Feeling the Beat

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When you feel the beat and it continues to repeat, dance to the sound of your heartbeat.

Kerri Elizabeth

When your heart beats and your mind repeats.

When the presence of a feeling reveals an inner appealing.

When your soul blooms and your mind is in tune and your heart beats to the light of the moon.

When your body feels, what your heart reveals and your mind becomes unconcealed.

When your heart opens and you realize your new and choices are in front of you, let go and receive what’s been given to you.

When you’re asked a question and inside of you the sign says, “stop, I have never revealed that part to you”, take a look, listen in and be curious what will be given within.

Then when you get the chance to have someone look into you and see more than you do, listen in and begin the process of finding out how much love is in you.

When the stars align and they sparkle all the time and they shoot across the sky, be still for a moment while they reveal, the presence of this inner appeal.

There is only one thing that can’t be separated and that is the space inside me and you.

As the clutter is cleared and the heart is revealed that space that can’t be separated is where love is full filled.

Stay in this place and remind yourself that all of this is that inner appeal.

Meet me outside to breathe the mountain air.

 Meet me outside where we become more aware.

 Meet me outside to look at the stars.

 Meet me outside where the story comes alive.

See you in the SUNSHINE!

F@@@ Cancer!

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Take a moment to remember that no matter what comes your way, the greatest gift you can give yourself is to remember love leads the way!

Kerri Elizabeth

The call came and shattered my heart.

I thought I shut down the pain.

What has happened is that my body is becoming re-arranged.

Who is the person and what is happening?

As I learn to balance my heart, body and mind, remembering each moment is my purpose all the time.

When I got the call my child will be fighting for his life, a place inside of me wanted to run and hide.

The bigger part of me won’t miss a moment of this journey; I will fight right by his side.

There is nothing in this world that could change that light inside.

I realized all the sudden the place that’s hiding inside is starting to carry the stress and showing it on the outside.

When someone you love has a challenge, remember it is important that you keep yourself in balance.

Life can give us a detour from where we originally thought we were going, are you strong and ready for the opportunity to grow and be better for knowing ?

I’ve had intense tears, I’ve experienced better years.

What I know for sure I have learned is that loving me is the only way I can love someone else in return.

So as I fall to my knees and allow the tears and pain to release, I will remember that loving me is where I can give my children what they need.

Then in the middle of the storm I learn another lesson for me, that when love is in front of you accept it and receive.

After years of fighting to receive I am letting go and reminded life is not about me, it is about YOU+ME= WE.

Share the love, build the love and remember that to give love you must have love and to receive love, you must accept love.

Not loving you is a choice you make; not loving me is a mistake I won’t create, make or take.

We are stronger as a “we” when we are strong as “you and me”!

Sunshine

Be Aware of your Passages

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The passages of our life are truly defined, by the times we continue to push the capacity in that direction and our compass starts to lead us without conscious intention.

Kerri Elizabeth

Silent in a moment

 Be silent for a moment and able to listen inside.

What do you hear and what is drawing you near?

Be silent for a moment and listen to your heartbeat.

Gratitude moving through every breath is a reminder to let go of what keeps us from our best.

Breathe in this beautifully gifted moment being intentional in your thoughts.

 Be mindful in the filling of only love into your lungs, the only choice then is for love to be released to everyone.

Open the heart chambers to receive the flow that allows us to live with what creates us to grow.

Let the passage of this moment be conscious and true, in every moment we have the choice to create the passages of our mind that only lead to a ray of sunshine.

The passages and roads you go down the most will eventually create inside you the habits and thoughts that lead you.

Be mindful in where your life’s passages lead, where the capacity is stretched and if the air flowing is clean.

When you’re filled inside with animosity and stress, there is no room for exchanging or honoring anyone with your best.

Let go of what doesn’t serve your soul, breathe out the resentments, the angry inside, let go of shame and blame that took hold.

Give into this moment a reminder to you, that in every moment when conscious and true, your reaction will be what you want it to.

Your actions and reactions need air to move, pay close attention to how that exchange feels to you.

Sunshine is always on the horizon, it’s consistent and true.

When creating a passage inside of you, follow the path that leads to the best in you.

Revive the Beat of your Heart

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A heart embrace with nature’s pace revives a heart in that place. 

Kerri Elizabeth

Revived with a spark in the eyes.

A heart was revived from behind the eyes.

A healing of depth comes from a look so intense.

It shakes the ground, there is no frown.

The heart braces what memory erases.

A memory of the heart leaves an impact we often feel we can’t part.

Memory in the mind is often put back in the sub conscious line.

When will it surface and how will it take hold?

Will you be able to re-train that memory hold?

Often a thought is moved and massaged, changed and replaced and it’s done in that space.

Where did it go, did we really let go?

Often it takes another embrace so that you know you can lift that heart place.

We don’t know it can be done for sure until we lift it and endure.

Behind the eyes is a heart and soul, a depth you think only you truly know.

Behind the eyes comes a surprise.

Will the depth of what is inside, push through to the other side?

A heart is revived, massaged and declared to be alive from a look behind the eyes.

Can you give it and receive it, can you hear it and feel it, can you open it and look into it and can you trust when you’re with it?

Taking time to know where your heart takes hold.

Take the time to know if your heart is on overload.

Take the time to let go and take the time to create moments in life that open you up for challenging the inside.

Feel the depth to your toes, feel the sunshine on your face, feel the warm of the intense embrace.

Let the depth touch you behind the eyes, the heart becomes truly revived.

A jump in a lake, a fish on your plate, a hammock and a healing embrace goes behind the eyes to a depth inside not many know is there.

Sunshine on every present moment, look behind the eyes to the other side.

Stand Upside Down

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Hear the sound inside, turn it up or down, dance to it and let peace turn a frown upside down.

Kerri Elizabeth 

It’s amazing what a sound can do.

Turn up the volume on your life and turn it down now and then.

Rest in the softer sounds and dance to it again.

I realized there is a volume on life in my head.

Can you turn it down and drown out the sound?

Or turn it up when you want to sing out loud?

Can you turn it up and dance and turn a frown upside down?

There is a sound that will spark up your heart and soul.

There is a sound that will try to take control.

There is a sound that can make your heart beat faster.

There is also a sound that can wipe you off your feet.

A sound can bring a tear and wipe away a fear.

A sound can comfort you and sometimes it can consume you too.

Simply a sound can make a moment so profound.

A voice, a word, a song, a swear word, a whisper, a scream and laughter they all seem to spark a feeling that needs a volume to turn it up or down for meaning.

Do you have your finger on the volume in your head, reset it now and again.

Take time to release the sounds that don’t give you peace all around.

There is freedom in the volume, dance or cry to the sound.

Sometimes it takes both at the same time to turn a frown upside down.

SUNSHINE

A WARRIORS MOTHER WITH LOVE

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There is no choice other than love for me, I am a warrior’s mother chosen to be.

Kerri Elizabeth

Relapse into the greatest love of all.

Relapse is a word that explains, time to kick ass and take names.

A good cry and a few swear words will suffice and then action and believing is my own advice.

The news hit hard, the words took charge, my heart dropped a few beats and my chest became tight and landed at my feet.

My brain lost oxygen, nearing the feeling of passing out, the initial feeling has to make its way out.

Tears soaked my face; shaking took over me from the inside feeling the memory of the pain he had to endure the first time.

He doesn’t want to talk, he says he doesn’t want this in existence, he says he’s ok and I know he is, in his own explanation that’s the only way he chooses this moment to live in.

One moment at a time, he’s at work right now, writing songs and living what he loves to do.

His strength is beyond measure, his perseverance is his deepest treasure, he is full of love and compassion inside, and he has a tough exterior to some outside.

He saves his heart for only the best and those that make it inside are forever loved and protected by his warrior spirit all the time.

He takes one moment at a time and reminds me along the way, to stop and allow his journey to be his way.

He reminds me we all have a path we choose and when he gets the chance he reminds me where he learned that too.

So after a few hours have passed and tears have flooded my path and my heart has felt the impact, I now am reminded of this precious gift where both of us learned a new language gift.

Listen to me mom, with all your might, listen to me and hear me inside, look at me and see me and hear what I am telling you freely.

The only thing I would change about my childhood mom is that I would be heard without you saying a word.

I have the honor as his mother to listen to his heart and feel his music, to hear his words and hear his feelings.

I can dance to his music, laugh with his humor and cry with his pain and I can stand tall and remember I was given this position as his mother, trusted and chosen to be the strongest warrior’s mother.

So my shoulders are back, my posture is stellar, my mind is intact, my oxygen is level.

My spirit will carry me through the shift in the wind, and I will keep the gap that divides my fears and tears with pure love within.

He is a warrior child and he is my son, there is nothing inside that will tear that down, his strength and determination is more than profound.

So today will pass in an hour or so and tomorrow will bring me another day to continue to show him that I am listening without a word to whatever he feels he can put into words.

Every moment matters and I will continue to be, strength, perseverance, determination and purpose to be a warrior’s mother every day.

He  has a girlfriend beautiful and bright, she radiates love and light, her heart abounds with passion in life and she has made it inside to his warrior life.

He has three sisters as well and let me tell you this army of love has nothing but strength in it.

There are always choices except this one, love is the only option in this family, there is nothing bigger than our hearts working together as one.

With all the love that surrounds him and the strongest love within him, he is always an inspiration to me and to anyone honored to be around him, look for him and see, he is a musician and a writer of his own music and beat.

SUNSHINE on every MOMENT with LOVE as the only option and component.

A Shift In The Wind

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A shift in the wind gives us choices to make.

Kerri Elizabeth

When the wind blows harder the resistance and or excitement to go out in it takes its place.

I am now moved to decide, do I go or do I stay within?

When the wind blows I am allowed a decision to make.

When the wind blows I have a feeling that is no mistake.

When the wind blows I have choices I can take.

I can create a story out of what I see in its wake.

I can stand in it and feel the wind on my face.

I can resist it and fall into it and see if it will holds me up or I fall on my face.

I can trust it and believe its presence has a purpose and place.

I can believe it can be bottled up and sent off, I can sell it and make a profit on top.

Whether you believe it or buy it or share it or feel it, prove it, live it, love it, compare it, it is only inside you how personal it is and no one can decide for you that place you live in.

The evolution of my growing has been best served in knowing that when I remember who I am, I am moved to decide, do I go or do I stay within?

The flicker inside of me, the wind that blows by me, the waves that crash on me, the inspiration shining around me, the light coming from me, the words that fill me, the life that leads me, the knowledge building in me, move me inside to decide, do I go or do I stay within?

Staying within the moment is my processing place, like simmering dinner or marinating a steak, like making the best slowly thought out chocolate cake.

What I won’t decide is how you will interpret the wind, how you will assimilate it within.

What I do know is I feel the wind blow and then decide, do I go or do I stay within?

I’m grateful for the love within that holds me up when the wind blows by me, the waves crash on me and I am grateful for your sharing around me and the knowledge that grounds me.

I am grateful for the opportunities that life gives me to feel a familiar wind and be reminded I have a choice to go in it or stay within, to react or respond and or repeat it differently or the same again.

I am grateful for the wind that blows around me and the choices I am served that may change me, challenge me, teach me,  and ground me.

They lead me to the very place of deciding what I can do to serve love all around me.

Sun shining rays of light that have guided me on my path, enjoy the rays that may inspire you and continue to share with me how you decide to feel the wind around you?

The Gap That Divides Us

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I learned that the gap that connects words and feelings, people and places and religion and races is the gap of division I created myself by allowing the perception of anything other than love itself.

Kerri Elizabeth 

Things I have learned.

Saying the word water does not make me wet.

Saying I can swim doesn’t mean I can swim.

Saying I can run without running does not mean I can run.

Saying I am not upset until I am not upset does not fill in the gap for me between love and being upset.

No matter what you say to me, I must feel it and let it be, to move through it as I grow is my own gap only I get to go to.

I simply have to close in the gap, it is a quiet place where I can reach higher than me.

For me, it’s God, my safe quiet place where I am held in a deep embrace, where no judgment or words have a place, where silence is my grace.

I have learned that words have a place, feeling them is each individuals dividing place.

Where a higher source can be felt and embracing that is the place where the gap is embraced.

There is no empty space between you and me; to me it is a gap that is often seen as a safety place, a division, a boundary, a protection place, a choice we have in how our own interpretation is made.

I learned that the gap between two walls is often a place where I fall.

I learned that falling into the deep embrace of exactly what fills that space is the eternal love that I can feel and saying it doesn’t make it real, I have to go in it and feel.

I don’t know what that place is for you; I just know that gap between each person and word is a place all your own you can be heard.

Sunshine on your own journey, your way, your feelings, how you choose to live, that is the gap I found forgiveness within.

I learned that if I waited for someone else to change based on what I know they did, that left the gap for me to live in a waiting hall for someone else’s choice on how they want to live.

SUNSHINE in the gap of every dividing place, it is where I learned I exist.

Four Parts to My Heart!

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Four children, four spirits and four hearts, my three daughter’s and my son, our love is priceless and can never be undone.

Kerri Elizabeth

I love you the four parts of my heart.

Four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

They grew up so beautiful, all of them, with the most amazing hearts and minds and love in them..

I have lived with them all moved out now for a year, you’d think it would be easier and I’d shed less tears.

I love seeing them grow and want to explore, I love that they all love to experience more.

I love the smiles, the enchanted talks, the hours on the phone and the dates and the walks.

I love meeting them one by one and seeing and hearing tell me all about their life on the run.

I love the late talks and sometimes tears, the fears we have all grown out of through the years.

Over the hills and through the woods with stories that will never get old.

In all the funny ways we told each other, “I love you” through the years, they have filled me and moved me and taught me to breathe, to live, to laugh, to take time to be free.

I love you my children, your smiles, your hugs, your laughter, your tears, your years of love.

I love you my children for each moment I have shared with you, the nights of talks, the endless lectures you endured, running miles, working out, eating healthy most of the time and allowing sugar on weekends were sometimes fun.

I love you the four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

Even when I haven’t been the best mother, even when I lose my mind now and then, thank you for loving me all the time, for forgiving and living the love within and always knowing I’d be back to give hugs and kisses and start again.

I love you all every second of every day.

I love you all no matter how far apart we live.

I love you all so very much, no words can explain my love enough.

I love you each of you the most and I love all the years you knew it was you and still to this day it holds true.

I love you the four parts to my heart, my three daughters and my son.

Sunshine

Seeing For You Is Blinding Me!

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Seeing for you leaves me blinded by me!

Kerri-Elizabeth

Seeing for you is blinding me.

When judgement sneaks in our sights are on more than being.

Are you spending time thinking what others think and missing your own life in every blink?

I learned a very good lesson recently taking what I thought was a risk and going butt naked and free on a beach with clothes optional I decided to just be.

The biggest evolution in my judgement for me came the moment I took every stitch off and set my body free.

As I looked around to see some with clothes and some without, I realized everyone was there for themselves to be left with no judgement for me or themselves.

I have spent all my life in fitness and health and allowed myself to manifest pressure inside myself.

When I couldn’t get my body to look like her I would work really hard to learn to just love and accept all of my curves.

When I learned to accept myself as I was , it was then I started to change and grow into a better self.

I was holding on to what I didn’t realize, it wasn’t at all judgement directed at me it was my own judgment on everyone else I was thinking for instead of me.

Why did I think everyone was looking at me and why did I think for hundreds of people just being free?

This all brought a question to my mind, are we all living in life thinking for more than ourselves?

To teach is to live and to show the way, to teach is not to tell someone else what to think or say.

To live what you say and take action every day shows experiences that will impact others along the way.

Living life and believing in your purpose is authentic and true and takes away the false sense of self-worth from others that don’t live inside of you.

Not everyone has to learn like me, going on a beach letting go of clothes to be free.

This was however what I chose to see; it opened my eyes to so much of my judgement  that I actually had no idea was truly blinding me.

Now when I think, “they or he or she or them” is usually the beginning of a judgement again.

We all learn every day and this one way impacted me in so many ways.

Sharing Sunshine on life where the sun has never shined!

Sunshine