MY SON FOREVER

No matter how far away you are no matter how many stars you’ve travelled so far, I love you!

My son
My heart
The voice to my soul
My purpose to grow
My guide ahead
My light
And that star so bright
The voice in the breeze
The crackle in the trees
Your infinite strength
Your more than any word can define
Youre my blessing of truth divine
Your forever my son
The only one
Your presence is a promise I always feel
I love you,
Your momma FOREVER

I MISS YOU HERE ON EARTH!

A Broken Wing Shows You More of Everything!

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A broken wing is not everything, it shows you more than anything!

Kerri Elizabeth

A broken wing is not everything.

Taking flight in front of me a miracle in life so majestic and free.

Wings  spread open across to the sky as they leap without fear sending sounds that will pierce the deepest place you hear.

Without a plan or a thought, instinct takes over and in flight they take off.

The misty air, the clouds out there, it’s colder and colder every day and the dance of life is where they stay.

A miracle in her wings, gliding through the water with one wing, the other broken wing never stopped her from anything.

She carried her wing gracefully wrapped up on her back; she never missed a beat in her dance she would complete.

In the dance of life we can decide even with a broken wing, that dreams are made for everyone and miracles happen, even when we feel broken and undone.

Taking flight is not just in the wings that might, it is in the choice to choose life.

There will be inevitable ups and downs and there will be upside down smiles and right side up frowns, be the miracle that takes flight, leaving behind the fear that might.

Freedom is in the soaring of your soul, even with a broken wing that is not everything.

Sunshine on your flight!

To Be Calm and Still

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To be calm inside is to feel the stillness even when the winds blow or the sun glows.

Kerri-Elizabeth

In the calmness of my heart the river of love flows.

In the calmness of my mind the sunshine glows.

In the stillness of my body, I feel the whisper of the wind.

In the gap between now and then I feel the moment I’m in again.

In the flow of the day I can say, no one will ruin what I feel today.

In the worry of yesterday, I lose my today.

In the plans of tomorrow I can say, those things may change on the way.

I used to spend my day figuring out everyone else’s way.

Then someone said to me, “how many hours do spend a day, helping others find their way?”

I love to help others along the way, especially my children; they have been my reason for each day.

Now I can teach them, that we can only give what we have, making sure I gain what I want to give is first my responsibility while I live.

Complaining about what you don’t have is only time spent away from decisions you must have.

Waiting for someone else to lead your way is letting go of yourself and the only way that ultimately gives you freedom in your day.

Make a stance for your own life and expect there will others that will stomp there feet to the beat of their own defeat.

Your energy goes where your thoughts go, what you think of most grows the most.

Are your thoughts where you want growth or are they where you want change the most?

Sunshine on your day!

Awareness Is Awareness and explains Awareness

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Awareness and “I” are one chord in the orchestra that never misses a beat and holds strong through defeat, It will meet you where you are and never go far, it is there to see and will always “Be”, turn up your sound and you will hear, the song inside is “I am” not “you and me”.

Kerri Elizabeth

As my soul awakens and my body and mind join in song with my soul, I hear every note of my own orchestras beat.

When there are no others I am aware of my space, when there is no sound I can hear my heart race.

Awareness is when others are there and you still are just as aware.

When the windows shutter from the winter wind and the raindrops fall over and over again, I am aware to spare a moment is to leave awareness unfolded.

When I am aware of my inner flow, beauty has an outer glow.

To release “me” to “I” gives insight inside for “me” to go away and “I” to reside.

When awareness is, “I” and not, “you” and “me”, then the darkness of the day and restless nights , pass through your light, without a shadow left insight.

Think about this moment now, are you aware of “I” or aware of the darkness that “me” is addicted to inside?

What are you aware of now?

When awareness is there to bare, there is no place for darkness there.

When darkness is your “I” as awareness when your world is the stipulations of the storms in life, then your life becomes a storm of stipulations and strife, not an awareness of “I” but ownership of something that should be free to pass by.

Controlling a storm, holding the trees still, catching every leaf, barreling every rain drop, damming every river and lake so not to flood or make a mistake, is an addiction to tuning out the notes of your own voice and owning someone else’s choice.

When the storms can pass and leaves can fall, when the rivers flow and lakes become full, when the ocean roars and the sea births more, when “I” and awareness are one chord, the orchestra inside is born.

When witnessing “I” and not “me”, when awareness is awareness with a capital “I”.

When every feeling can pass through you as it is not, “I”, it is life’s song and is not meant to be owned but appreciated as a lesson passing by.

 Like the storms of creation, love them and learn from them and you can ask why, the answer will still never be, “I”, it is meant to be an addition to life, learn and listen to the song of life without drowning out your  “I”.

 I am an orchestra of my own awareness.

Sunshining my awareness!

Love IS and Always IS

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Love IS, without asking or denying, love is in the creation of life that never waivers on judgement or prejudices, it exists as it is, beyond your expectation.

Kerri Elizabeth

Love is more.

Love is the sun shining brightly and revealing color.

Love is the whisper of a tree in the wind, bending and bowing to the call of nature.

Love is the ripples on a lake, sending an electric charge of wonder without any expectation of your delight.

Love is the pine cone that drops to the ground to blanket the earth without cost to add warmth and offer new growth.

Love is in the rain that drops its presence in the mood and intensity it chooses without needing permission or discipline.

Love is in the rivers that flow through the lands showing purpose without a thought.

Love is in the stars and moon that need no arranging or fixing and offering an arrangement full of magical wonder and  imagination.

Love is the clouds that bring moisture and covering to the earth, never hearing from the sun,” can you go away or stop being what you were made to be”.

Love is in the depth of the ocean that holds an abundance of energy and life and surrounds it with landscape much like the arms of a  father or mother’s protection, giving it boundaries and support without defining it as separate or the same, large or small, fierce or passive.

Love is in the air that generously continues without ever needing approval, it just is.

Love is in the sea breeze that partners with exhilaration and offers us an opportunity to feel it or deny it and is never controlled by our presence, it just is.

Love is in the storms that create change and rearrange our surroundings, often perceived as destroying and challenging our perceptions of loss, life, material and emotional attachments, our strengths and our weaknesses without fear of rejection.

Love is in the mountains so brilliantly placed for purpose and intent, offering us the opportunity to climb, explore, reflect, grow, learn, rest, recover, feel excursion, build strength and create new thoughts, inviting us with its presence, never forcing or expecting you to see it.

Love is in the creation of life not in the judgement or expectations, success or failures, feelings or thoughts, ideas or perceptions, objections or compliments.

 Love is before, during and after anything is attached or detached, love is more than, love is and everything else is our own idea, changing, wavering, doubting, withholding, giving, receiving, rejecting, objecting, defence and judgement labelled good or bad or otherwise.

Love is always with no beginning or end, it IS.

Contemplate the depth of Sunshine that never stops shining just because you choose to.

Let It Flow To Grow

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The streams flow is beyond what the eye sees, touch the legacy of the purpose it shows.

Kerri Elizabeth

Calmness and serenity play hide and seek with the ever amazing beat of my heart.

A feeling that has become one with a thought flowing smoothly like a stream over mossy rocks.

There is no sense or doubt it has a beginning or an end, it has become one with my soul at every bend.

As my soul awakens and my mind becomes more aware, the beat of my heart starts to invite truth or dare without the rush of terror there.

The mere awakening the stream never stops and the moss will never die in the exchange of life and the purpose it holds, opens up a mystery to unfold.

The stream does not lead the moss’s direction or tell it to stay or to grow, nor does it carry the responsibility of the moss’s flow.

The stream of emotions that flow, connect with a thought we often deny we know.

The visual and the sound we hear are part of the stream and flow in continuing to grow.

When seeing beyond the streams flow to the purpose it has there for us to let go, then we gain the freedom of heart and soul.

We live forever in the lessons we leave, in the love we show, in the path we clear for others to go.

It is not me or the stream that is the purpose of life, it is the life of the stream in you and me that leave the legacy for all to make a choice to see.

It is purely and purposely the flow of the stream that leave a legacy for more life to begin.

See beyond the words and the eye into the purpose of life and the depth our soul wants to fly.

The stream does not stop flowing when you enter into its knowing, a streams legacy of flowing is part of the purpose in knowing.

Shining sunshine without a shadow on courageously seeing beyond the eye to the source that gave us life.

The Wind Passes Up Ownership and Attachment And Continues To Flow

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When experiences can pass through like the winds, the wave, the storms and the falling of the leaves from the trees you  allow the molding and changing of life’s purpose now and let go of the attachment of yesterday.

Kerri Elizabeth

In the acceptance of all an ocean exists with life.

Waves roll in, they subtlety and often fiercely mold the shore and the shore never resists but instead rejoices and invites the beauty of change and forgiveness.

Sodium, invisible to the eye becomes one with the water perfectly, like cells to your body.

The shoreline so ready and inviting to the wave accepts and recovers as they are one in a partnership to life.

The tree rocks in the wind never asking the wind not to blow but instead is a partnership in the existence of what” is”, bending and often breaking, repairing and strengthening for its purpose.

Leaves fall and the tree still stands.

 New growth now has room to sprout and grow.

 New color drops onto the canvas of life without asking or demanding, without fear or fault, without judgement or jealousy, it just “is”.

When anger or pain blow in like a storm or even a subtle breeze,

 when hurt or suffering roll in like a wave,

 when rainfall comes and drips a beautiful reminder we can be transparent and uncovered,

when leaves fall and give room to new growth and remind us to let go,

when the contrast of color in the fall inspires change and remind us life’s journey is a canvas of color not  an eraser of courage and strength,

when the sunshine becomes a reminder, no shadow can exist on its surface and you are light,

when the night reminds you there is a time of stillness and calmness and it takes the place of fear and loneliness,

when a word of any kind takes flight like a bird flying south and there are not attachments to its belonging,

when a person’s actions become part of a play in the choice of theatres you choose to invest to take a seat in,

when you notice the tree is always a tree with ever changing shape and color,

when you notice the waves are always waves with always changing shape and size,

when you notice rain can come in many intensities,

when you feel the sun’s heat the closer you arrive,

When you’re aware and conscious you live.

Sunshine exists without a shadow.

Dear Hero

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Decide your thoughts and your thoughts will create feelings and your feelings will create you.

Kerri Elizabeth

Letting go of what I can not change and making room for growth.

I no longer miss you, my child, I realize you’re a part of me and your never gone.

I no longer mourn for you, I have let go of the emotional control I have held onto thinking it would bring you back the way I want you, instead you will arrive the way you choose to.

I decided to change me and my own thinking, I decided to let go of the control that keeps me emotionally stuck and enables you to grow to be your best self.

I no longer worry about you because I believe you have the strength to make the decisions you want in your life and trust you will tap into that.

I no longer hurt for you, my beautiful child; I accept you’re exactly where you need to be to go where you want to go.

I no longer desire to convince you I love you, I will wait for you to learn to receive the abundance when you’re ready.

I no longer feel bad for myself or you, I am grateful for every minute of your life I have been able to share with you.

I no longer cry in pain, I cry for the joyous breakthrough to allow you to carry your own pain and choose your own path and love you no matter what that is for you.

I no longer see and hear the sickness of drugs, I see and hear your heart and it will bring us together again someday on earth or in heaven.

I no longer need you, needing means lack of, you are in me and a part of me and I won’t breathe without those parts, they are me.

I no longer miss you, my child, your spirit chooses your path and I have let go to save my own spirit for the day I am blessed to hug and kiss you again.

You will arrive one day and you will see only love and forgiveness and acceptance that are the true reflection of yourself.

From the lessons of four children to a mother, some circumstances are out of our control but all thoughts we are in control of.

From one child in a circumstance of chance and not choice and another in a circumstance of choice, not chance, each chooses the thoughts and healing direction of their path, each holds heroic warrior strength and each will use it when they choose to, it is there for the taking.

As a mother, my strength is to love them through their growth and never ever stop, my lesson is to let go and be present in love while they learn their way.

SUNSHINE ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

Keep Your Eyes On The Light

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Take in the light and be aware of  any darkness that may sneak in, the light is your armour keep it within.

Kerri Elizabeth

Every moment matters.

Yes every moment matters.

Do not miss this moment worrying about a moment that hasn’t happened yet.

Every moment you worry about what’s ahead you lose what is now.

Take in every moment and what is in it.

Are you thinking about what you are doing or what someone else is doing?

Are you taking in what serves your healing and your heart?

Are you searching for how to change someone else’s heart, or staying present in your part?

Are you reaching for a solution that is in the hands of someone else forgetting we can only change ourselves?

Our thoughts are purely our own, no matter what happens to us, the thoughts we have come from within us.

Are you taking on your own pain or have you been submerged in another’s pain and can’t understand why it still remains?

When we take on another’s pain we can’t change it, it’s only pain we can let go of, it didn’t belong to us when we decided to own it.

The same with joy and happiness, with giggles and laughs and hugs attached, it’s contagious and we take it on, we own it and it gives us the strength to go on.

We have to keep the flow of greatness coming in; it’s the energy that builds us within.

What is most important is to learn to let go where we have no control.

To let in what helps us grow.

SUNSHINE ON YOUR SHOULDERS

Missing a Heartbeat

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Missing another heartbeat up close, speaks volumes to the connection of love and hope.

Kerri Elizabeth

Missing a heartbeat up close.

Missing a touch, a talk, a warm embrace.

Missing them in your space.

Missing that place.

In this present moment I reflect on times that centered me and protected me and gave me hope.

Happiness is part of me, it isn’t something I look for, it is simply part of what I live for.

Reflecting on the beauty of a person or place, a moment to remember a warm embrace is a blessing you brought into your space.

No matter what the circumstance is, missing someone comes from within.

Like happiness, missing someone becomes part of you ,when they impact your life and your heart too.

Even when you might not see them in a day or hear their voice in the moment you have something to say, they are with you all the way.

Have you ever missed someone that was next to you and their pain also became part of you?

Letting go of carrying another’s pain gives you strength to remain strong in their name.

Loving and not letting go of someone else’s pain becomes a gift you gain.

When you can love someone through their pain and not let the pain become part of you, then the healing becomes about both of you.

When you own the pain of someone else, they then have to experience it in more than themselves.

Let go of another’s pain and love them instead where they are and give them a hand and share your heart so that healing can be in two hearts.

Sunshine is a promise, even when the sun goes down and darkness is found, the sunrise will come, it’s a promise we won.

LOVE YOU ALWAYS SUNSHINE!