Stubborn Embrace

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The tides roll in and they roll out, but they never come back exactly the same!

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

 

Tides change inevitably
The sun rises into a sunset

Love and pain

Do they rise and set as well

Life and death, are they lovers

Are we dyeing to live or living to die 
Resistance thrives in our stubborn embrace

Is it resistance that creates our pain

What used to be community has taken on separation
Our younger generation standing for their truth
The older generation standing for theirs
In between a generation split
WAIT!!!

Compassion has no judgements
It doesn’t split from itself
It is love, it leads and follows in harmony with our heart
It changes without judgements attached
But instead evolves with understanding

Sunshine

 

 

 

 

STILLNESS MOVES

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In the stillness you will hear!

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

 

It seems the stillness is where everything is found

Where movement comes alive

Where the waves crashing tell a story

Where the leaves dance and sing with glory

Where the birds soar with intension 

Where pain and joy have no tension

Where love remains throughout

It seems in the stillness is where everything is found

Where feeling is in the beat of your heart

Where your mind sinks into a rational peace 

It seems that in the stillness is where everything is found 

When your lost, be still, you will hear the whisper

Be still it is where everything is found

SUNSHINE

 

In my stillness I can feel the intensity of all that moves around me. I can feel my heart beating and my chest rising. I can almost see with inner eyes the blood flowing through me.  I can see the pain in another eyes and wonder is that the reflection of so much more to be healed within me?

Where you are calm you will hear, where you are still you will know, where you find peace, love will grow.

Your body is already speaking to you, it wants more or less of something, it may be in pain, or sickness or anger has driven a wedge between you and stillness. Sadness may be filled with joyful gestures to cover up the feeling we can’t seem to shake and loss may be settling in your bones with numbness you can’t seem to touch.

What if all of this is ok and what if all of this is the beautiful process we need to become our truest version of ourselves. What if who you are right now is exactly who you need to be ,to become who you want to be. What if every step from this space is a step forward into the acceptance, it is the process. It is the falling apart that requires us to heal.

LOVE, SUNSHINE

The Falling Apart

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Love is the falling apart and coming together in life and never becoming           bitter but instead gaining a deeper love for every experience.
                                                      ~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Inevitably things fall apart
Preparing a new start
You learn that kindness has a time limit
That love does not promise
Instead the promise is love
You learn moments live in the experience
That experiences are always passing
You learn that light is always available
Even in the dark
You learn that reflection has nothing to do with a mirror
That admission to your life is already paid
You just have to enter, in full presence

SUNSHINE

 

When you realize how precious life is, you start to breathe more and observe more.

The anger of others stops settling in your bones and you are able to walk through it and not into it.

You start to realize your presence is needed more for you than anyone else and that it is in the hearts of others they get to choose when that time is for them.

When you realize how precious life is, you love more and have a better sense of who your best self is.

 

 

Raindrops

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It is when you realize all attachments to emotions are like rain.

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Within every rain drop a mystery 

Power in a rain-drop creates history

Anticipation of more appears

Raindrops enter like heaven’s tears

Cleansing all thats near

How many are there

Where did they hide

Is there matter attached inside

How does condensation appear

With weather, with temperature, with the clouds near

Why don’t the clouds fall down

Does a raindrop feel the ground

Raindrops inspiring curiosity and wonder

Often joined by sunshine and thunder

Watering the earth 

Filling the lakes

Provoking inspiration through Gods grace

 

SUNSHINE

Somedays will be so hard you wonder, how and where, what and why? What is hard now , won’t seem hard later, your strength is always challenged by the coming together and falling apart of life. The rain will come, it will wash away some things and it will dam up others.

It will depend where you are standing when it rains, you must decide when the rain is talking to you and when its cleansing you. Is it moving you or is it cleansing you and how will you know?

Nature always explains everything, it is the grace of God speaking.

You may not see grace in it, you may only see fear or grief and so many other feelings of despair you just don’t want to bare.

When you stand in the grace the emotions will not be attachments but simply rain drops reminding you, you’re alive!

Scars

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A path of presence is identified by the moments you feel your experience.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

 

A  path of presence

Resides inside

Waiting to be felt

Alert and aware 

Do you dare

Feel the scars you bare

By sight you may see 

 Scars on every leaf

Scars upon the trees

By sight you may see 

Scars upon a cheek

Scars mistaking us as visually weak

Every scar will leave a story

An experience bared

Healing to share

Nature reveals the dance

Along every path

Beyond a glance

Scars reveal another chance

SUNSHINE

 

We have scars on the physical self that reveal the stories of our life. Then we have the scars inside that reveal the experience of moments in our life often stopping time and the ability to be present in NOW.

A scar a sign of strength that you are capable of healing.

They are there to teach you and to grow you not to trap you and to close you.

Create  space where new outlooks are revealed. Getting stuck in the mundane and the ordinary leaves you walking a path unhealed where presence cant be felt or experienced, only wanted and never touched.

 

 

 

 

 

Butterflies

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See the Butterfly in the light?

It is in the transformation we find our design.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

A butterfly will make many changes before it flies
Struggles will be part of their life
A necessary morphoses designed for each
The delicate awaiting of transformation will teach
The struggle is not always clear
A need to know is often driven by fear
Transformation comes within the struggles of time
A willingness to arrive in your own design

SUNSHINE

 

There will be pain and blessings, smiles and tears, both will be ok, both are needed to be who we are meant to be. Without struggle we would never know freedom. Without transformation, we would never see growth. Without love there would never be pain but with no pain we would never know the depth our love can reach.

To arrive in our own design, to me, means that we arrive with all our emotions, our lessons, our grief, our sorrows. To bring our joys , our trials and triumph and that we arrive in our fullest capacity to delicately transform with clarity that some things are never clear just a necessary part of our design.

Love and Hugs, Sunshine

 

Rays Speak

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Stand in the rays of glory and surrender to rejuvenation and renewal.

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Within your rays

Prayers are arranged

Glory speaks to the heart

Reflection meets presence

Resemblance delivers peace

Surrender rejuvenates intuition

Renewal arrives with ease

It is in your image 

Under your rays 

Renewal stays

Sunshine

 

When you just stand under the rays of Gods grace, the energy of this miracle will embrace you in your place. It will renew you, rejuvenate you and it will  speak to you in the presence of surrendering to a voice that is most loving.

We tend to be hardest on ourselves and can question our thoughts and our emotions to a point confusion tires and clutters our intuitions and turns our knowing into a guessing game of maybes. 

I have found that just even a moment under the rays renews my spirit and fills me with gratitude and my breathing becomes calmer and somehow I am delivered into peace with ease.

It is the rays of sunshine and the lakes and river waters I am called often, to hear the most steady voice and in this I am fully revived.

Find what that is for you and be called to it and listen.

 

 

 

Embrace It

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Embrace IT!

SUNSHINE

Embracing the moment in a very present matter is where time is never erased.What passes by in a glimpse and is not presently captured you will find, that time erases. Someone how it is not hardwired and the absence of the presence missed erases and can never be captured again.

This can be defined as regret or grief, we get stuck in a ,”what if”, or “should have” and “never did” and time is critically erased without memory of the details of the present moment that could have been captured and never erased. Be present and diligent to your spirits calling to notice Gods gifts around you and the gift of life and love that has been put into your presence.

Time can disappear or it can be captured by our hearts and lives in ways time is never erased.

Capture the moment!

Forever and More you Soar

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  • Zakary Ryan/forever my son
  • Music is his soul
  • Zaks mom/Me
  • Inspired by my son

“Nature you call on me with such a diligent perseverance and a sweet persistent whisper that runs through my veins and does not take no for an answer, JUST LIKE ZAK!”

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

This swim was for you my son……………October 31,2019


Happy 27 th Birthday forever having fun
No waiting
No contemplating
No wetsuit
No worries
No fears
Just courage to live
Just deep sorrow in loss
Just memories of your voice
Just knowing you’d say… “you’re crazy, thats freezing”
Just knowing you’d cheer me on, from the shore, laughing and pushing me to do more
Just knowing you’d talk about it for a lifetime
Just knowing it was a moment that created a memory, made me jump
I heard you
I saw you in the reflection of the waters face
I felt your embrace
I heard your heartbeat inside mine
I know you’re there, everywhere
I’m here too
In heaven and on earth
My only son
We’re still together
It is you, so I embrace this pain and this view

SUNSHINE

On October 31st every year I am reminded on a greater scale the life as my son here on earth is now a journey of emotions and questions and grief and sorrow and memories and heart strings that will forever be pulled and stretched.

I will never be the same, nor do I want to be. I wanted to send this out on his birthday but it has taken me this many days to do it. I write often shorter versions of my sunshine on Instagram before they hit this page. It’s often my leave a thought page at @Kerrissunshine.

Its been only two years and none of it gets easier for me, this year the pain was even deeper, reality sometimes sets in and digs a hole deeper than I can go at the time, so it waits for me. This is where swimming in any weather shakes me up, stands me straight, alarms my system, especially in the winter and gives me a much needed restart and brings me back to complete presence.

My mind, body and heart decided this year , it would be all about spending time with Zak, I couldn’t do anything if I tried unless it included Zak. So work was out and crying and swimming and getting a new tattoo on Zaks birthday has now become tradition.

Take the moments you need and make them what you need to heal, to reveal, to seal, to unveil, to really get present. TO REALLY FEEL TO HEAL!

Reflect and Revise

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From behind the lens of our heart we will see beauty and we will see pain, both intertwined expressing our deepest love!

Kerri Elizabeth

Unearth and evoke your spirit

Forge into a glorious exploration of reflection

Clarify within your hearts rhythm

Cup your ears hearing only the life inside

Explore and observe an anatomical connection

Access precision and revise the reflection of your most current addition

Clarify empathy, passion and personal intent

Informance quietly awakes your soul

Performance is unpressured

Taking a lengthy look into reflection

Strength is not built by the thought

Its is built by the experience of accepting grace

By honoring a divine space

Reflection is what spills from our core

Breathe and allow the revising of more

It is with great pain I feel this. As the passion of my son and his birthday is upon me for the second year since he left I am filled with love and overflowing with pain. I recognize the tangling of emotions intertwine to deepen our sense to love, presence, health and what is really important to us.

It leaves little room disappear, take detours and to escape. It is the presence of the pain in my heart that needs honoring, not escaping, it is the pain that is talking to me and telling me things I need to know and recognize.

No matter what you are going through, the work it takes to overcome and to grow and revise your core is worth allowing your reflection to show and heart to open. You will not escape the pain but rather it will sit dormant waiting to be honored as a part of your journey.

There is no need detour back to the depth of the experience giving it more power and judging it. There is simply a need to honor it as part of your journey giving it gratitude and moving forward into the gifts that are awaiting you.