The Second Wall

Sometimes the hardest part of the storm is realizing the calm was never the end.

The calm came like an unearned mercy ,the kind that makes you believe the worst is behind you. The air felt lighter, almost sweet. For a moment, you let yourself imagine the storm had passed, that the tearing down was finished.

But calm can be a trickster.

It can be the still breath before the second wall arrives ,heavier, sharper, and carrying what the first did not take.

When it came, I felt it in the walls of my chest before I saw it in the sky. Words moved like wind through the spaces between people, lifting dust where nothing had been swept clean. The force was not in thunder, but in the way it pressed against the heart, testing where the cracks had deepened.

After, the ground was littered with what the storm had made visible…..broken beams of trust, shattered fragments of understanding, pieces of history scattered and unclaimed. I walked through it all barefoot for days, writing and feeling the sharp edges, deciding which wounds I was willing to tend to, and which would be left to weather on their own, for now anyways.

There is a strange kind of clarity in the second wall, maybe I didn’t see more before it, like I did this one. The first takes what it can reach. The second shows you what’s truly anchored and what only looked strong until the wind shifted.

And once you know the difference, you cannot unknow it.

The work is more of becoming, again, unraveling years already healed and placed away as wisdom show up to shake you and see how strong your foundation, really is.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

This is one step in a series that moves through storms both seen and unseen, each one reshaping the landscape in ways that cannot be undone. The next tide is already building, and what it leaves or takes will tell the next part of the story.

Becoming Me: From Movement to Meaning

There was a time when health meant how much I could do, how much I could carry, how long I could push before resting. I worked out with intensity, studied every herb, food, and method that could improve strength or reduce fat. The knowledge I gained was real, the discipline was real—but the peace was missing.

What I didn’t realize then was how much I was bypassing the essence of health: how I felt.
Not just physically—but emotionally, spiritually, soulfully.

I’ve always loved creating things by hand. Oils, salves, teas, tinctures, healing masks from spring water and clay, or wild herbs from trails I walked barefoot. Nature was always whispering truth—I just wasn’t still enough to fully listen.

While I still love fitness, clean food, herbal medicine, and conscious care for the body, I no longer confuse output with worth. I no longer miss the sacred moment just to be—to breathe, to rest, to listen.

I’ve learned that beauty is not just in appearance.
It’s in presence. It’s in the natural glow that comes from joy, peace, connection.
Rosing cheeks and clarity in the eyes can come from a moment in the sun, a homemade mask from riverbed mud, or laughter with someone you love.

I’ve also realized that listening deeply—especially to my children’s perspectives—requires that same presence. Each of my children experienced their childhood differently. Some of their stories don’t match mine. But I’ve learned to hear them, to honor their voices without needing to defend or reshape mine. That, too, is healing.

I no longer try to fix everything or keep everyone close.
Instead, I honor where we all are—right now.
I’ve chosen to be me.
Not a version of what anyone else needs, but an honest, whole, and healing version of who I am becoming.


The Truth of Wellness

I used to measure wellness
by how much I could carry,
how much I could do
without breaking.

I didn’t know
that strength
wasn’t in the weight I lifted,
but in the grace
of letting go.

I’ve found more beauty
in riverbeds and spring mud
than any sculpted space indoors.
The color in my cheeks
comes now from earth and breath,
from silence and wind,
from honoring my body
instead of managing it.

Now I listen—

To the garden as it teaches,
to the ache of my heart
that just needs time, not judgment,
to the knowing that rises
when I’m still enough
to receive it.

Healing isn’t a product.
It’s presence.
It’s allowing life
to move through me
without needing to control
how it looks.
It’s feeling good—
and letting that be enough.

-Kerri-Elizabeth-

Clarity from the Blur

It is in your reflection you’ll find your scars, it is in your heart you’ll let go of sight and feel the light!

~SUNSHINE~

Reflect on your peace

Fine tune the blurred lines

Focus on what moves you

Reveal your reflection from the core

Clarity is submissive to focus and their rythym perfection

Dance in the light and sing in the rain

Develop strength based on love

Allow resistance to be set free

Abundance and love release clarity

Reflect again on your peace

Release what persists as pain

Triumph in the peace you will gain

SUNSHINE

As I get older less rattles my core. Hold close the ones you love and trust, spend the moments of your life leaving a legacy of love and kindness, share in your knowledge and receive wisdom as a gift in the expedition of a great life.

There will be bullies and sandpaper people that without knowing sand down your edges and force you to look deeper and wider into life, love, freedom and the beautiful journey in choice. We all have a choice to make everyday great. Loss can shake you but it can not break you or steal your spirit. Thank them for the push to educate yourself further, to broaden your knowledge, become stronger and to search your most authentic self deeper, thank them for teaching you what is not love so that real love clears up all the blurred lines.

It is those sandpaper people that push you off the cliff of paralysis into the bliss of possibilities and blessings beyond limits. Do not get caught up in another’s revenge and need for control and remember peace is abundant with clarity and it is the journey there not the arrival that make us who we are.

In the Details

Its in the details we experience wonder!
~Kerri Elizabeth~

In the details an image is created
Reflection is stated
In wonder we are inspired
Listen to the vibration

The living breath of creation

Stay and pray
Answers will wake you
They may shake you
They may disappoint you
They may leave out details
Persevere

Answers are in the details of creations reflection

SUNSHINE

STRUCTURE

I am moved by the Creator of the winds and the waves and the depth of the sea, it is within the structure strength is determined.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

It is within structure we build strength
It is within courage we face our fears
It is within love we create peace
It is within grace we are forgiven
Silence calls in deliverance
Listening moves through like waves breaking free
Stillness is arranged in readiness
Rivers and lakes can not contain water where our Creators structure was not built
Oceans can not be filled with life without our Creators structure it is held
Mountains will not stand without our Creators structure at hand
Life is passive without faith and love as our structured plan

Sunshine

I have been presented recently with numerous opportunities to walk outside of love and my heart has lead me within, to be still, to wait, to listen, to allow the waves to crash, for the storm to change course and find its resting place.

It is here where I am challenged with societies voice nearby, it is here I am faced with a humble stance to stand within grace, that nothing else comes before and nothing else will matter after.

There are numbers and signs that grace my desk with a constant rush to create a solution.

A voice whispers to me and says, “Do more, you’re not enough, to society you are not to par, you are broken, you are not worthy, shame and guilt try to dance with me, you’re not who you used to be, you’re not who you’re meant to be.”

For a moment I sit and I invite the emotions to express their place, I listen to the speech, to the emotions that swell me in tears.

It is not in the speech of another (fear, guilt, shame, unworthiness, failure, loneliness and loss to name a few at the table waiting to eat), That I swell in tears.

It is in the gratitude I already gave them all my attention over time, I listened and I sat at the table trying to decide, how to live or die.

They are now behind me and the love I finally share and the grace I allow in my space to finally be free of the rushing to be what society expects of me and instead, listen to what the spirit moves through me is the ONLY PACE I FACE.

I am not your normal and if your reading this your not the normal either.

I am not anyones exception or anyones selection, I am not a place to settle and I am not a passive moment. I am GODS creation, I am the daughter of THE KING and I have been placed exactly where I am supposed to be with who I am supposed to be with.

I  move with the ripples in the waters and the blowing of the winds within the trees, I  am human and I have spirit, I have a body and mind that struggles in judgement and I have a free soul that receives unwavering grace.

I am GODS creation made clearly in his image, I am beautifully and wonderfully made and I receive that with my whole heart.

I am the reflection of His love and I am also human in all my flaws, I am a vessel for Spirit flowing freely and I am a soul filled with truth.

YEP ALL OF THAT!

AND SO ARE YOU from my VIEW, with that structure you can’t lose!

New View


It is because of you I had the opportunity to be broken open and made new!
~Kerri Elizabeth~


It is because of you
My cry reaches the sky
That my smile has different shapes and catches me by surprise
That I mourn at times to a depth thats secret inside
It is because of you

I see a view through a kaleidoscope that’s brand-new
It is because of you

Seeing is not limited to a visual cue
Feelings lead to breakthroughs
Experience simply informs us there’s more
It is because of you
I see the sky at such magnitude
And feel the grass blades kiss my toes
It is because of you

My heartbeats with respect to my souls truth
It is because of you
I feel the wind shift each hair on my face
It is because of you
I see fire in a candle with a reflection of truth
I smell every scent traveling through
It is because of you
The stars sing a constant melody I pursue
It is because of you
My pain is not only sadness but something I look forward to
Because of you I am new
Because of you the sunshines with rays filled with an essence I cling to

It is because of you
Beyond all clouds
I live with a deeper view
SUNSHINE




I have had to listen to the presence screaming to be heard inside of me.

Accepting the woman I am as a whole
meant I needed to embrace all of me right where I was standing and search the reflection of brokenness and shame and guilt not meant to weigh me down but an opportunity to be found.
My grief continues to give me a new view.
YES, I cry so hard I can’t breathe and THEN I let go!
So this is what is new!
Resistance is now a voice of surrender, let go to see the view, then decide if it’s a place to stand or move into.
It is waiting for you.
Our heart speaks first and your choice may hurt, but until a letting go happens your souls truth is captive.
Everything has a beginning and an end ,except GOD, so everything I do, I do, knowing GODS promise and view is to see me through.
I’m still here, aren’t you?






Set It Free

Fear is centered in the very doubt you allow near, set free guilt and shame and create space for light to remain in your perfectly created frame.

Kerri-Elizabeth

It is in the heart of the matter where love resides
It’s where walls are never built to blame
Quilt squares of life are not sewed together with guilt and shame
Pray forth a solution in place of space creating distance
Spaces must be carefully filtered regularly with light, love and persistance
Where trust is left without oxygen, doubt will seep into the cracks
Its without pumping oxygen of love and light we have allowed ourselves to become unpliable
Less penetrates the surface when we are not filtering our systems  carefully to remove debris
Stretch your communications today so that tomorrow does not repeat yesterday
Make tomorrow stronger than today and today be present in everyway

SUNSHINE

UN-Done-NESS

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Un-done-ness provides an opportunity and continuation to grow, an inevitable ever changing and re-arranging!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Healing occurs in the un-done-ness

Nothing is done where healing and growth continues

Fire and winds

Inevitable change within

Detours arranged

Subconscious awaits

Un-done-ness

Whispering below the surface

Change me and rearrange me

Scatter emotional ashes like dandelion wishes in the wind

Transform weaknesses into strengths

Un-done-ness

Where epiphanies await

SUNSHINE

 

Un-done-ness is life, no matter what we figure out, where do we start and do we finish? It is all the foundation of a place you continue to grow. It is all you know, all you experience all that un-done-ness….. the beginning with no end… a continuation to evolve from every situation.

It is inevitable to change, we experience and learn from the changes or miss the opportunities it gave us in the deciding “I’ll never change, I am who I am and I’ll never change for anyone”.

It isn’t for anyone, its for everyone, we share this earthly place!

It is the resistance or control we hold (not to change)….. a resistance to inspiration we may not be able to reach or hold, a lack of worthiness inside us that holds us hostage from bravery and courage to be more than we are today.

Take a look at the world and what moves you. Being uncomfortable allows us to learn things we never would and always choosing where we think we most thrive limits our opportunities to grow.

Thriving doesn’t just happen where we feel bliss, it exists in the unknown or continuation (actually more so), in the un-done-ness, the stage to dance and the opportunity to be more than we are today, to add new steps with familiar steps and create more. Turn the music on and sing, dance and connect to the changes that re arrange us!

“NOT”, changing for anyone means YOU too!

 

 

 

 

HE’S HERE

It is in your heart you will know immediately and then doubt will shake your ground, doubt is not a language of the heart.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

The sky in the lake
Tells a story on the one year anniversary of my sons departure to the heavens

July 30th, 2018

The Subconscious treasures of emotions and knowledge waiting to be set free
Unlocked and transformed into eternity
Reflection is presence “Momma”, my boy whispers, “when you feel loss, look into the water”
Travel deeper into the reflection and engage in the emotion as an adventure
Swim through the colors and the emotions with wonder
Let it shake you inside like thunder
Drop your tears into my hands
Its holds the reflection
You’ll see is ALWAYS me

It will set you free

SUNSHINE