A Broken Wing Shows You More of Everything!

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A broken wing is not everything, it shows you more than anything!

Kerri Elizabeth

A broken wing is not everything.

Taking flight in front of me a miracle in life so majestic and free.

Wings  spread open across to the sky as they leap without fear sending sounds that will pierce the deepest place you hear.

Without a plan or a thought, instinct takes over and in flight they take off.

The misty air, the clouds out there, it’s colder and colder every day and the dance of life is where they stay.

A miracle in her wings, gliding through the water with one wing, the other broken wing never stopped her from anything.

She carried her wing gracefully wrapped up on her back; she never missed a beat in her dance she would complete.

In the dance of life we can decide even with a broken wing, that dreams are made for everyone and miracles happen, even when we feel broken and undone.

Taking flight is not just in the wings that might, it is in the choice to choose life.

There will be inevitable ups and downs and there will be upside down smiles and right side up frowns, be the miracle that takes flight, leaving behind the fear that might.

Freedom is in the soaring of your soul, even with a broken wing that is not everything.

Sunshine on your flight!

Awareness Is Awareness and explains Awareness

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Awareness and “I” are one chord in the orchestra that never misses a beat and holds strong through defeat, It will meet you where you are and never go far, it is there to see and will always “Be”, turn up your sound and you will hear, the song inside is “I am” not “you and me”.

Kerri Elizabeth

As my soul awakens and my body and mind join in song with my soul, I hear every note of my own orchestras beat.

When there are no others I am aware of my space, when there is no sound I can hear my heart race.

Awareness is when others are there and you still are just as aware.

When the windows shutter from the winter wind and the raindrops fall over and over again, I am aware to spare a moment is to leave awareness unfolded.

When I am aware of my inner flow, beauty has an outer glow.

To release “me” to “I” gives insight inside for “me” to go away and “I” to reside.

When awareness is, “I” and not, “you” and “me”, then the darkness of the day and restless nights , pass through your light, without a shadow left insight.

Think about this moment now, are you aware of “I” or aware of the darkness that “me” is addicted to inside?

What are you aware of now?

When awareness is there to bare, there is no place for darkness there.

When darkness is your “I” as awareness when your world is the stipulations of the storms in life, then your life becomes a storm of stipulations and strife, not an awareness of “I” but ownership of something that should be free to pass by.

Controlling a storm, holding the trees still, catching every leaf, barreling every rain drop, damming every river and lake so not to flood or make a mistake, is an addiction to tuning out the notes of your own voice and owning someone else’s choice.

When the storms can pass and leaves can fall, when the rivers flow and lakes become full, when the ocean roars and the sea births more, when “I” and awareness are one chord, the orchestra inside is born.

When witnessing “I” and not “me”, when awareness is awareness with a capital “I”.

When every feeling can pass through you as it is not, “I”, it is life’s song and is not meant to be owned but appreciated as a lesson passing by.

 Like the storms of creation, love them and learn from them and you can ask why, the answer will still never be, “I”, it is meant to be an addition to life, learn and listen to the song of life without drowning out your  “I”.

 I am an orchestra of my own awareness.

Sunshining my awareness!

Is it You or In You?

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Smile, share, talk, walk, run, swim, sit, stand, go, stay, be, do, live, love, laugh, joy, insecurity, hatred, acceptance, fun, filled,limited or stuck, judged or judging, are you these things or are these things in you, one way can evolve and grow and the other will stay.

Kerri Elizabeth

Into the depth of our growth, there must be a tearing of fibers, a separation that yearns to draw contact back to a new and stronger connection.

As the muscle stretches to its capacity it is able to push just slightly past that in a calling to be stronger and faster.

Pushing past the comfort or the idea that this is all we can do is simply a personal limitation built from a support system that has been shared with us from others such as societies, systems, religions and labels.

We have been given permission to stop where we are at, to go back, to go forward, to stay in place, to think, to reflect, to gain, to lose, to love, to live, to laugh to give.

When the mind allows the connection to our thoughts to stretch beyond our given limitation we have chosen to own, the tearing of fibers is felt.

Our minds are stretched; our heart feels the fibers ripping to capacity, anticipating the unknown and delivering permission to hold up stop signs wherever we decide to put them, at a bend in the road, a long stretch or a standstill with more permission to stay longer there.

Our soul will often open and close to the made up fear of what may or may not be there, often challenging the partnership of heart, mind and spirit in a hurricane of internal chaos, holding us hostage from more.

The thought of more turns into an indecisive exchange of confusion between our thoughts creating the idea of good or bad, also leaving us idle to growth.

Change occurs in the letting go of another’s idea and allowing your own tearing of fibers to be your growth, to listen is not to own, to own is not to live, to live is not to be limited.

Capacity beyond our thoughts is infinitely available, there is no limit, no tearing of fibers is felt by just the notion we must feel pain to grow, what if growth and pain were one, what description would you choose?

Sunshine on your growth every day, where is your root system attached to and are you growing it or have you delegated it to employees of your heart mind and spirit at the cost you’re in debt scrambling to pay others?

Sunshines!!!!

Let It Flow To Grow

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The streams flow is beyond what the eye sees, touch the legacy of the purpose it shows.

Kerri Elizabeth

Calmness and serenity play hide and seek with the ever amazing beat of my heart.

A feeling that has become one with a thought flowing smoothly like a stream over mossy rocks.

There is no sense or doubt it has a beginning or an end, it has become one with my soul at every bend.

As my soul awakens and my mind becomes more aware, the beat of my heart starts to invite truth or dare without the rush of terror there.

The mere awakening the stream never stops and the moss will never die in the exchange of life and the purpose it holds, opens up a mystery to unfold.

The stream does not lead the moss’s direction or tell it to stay or to grow, nor does it carry the responsibility of the moss’s flow.

The stream of emotions that flow, connect with a thought we often deny we know.

The visual and the sound we hear are part of the stream and flow in continuing to grow.

When seeing beyond the streams flow to the purpose it has there for us to let go, then we gain the freedom of heart and soul.

We live forever in the lessons we leave, in the love we show, in the path we clear for others to go.

It is not me or the stream that is the purpose of life, it is the life of the stream in you and me that leave the legacy for all to make a choice to see.

It is purely and purposely the flow of the stream that leave a legacy for more life to begin.

See beyond the words and the eye into the purpose of life and the depth our soul wants to fly.

The stream does not stop flowing when you enter into its knowing, a streams legacy of flowing is part of the purpose in knowing.

Shining sunshine without a shadow on courageously seeing beyond the eye to the source that gave us life.

The Wind Passes Up Ownership and Attachment And Continues To Flow

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When experiences can pass through like the winds, the wave, the storms and the falling of the leaves from the trees you  allow the molding and changing of life’s purpose now and let go of the attachment of yesterday.

Kerri Elizabeth

In the acceptance of all an ocean exists with life.

Waves roll in, they subtlety and often fiercely mold the shore and the shore never resists but instead rejoices and invites the beauty of change and forgiveness.

Sodium, invisible to the eye becomes one with the water perfectly, like cells to your body.

The shoreline so ready and inviting to the wave accepts and recovers as they are one in a partnership to life.

The tree rocks in the wind never asking the wind not to blow but instead is a partnership in the existence of what” is”, bending and often breaking, repairing and strengthening for its purpose.

Leaves fall and the tree still stands.

 New growth now has room to sprout and grow.

 New color drops onto the canvas of life without asking or demanding, without fear or fault, without judgement or jealousy, it just “is”.

When anger or pain blow in like a storm or even a subtle breeze,

 when hurt or suffering roll in like a wave,

 when rainfall comes and drips a beautiful reminder we can be transparent and uncovered,

when leaves fall and give room to new growth and remind us to let go,

when the contrast of color in the fall inspires change and remind us life’s journey is a canvas of color not  an eraser of courage and strength,

when the sunshine becomes a reminder, no shadow can exist on its surface and you are light,

when the night reminds you there is a time of stillness and calmness and it takes the place of fear and loneliness,

when a word of any kind takes flight like a bird flying south and there are not attachments to its belonging,

when a person’s actions become part of a play in the choice of theatres you choose to invest to take a seat in,

when you notice the tree is always a tree with ever changing shape and color,

when you notice the waves are always waves with always changing shape and size,

when you notice rain can come in many intensities,

when you feel the sun’s heat the closer you arrive,

When you’re aware and conscious you live.

Sunshine exists without a shadow.

The Decision to Live

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The heart heals, the mind reminds, the soul leads and love forgives.

Kerri Elizabeth

 Is your inner control mistaken for protection?

 Get to the heart of the matter.

Judgement and decision, are you aware of your choice?

Action and reaction, the results will be different.

Offense or defense, take your position and responsibility for the outcome.

Love or jealousy, listen to your heart.

To hold on and to let go, releasing what holds you captive from joy.

To feel and to be free, allowing feelings to pass through, experience the strength growing to the other side of the matter.

 To love and to live in love, when you choose to see love, love will be what you live.

To give and to receive with no expectations, letting go of the ties that bind you.

Revealing, authentic and present, staying true to your own evolution of growth and life.

A change is made from the responsibility of ownership of only our own thoughts.

Owning our moments, owning our actions, reactions and story, grants a choice to creatively grow.

Owning someone else’s actions holds us hostage in their story and takes away the opportunity to create change in our own story.

Be your story and the main character in your journey beyond limited beliefs.

Be courageous in letting go.

Be brave in knowing what you seek is seeking you.

Be patient in the process,

Letting go of owning another’s actions and reactions and living in their story removes you from your own story, taking personally only your own delivers you the options possibilities and choices to change.

Be still in the sound of another’s inner roar, hear the heartbeat and soul screaming to be heard, to be loved, accepted, nurtured and accepted.

Be still with a quiet heart and listen.

To give love, you must first be love.

To receive love, you must first love.

Sunshine

Dear Hero

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Decide your thoughts and your thoughts will create feelings and your feelings will create you.

Kerri Elizabeth

Letting go of what I can not change and making room for growth.

I no longer miss you, my child, I realize you’re a part of me and your never gone.

I no longer mourn for you, I have let go of the emotional control I have held onto thinking it would bring you back the way I want you, instead you will arrive the way you choose to.

I decided to change me and my own thinking, I decided to let go of the control that keeps me emotionally stuck and enables you to grow to be your best self.

I no longer worry about you because I believe you have the strength to make the decisions you want in your life and trust you will tap into that.

I no longer hurt for you, my beautiful child; I accept you’re exactly where you need to be to go where you want to go.

I no longer desire to convince you I love you, I will wait for you to learn to receive the abundance when you’re ready.

I no longer feel bad for myself or you, I am grateful for every minute of your life I have been able to share with you.

I no longer cry in pain, I cry for the joyous breakthrough to allow you to carry your own pain and choose your own path and love you no matter what that is for you.

I no longer see and hear the sickness of drugs, I see and hear your heart and it will bring us together again someday on earth or in heaven.

I no longer need you, needing means lack of, you are in me and a part of me and I won’t breathe without those parts, they are me.

I no longer miss you, my child, your spirit chooses your path and I have let go to save my own spirit for the day I am blessed to hug and kiss you again.

You will arrive one day and you will see only love and forgiveness and acceptance that are the true reflection of yourself.

From the lessons of four children to a mother, some circumstances are out of our control but all thoughts we are in control of.

From one child in a circumstance of chance and not choice and another in a circumstance of choice, not chance, each chooses the thoughts and healing direction of their path, each holds heroic warrior strength and each will use it when they choose to, it is there for the taking.

As a mother, my strength is to love them through their growth and never ever stop, my lesson is to let go and be present in love while they learn their way.

SUNSHINE ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

Missing a Heartbeat

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Missing another heartbeat up close, speaks volumes to the connection of love and hope.

Kerri Elizabeth

Missing a heartbeat up close.

Missing a touch, a talk, a warm embrace.

Missing them in your space.

Missing that place.

In this present moment I reflect on times that centered me and protected me and gave me hope.

Happiness is part of me, it isn’t something I look for, it is simply part of what I live for.

Reflecting on the beauty of a person or place, a moment to remember a warm embrace is a blessing you brought into your space.

No matter what the circumstance is, missing someone comes from within.

Like happiness, missing someone becomes part of you ,when they impact your life and your heart too.

Even when you might not see them in a day or hear their voice in the moment you have something to say, they are with you all the way.

Have you ever missed someone that was next to you and their pain also became part of you?

Letting go of carrying another’s pain gives you strength to remain strong in their name.

Loving and not letting go of someone else’s pain becomes a gift you gain.

When you can love someone through their pain and not let the pain become part of you, then the healing becomes about both of you.

When you own the pain of someone else, they then have to experience it in more than themselves.

Let go of another’s pain and love them instead where they are and give them a hand and share your heart so that healing can be in two hearts.

Sunshine is a promise, even when the sun goes down and darkness is found, the sunrise will come, it’s a promise we won.

LOVE YOU ALWAYS SUNSHINE!

Natures Trance

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Natures trance is there for you, take it in and enjoy it too, the beauty of nature’s face is looking back at you.

Kerri Elizabeth

Waking up to the crisp morning air, summer is gone and fall is near.

Childhood memories are everywhere, the woods, the lakes, the rivers, the snakes, the deer, the bears and the mountain air.

The crispy fall breeze is also filled with my young adventurous childhood thrills.

The crackle of a fire is part of my heart’s desire; my toes get closer to the warmth of the woodstoves heat I admire.

Looking deep into the colorful flames the movement of the fire sets me into a trance of my childhood past.

I remember running through the woods every twig crackling under me, hearing the crinkle of the leaves and pulling up my sleeves.

I can also see my mom drinking coffee to the whisper of the wind, listening in her mind to the rivers voice within.

She would lose herself in time, I could see it on her face, as a child I didn’t know it was nature’s trance that kept her safe.

I slowly lose myself now inside nature’s trance too, just as I saw my mother’s eyes leaving at a glance in the feeling she knew.

Nature saves my mother’s soul and now as I softly disappear to the beauty of the morning air, I can feel the healing of my mother’s heart and the years I thought we grew apart.

Really what was happening in those years we were apart, was truly the wisdom we gained to love each other with a more compassionate heart.

Going inside and leaving fear and seeing my life through my mother’s tears, rewrites the moments I was sure she had disappeared.

Nature’s trance is part of me, a way, a face, a feeling, a place, a childhood friend, chopping wood and a fire leaving my life more understood.

I can thank you mom for so much more, thank you for raising me with the great outdoors.

Sunshine

The great outdoors has lead me now to the next part of my life.

F@@@ Cancer!

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Take a moment to remember that no matter what comes your way, the greatest gift you can give yourself is to remember love leads the way!

Kerri Elizabeth

The call came and shattered my heart.

I thought I shut down the pain.

What has happened is that my body is becoming re-arranged.

Who is the person and what is happening?

As I learn to balance my heart, body and mind, remembering each moment is my purpose all the time.

When I got the call my child will be fighting for his life, a place inside of me wanted to run and hide.

The bigger part of me won’t miss a moment of this journey; I will fight right by his side.

There is nothing in this world that could change that light inside.

I realized all the sudden the place that’s hiding inside is starting to carry the stress and showing it on the outside.

When someone you love has a challenge, remember it is important that you keep yourself in balance.

Life can give us a detour from where we originally thought we were going, are you strong and ready for the opportunity to grow and be better for knowing ?

I’ve had intense tears, I’ve experienced better years.

What I know for sure I have learned is that loving me is the only way I can love someone else in return.

So as I fall to my knees and allow the tears and pain to release, I will remember that loving me is where I can give my children what they need.

Then in the middle of the storm I learn another lesson for me, that when love is in front of you accept it and receive.

After years of fighting to receive I am letting go and reminded life is not about me, it is about YOU+ME= WE.

Share the love, build the love and remember that to give love you must have love and to receive love, you must accept love.

Not loving you is a choice you make; not loving me is a mistake I won’t create, make or take.

We are stronger as a “we” when we are strong as “you and me”!

Sunshine