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Dear Hero

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Decide your thoughts and your thoughts will create feelings and your feelings will create you.

Kerri Elizabeth

Letting go of what I can not change and making room for growth.

I no longer miss you, my child, I realize you’re a part of me and your never gone.

I no longer mourn for you, I have let go of the emotional control I have held onto thinking it would bring you back the way I want you, instead you will arrive the way you choose to.

I decided to change me and my own thinking, I decided to let go of the control that keeps me emotionally stuck and enables you to grow to be your best self.

I no longer worry about you because I believe you have the strength to make the decisions you want in your life and trust you will tap into that.

I no longer hurt for you, my beautiful child; I accept you’re exactly where you need to be to go where you want to go.

I no longer desire to convince you I love you, I will wait for you to learn to receive the abundance when you’re ready.

I no longer feel bad for myself or you, I am grateful for every minute of your life I have been able to share with you.

I no longer cry in pain, I cry for the joyous breakthrough to allow you to carry your own pain and choose your own path and love you no matter what that is for you.

I no longer see and hear the sickness of drugs, I see and hear your heart and it will bring us together again someday on earth or in heaven.

I no longer need you, needing means lack of, you are in me and a part of me and I won’t breathe without those parts, they are me.

I no longer miss you, my child, your spirit chooses your path and I have let go to save my own spirit for the day I am blessed to hug and kiss you again.

You will arrive one day and you will see only love and forgiveness and acceptance that are the true reflection of yourself.

From the lessons of four children to a mother, some circumstances are out of our control but all thoughts we are in control of.

From one child in a circumstance of chance and not choice and another in a circumstance of choice, not chance, each chooses the thoughts and healing direction of their path, each holds heroic warrior strength and each will use it when they choose to, it is there for the taking.

As a mother, my strength is to love them through their growth and never ever stop, my lesson is to let go and be present in love while they learn their way.

SUNSHINE ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

Missing a Heartbeat

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Missing another heartbeat up close, speaks volumes to the connection of love and hope.

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Missing a heartbeat up close.

Missing a touch, a talk, a warm embrace.

Missing them in your space.

Missing that place.

In this present moment I reflect on times that centered me and protected me and gave me hope.

Happiness is part of me, it isn’t something I look for, it is simply part of what I live for.

Reflecting on the beauty of a person or place, a moment to remember a warm embrace is a blessing you brought into your space.

No matter what the circumstance is, missing someone comes from within.

Like happiness, missing someone becomes part of you ,when they impact your life and your heart too.

Even when you might not see them in a day or hear their voice in the moment you have something to say, they are with you all the way.

Have you ever missed someone that was next to you and their pain also became part of you?

Letting go of carrying another’s pain gives you strength to remain strong in their name.

Loving and not letting go of someone else’s pain becomes a gift you gain.

When you can love someone through their pain and not let the pain become part of you, then the healing becomes about both of you.

When you own the pain of someone else, they then have to experience it in more than themselves.

Let go of another’s pain and love them instead where they are and give them a hand and share your heart so that healing can be in two hearts.

Sunshine is a promise, even when the sun goes down and darkness is found, the sunrise will come, it’s a promise we won.

LOVE YOU ALWAYS SUNSHINE!

The Beat Is

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When the heart knows gratitude will be the beat!

Kerri Elizabeth

Finding the heart balance.

The heart speaks the truth the mind lets loose.

 If you listen to the heart there is nothing that can tear you apart.

Your heart feels the stress and shows you when to rest.

Your heart is your beat, it tells you where to move your feet.

Your heart is your compass to present purpose and comfort.

Follow the way your heart leads you and love in the way your heart needs you.

Your heart calls you in to win; can you listen and feel the beat again?

Listen quietly to the beat within; cleanse your heart, your soul, your mind.

Give your body time to rest, let your heart beat be at its best.

Cry if that’s what you need, and listen to the call of where your heart leads.

Don’t get stuck in a feeling that keeps you trapped from believing.

Believe in the heart and let it do its part!

Natures Trance

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Natures trance is there for you, take it in and enjoy it too, the beauty of nature’s face is looking back at you.

Kerri Elizabeth

Waking up to the crisp morning air, summer is gone and fall is near.

Childhood memories are everywhere, the woods, the lakes, the rivers, the snakes, the deer, the bears and the mountain air.

The crispy fall breeze is also filled with my young adventurous childhood thrills.

The crackle of a fire is part of my heart’s desire; my toes get closer to the warmth of the woodstoves heat I admire.

Looking deep into the colorful flames the movement of the fire sets me into a trance of my childhood past.

I remember running through the woods every twig crackling under me, hearing the crinkle of the leaves and pulling up my sleeves.

I can also see my mom drinking coffee to the whisper of the wind, listening in her mind to the rivers voice within.

She would lose herself in time, I could see it on her face, as a child I didn’t know it was nature’s trance that kept her safe.

I slowly lose myself now inside nature’s trance too, just as I saw my mother’s eyes leaving at a glance in the feeling she knew.

Nature saves my mother’s soul and now as I softly disappear to the beauty of the morning air, I can feel the healing of my mother’s heart and the years I thought we grew apart.

Really what was happening in those years we were apart, was truly the wisdom we gained to love each other with a more compassionate heart.

Going inside and leaving fear and seeing my life through my mother’s tears, rewrites the moments I was sure she had disappeared.

Nature’s trance is part of me, a way, a face, a feeling, a place, a childhood friend, chopping wood and a fire leaving my life more understood.

I can thank you mom for so much more, thank you for raising me with the great outdoors.

Sunshine

The great outdoors has lead me now to the next part of my life.

Feeling the Beat

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When you feel the beat and it continues to repeat, dance to the sound of your heartbeat.

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When your heart beats and your mind repeats.

When the presence of a feeling reveals an inner appealing.

When your soul blooms and your mind is in tune and your heart beats to the light of the moon.

When your body feels, what your heart reveals and your mind becomes unconcealed.

When your heart opens and you realize your new and choices are in front of you, let go and receive what’s been given to you.

When you’re asked a question and inside of you the sign says, “stop, I have never revealed that part to you”, take a look, listen in and be curious what will be given within.

Then when you get the chance to have someone look into you and see more than you do, listen in and begin the process of finding out how much love is in you.

When the stars align and they sparkle all the time and they shoot across the sky, be still for a moment while they reveal, the presence of this inner appeal.

There is only one thing that can’t be separated and that is the space inside me and you.

As the clutter is cleared and the heart is revealed that space that can’t be separated is where love is full filled.

Stay in this place and remind yourself that all of this is that inner appeal.

Meet me outside to breathe the mountain air.

 Meet me outside where we become more aware.

 Meet me outside to look at the stars.

 Meet me outside where the story comes alive.

See you in the SUNSHINE!

You Were Feeling That Too?

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Letting go of what I thought and doing what I feel, revealed to me a lesson that letting go is not a thought but a choice in how I feel.

Kerri Elizabeth

The intensity of letting go!

So many things and times in life shatter us or keep us uptight.

Unable to hear what someone is saying, unable to feel when someone is praying.

When you just take a moment to authentically feel.

Life from your heart will reveal the importance of what is truly real.

Then in a flash the seasons will change, we lose our ground and life is rearranged.

Reach inside to the most beautiful things in life that can’t be touched or seen.

Let the heart reveal the beauty of every little thing.

Close your eyes and feel the rhythm, let the beauty from inside lead your life with precision and keep your heart healthy inside.

Your thoughts inside create a garden, how will the colors grow?

Plant a garden of color, of love and light inside, plant a calmness and a gratitude that blooms in intervals of time.

When the colors start to fade, remember there is another season that is planted and arranged.

Be ready for the seasons and expect there to be change.

The intensity of letting go can be like watching a flower grow.

Choose what grows in your garden and plant according to the season, let life bring you joy and excitement and play without a reason.

Jump in a puddle and let go of the darkness of the rain, enjoy every season and every ray of sunshine in between.

Thank you for the seasons and the colorful views, thank you for the ups and downs that create a challenge too.

Thank you for every little thing in my life that blooms, I cherish the feelings that give me life and the capacity to move.

Sunshine

Did You Leave Your Power With Someone else?

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Take the time to see the person in front of you and let go of the person behind you, your mind can only be in one place at a time, make that time NOW, not yesterday!

Kerri Elizabeth

Conversation and a scarred heart.

Sometimes we don’t realize the impact from our past on our future until it presents itself in a familiar place.

I realized that moment, there were matching scars.

Parts of our life got pushed aside, leaving lasting scars, making it difficult for anyone else to get very far.

When someone walks in your life and reminds you of the past, how do you respond, other than a quick,” hell no I’m not going back?”

Triggers move a bullet quick into space, often causing chaos from a past scarred place.

When the trigger is ready you can shoot anytime, if you let off the trigger and set the bullets aside, you give room to listen and then decide.

Are we walking with our finger on a trigger all the time and not knowing were ready to fire without hearing the heart in NOW time?

Letting go of the past is easy when you decide, the person in front of you is worth giving the space only you can provide.

No one needs to hear how someone else did you wrong, what is most important is how did you get here and are you ready to let go of the old times?

Can you open up the door to a new outlook?

What if you decided to let go of the pain and let love in and thankfulness took over the day?

What if you could just talk and express all the wonders of the day?

What if you could just feel your way into a new day and be heard and hugged and loved even when that meant you had to cry and feel frustrated along the way?

What if you could hear again without the background noise of the past and remember who’s in front of you is clearly not the last?

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A lifetime is how you see it, no matter what you do, your perspective is your life, and how you view it is what you will do.

Profound is found

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Let the life of today be your now and let the past not hold you down and all your tomorrows to be profound.

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Joy in the day and the moment and the feelings stay.

Letting go of the, I can’t’s, I don’t’s and I won’t’s.

I am letting go so I can receive, give, love and live.

A spontaneous moment I’m driven to chance, I’m risking the beauty in the possibility of the dance.

You make a difference to me, your adventure moves me, and nature come into me.

The vibration of sound rages through me so profoundly it goes deep down and I feel it consume me.

Resistance isn’t strong enough to hold back the feeling and keep me trapped in what life I’m not revealing.

The mountain, the waterfall, the drive, the exchange of energy shows its place in time.

The forest shows its branches, the trees will grow back, the growth shows the scars from fires and nature’s impact.

The wind blows the leaves from one side to the other, the road twists and turns as they flow together.

A lifetime of winds and gusting storms, they have shown their place again and again, the rains and the heat of the weather seem to leave less space for one
another.

Does the forest stop growing and say no more when life rushes through and has raged with storms?

Holding on to your roots, coming back to the start, where were you planted and are you healed from that part?

Are you moved through life under the moon, do you enjoy the stars and can you listen and learn?

Can you hear the winds come through today or are you fixed on the past storms that came through another day?

Can you be present in today and let go of how it happened long ago?

Can you be in today, can you get back to the moment when you go away?

Be present in the now and be careful your moment is not about what happened before with someone or somehow.

Stand Upside Down

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Hear the sound inside, turn it up or down, dance to it and let peace turn a frown upside down.

Kerri Elizabeth 

It’s amazing what a sound can do.

Turn up the volume on your life and turn it down now and then.

Rest in the softer sounds and dance to it again.

I realized there is a volume on life in my head.

Can you turn it down and drown out the sound?

Or turn it up when you want to sing out loud?

Can you turn it up and dance and turn a frown upside down?

There is a sound that will spark up your heart and soul.

There is a sound that will try to take control.

There is a sound that can make your heart beat faster.

There is also a sound that can wipe you off your feet.

A sound can bring a tear and wipe away a fear.

A sound can comfort you and sometimes it can consume you too.

Simply a sound can make a moment so profound.

A voice, a word, a song, a swear word, a whisper, a scream and laughter they all seem to spark a feeling that needs a volume to turn it up or down for meaning.

Do you have your finger on the volume in your head, reset it now and again.

Take time to release the sounds that don’t give you peace all around.

There is freedom in the volume, dance or cry to the sound.

Sometimes it takes both at the same time to turn a frown upside down.

SUNSHINE

A WARRIORS MOTHER WITH LOVE

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There is no choice other than love for me, I am a warrior’s mother chosen to be.

Kerri Elizabeth

Relapse into the greatest love of all.

Relapse is a word that explains, time to kick ass and take names.

A good cry and a few swear words will suffice and then action and believing is my own advice.

The news hit hard, the words took charge, my heart dropped a few beats and my chest became tight and landed at my feet.

My brain lost oxygen, nearing the feeling of passing out, the initial feeling has to make its way out.

Tears soaked my face; shaking took over me from the inside feeling the memory of the pain he had to endure the first time.

He doesn’t want to talk, he says he doesn’t want this in existence, he says he’s ok and I know he is, in his own explanation that’s the only way he chooses this moment to live in.

One moment at a time, he’s at work right now, writing songs and living what he loves to do.

His strength is beyond measure, his perseverance is his deepest treasure, he is full of love and compassion inside, and he has a tough exterior to some outside.

He saves his heart for only the best and those that make it inside are forever loved and protected by his warrior spirit all the time.

He takes one moment at a time and reminds me along the way, to stop and allow his journey to be his way.

He reminds me we all have a path we choose and when he gets the chance he reminds me where he learned that too.

So after a few hours have passed and tears have flooded my path and my heart has felt the impact, I now am reminded of this precious gift where both of us learned a new language gift.

Listen to me mom, with all your might, listen to me and hear me inside, look at me and see me and hear what I am telling you freely.

The only thing I would change about my childhood mom is that I would be heard without you saying a word.

I have the honor as his mother to listen to his heart and feel his music, to hear his words and hear his feelings.

I can dance to his music, laugh with his humor and cry with his pain and I can stand tall and remember I was given this position as his mother, trusted and chosen to be the strongest warrior’s mother.

So my shoulders are back, my posture is stellar, my mind is intact, my oxygen is level.

My spirit will carry me through the shift in the wind, and I will keep the gap that divides my fears and tears with pure love within.

He is a warrior child and he is my son, there is nothing inside that will tear that down, his strength and determination is more than profound.

So today will pass in an hour or so and tomorrow will bring me another day to continue to show him that I am listening without a word to whatever he feels he can put into words.

Every moment matters and I will continue to be, strength, perseverance, determination and purpose to be a warrior’s mother every day.

He  has a girlfriend beautiful and bright, she radiates love and light, her heart abounds with passion in life and she has made it inside to his warrior life.

He has three sisters as well and let me tell you this army of love has nothing but strength in it.

There are always choices except this one, love is the only option in this family, there is nothing bigger than our hearts working together as one.

With all the love that surrounds him and the strongest love within him, he is always an inspiration to me and to anyone honored to be around him, look for him and see, he is a musician and a writer of his own music and beat.

SUNSHINE on every MOMENT with LOVE as the only option and component.