourself
when no one else does.

-Kerri-Elizabeth-