F@@@ Cancer!

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Take a moment to remember that no matter what comes your way, the greatest gift you can give yourself is to remember love leads the way!

Kerri Elizabeth

The call came and shattered my heart.

I thought I shut down the pain.

What has happened is that my body is becoming re-arranged.

Who is the person and what is happening?

As I learn to balance my heart, body and mind, remembering each moment is my purpose all the time.

When I got the call my child will be fighting for his life, a place inside of me wanted to run and hide.

The bigger part of me won’t miss a moment of this journey; I will fight right by his side.

There is nothing in this world that could change that light inside.

I realized all the sudden the place that’s hiding inside is starting to carry the stress and showing it on the outside.

When someone you love has a challenge, remember it is important that you keep yourself in balance.

Life can give us a detour from where we originally thought we were going, are you strong and ready for the opportunity to grow and be better for knowing ?

I’ve had intense tears, I’ve experienced better years.

What I know for sure I have learned is that loving me is the only way I can love someone else in return.

So as I fall to my knees and allow the tears and pain to release, I will remember that loving me is where I can give my children what they need.

Then in the middle of the storm I learn another lesson for me, that when love is in front of you accept it and receive.

After years of fighting to receive I am letting go and reminded life is not about me, it is about YOU+ME= WE.

Share the love, build the love and remember that to give love you must have love and to receive love, you must accept love.

Not loving you is a choice you make; not loving me is a mistake I won’t create, make or take.

We are stronger as a “we” when we are strong as “you and me”!

Sunshine

You Were Feeling That Too?

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Letting go of what I thought and doing what I feel, revealed to me a lesson that letting go is not a thought but a choice in how I feel.

Kerri Elizabeth

The intensity of letting go!

So many things and times in life shatter us or keep us uptight.

Unable to hear what someone is saying, unable to feel when someone is praying.

When you just take a moment to authentically feel.

Life from your heart will reveal the importance of what is truly real.

Then in a flash the seasons will change, we lose our ground and life is rearranged.

Reach inside to the most beautiful things in life that can’t be touched or seen.

Let the heart reveal the beauty of every little thing.

Close your eyes and feel the rhythm, let the beauty from inside lead your life with precision and keep your heart healthy inside.

Your thoughts inside create a garden, how will the colors grow?

Plant a garden of color, of love and light inside, plant a calmness and a gratitude that blooms in intervals of time.

When the colors start to fade, remember there is another season that is planted and arranged.

Be ready for the seasons and expect there to be change.

The intensity of letting go can be like watching a flower grow.

Choose what grows in your garden and plant according to the season, let life bring you joy and excitement and play without a reason.

Jump in a puddle and let go of the darkness of the rain, enjoy every season and every ray of sunshine in between.

Thank you for the seasons and the colorful views, thank you for the ups and downs that create a challenge too.

Thank you for every little thing in my life that blooms, I cherish the feelings that give me life and the capacity to move.

Sunshine

Did You Leave Your Power With Someone else?

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Take the time to see the person in front of you and let go of the person behind you, your mind can only be in one place at a time, make that time NOW, not yesterday!

Kerri Elizabeth

Conversation and a scarred heart.

Sometimes we don’t realize the impact from our past on our future until it presents itself in a familiar place.

I realized that moment, there were matching scars.

Parts of our life got pushed aside, leaving lasting scars, making it difficult for anyone else to get very far.

When someone walks in your life and reminds you of the past, how do you respond, other than a quick,” hell no I’m not going back?”

Triggers move a bullet quick into space, often causing chaos from a past scarred place.

When the trigger is ready you can shoot anytime, if you let off the trigger and set the bullets aside, you give room to listen and then decide.

Are we walking with our finger on a trigger all the time and not knowing were ready to fire without hearing the heart in NOW time?

Letting go of the past is easy when you decide, the person in front of you is worth giving the space only you can provide.

No one needs to hear how someone else did you wrong, what is most important is how did you get here and are you ready to let go of the old times?

Can you open up the door to a new outlook?

What if you decided to let go of the pain and let love in and thankfulness took over the day?

What if you could just talk and express all the wonders of the day?

What if you could just feel your way into a new day and be heard and hugged and loved even when that meant you had to cry and feel frustrated along the way?

What if you could hear again without the background noise of the past and remember who’s in front of you is clearly not the last?

Sunshine

A lifetime is how you see it, no matter what you do, your perspective is your life, and how you view it is what you will do.

Profound is found

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Let the life of today be your now and let the past not hold you down and all your tomorrows to be profound.

Kerri Elizabeth

Joy in the day and the moment and the feelings stay.

Letting go of the, I can’t’s, I don’t’s and I won’t’s.

I am letting go so I can receive, give, love and live.

A spontaneous moment I’m driven to chance, I’m risking the beauty in the possibility of the dance.

You make a difference to me, your adventure moves me, and nature come into me.

The vibration of sound rages through me so profoundly it goes deep down and I feel it consume me.

Resistance isn’t strong enough to hold back the feeling and keep me trapped in what life I’m not revealing.

The mountain, the waterfall, the drive, the exchange of energy shows its place in time.

The forest shows its branches, the trees will grow back, the growth shows the scars from fires and nature’s impact.

The wind blows the leaves from one side to the other, the road twists and turns as they flow together.

A lifetime of winds and gusting storms, they have shown their place again and again, the rains and the heat of the weather seem to leave less space for one
another.

Does the forest stop growing and say no more when life rushes through and has raged with storms?

Holding on to your roots, coming back to the start, where were you planted and are you healed from that part?

Are you moved through life under the moon, do you enjoy the stars and can you listen and learn?

Can you hear the winds come through today or are you fixed on the past storms that came through another day?

Can you be present in today and let go of how it happened long ago?

Can you be in today, can you get back to the moment when you go away?

Be present in the now and be careful your moment is not about what happened before with someone or somehow.

Four Parts to My Heart!

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Four children, four spirits and four hearts, my three daughter’s and my son, our love is priceless and can never be undone.

Kerri Elizabeth

I love you the four parts of my heart.

Four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

They grew up so beautiful, all of them, with the most amazing hearts and minds and love in them..

I have lived with them all moved out now for a year, you’d think it would be easier and I’d shed less tears.

I love seeing them grow and want to explore, I love that they all love to experience more.

I love the smiles, the enchanted talks, the hours on the phone and the dates and the walks.

I love meeting them one by one and seeing and hearing tell me all about their life on the run.

I love the late talks and sometimes tears, the fears we have all grown out of through the years.

Over the hills and through the woods with stories that will never get old.

In all the funny ways we told each other, “I love you” through the years, they have filled me and moved me and taught me to breathe, to live, to laugh, to take time to be free.

I love you my children, your smiles, your hugs, your laughter, your tears, your years of love.

I love you my children for each moment I have shared with you, the nights of talks, the endless lectures you endured, running miles, working out, eating healthy most of the time and allowing sugar on weekends were sometimes fun.

I love you the four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

Even when I haven’t been the best mother, even when I lose my mind now and then, thank you for loving me all the time, for forgiving and living the love within and always knowing I’d be back to give hugs and kisses and start again.

I love you all every second of every day.

I love you all no matter how far apart we live.

I love you all so very much, no words can explain my love enough.

I love you each of you the most and I love all the years you knew it was you and still to this day it holds true.

I love you the four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

Sunshine

Seeing For You Is Blinding Me!

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Seeing for you leaves me blinded by me!

Kerri-Elizabeth

Seeing for you is blinding me.

When judgement sneaks in our sights are on more than being.

Are you spending time thinking what others think and missing your own life in every blink?

I learned a very good lesson recently taking what I thought was a risk and going butt naked and free on a beach with clothes optional I decided to just be.

The biggest evolution in my judgement for me came the moment I took every stitch off and set my body free.

As I looked around to see some with clothes and some without, I realized everyone was there for themselves to be left with no judgement for me or themselves.

I have spent all my life in fitness and health and allowed myself to manifest pressure inside myself.

When I couldn’t get my body to look like her I would work really hard to learn to just love and accept all of my curves.

When I learned to accept myself as I was , it was then I started to change and grow into a better self.

I was holding on to what I didn’t realize, it wasn’t at all judgement directed at me it was my own judgment on everyone else I was thinking for instead of me.

Why did I think everyone was looking at me and why did I think for hundreds of people just being free?

This all brought a question to my mind, are we all living in life thinking for more than ourselves?

To teach is to live and to show the way, to teach is not to tell someone else what to think or say.

To live what you say and take action every day shows experiences that will impact others along the way.

Living life and believing in your purpose is authentic and true and takes away the false sense of self-worth from others that don’t live inside of you.

Not everyone has to learn like me, going on a beach letting go of clothes to be free.

This was however what I chose to see; it opened my eyes to so much of my judgement  that I actually had no idea was truly blinding me.

Now when I think, “they or he or she or them” is usually the beginning of a judgement again.

We all learn every day and this one way impacted me in so many ways.

Sharing Sunshine on life where the sun has never shined!

Sunshine

Pace is Your Own Embrace

Growing at your own pace is the true growth to embrace, growing at someone else’s pace is not your growth place. 

Kerri Elizabeth

Growing at my pace.

Loving and learning is a beautiful place.

Watching and listening to the human race.

There are so many differences to appreciate.

The beauty in everyone is rarely seen by anyone.

The most beautiful part of perception is no one sees the same.

It invites ideas and conversation we can take and evaluate and let them all take shape in the evolution of our pace.

The universe has a pace and part of that beautiful place, are moments and people living their own truth and grace.

Telling the sun to hurry up to rise at your pace is not going to change the sun’s perfect pace.

The most beautiful thing I have learned along my journey in life is to be me and let go of the place where I thought you wanted me to be.

Now I know without a doubt it is only me I can be and to grow I must grow from being me, not who you want me to be.

When I let go of need and allowed who was me, I saw a shift in the world where I already fit without need or try, it just was and I didn’t have to ask why.

The outside O’clock of time became clear and each moment became a place to shed fear.

It’s not about time, or a place or a person; it’s about letting go of control there has to be a reason.

When I decided to be me, and let others do the same without pushing my way, I started to grow more passion in my day.

Being who you are is the only place to grow.

Being where someone else thinks is their growth so far.

SUNSHINE on the beauty of the safety embrace, loving YOU where you are and watching you grow at your pace has taught me that loving me where I am is my own true growth place.

Sunshine

You Really Can Move a Mountain

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You can move mountains when you decide and you can move them in the ocean or keep them inside, 

Kerri Elizabeth

A mountain calling me.

Everywhere I go right now there is a mountain calling me to climb.

I don’t wonder why the feeling is real, I recognize the moment is to reveal.

Reveal my heart; reveal my soul, to let my thoughts go.

To respect my life, the gracious place that I have been blessed to embrace.

When I am called to a mountain, there is a mountain ready to talk, to hold me up, to set me still, to open my heart and to feel.

So many times in life, there is a moment that calls you somewhere, do you listen to the call or are there too many reasons you could fall?

Is it too far away, is it too hard to say, do you need to think about it more, will it be later or at all?

Do you think the feeling away, do you wait until another day?

What keeps you from the present calling, do you have responsibilities and others to see, is the decision yours to open doors?

Does following “A moment” for you mean you have to take it past more than a few?

Can you trust yourself to make a decision without anyone else?

Can you let the feeling that it may not go your way, be the very feeling that takes it away?

I walked along the way feeling called to my day; I took moments to pray and had other conversations along my way.

When I looked up ahead there was a mountain in my way, it sat in front of the sunset I was watching this day.

I love to chase sunsets and see them anywhere I go, they call me to stop and then to let it all go.

I noticed as the mountain looked at first in my way, the sun was going down direction behind it as if to  to say, this one is for you, now means don’t delay.

The mountain isn’t in my way; the mountain is a feeling guiding my way.

It was like a movie playing in front of me, that mountain was the feeling and the sunshine was my soul, my heart was showing me, I’m safe to let go.

Oh yes I see, the mountain was inside of me, the calling was clear.

The mountain and the ocean together with the sun played a beautifully designed movie, an award winning one.

The movie is NOW, not a calling later or somehow.

NOW is what I have and NOW is my choice to live, NOW be the moment you have to give.

Sunshine

TODAY IS IN EVERYDAY

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Today is in every day, be super fantastic along your way!

Kerri Elizabeth

Today all day I am a smile from ear to ear.

Today all day I am letting go of fear.

Today all day I am thankful for every tear.

Today all day I am love in every response.

Today all day I am a receiver of love and confidence.

Today all day everything is forgiven.

Today all day I am sure of who I am.

Today all day I am a Nina and a Mother.

Today all day I am a best friend to another.

Today all day I am exactly what I say.

Today all day I am breathing in sunshine for the day.

Today all day I am intentional in every way.

Today all day I am a daughter and a sister.

Today all day I am a listener and an encourager.

Today all day I am God’s child and I am grateful.

Today all day I am aware.

Today all day I am a receiver of smiles and hugs.

Today all day I love you, everyone.

SUNSHINE

Feelings or a Word

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Words are our definition decided by each of us to put together a picture that changes with the sun, be open to the seasons of new feelings and words and know they are changing perception inside each and every one.

Kerri Elizabeth

I write these posts with my eyes closed so that I can feel my heartbeat, my mind quiet and my body’s choice of the way it will compose.

 I take a deep breath and allow whatever comes to the surface take shape in my sunshine escape.

Every feeling allowed, no resisting it, no wishing it away, just feeling it as it simply comes across the page.

For so many years, I held the feelings in, thinking I could change it, push it, protect it and never look at it.

Defining every change in my life now as the ever changing seasons, knowing it will change lead me to the appreciation of the reason.

Life is a journey, no matter what you do, its growing and changing and its part of me and you.

I realized when I resisted change I was pulled into a whirlpool exchange.

When I learned to let go I was pushed out of that type of flow.

Letting go of needing to know, letting go of wanting someone else to come or go.

Letting go of needing more and changing that to,”I am part of so much more”, lead me to a place I can give more.

Being open to receive was the next seemingly impossible thing, if I could just give everything for free, then I didn’t have a price tag that would justify me.

There is no price tag that can tell your worth that was the promise I learned from HIS birth.

I was hung up on the word money for so many years; thinking the more I had would solidify my worth.

When I was blessed with the truth of having none to my name, I realized with or without the word life was giving me exactly the perfect change.

Poor is simply a word as in love, money or worth, what has impacted me the most is that when we feel instead of define, it’s the feelings, not the words that truly are divine.

So this is one of my many lessons along my way, I hope it will help you too, you have all you need, money, love and worth,  all are the same energy YOU are the defining word.

Take away the words and you’ll feel the seasons change; there will be more of everything when you are the energy exchange.

SUNSHINE