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Stand Upside Down

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Hear the sound inside, turn it up or down, dance to it and let peace turn a frown upside down.

Kerri Elizabeth 

It’s amazing what a sound can do.

Turn up the volume on your life and turn it down now and then.

Rest in the softer sounds and dance to it again.

I realized there is a volume on life in my head.

Can you turn it down and drown out the sound?

Or turn it up when you want to sing out loud?

Can you turn it up and dance and turn a frown upside down?

There is a sound that will spark up your heart and soul.

There is a sound that will try to take control.

There is a sound that can make your heart beat faster.

There is also a sound that can wipe you off your feet.

A sound can bring a tear and wipe away a fear.

A sound can comfort you and sometimes it can consume you too.

Simply a sound can make a moment so profound.

A voice, a word, a song, a swear word, a whisper, a scream and laughter they all seem to spark a feeling that needs a volume to turn it up or down for meaning.

Do you have your finger on the volume in your head, reset it now and again.

Take time to release the sounds that don’t give you peace all around.

There is freedom in the volume, dance or cry to the sound.

Sometimes it takes both at the same time to turn a frown upside down.

SUNSHINE

I Am Revealing My Influence.

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Influenced by the lines and bodies, the art of life reveals to me it is the influence that creates the art we see.

Kerri Elizabeth

There is no way not to be influenced by life and people I see.

A book, a word, an athletic move, a conversation, a smile and good or bad food, allow that by without a feeling or having an influenced thought revealing.

Whether you like it or you don’t are not the answer, what I see is the energy allowed to change it, fix it, influence it or accept it.

No matter which way you choose, you are influenced by that moment and something changes, your mind, your emotion, your opinion, your move, your conversation, your feeling and sometimes a mood.

Some will stand up in a second and say that did not affect me, I’llI refuse it, I’ll think it away, that’s fine for you, that is your influence too and your position in life you choose.

Just those comments alone prove to me it did influence you in a way that you are changed to use the energy to explain and say, it did not affect me in any way.

That means to me we are influenced every day by the presence of what people do and say.

How we choose to interpret that is really the answer to that fact.

I kept thinking I could ignore that, what became more real to me is that I am that.

I am an influence when I talk, when I walk or when I smile, I am an influence in every way, to myself and to anyone I pass along the way.

If you draw a square on the paper and then remove the line the center of the square that was there is still there without the line.

WOW this concept shook my ground, is it possible that without my body I still exist, how far does this thought go and what is the influence I feel and show?

The only way I know is to plant my feet in the ground somewhere, to feel the reality of earth and my own beliefs at the core of me from birth.

With every line or circle or person you see, take away the line and body and what’s left is influence not seen.

 What is between the lines physically a man or machine can reveal, inside that influence is then something even a machine  or man can not reveal or conceal for you.

It is your drawing influenced by lines and words, by food, by people, by air by ground, by religion and sound.

Each moment is influenced by something we see, do, feel, taste, smell or tell.

You are an influence and so am I, without the body and the lines; I want to know what does your influence try to hide?

My body and my mind will not be defined as the cage I am holding all that is divine.

Influence is between the body and lines, the space that has no definitive line.

Influencing the Sunshine and love with no defining line I can send it out and know it is only my body and my lines that hold my feelings trapped inside.

It is the influence of the body and line that caused the shift for me to re-define how far I can love and how deep I can feel.

My lines I can change or erase, I am the artist of my influence and you are the grace of perception that teaches me how my art affects you infinitely.

Thank you for your body and lines, the art of the world is truly a canvas revealed to me.

A WARRIORS MOTHER WITH LOVE

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There is no choice other than love for me, I am a warrior’s mother chosen to be.

Kerri Elizabeth

Relapse into the greatest love of all.

Relapse is a word that explains, time to kick ass and take names.

A good cry and a few swear words will suffice and then action and believing is my own advice.

The news hit hard, the words took charge, my heart dropped a few beats and my chest became tight and landed at my feet.

My brain lost oxygen, nearing the feeling of passing out, the initial feeling has to make its way out.

Tears soaked my face; shaking took over me from the inside feeling the memory of the pain he had to endure the first time.

He doesn’t want to talk, he says he doesn’t want this in existence, he says he’s ok and I know he is, in his own explanation that’s the only way he chooses this moment to live in.

One moment at a time, he’s at work right now, writing songs and living what he loves to do.

His strength is beyond measure, his perseverance is his deepest treasure, he is full of love and compassion inside, and he has a tough exterior to some outside.

He saves his heart for only the best and those that make it inside are forever loved and protected by his warrior spirit all the time.

He takes one moment at a time and reminds me along the way, to stop and allow his journey to be his way.

He reminds me we all have a path we choose and when he gets the chance he reminds me where he learned that too.

So after a few hours have passed and tears have flooded my path and my heart has felt the impact, I now am reminded of this precious gift where both of us learned a new language gift.

Listen to me mom, with all your might, listen to me and hear me inside, look at me and see me and hear what I am telling you freely.

The only thing I would change about my childhood mom is that I would be heard without you saying a word.

I have the honor as his mother to listen to his heart and feel his music, to hear his words and hear his feelings.

I can dance to his music, laugh with his humor and cry with his pain and I can stand tall and remember I was given this position as his mother, trusted and chosen to be the strongest warrior’s mother.

So my shoulders are back, my posture is stellar, my mind is intact, my oxygen is level.

My spirit will carry me through the shift in the wind, and I will keep the gap that divides my fears and tears with pure love within.

He is a warrior child and he is my son, there is nothing inside that will tear that down, his strength and determination is more than profound.

So today will pass in an hour or so and tomorrow will bring me another day to continue to show him that I am listening without a word to whatever he feels he can put into words.

Every moment matters and I will continue to be, strength, perseverance, determination and purpose to be a warrior’s mother every day.

He  has a girlfriend beautiful and bright, she radiates love and light, her heart abounds with passion in life and she has made it inside to his warrior life.

He has three sisters as well and let me tell you this army of love has nothing but strength in it.

There are always choices except this one, love is the only option in this family, there is nothing bigger than our hearts working together as one.

With all the love that surrounds him and the strongest love within him, he is always an inspiration to me and to anyone honored to be around him, look for him and see, he is a musician and a writer of his own music and beat.

SUNSHINE on every MOMENT with LOVE as the only option and component.

The Gap That Divides Us

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I learned that the gap that connects words and feelings, people and places and religion and races is the gap of division I created myself by allowing the perception of anything other than love itself.

Kerri Elizabeth 

Things I have learned.

Saying the word water does not make me wet.

Saying I can swim doesn’t mean I can swim.

Saying I can run without running does not mean I can run.

Saying I am not upset until I am not upset does not fill in the gap for me between love and being upset.

No matter what you say to me, I must feel it and let it be, to move through it as I grow is my own gap only I get to go to.

I simply have to close in the gap, it is a quiet place where I can reach higher than me.

For me, it’s God, my safe quiet place where I am held in a deep embrace, where no judgment or words have a place, where silence is my grace.

I have learned that words have a place, feeling them is each individuals dividing place.

Where a higher source can be felt and embracing that is the place where the gap is embraced.

There is no empty space between you and me; to me it is a gap that is often seen as a safety place, a division, a boundary, a protection place, a choice we have in how our own interpretation is made.

I learned that the gap between two walls is often a place where I fall.

I learned that falling into the deep embrace of exactly what fills that space is the eternal love that I can feel and saying it doesn’t make it real, I have to go in it and feel.

I don’t know what that place is for you; I just know that gap between each person and word is a place all your own you can be heard.

Sunshine on your own journey, your way, your feelings, how you choose to live, that is the gap I found forgiveness within.

I learned that if I waited for someone else to change based on what I know they did, that left the gap for me to live in a waiting hall for someone else’s choice on how they want to live.

SUNSHINE in the gap of every dividing place, it is where I learned I exist.

Four Parts to My Heart!

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Four children, four spirits and four hearts, my three daughter’s and my son, our love is priceless and can never be undone.

Kerri Elizabeth

I love you the four parts of my heart.

Four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

They grew up so beautiful, all of them, with the most amazing hearts and minds and love in them..

I have lived with them all moved out now for a year, you’d think it would be easier and I’d shed less tears.

I love seeing them grow and want to explore, I love that they all love to experience more.

I love the smiles, the enchanted talks, the hours on the phone and the dates and the walks.

I love meeting them one by one and seeing and hearing tell me all about their life on the run.

I love the late talks and sometimes tears, the fears we have all grown out of through the years.

Over the hills and through the woods with stories that will never get old.

In all the funny ways we told each other, “I love you” through the years, they have filled me and moved me and taught me to breathe, to live, to laugh, to take time to be free.

I love you my children, your smiles, your hugs, your laughter, your tears, your years of love.

I love you my children for each moment I have shared with you, the nights of talks, the endless lectures you endured, running miles, working out, eating healthy most of the time and allowing sugar on weekends were sometimes fun.

I love you the four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

Even when I haven’t been the best mother, even when I lose my mind now and then, thank you for loving me all the time, for forgiving and living the love within and always knowing I’d be back to give hugs and kisses and start again.

I love you all every second of every day.

I love you all no matter how far apart we live.

I love you all so very much, no words can explain my love enough.

I love you each of you the most and I love all the years you knew it was you and still to this day it holds true.

I love you the four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

Sunshine

Seeing For You Is Blinding Me!

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Seeing for you leaves me blinded by me!

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Seeing for you is blinding me.

When judgement sneaks in our sights are on more than being.

Are you spending time thinking what others think and missing your own life in every blink?

I learned a very good lesson recently taking what I thought was a risk and going butt naked and free on a beach with clothes optional I decided to just be.

The biggest evolution in my judgement for me came the moment I took every stitch off and set my body free.

As I looked around to see some with clothes and some without, I realized everyone was there for themselves to be left with no judgement for me or themselves.

I have spent all my life in fitness and health and allowed myself to manifest pressure inside myself.

When I couldn’t get my body to look like her I would work really hard to learn to just love and accept all of my curves.

When I learned to accept myself as I was , it was then I started to change and grow into a better self.

I was holding on to what I didn’t realize, it wasn’t at all judgement directed at me it was my own judgment on everyone else I was thinking for instead of me.

Why did I think everyone was looking at me and why did I think for hundreds of people just being free?

This all brought a question to my mind, are we all living in life thinking for more than ourselves?

To teach is to live and to show the way, to teach is not to tell someone else what to think or say.

To live what you say and take action every day shows experiences that will impact others along the way.

Living life and believing in your purpose is authentic and true and takes away the false sense of self-worth from others that don’t live inside of you.

Not everyone has to learn like me, going on a beach letting go of clothes to be free.

This was however what I chose to see; it opened my eyes to so much of my judgement  that I actually had no idea was truly blinding me.

Now when I think, “they or he or she or them” is usually the beginning of a judgement again.

We all learn every day and this one way impacted me in so many ways.

Sharing Sunshine on life where the sun has never shined!

Sunshine

Compost For Your Growth

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Let yesterday’s weeds be today’s compost for the garden of your life to grow organically edible!

Kerri Elizabeth

Have you ever wondered what tomorrow will bring?

Have you ever thought about too many things?

Have you ever wanted to do something new?

Have you ever jumped in the ocean nude?

Have you ever just let every thought go, looking out to see nature’s show?

Have you ever experienced unconditional love?

Have you ever just woke up and took a trip with nothing in hand except the feeling and a look?

Have you ever just let go of the thought “I can’t” and did it before that thought took camp?

Have you ever raced someone to the top and when you thought you were even and had a shot they darted past with a smile at the top?

Have you ever been hurt so deeply by love that you felt as though breathing was an option and not part of our own true love?

Have you ever jumped into the sea and experienced a new side of being free?

Have you ever just given your last dime, and trusted it would be perfectly divine?

Have you ever trusted so much that love, disappointment, expectations and experiences all come and go and add strength to what we know?

Have you ever thought that right now is the moment love is embracing you, can you feel it and not ask how?

Ask and inspire creative ways, share it, live it, experience it along your way, give it, receive it, make a way, were all here together, nothing is in the way if the question is simply asking ,” how many more visions am I adding in today to the life legacy I am creatively building every day?”

Keep adding new visions along the way, write them, share them, and let them grow.

When weeds show up, pull them out, look at them, feel them and lay them down they make the most beautiful organic compost ever found.

Let the weeds of your life be compost for your growth, resisting them and continuing to wonder what to do, leave them more time to grow inside of you.

Sunshine

Pace is Your Own Embrace

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Growing at your own pace is the true growth to embrace, growing at someone else’s pace is not your growth place. 

Kerri Elizabeth

Growing at my pace.

Loving and learning is a beautiful place.

Watching and listening to the human race.

There are so many differences to appreciate.

The beauty in everyone is rarely seen by anyone.

The most beautiful part of perception is no one sees the same.

It invites ideas and conversation we can take and evaluate and let them all take shape in the evolution of our pace.

The universe has a pace and part of that beautiful place, are moments and people living their own truth and grace.

Telling the sun to hurry up to rise at your pace is not going to change the sun’s perfect pace.

The most beautiful thing I have learned along my journey in life is to be me and let go of the place where I thought you wanted me to be.

Now I know without a doubt it is only me I can be and to grow I must grow from being me, not who you want me to be.

When I let go of need and allowed who was me, I saw a shift in the world where I already fit without need or try, it just was and I didn’t have to ask why.

The outside O’clock of time became clear and each moment became a place to shed fear.

It’s not about time, or a place or a person; it’s about letting go of control there has to be a reason.

When I decided to be me, and let others do the same without pushing my way, I started to grow more passion in my day.

Being who you are is the only place to grow.

Being where someone else thinks is their growth so far.

SUNSHINE on the beauty of the safety embrace, loving YOU where you are and watching you grow at your pace has taught me that loving me where I am is my own true growth place.

Sunshine

You Really Can Move a Mountain

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You can move mountains when you decide and you can move them in the ocean or keep them inside, 

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A mountain calling me.

Everywhere I go right now there is a mountain calling me to climb.

I don’t wonder why the feeling is real, I recognize the moment is to reveal.

Reveal my heart; reveal my soul, to let my thoughts go.

To respect my life, the gracious place that I have been blessed to embrace.

When I am called to a mountain, there is a mountain ready to talk, to hold me up, to set me still, to open my heart and to feel.

So many times in life, there is a moment that calls you somewhere, do you listen to the call or are there too many reasons you could fall?

Is it too far away, is it too hard to say, do you need to think about it more, will it be later or at all?

Do you think the feeling away, do you wait until another day?

What keeps you from the present calling, do you have responsibilities and others to see, is the decision yours to open doors?

Does following “A moment” for you mean you have to take it past more than a few?

Can you trust yourself to make a decision without anyone else?

Can you let the feeling that it may not go your way, be the very feeling that takes it away?

I walked along the way feeling called to my day; I took moments to pray and had other conversations along my way.

When I looked up ahead there was a mountain in my way, it sat in front of the sunset I was watching this day.

I love to chase sunsets and see them anywhere I go, they call me to stop and then to let it all go.

I noticed as the mountain looked at first in my way, the sun was going down direction behind it as if to  to say, this one is for you, now means don’t delay.

The mountain isn’t in my way; the mountain is a feeling guiding my way.

It was like a movie playing in front of me, that mountain was the feeling and the sunshine was my soul, my heart was showing me, I’m safe to let go.

Oh yes I see, the mountain was inside of me, the calling was clear.

The mountain and the ocean together with the sun played a beautifully designed movie, an award winning one.

The movie is NOW, not a calling later or somehow.

NOW is what I have and NOW is my choice to live, NOW be the moment you have to give.

Sunshine

TODAY IS IN EVERYDAY

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Today is in every day, be super fantastic along your way!

Kerri Elizabeth

Today all day I am a smile from ear to ear.

Today all day I am letting go of fear.

Today all day I am thankful for every tear.

Today all day I am love in every response.

Today all day I am a receiver of love and confidence.

Today all day everything is forgiven.

Today all day I am sure of who I am.

Today all day I am a Nina and a Mother.

Today all day I am a best friend to another.

Today all day I am exactly what I say.

Today all day I am breathing in sunshine for the day.

Today all day I am intentional in every way.

Today all day I am a daughter and a sister.

Today all day I am a listener and an encourager.

Today all day I am God’s child and I am grateful.

Today all day I am aware.

Today all day I am a receiver of smiles and hugs.

Today all day I love you, everyone.

SUNSHINE