She is my “Lovely” daughter

My heart with a paintbrush of expression.

When you think it’s too late , when you believe you can’t or you choose “I won’t” for the moment, inspiration will lift you and pull you to your feet. 

Will you listen , will you rise, will you pull up courage and determination, will you work hard, will you strengthen where you feel weakest, will you believe in yourself and encourage your own destiny to be all you want to be and find out you can be even more along the way, will you raise the bar for yourself , or not? 

Here is a story of my 39 year old daughter, she is an inspiration, a light in the world that carries deep pockets of courage and determination and she believes she can and there for she does. 

Many years ago she wanted to be in law enforcement but life had other plans for her to learn from first. She became a very successful business woman at an early age. No surprise there she was determined from day she arrived in the world , actually before that. (that’s another story).

Then she went on to create herself even more success in another career and had two beautiful children. So many changes and so much growth along the way but an unsettled desire to be in law enforcement. 

I’d asked her everytime I called” what are you doing”, she’d answer with reservation “I’m at work” , there was something missing, was it desire, a passion, so one day I asked “if you could be anything what would it be?” She answered , a cop or an English teacher. 

I don’t know how many times in the day she wondered and thought about all this, but I know it all became a decision and off she went. I have no idea if my questions opened a door that she needed a little crack to see through or if something I said mattered.

What I do know is that it’s important to challenge a thought and ask questions, that’s where exploring ideas, sparking dreams and possibilities come from. It isn’t our place to push, it’s our place to listen, ask and open doors where possibly over time we become so settled in what is we forget what’s possible or believe it’s too late.

Her answers prompted me to ask more questions. I could hear her working through it with more than wonder and one day she said “I’m going to take my law enforcement test.” Then she got her book to study and reinforced her love for working out and she made a goal, her dates kept getting moved closer and closer than planned and soon she was done testing , wow the depth of tests and paperwork were amazing. 

I want to tell you this story because her inspiring strength and determination to DECIDE and take the leap is a testament of what inner strength and courage can do, how it’s never too late even if you have already built success, which she did. She could have stayed doing what she was doing forever. 

What is success to you? 

Here is my painted expression highlighting her new courageous journey. May she always be safe protecting our communities with many brave people like her and may her success in all things bring her and her family happiness and a legacy of courage that continues in for generations. 

Gosh I love her so much!!!

Kerri-Elizabeth (Brandee’s proud Mom)

Reflections on Love and Growth with My Daughter

When your adult daughter asks if she can spend your birthday with you and go overnight somewhere, only one answer comes to mind, yes.

Moments are fewer the older they get

Conversation is deeper

Understanding comes without judgement

Time is not just the clock

Appreciation is shared within moments with no clock

The moon is full again in nearly a blink

Impact and growth appeared with volume

She’s married and still she’s my child

But it seems we became adults together

She has given me three grandchildren

Extensions of the beauty she holds

Our endless love is still gaining ground

Stronger than ever, bonded by more than her birth

Within experiences and understanding

Individual wisdom and insights are mutually heard

Perseverence built insights

Love gives space

To not change one another

Instead to love within change

Moments together are harder to find

So when they align , “YES” is the only word that comes to my mind

This birthday is now written in our history book of best memories

~Kerri-Elizabeth~

Light of Day Will Fade

Don’t miss the light of day living someone else’s way!

~ SUNSHINE~

When the light of the day slowly fades

Sounds quiet down all around

Shade takes the stage gently perspective is changed

Where a moment ago light and shade both took center stage

They bow with the honor of true love in a universal exchange

Miraculously the tides never hide

Crashing and surging to a universal rhythm

Pebbles in infinite amounts toss and turn

Offering an insurmountable melody of beauty to align

Give way to a thought, what is life about

Some days interpret as heavy

Some say, ready

Others seem even and steady

As the light will slowly fade

Another day is gifted into the nightshade

~ SUNSHINE~

MY SON FOREVER

No matter how far away you are no matter how many stars you’ve travelled so far, I love you!

My son
My heart
The voice to my soul
My purpose to grow
My guide ahead
My light
And that star so bright
The voice in the breeze
The crackle in the trees
Your infinite strength
Your more than any word can define
Youre my blessing of truth divine
Your forever my son
The only one
Your presence is a promise I always feel
I love you,
Your momma FOREVER

I MISS YOU HERE ON EARTH!

Unconditional Love

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Following the heart, lead by the soul and authentically guided by the truth in the pull, even after you let go!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

The heart knows

It pulls even when your mind lets go

Intertwined fabric of heart and soul

Dancing together perfectly aligned

Stitched and woven without illusion of time

Harmonizing the souls spoken lines

Love brilliantly laced

Memories not to be erased

Stay for a moment in this place

Feel the lesson placed

To love you, unconditionally, is faced

Sunshine

 

 

 

 

Persistent Persuasion

Processing is persistent persuasion of thought!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

Processing and feeling

Grieving and perceiving

Changing and recreating

Listening and learning

Crying and expressing

Shuttering and fighting

Empty and enlightened

Reality and denial

Life and living

Breathing and pain

Heart and soul

Darkness and light

Acceptance!

Love in light of the Sunshine

 

Happy Birthday to the Greatest Man Ever, MY SON!

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Zakary Ryan taught not to believe in the opinions of others, but to deeply believe the depth of your own true worth! 

~MY SON ZAKMAN~

His laughter infectious

His joy, uplifting

His outlook radiated champion

His love unconditional

His emotions deeper than the sea

His spirit beyond the human body’s capacity

His gifts moved the planet

He moved with creativity and challenged your thoughts

His soul shared unchartered truths

He pushed the limits and courageously lived

His name forever in my heart

His birth forever my gift of life

His presence and guidance always with me

His voice clearly speaks to me

His journey forever a part of my destiny

My protector, my teacher, my guide

His smile is my sunshine

My baby, my boy, my son, my child, my heartbeat

Thank you for making your appearance 25 years ago on this day

My life has been forever blessed and deeply changed because you chose me as your Momma!

You have shown me a depth I could never have reached or a strength I could never achieve without you!

YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE!

LISTEN WITH OPENNESS INTO THE HEART AND THOUGHTS OF A MAN (my son) WHO FOUGHT  HARD TO LEAVE A MESSAGE THROUGH HIS JOURNEY!

The first two songs are close to our hearts, we played them at Zaks memorial and he sang them with his great power all growing up with hands in the air! This boy has a journey and it won’t stop here, trust me as his momma, he has no stop button so watch out he’s making changes!

I Believe I can fly!

Worlds Greatest!

Zaks story/ Raw truths/Unfiltered

I am not a human/ By Zak

Running/ by Zak/ unfiltered

Intro./ Unfiltered and Raw

Divine Petal

With honor to the heart, acknowledgement to the mind and soul trust, forgiveness and love become one!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Previous to petals

Once a seed

Divinely placed

Reminding me

To love vibrantly

Caress kindness

Shatter anger

Crack the code

Happiness is there to hold

Blooming masterpiece

Beautiful and bold

Behind the eye

The heart it holds

Sunshine in this space!

FALL TO COLOR

Surrendering defense heals the wounds of yesterday and builds strength now!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Fall into the dimensions of tranquility

Revel in the four seasons

Emotional framework surrounds the color change

While significant contrast interprets each drop of rain

Leaves fall away with a side to side sway

Softly passing each branch on the way

Preparation meets opportunity to grow

Nature abundantly overflows

Highlights of winter inquiring their stay

Each season fulfilling their days

Offering knowledge wrapped in change

Surrendering possibility ,blossoming exchange

Blankets for a mermaid

 

Wandering into the wonder of grace, surrendering into the light divinely placed!

~Kerri Elizabeth~

 

Lures of love for a mermaid soul

Ripples of wonder rejuvenating the quiet thump of the heart

Mystical and intrinsic sights

Step beyond the eye and into the silent guidance from inside

Earth in miraculous wonder gently embraces a space for mermaids to feel the depth of grace

Gently a blanket of blue offers significant comfort too

Imagination adventures with the soul feeling hues of blues

Flow into the waters arms mermaid soul

Swim into the embraced space earth has given a mermaids heart grace

Sunshine in this place