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Missing a Heartbeat

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Missing another heartbeat up close, speaks volumes to the connection of love and hope.

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Missing a heartbeat up close.

Missing a touch, a talk, a warm embrace.

Missing them in your space.

Missing that place.

In this present moment I reflect on times that centered me and protected me and gave me hope.

Happiness is part of me, it isn’t something I look for, it is simply part of what I live for.

Reflecting on the beauty of a person or place, a moment to remember a warm embrace is a blessing you brought into your space.

No matter what the circumstance is, missing someone comes from within.

Like happiness, missing someone becomes part of you ,when they impact your life and your heart too.

Even when you might not see them in a day or hear their voice in the moment you have something to say, they are with you all the way.

Have you ever missed someone that was next to you and their pain also became part of you?

Letting go of carrying another’s pain gives you strength to remain strong in their name.

Loving and not letting go of someone else’s pain becomes a gift you gain.

When you can love someone through their pain and not let the pain become part of you, then the healing becomes about both of you.

When you own the pain of someone else, they then have to experience it in more than themselves.

Let go of another’s pain and love them instead where they are and give them a hand and share your heart so that healing can be in two hearts.

Sunshine is a promise, even when the sun goes down and darkness is found, the sunrise will come, it’s a promise we won.

LOVE YOU ALWAYS SUNSHINE!

The Beat Is

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When the heart knows gratitude will be the beat!

Kerri Elizabeth

Finding the heart balance.

The heart speaks the truth the mind lets loose.

 If you listen to the heart there is nothing that can tear you apart.

Your heart feels the stress and shows you when to rest.

Your heart is your beat, it tells you where to move your feet.

Your heart is your compass to present purpose and comfort.

Follow the way your heart leads you and love in the way your heart needs you.

Your heart calls you in to win; can you listen and feel the beat again?

Listen quietly to the beat within; cleanse your heart, your soul, your mind.

Give your body time to rest, let your heart beat be at its best.

Cry if that’s what you need, and listen to the call of where your heart leads.

Don’t get stuck in a feeling that keeps you trapped from believing.

Believe in the heart and let it do its part!

Natures Trance

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Natures trance is there for you, take it in and enjoy it too, the beauty of nature’s face is looking back at you.

Kerri Elizabeth

Waking up to the crisp morning air, summer is gone and fall is near.

Childhood memories are everywhere, the woods, the lakes, the rivers, the snakes, the deer, the bears and the mountain air.

The crispy fall breeze is also filled with my young adventurous childhood thrills.

The crackle of a fire is part of my heart’s desire; my toes get closer to the warmth of the woodstoves heat I admire.

Looking deep into the colorful flames the movement of the fire sets me into a trance of my childhood past.

I remember running through the woods every twig crackling under me, hearing the crinkle of the leaves and pulling up my sleeves.

I can also see my mom drinking coffee to the whisper of the wind, listening in her mind to the rivers voice within.

She would lose herself in time, I could see it on her face, as a child I didn’t know it was nature’s trance that kept her safe.

I slowly lose myself now inside nature’s trance too, just as I saw my mother’s eyes leaving at a glance in the feeling she knew.

Nature saves my mother’s soul and now as I softly disappear to the beauty of the morning air, I can feel the healing of my mother’s heart and the years I thought we grew apart.

Really what was happening in those years we were apart, was truly the wisdom we gained to love each other with a more compassionate heart.

Going inside and leaving fear and seeing my life through my mother’s tears, rewrites the moments I was sure she had disappeared.

Nature’s trance is part of me, a way, a face, a feeling, a place, a childhood friend, chopping wood and a fire leaving my life more understood.

I can thank you mom for so much more, thank you for raising me with the great outdoors.

Sunshine

The great outdoors has lead me now to the next part of my life.

F@@@ Cancer!

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Take a moment to remember that no matter what comes your way, the greatest gift you can give yourself is to remember love leads the way!

Kerri Elizabeth

The call came and shattered my heart.

I thought I shut down the pain.

What has happened is that my body is becoming re-arranged.

Who is the person and what is happening?

As I learn to balance my heart, body and mind, remembering each moment is my purpose all the time.

When I got the call my child will be fighting for his life, a place inside of me wanted to run and hide.

The bigger part of me won’t miss a moment of this journey; I will fight right by his side.

There is nothing in this world that could change that light inside.

I realized all the sudden the place that’s hiding inside is starting to carry the stress and showing it on the outside.

When someone you love has a challenge, remember it is important that you keep yourself in balance.

Life can give us a detour from where we originally thought we were going, are you strong and ready for the opportunity to grow and be better for knowing ?

I’ve had intense tears, I’ve experienced better years.

What I know for sure I have learned is that loving me is the only way I can love someone else in return.

So as I fall to my knees and allow the tears and pain to release, I will remember that loving me is where I can give my children what they need.

Then in the middle of the storm I learn another lesson for me, that when love is in front of you accept it and receive.

After years of fighting to receive I am letting go and reminded life is not about me, it is about YOU+ME= WE.

Share the love, build the love and remember that to give love you must have love and to receive love, you must accept love.

Not loving you is a choice you make; not loving me is a mistake I won’t create, make or take.

We are stronger as a “we” when we are strong as “you and me”!

Sunshine

Be Aware of your Passages

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The passages of our life are truly defined, by the times we continue to push the capacity in that direction and our compass starts to lead us without conscious intention.

Kerri Elizabeth

Silent in a moment

 Be silent for a moment and able to listen inside.

What do you hear and what is drawing you near?

Be silent for a moment and listen to your heartbeat.

Gratitude moving through every breath is a reminder to let go of what keeps us from our best.

Breathe in this beautifully gifted moment being intentional in your thoughts.

 Be mindful in the filling of only love into your lungs, the only choice then is for love to be released to everyone.

Open the heart chambers to receive the flow that allows us to live with what creates us to grow.

Let the passage of this moment be conscious and true, in every moment we have the choice to create the passages of our mind that only lead to a ray of sunshine.

The passages and roads you go down the most will eventually create inside you the habits and thoughts that lead you.

Be mindful in where your life’s passages lead, where the capacity is stretched and if the air flowing is clean.

When you’re filled inside with animosity and stress, there is no room for exchanging or honoring anyone with your best.

Let go of what doesn’t serve your soul, breathe out the resentments, the angry inside, let go of shame and blame that took hold.

Give into this moment a reminder to you, that in every moment when conscious and true, your reaction will be what you want it to.

Your actions and reactions need air to move, pay close attention to how that exchange feels to you.

Sunshine is always on the horizon, it’s consistent and true.

When creating a passage inside of you, follow the path that leads to the best in you.

A WARRIORS MOTHER WITH LOVE

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There is no choice other than love for me, I am a warrior’s mother chosen to be.

Kerri Elizabeth

Relapse into the greatest love of all.

Relapse is a word that explains, time to kick ass and take names.

A good cry and a few swear words will suffice and then action and believing is my own advice.

The news hit hard, the words took charge, my heart dropped a few beats and my chest became tight and landed at my feet.

My brain lost oxygen, nearing the feeling of passing out, the initial feeling has to make its way out.

Tears soaked my face; shaking took over me from the inside feeling the memory of the pain he had to endure the first time.

He doesn’t want to talk, he says he doesn’t want this in existence, he says he’s ok and I know he is, in his own explanation that’s the only way he chooses this moment to live in.

One moment at a time, he’s at work right now, writing songs and living what he loves to do.

His strength is beyond measure, his perseverance is his deepest treasure, he is full of love and compassion inside, and he has a tough exterior to some outside.

He saves his heart for only the best and those that make it inside are forever loved and protected by his warrior spirit all the time.

He takes one moment at a time and reminds me along the way, to stop and allow his journey to be his way.

He reminds me we all have a path we choose and when he gets the chance he reminds me where he learned that too.

So after a few hours have passed and tears have flooded my path and my heart has felt the impact, I now am reminded of this precious gift where both of us learned a new language gift.

Listen to me mom, with all your might, listen to me and hear me inside, look at me and see me and hear what I am telling you freely.

The only thing I would change about my childhood mom is that I would be heard without you saying a word.

I have the honor as his mother to listen to his heart and feel his music, to hear his words and hear his feelings.

I can dance to his music, laugh with his humor and cry with his pain and I can stand tall and remember I was given this position as his mother, trusted and chosen to be the strongest warrior’s mother.

So my shoulders are back, my posture is stellar, my mind is intact, my oxygen is level.

My spirit will carry me through the shift in the wind, and I will keep the gap that divides my fears and tears with pure love within.

He is a warrior child and he is my son, there is nothing inside that will tear that down, his strength and determination is more than profound.

So today will pass in an hour or so and tomorrow will bring me another day to continue to show him that I am listening without a word to whatever he feels he can put into words.

Every moment matters and I will continue to be, strength, perseverance, determination and purpose to be a warrior’s mother every day.

He  has a girlfriend beautiful and bright, she radiates love and light, her heart abounds with passion in life and she has made it inside to his warrior life.

He has three sisters as well and let me tell you this army of love has nothing but strength in it.

There are always choices except this one, love is the only option in this family, there is nothing bigger than our hearts working together as one.

With all the love that surrounds him and the strongest love within him, he is always an inspiration to me and to anyone honored to be around him, look for him and see, he is a musician and a writer of his own music and beat.

SUNSHINE on every MOMENT with LOVE as the only option and component.

Four Parts to My Heart!

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Four children, four spirits and four hearts, my three daughter’s and my son, our love is priceless and can never be undone.

Kerri Elizabeth

I love you the four parts of my heart.

Four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

They grew up so beautiful, all of them, with the most amazing hearts and minds and love in them..

I have lived with them all moved out now for a year, you’d think it would be easier and I’d shed less tears.

I love seeing them grow and want to explore, I love that they all love to experience more.

I love the smiles, the enchanted talks, the hours on the phone and the dates and the walks.

I love meeting them one by one and seeing and hearing tell me all about their life on the run.

I love the late talks and sometimes tears, the fears we have all grown out of through the years.

Over the hills and through the woods with stories that will never get old.

In all the funny ways we told each other, “I love you” through the years, they have filled me and moved me and taught me to breathe, to live, to laugh, to take time to be free.

I love you my children, your smiles, your hugs, your laughter, your tears, your years of love.

I love you my children for each moment I have shared with you, the nights of talks, the endless lectures you endured, running miles, working out, eating healthy most of the time and allowing sugar on weekends were sometimes fun.

I love you the four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

Even when I haven’t been the best mother, even when I lose my mind now and then, thank you for loving me all the time, for forgiving and living the love within and always knowing I’d be back to give hugs and kisses and start again.

I love you all every second of every day.

I love you all no matter how far apart we live.

I love you all so very much, no words can explain my love enough.

I love you each of you the most and I love all the years you knew it was you and still to this day it holds true.

I love you the four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

Sunshine

Seeing For You Is Blinding Me!

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Seeing for you leaves me blinded by me!

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Seeing for you is blinding me.

When judgement sneaks in our sights are on more than being.

Are you spending time thinking what others think and missing your own life in every blink?

I learned a very good lesson recently taking what I thought was a risk and going butt naked and free on a beach with clothes optional I decided to just be.

The biggest evolution in my judgement for me came the moment I took every stitch off and set my body free.

As I looked around to see some with clothes and some without, I realized everyone was there for themselves to be left with no judgement for me or themselves.

I have spent all my life in fitness and health and allowed myself to manifest pressure inside myself.

When I couldn’t get my body to look like her I would work really hard to learn to just love and accept all of my curves.

When I learned to accept myself as I was , it was then I started to change and grow into a better self.

I was holding on to what I didn’t realize, it wasn’t at all judgement directed at me it was my own judgment on everyone else I was thinking for instead of me.

Why did I think everyone was looking at me and why did I think for hundreds of people just being free?

This all brought a question to my mind, are we all living in life thinking for more than ourselves?

To teach is to live and to show the way, to teach is not to tell someone else what to think or say.

To live what you say and take action every day shows experiences that will impact others along the way.

Living life and believing in your purpose is authentic and true and takes away the false sense of self-worth from others that don’t live inside of you.

Not everyone has to learn like me, going on a beach letting go of clothes to be free.

This was however what I chose to see; it opened my eyes to so much of my judgement  that I actually had no idea was truly blinding me.

Now when I think, “they or he or she or them” is usually the beginning of a judgement again.

We all learn every day and this one way impacted me in so many ways.

Sharing Sunshine on life where the sun has never shined!

Sunshine

Compost For Your Growth

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Let yesterday’s weeds be today’s compost for the garden of your life to grow organically edible!

Kerri Elizabeth

Have you ever wondered what tomorrow will bring?

Have you ever thought about too many things?

Have you ever wanted to do something new?

Have you ever jumped in the ocean nude?

Have you ever just let every thought go, looking out to see nature’s show?

Have you ever experienced unconditional love?

Have you ever just woke up and took a trip with nothing in hand except the feeling and a look?

Have you ever just let go of the thought “I can’t” and did it before that thought took camp?

Have you ever raced someone to the top and when you thought you were even and had a shot they darted past with a smile at the top?

Have you ever been hurt so deeply by love that you felt as though breathing was an option and not part of our own true love?

Have you ever jumped into the sea and experienced a new side of being free?

Have you ever just given your last dime, and trusted it would be perfectly divine?

Have you ever trusted so much that love, disappointment, expectations and experiences all come and go and add strength to what we know?

Have you ever thought that right now is the moment love is embracing you, can you feel it and not ask how?

Ask and inspire creative ways, share it, live it, experience it along your way, give it, receive it, make a way, were all here together, nothing is in the way if the question is simply asking ,” how many more visions am I adding in today to the life legacy I am creatively building every day?”

Keep adding new visions along the way, write them, share them, and let them grow.

When weeds show up, pull them out, look at them, feel them and lay them down they make the most beautiful organic compost ever found.

Let the weeds of your life be compost for your growth, resisting them and continuing to wonder what to do, leave them more time to grow inside of you.

Sunshine

Pace is Your Own Embrace

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Growing at your own pace is the true growth to embrace, growing at someone else’s pace is not your growth place. 

Kerri Elizabeth

Growing at my pace.

Loving and learning is a beautiful place.

Watching and listening to the human race.

There are so many differences to appreciate.

The beauty in everyone is rarely seen by anyone.

The most beautiful part of perception is no one sees the same.

It invites ideas and conversation we can take and evaluate and let them all take shape in the evolution of our pace.

The universe has a pace and part of that beautiful place, are moments and people living their own truth and grace.

Telling the sun to hurry up to rise at your pace is not going to change the sun’s perfect pace.

The most beautiful thing I have learned along my journey in life is to be me and let go of the place where I thought you wanted me to be.

Now I know without a doubt it is only me I can be and to grow I must grow from being me, not who you want me to be.

When I let go of need and allowed who was me, I saw a shift in the world where I already fit without need or try, it just was and I didn’t have to ask why.

The outside O’clock of time became clear and each moment became a place to shed fear.

It’s not about time, or a place or a person; it’s about letting go of control there has to be a reason.

When I decided to be me, and let others do the same without pushing my way, I started to grow more passion in my day.

Being who you are is the only place to grow.

Being where someone else thinks is their growth so far.

SUNSHINE on the beauty of the safety embrace, loving YOU where you are and watching you grow at your pace has taught me that loving me where I am is my own true growth place.

Sunshine