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Dear Hero

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Decide your thoughts and your thoughts will create feelings and your feelings will create you.

Kerri Elizabeth

Letting go of what I can not change and making room for growth.

I no longer miss you, my child, I realize you’re a part of me and your never gone.

I no longer mourn for you, I have let go of the emotional control I have held onto thinking it would bring you back the way I want you, instead you will arrive the way you choose to.

I decided to change me and my own thinking, I decided to let go of the control that keeps me emotionally stuck and enables you to grow to be your best self.

I no longer worry about you because I believe you have the strength to make the decisions you want in your life and trust you will tap into that.

I no longer hurt for you, my beautiful child; I accept you’re exactly where you need to be to go where you want to go.

I no longer desire to convince you I love you, I will wait for you to learn to receive the abundance when you’re ready.

I no longer feel bad for myself or you, I am grateful for every minute of your life I have been able to share with you.

I no longer cry in pain, I cry for the joyous breakthrough to allow you to carry your own pain and choose your own path and love you no matter what that is for you.

I no longer see and hear the sickness of drugs, I see and hear your heart and it will bring us together again someday on earth or in heaven.

I no longer need you, needing means lack of, you are in me and a part of me and I won’t breathe without those parts, they are me.

I no longer miss you, my child, your spirit chooses your path and I have let go to save my own spirit for the day I am blessed to hug and kiss you again.

You will arrive one day and you will see only love and forgiveness and acceptance that are the true reflection of yourself.

From the lessons of four children to a mother, some circumstances are out of our control but all thoughts we are in control of.

From one child in a circumstance of chance and not choice and another in a circumstance of choice, not chance, each chooses the thoughts and healing direction of their path, each holds heroic warrior strength and each will use it when they choose to, it is there for the taking.

As a mother, my strength is to love them through their growth and never ever stop, my lesson is to let go and be present in love while they learn their way.

SUNSHINE ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

Missing a Heartbeat

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Missing another heartbeat up close, speaks volumes to the connection of love and hope.

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Missing a heartbeat up close.

Missing a touch, a talk, a warm embrace.

Missing them in your space.

Missing that place.

In this present moment I reflect on times that centered me and protected me and gave me hope.

Happiness is part of me, it isn’t something I look for, it is simply part of what I live for.

Reflecting on the beauty of a person or place, a moment to remember a warm embrace is a blessing you brought into your space.

No matter what the circumstance is, missing someone comes from within.

Like happiness, missing someone becomes part of you ,when they impact your life and your heart too.

Even when you might not see them in a day or hear their voice in the moment you have something to say, they are with you all the way.

Have you ever missed someone that was next to you and their pain also became part of you?

Letting go of carrying another’s pain gives you strength to remain strong in their name.

Loving and not letting go of someone else’s pain becomes a gift you gain.

When you can love someone through their pain and not let the pain become part of you, then the healing becomes about both of you.

When you own the pain of someone else, they then have to experience it in more than themselves.

Let go of another’s pain and love them instead where they are and give them a hand and share your heart so that healing can be in two hearts.

Sunshine is a promise, even when the sun goes down and darkness is found, the sunrise will come, it’s a promise we won.

LOVE YOU ALWAYS SUNSHINE!

The Beat Is

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When the heart knows gratitude will be the beat!

Kerri Elizabeth

Finding the heart balance.

The heart speaks the truth the mind lets loose.

 If you listen to the heart there is nothing that can tear you apart.

Your heart feels the stress and shows you when to rest.

Your heart is your beat, it tells you where to move your feet.

Your heart is your compass to present purpose and comfort.

Follow the way your heart leads you and love in the way your heart needs you.

Your heart calls you in to win; can you listen and feel the beat again?

Listen quietly to the beat within; cleanse your heart, your soul, your mind.

Give your body time to rest, let your heart beat be at its best.

Cry if that’s what you need, and listen to the call of where your heart leads.

Don’t get stuck in a feeling that keeps you trapped from believing.

Believe in the heart and let it do its part!

Natures Trance

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Natures trance is there for you, take it in and enjoy it too, the beauty of nature’s face is looking back at you.

Kerri Elizabeth

Waking up to the crisp morning air, summer is gone and fall is near.

Childhood memories are everywhere, the woods, the lakes, the rivers, the snakes, the deer, the bears and the mountain air.

The crispy fall breeze is also filled with my young adventurous childhood thrills.

The crackle of a fire is part of my heart’s desire; my toes get closer to the warmth of the woodstoves heat I admire.

Looking deep into the colorful flames the movement of the fire sets me into a trance of my childhood past.

I remember running through the woods every twig crackling under me, hearing the crinkle of the leaves and pulling up my sleeves.

I can also see my mom drinking coffee to the whisper of the wind, listening in her mind to the rivers voice within.

She would lose herself in time, I could see it on her face, as a child I didn’t know it was nature’s trance that kept her safe.

I slowly lose myself now inside nature’s trance too, just as I saw my mother’s eyes leaving at a glance in the feeling she knew.

Nature saves my mother’s soul and now as I softly disappear to the beauty of the morning air, I can feel the healing of my mother’s heart and the years I thought we grew apart.

Really what was happening in those years we were apart, was truly the wisdom we gained to love each other with a more compassionate heart.

Going inside and leaving fear and seeing my life through my mother’s tears, rewrites the moments I was sure she had disappeared.

Nature’s trance is part of me, a way, a face, a feeling, a place, a childhood friend, chopping wood and a fire leaving my life more understood.

I can thank you mom for so much more, thank you for raising me with the great outdoors.

Sunshine

The great outdoors has lead me now to the next part of my life.

F@@@ Cancer!

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Take a moment to remember that no matter what comes your way, the greatest gift you can give yourself is to remember love leads the way!

Kerri Elizabeth

The call came and shattered my heart.

I thought I shut down the pain.

What has happened is that my body is becoming re-arranged.

Who is the person and what is happening?

As I learn to balance my heart, body and mind, remembering each moment is my purpose all the time.

When I got the call my child will be fighting for his life, a place inside of me wanted to run and hide.

The bigger part of me won’t miss a moment of this journey; I will fight right by his side.

There is nothing in this world that could change that light inside.

I realized all the sudden the place that’s hiding inside is starting to carry the stress and showing it on the outside.

When someone you love has a challenge, remember it is important that you keep yourself in balance.

Life can give us a detour from where we originally thought we were going, are you strong and ready for the opportunity to grow and be better for knowing ?

I’ve had intense tears, I’ve experienced better years.

What I know for sure I have learned is that loving me is the only way I can love someone else in return.

So as I fall to my knees and allow the tears and pain to release, I will remember that loving me is where I can give my children what they need.

Then in the middle of the storm I learn another lesson for me, that when love is in front of you accept it and receive.

After years of fighting to receive I am letting go and reminded life is not about me, it is about YOU+ME= WE.

Share the love, build the love and remember that to give love you must have love and to receive love, you must accept love.

Not loving you is a choice you make; not loving me is a mistake I won’t create, make or take.

We are stronger as a “we” when we are strong as “you and me”!

Sunshine

You Were Feeling That Too?

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Letting go of what I thought and doing what I feel, revealed to me a lesson that letting go is not a thought but a choice in how I feel.

Kerri Elizabeth

The intensity of letting go!

So many things and times in life shatter us or keep us uptight.

Unable to hear what someone is saying, unable to feel when someone is praying.

When you just take a moment to authentically feel.

Life from your heart will reveal the importance of what is truly real.

Then in a flash the seasons will change, we lose our ground and life is rearranged.

Reach inside to the most beautiful things in life that can’t be touched or seen.

Let the heart reveal the beauty of every little thing.

Close your eyes and feel the rhythm, let the beauty from inside lead your life with precision and keep your heart healthy inside.

Your thoughts inside create a garden, how will the colors grow?

Plant a garden of color, of love and light inside, plant a calmness and a gratitude that blooms in intervals of time.

When the colors start to fade, remember there is another season that is planted and arranged.

Be ready for the seasons and expect there to be change.

The intensity of letting go can be like watching a flower grow.

Choose what grows in your garden and plant according to the season, let life bring you joy and excitement and play without a reason.

Jump in a puddle and let go of the darkness of the rain, enjoy every season and every ray of sunshine in between.

Thank you for the seasons and the colorful views, thank you for the ups and downs that create a challenge too.

Thank you for every little thing in my life that blooms, I cherish the feelings that give me life and the capacity to move.

Sunshine

Profound is found

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Let the life of today be your now and let the past not hold you down and all your tomorrows to be profound.

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Joy in the day and the moment and the feelings stay.

Letting go of the, I can’t’s, I don’t’s and I won’t’s.

I am letting go so I can receive, give, love and live.

A spontaneous moment I’m driven to chance, I’m risking the beauty in the possibility of the dance.

You make a difference to me, your adventure moves me, and nature come into me.

The vibration of sound rages through me so profoundly it goes deep down and I feel it consume me.

Resistance isn’t strong enough to hold back the feeling and keep me trapped in what life I’m not revealing.

The mountain, the waterfall, the drive, the exchange of energy shows its place in time.

The forest shows its branches, the trees will grow back, the growth shows the scars from fires and nature’s impact.

The wind blows the leaves from one side to the other, the road twists and turns as they flow together.

A lifetime of winds and gusting storms, they have shown their place again and again, the rains and the heat of the weather seem to leave less space for one
another.

Does the forest stop growing and say no more when life rushes through and has raged with storms?

Holding on to your roots, coming back to the start, where were you planted and are you healed from that part?

Are you moved through life under the moon, do you enjoy the stars and can you listen and learn?

Can you hear the winds come through today or are you fixed on the past storms that came through another day?

Can you be present in today and let go of how it happened long ago?

Can you be in today, can you get back to the moment when you go away?

Be present in the now and be careful your moment is not about what happened before with someone or somehow.

Revive the Beat of your Heart

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A heart embrace with nature’s pace revives a heart in that place. 

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Revived with a spark in the eyes.

A heart was revived from behind the eyes.

A healing of depth comes from a look so intense.

It shakes the ground, there is no frown.

The heart braces what memory erases.

A memory of the heart leaves an impact we often feel we can’t part.

Memory in the mind is often put back in the sub conscious line.

When will it surface and how will it take hold?

Will you be able to re-train that memory hold?

Often a thought is moved and massaged, changed and replaced and it’s done in that space.

Where did it go, did we really let go?

Often it takes another embrace so that you know you can lift that heart place.

We don’t know it can be done for sure until we lift it and endure.

Behind the eyes is a heart and soul, a depth you think only you truly know.

Behind the eyes comes a surprise.

Will the depth of what is inside, push through to the other side?

A heart is revived, massaged and declared to be alive from a look behind the eyes.

Can you give it and receive it, can you hear it and feel it, can you open it and look into it and can you trust when you’re with it?

Taking time to know where your heart takes hold.

Take the time to know if your heart is on overload.

Take the time to let go and take the time to create moments in life that open you up for challenging the inside.

Feel the depth to your toes, feel the sunshine on your face, feel the warm of the intense embrace.

Let the depth touch you behind the eyes, the heart becomes truly revived.

A jump in a lake, a fish on your plate, a hammock and a healing embrace goes behind the eyes to a depth inside not many know is there.

Sunshine on every present moment, look behind the eyes to the other side.

A Shift In The Wind

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A shift in the wind gives us choices to make.

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When the wind blows harder the resistance and or excitement to go out in it takes its place.

I am now moved to decide, do I go or do I stay within?

When the wind blows I am allowed a decision to make.

When the wind blows I have a feeling that is no mistake.

When the wind blows I have choices I can take.

I can create a story out of what I see in its wake.

I can stand in it and feel the wind on my face.

I can resist it and fall into it and see if it will holds me up or I fall on my face.

I can trust it and believe its presence has a purpose and place.

I can believe it can be bottled up and sent off, I can sell it and make a profit on top.

Whether you believe it or buy it or share it or feel it, prove it, live it, love it, compare it, it is only inside you how personal it is and no one can decide for you that place you live in.

The evolution of my growing has been best served in knowing that when I remember who I am, I am moved to decide, do I go or do I stay within?

The flicker inside of me, the wind that blows by me, the waves that crash on me, the inspiration shining around me, the light coming from me, the words that fill me, the life that leads me, the knowledge building in me, move me inside to decide, do I go or do I stay within?

Staying within the moment is my processing place, like simmering dinner or marinating a steak, like making the best slowly thought out chocolate cake.

What I won’t decide is how you will interpret the wind, how you will assimilate it within.

What I do know is I feel the wind blow and then decide, do I go or do I stay within?

I’m grateful for the love within that holds me up when the wind blows by me, the waves crash on me and I am grateful for your sharing around me and the knowledge that grounds me.

I am grateful for the opportunities that life gives me to feel a familiar wind and be reminded I have a choice to go in it or stay within, to react or respond and or repeat it differently or the same again.

I am grateful for the wind that blows around me and the choices I am served that may change me, challenge me, teach me,  and ground me.

They lead me to the very place of deciding what I can do to serve love all around me.

Sun shining rays of light that have guided me on my path, enjoy the rays that may inspire you and continue to share with me how you decide to feel the wind around you?

Four Parts to My Heart!

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Four children, four spirits and four hearts, my three daughter’s and my son, our love is priceless and can never be undone.

Kerri Elizabeth

I love you the four parts of my heart.

Four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

They grew up so beautiful, all of them, with the most amazing hearts and minds and love in them..

I have lived with them all moved out now for a year, you’d think it would be easier and I’d shed less tears.

I love seeing them grow and want to explore, I love that they all love to experience more.

I love the smiles, the enchanted talks, the hours on the phone and the dates and the walks.

I love meeting them one by one and seeing and hearing tell me all about their life on the run.

I love the late talks and sometimes tears, the fears we have all grown out of through the years.

Over the hills and through the woods with stories that will never get old.

In all the funny ways we told each other, “I love you” through the years, they have filled me and moved me and taught me to breathe, to live, to laugh, to take time to be free.

I love you my children, your smiles, your hugs, your laughter, your tears, your years of love.

I love you my children for each moment I have shared with you, the nights of talks, the endless lectures you endured, running miles, working out, eating healthy most of the time and allowing sugar on weekends were sometimes fun.

I love you the four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

Even when I haven’t been the best mother, even when I lose my mind now and then, thank you for loving me all the time, for forgiving and living the love within and always knowing I’d be back to give hugs and kisses and start again.

I love you all every second of every day.

I love you all no matter how far apart we live.

I love you all so very much, no words can explain my love enough.

I love you each of you the most and I love all the years you knew it was you and still to this day it holds true.

I love you the four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

Sunshine